Tell me your story

2014
>no job
>living with mommy and daddy
>eating chickie wickies
>in debt
>422 lbs.

2017
>supervisor job
>living with mommy and daddy
>eating canned chickie wickies
>no debt; 100oz of silver, 1oz gold, 10k in cash, 10k in 401k and Roth IRA
>275 lbs.

Remove Kebabia

Keep it up, brother. Perseverance is key.

You can do it, friend. Just keep at it.
Those who kneel humbly before the iron are blessed most generously.

Keep at it, brother. Glad to hear you're doing better. As I'm sure you know, there's loads on information on this board -- keep coming back and stay positive, friend.

You're still very young. The fact that you lift just to be productive is a good mindset to have. You have your whole life ahead of you, as cliche as that sounds. Don't be afraid to put yourself out there and make new friends. It helps a lot to judge people less.

Alright, blog post time
> 27yo, never done sports or set foot in a gym, fat (~100kg x 190cm)
>high stress job, sleeping not enough
>fell aslepp while driving, broken hip, several ribs, liver, spleen, concussion
>doctors tell me it's a miracle I'm alive
>two months in bed, when I get up I feel the need to give my body something back for not letting me down despite me not caring for it
> 1 year later I get cleared for physical activity
>started running, did my first 10k in under 1h
>joined a gym, started training
>pic is 2.5 years progress, not going to stop even if progress is slow

>Perseverance is key.
This is probably the best advice you can get. Keep at it brehs

hello op. 6.1, 185, 21yo. left my eastern european country in hope of better studies in the UK. i started lifting out of passion, and now it has become and obsession. sometimes i wish i never started to go to the gym and care about my body, so i can eat like a pig. im on a cut now, at started at 215 but now progress is getting slower, but still going. i surely lost strength and muscle size, but i have having belly fat, i wanna get rid of it completely before i clean bulk. times are hard. i am a student, i hope i get a ok job over the summer. things back home are hard, my mother put on a lot of weight, im always having fights with the girlfriend, but still fighting for a better future, for both of us. when she finishes HS, she will go to the same uni as me, so i will have someone to besides me. i can tell more, if someone is interested in reading.

Looking good. Love the beard too.

>be skinny fat
>Veeky Forums friend brings me to the gym one time and shows me a few exercises
>fuck around with it for like a month then quit
>few years go buy and decide to get into it again
>start reading about nutrition and all that nerd shit
>make decent gains in a few months, lose all my baby fat
>end up fucking up my knee in an accident and stop going
>lose interest and dont lift for a few more years
>start dating some Veeky Forums chick whos always at the gym. Her family is into fitness
>her brother makes up a workout plan for me
>start working out again
>she breaks up with me
>depression causes me to really get into it
>gain like 20 pounds and no longer hungry skeleton mode
>stop for a while because of work+school.
>recently going back at it again

please someone suggest me a good workout plan. I need a new one.

You've just inspired me, can't believe I've been getting worried about my abnominal scars herniating

>2016
>mom got cancer
>hole year fighting it
>treatment went good
>cancer gone
>in the same year I was supposed to finish the uni
>exams none stop
>never been that stressed
>didnt do well cuz I was worried non stop of my mom health
>failed to the last exam
>cant get a job cuz I dedicated my life to work like a slave in law firms
>Dont want me to pay, cuz internship is no pay
>Dont want me to get me even as secretary or some shit
>"user you can work when you get the paper, but you can stay here for the internship "
>2 years of my life felt like a waste
>busting my ass to prove myself to this cunts, to only get some laughable money gift for Christmas.
>get angry and depressed
>get wasted almost every night from October to December
>I get scared that I am becoming the one old guy in the bar that is always drunk
>that one whit the terrible life
>2017
>I told myself I had to do something to prove myself that I can do something
>I start lifting (didnt lift for years)
>I want to take that exam this year
>I stopped getting wasted every night
>I stopped eating like shit
>I want to build a body
>not for girls or even not for health reasons, just to prove myself, that I can reach goals.
>also I feel the gym like my safezone, workouts are like meditations.

