How you holding up, Veeky Forums?

Kind of hollow and just existing

I stopped going to the gym for almost two years. Started going back recently and I feel and look disgusting and hate myself for being so gross and weak.

I have two job interviews this Friday, and they'll be the first that I've ever gone into without being a fat ass. If nothing else I am interested in seeing if it makes a difference.

Good luck man.

What kind of jobs are you going for?

Good luck man, if anything you might come off hard working and less lazy.

>I just want this
>you spend way too much time on that site

not good
>gf leaving me soon
>i downloaded tinder
>nothing good on there
>found an ex from 5 years ago and superliked her
>hoping we match just for shits and giggles
>still madly in love with gf but wont matter in a few days
>dont know how to feel

Good fats bruh

Im trying to get to the gym before I get snowed in, but I am stuck on the toilet taking a pre workout induced shit.

shitty.

i've finally had my gyno removed on Wednesday, 18 january, but recovery is wearing down on me. i just want to lift and feel good about my body.

so right now my nips are little swollen and clotted with blood, which should be reabsorbed with time.

yet to make matters worse my stitches opened up on my right side so my clotted wound made a huge mess of blood on saturday, i treated myself and hustled to the ER asap.
lol. i was pretty amazed that i got there safely, i didn't pannic or anything. just a little bit dizzy because i was losing blood so fast.

My bleeding stopped by the time the Docs even had his piece of mind on the situation
all they gave me was some antibiotic and bandages and gtfo.

so now it happened again today but this time it was clear fluid. and now i got some more shit to bandage myself to seal that open wound.

so fortunately i'm not infected right there or getting any wild fevers or chills like they warned me about.

well like i said..shit can't heal fast enough, i just want to lift again and attain whatever strength i still had. i feel soft and just anxious about it, it just really sucks. but hey, i dont have bitch tits anymore so i'm still glad about that

I know that. But it's made up close to 40% of my calories this past week. I'm just wondering if it's too much

a lot better now, thanks for asking user

I rejected over 100 girls in 2016. I'm on my way to break that record this year.

0 self-confidence and assurance
planning on starting back into getting fit again. bought some protein powder and all that, was really sick and depressed so I lost a lot of wieght and haven't been eating right.

Am a manlet and dicklet and would love to grow but that's a hail mary at this point cause of my age. 22 and a virgin. But I'mma give it a go, before I fall apart.

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>Pic very related
Everything's going pretty shit desu. But being numb really helps deal with it.

kind of lonely but to lazy to do anything about it
>friends don't have friends to bring when we hang out
>school, gym, work, rinse & repeat

I-I didn't think I was going to cry tonight.

This will never be me

Social + underground scene shit made me prioritize because now I have social engineers extracting my info and weird phone calls at 3 a.m. and familiar cars driving by my block at night lol.

>that link
i hate the emotion it makes me feel and yet i want more of it

Overall doing alright. Cut is going decently. Downside is Im fairly certain that very few of my friends here (university halfway across the country from where I grew up) don't particularly give a shit about me. Also still shit at talking to girls. Been just over a year since last GF, who I hooked up with over winter break. So its going. Its not going particularly well, but its going.

that did it for me! bye!

My cousin died and my diet and gym routine has been off the past couple days.

Anyone have the vocaroo someone made when that femdom Milana meme was relevant. It had like inspirational workout music and someone who sounded like Milana commanding you to do one more rep.

hell week at uni, just tryna hang in there rn

I fucking wish I got job interviews

sorry to hear that

>I love you so much.

Fuck, why did this part get me?
I thought I was doing pretty good until now.

Sorry man, sending good feels/vibes your way.

Fuck you

We talk a lot
We see each other a lot
It's an unsaid agreement we both like each other and that there's tension
Yet we're not together, she just recently broke up with her boyfriend, she wasn't really too sad about it or anything
How much longer do I have to wait?

>crush for 18 months
I'm having trouble with a couple weeks, how the fuck do you handle a year and a half

Is being stoic better than being a depressed cunt?
Like I feel like being stoic pushes people away from you a lot more than being a depressed cunt.

I think Im making it. Starting a cut in preparation for a lifeguarding job this summer, have internship interviews out the ass in a month, and lifts arent dropping from 405/315/245. Downside is no gf or even interest as far as I can tell. Fuck it Im ok with being alone

Talk to families who fought in war. It's better to live in reality. Depressed is NOT the answer. Be prepared

Finally got a GF from my workplace
> 2 wonderful months
> found out she was cheating
> comfront her
Literally : yeah sorry
> started cheating me with a fucking nurse
I am already a Doctor
> felt so fucking huniliated
> this was 2 days ago

Damn this bitch is needy. "You should be spending that time on me!" bro if I said this to any woman she'd be like "what's your problem? Why do you have to be so clingy?"

Trust me, women like that get annoying fast.

>Going to the gym again? You could be spending all that time at the gym on me! Silly!

Had something very similar happen, and oooohhhhh boy that relationship did not last long.

2016 was by far the worst year of my life but 2017 is looking to be OK so far

>spring hell week

Is that even a thing?

Thinking about friends I once had and good times that are gone.

Iktf senpai.

Its been like 5 years since I finished high school and since then I've lost contact with so many people. All my friends are getting married, having kids, starting new careers and moving away.

They starting their new life w/o me in the picture.

I'm happy about the election, but 2017 is hitting me hard
>long term relationship failed
>dog died
>dad diagnosed with lymphoma
>lost job
>depression
>back injury

It just piles on this year.

are you his only son, his only hope to carry on his name?

Yeah, I'm an only child.

make your own picture, then choose who you want in it :)

>Warning long wall of text coming

>What career did you pick and why /b?
I'm a systems engineer and love this job and I'm actually very good at it
>Do you regret your decision?
Nope, but I do regret some decisions I have made at my current employer and I a looking at leaving this company
>Why?
I made the mistake a lot of mistakes in this field and I feel like shit these days and can't move on in life, I still remember the good days and just can't seem to move on. Basically at one point I was looked at as one of the best engineers at the company. I was also one of the guys who always worked on everything and always had an answer about something, Any question you might have in my dept, or outside of the dept I would be the go to guy. Unfortunately, after a long time of proving myself to my clients and upper management I started to relax and I began to teach and offload some of my work to other engineers, because they really didn't have much to work on as I had a hand in every cookie jar at the time. Wait ended up happening is some engineers would learn a lot from me, and they ended up taking lead roles on certain projects and assighments, and I wasn't even told about what was going on, since I made it an effort to show upper management I wanted to offload work to other engineers sometime late 2016, at this point I am no longer looked at as the lead guy, and I have a very negative attitude on occasion, I believe other people want me to just leave at this point but they won't say it, they just "learn" from me and ended up moving up in this company. I made a serious mistake of relaxing, and not continuing to work over 10 hours a day, and not be paid overtime. The company won't pay me overtime, as they know the work load can increase and they don't want to pay for someone working extra hard... I still feel bad about this, and I can't believe I let them take things right under me, while I was focused on other things

>>Feel like killing myself with alchol, but I will probably just get another job and move on soon

Live.

You'll never see the divorces or baby mama drama and headaches. Focus on being comfortable in who you are. Nothing worse than seeing a grown man move from a million dollar apartment in Tribeca to a studio in Mexican land because his wife decided to slut it up and take him to the cleaners. Seeing that hurt my soul more than you know.

Be comfortable with you

Pretty shitty but I'm trying.

On the bad side, I just found out my rent check bounced, so I might be fucked. I have warrants out for unpaid tickets. My bills are all piling up. It's almost impossible for me to be social without a drink. I'm losing touch with friends. I have a big bachelor party coming up, and I have no clue how I'm going to pay for it. I haven't worked in a couple months. Every job I've had just gives me crippling anxiety, and the process for applying for anything is just so depressing and killing me. I feel so weak, even more so because everyone around thinks I'm golden and happy, and I know how capable I am.

On the good side, I have an incredible nympho girlfriend who is so terribly in love with me. She cooks, she cleans, and leaves me sweet little notes.I really don't deserve her, and pretty much the only reason I'm even trying to find a job is so I can be a better boyfriend. She has no idea how fucked I am. I've been doing some construction gigs here and there for cash, which is keeping me in decent shape, and I feel like I'm actually doing something and learning. And I finally applied for unemployment, which would be a huge help if I'm approved.

>dreaming of ex
>recently started saying terrible things to myself at the end of the day

This is not gonna go good places and I need it to stop.

Things ain't exactly perfect but fuck it.

>I have an incredible nympho girlfriend

How is that really like? I feel like sex would get kinda boring if I was doing it every single day desu. But hey at least you're getting laid, so good job m8.

I really hope everything works out for you man.

>I'm happy about the election, but 2017 is hitting me hard
I don't give a shit about the election, I'm not a burger, and I can't even fathom why you would think would be relevant anyway.
My 2016 was like your 2017 basically except spread out.
Stay strong

We always find ways to keep it fun. Her big thing is blowing me, so quickie head in random spots is always fun.

Can you please tell me where to go to meet a nympho gf?

>be me
>been one month since I got a car
>someone crashed into my car when I was watching a movie
>luckily I'm making bank from the insurance claim, but if I pocket the money my bumper looks like shit forever.
>125,000 miles on the car
Wut do?

No idea bud, I got way too lucky with mine. Like I said, I don't deserve her

I'm not gonna make it bros. eating under daily cals, monitoring everything and weighing all food using programs to track everything, working out with 5x5 gained another pound last week and now back to 340 after losing 15 reeee fuckin go down now up weight I want to be in the 200s already

I'm okay
GF of over 5 years broke up with me last month and I'm slowly getting to my feet.
Chronic masturbation and excessive gym time have helped.
Mostly I miss my friend I think, we had a lot of fun

She swallow?

Have a thing going on with qt nerdy grill, but keep getting nudes from a fit chick that I really want to bang. Life is a cruel mistress.

Amen to that, I came out the other day and had been sideswiped(took my mirror off) I looked for a note and found a ticket for "Unsafe/inoperable motor vehicle)

Like....what the fuck.

you're young, fuck them both

Lol, she loves swallowing. She actually asked me in the shower to come on her face for the first time the other day. She said she liked it, but she would rather taste me. That's the kind of freak she is.

Sorry user, Just learn.
Never get your honey where you make your money.

You're doing fine, man. Even the best of us get rejected sometimes. Keep working hard and you will make it.

Jesus christ man, that's the best. Good for you

I have scruffs, bumps, and cracks all over my 2008 civic and not a single girl has ever commented on it. And that's a 45k mile car, I would never even in my wildest dreams spend money on cosmetic upgrades for a 125k car.

I don't know if it's legal to drive a car with a torn in half bumper though, so depends maybe on how shit it looks

Girlfriend of years broke up with me about 3 weeks ago. I'm still in love with her and try and talk to her. But she fucks with me by talking to me for a few days, then completely cuts me off for another few days.

I've been hung on the same girl for the past 5 years. Before that it was different girl and that lasted 6.
I just kind of accept that I'll think about them many times throughout the day.
I lift work and study to forget

Going through the same shit man, except it's 4 years, and she broke up with me about 3 weeks ago. Hang in there

>Going to the gym again? You could be spending all that time at the gym on me! Silly!
>Had something very similar happen, and oooohhhhh boy that relationship did not last long.

I had a gf tell me something like this once. She was naturally thin but had a great ass for no reason, so I guess she never saw any reason to exercise herself.

I told her I'd skip the gym if and only if we fucked aggressively for the next half hour. She'd usually agree, then I'd drink a bottle of water and head to the gym while she napped or showered or just laid around in postcoital haze. Women are lazy, man.

Typically if one of them drops something on you like that they just want to know you still want them. Demonstrate, then go about your business.

I convince myself that I shouldn't have love and work to fulfill what I perceived to be my only purpose in life

Today I got a prescription for fin. I'm 23. Feeling good about overcoming the shame of talking to the receptionist, the nurse and finally the doctor about it. Wish me luck.

I could repair it with duct tape really. It's not terrible damage, but the whole bumper would need to be replaced, so I'm get a check upwards of $1,000. It might actually turn out to be a good thing, but who knows

>25
>have long term gf (over 8 years)
>have degree
>have awesome friends circle
>have the physique i want (liftan clean for over 2 years)
>mentally stable and meditate daily
>supportive family

Yet broke and jobless still living with my parents browsing Veeky Forums most of the day.

Can't help but feel complacent and trapped like I'm wasting some of the best years of my life :/

Ah Christ man, you're talking like a fat person but about life instead of fitness.

Finding a new job is EXACTLY like going to the gym for the first time in years. It sucks, it hurts, you look around at everyone happy and healthy and slinging weights around like they're nothing and it humiliates you.

But just like that first trip back to the gym, you ought to know that if you don't gut through that initial pain things are never going to get better. Nobody, not even the most lighthearted extroverts, actually relishes the thought of having to find new unemployment. It's terribly unpleasant, having to essentially bid yourself off to a bunch of people who couldn't give a goddamned about you or your well-being.

But you have to do it. You have to do it or you'll die. Right now it sounds like your life, as a whole, is about in the same condition as the body of a 450 lb hamplanet who can't get around with a scooter. You've reached that point.

Now you have to decide whether you're up to putting the herculean effort it will require into turning your life around, or if you're ready to give up and go die quietly.

Dying is easier.

But living is a lot more fun.

No one cares what you want, especially your own body. Earn it or go back to being fat. The only response to "I'm not losing weight quickly enough" should be "I need to work harder."

Dude, you're a doctor and you're not dead.

5.5 years for me
Right there with you

I'm sorry about your doggo user. Get sleep and hit the weights

What are the odds of a random girl you meet being like this? 1/5? 1/10?

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What degree do you have

>Please don't be worthless

Also rate ur gf on a scale from 1-10

I would rather browse fit desu

Go to next company earn more money learn from the guy who's got his hands in every cookie jar and repeat the cycle

I have no idea dude...quit being autistic man, this isn't some dating sim. It's not like a chick would give away any kind of obvious sign she's into weird stuff.

My girl is super sweet and shy, but as soon as we get alone she turns into an animal.

No, I tried this trust me.
"I'm either pumping iron or pumping you, but I'm doing one of them."
"Please don't go to the gym, I don't want to have sex right now but please just stay here with me."
"Look, I'm either going to the gym, or we're having sex. There's no way I'm not doing one of these things in the next 10 minutes."
"OMG why does it always have to be an ultimatum with you why can't you just live day to day and you only want me to sex bla bla bla bla bla"

By then I'd usually be heading for the door to hit the weight. She was an alcoholic and cared literally nothing about her own health, so she couldn't relate. One of those times she went out and cheated while I was at the gym. I left her and kicked her out, she hit rock bottom, last I checked she was sobering up but still hanging around the wrong kinds of people. She'll never fully recover, I don't think.

Same guy as and on the bright side, I did just graduate college.

soon? throw her out now on your own terms, you'll feel a lot better about it