Proud of you, bro

>22
>Hate self
>Lift to feel happy and alive
>Back to the job and apartment and feeling worthless, waiting to go again tomorrow

I work a low-income job but I don't mind it, live in a small studio apartment. Pic very much related, at this point I only exist to work out.

Too much fluff in the green, convey your sorry in concise details.
I.E. the first 9 lines can be written as
>Mom battling cancer all 2016, thankfully survives
>Stressing over Mom's health, fail finals
To give the same information without hitting user with a word wall

That being said, I hope you make it

what did your parents think then and now?

>Be me
>Fat since Nintendo 64 when I was 10
>play football from elementary school up to sophomore year
>quit because edgy "muh depression" fat teenager
>Do drugs from junior year of higher school until Sophomore year of college
>fail out of college
>course correction time
>quit drugs besides marijuana and get a job with help from SSRIs
>buy gym membership with buddy but end up going alone majority of the time
>saving for a house so I don't end up a faggot 23 year old living with parents
>for classes to get back into school and get ME degree because I like learning how things work
> lost 22 lbs now, 70lbs to go. only 1500 in the bank.

Progress is slow and I feel like I'm not doing enough.

If you're a Yolo faggot and you don't have parents who own a company for you to take over then stop acting like such a worthless faggot and get your shit together before you set yourself back years.

I used to be a skeleton and got picked on by fat kids when I was little. Also people don't mess with you as much if you're Veeky Forums.

Anyone else here lifting exclusively to prepare for the race war? I don't give a shit about confidence or grills or anything. I just want to become more powerful and fulfill my genetic duty.

I dropped about 20lbs so far (fat presumably) and all my lifts have been steadily increasing. Body weight settled for a while, but is now increasing at a nice rate. Big chest, bretty big arms, abs and v-taper beginning to appear. Feelsgoodman. Can't wait to smash some proto-human skulls.

Thanks man, just gotta keep on keepin' on

I come here because I hate what I am. My girlfriend of four years left me. Part of it is because I am a lazy slob. I am out of shape and in poor shape financially. All I have felt for the past month is a dull, unwavering rage. It has allowed me to finally stay on the path and eat well and workout. In the past, I suppose I would cave and stop when I was given love by her. Now that she's left I just don't have anything holding me back anymore except for myself. I am making progress towards a higher-paying position while doing everything I can to sculpt myself into the greatest man I can, thus far I have lost ten pounds and have forty more to go.

I am doing this because I am tired of being a failure. I am going to live life by my own standards now, waiting on my laurels for destiny to hand me happiness and success was nothing but a waste.

>came to UK to study
>that English
Good luck buddy

>21yo
>gf still in high school
Disgusting, this is why i voted brexit

Edgy as fuck.
I'm racist but you're an insecure faggot.
There isn't going to be a fucking race war if anything there will be a civil war with kryptokikes hiding on both sides.

In any case a war isn't going to be decided by who can bench press more it's going to be decided by cardio marksmanship and who has more people to throw at the otherside.

gf is 19. finishes in 3 months. whats the problem?
HS in england =/= HS in eastern europe.

>dad calls me out of no where
>is crying says he is about to go into heart surgery
>"just wanted to tell you I love you"
>hangs up
>panic call my mom
>getting stents put into his heart
>had a heart attack a couple months ago and was supposed to quit smoking
>he didn't
>he ends up being fine, for now
>walk home from work and start thinking about what I'd write for his eulogy
>think about how he tried pushing me into sports in high school
>think about how he tried getting me into paintball when I was 12
>realize he was doing it to try and get me healthier without being an asshole about it
>just sat around playing video games instead
>cry for the rest of the walk home

I'm gonna make you proud dad.
I promise I'm gonna make it.

>have been doing bodyweight exercises ever since I was a kid like 8 yo
>discovered it made me feel good als I admired military for being fit and cool, made me want to train like them
>fast forward to 18yo, move out to my room, start medicine in uni, access to uni gym to lift
>in a relationship with a girl who probably has borderline, worst time of my life
>she broke up with me and among a lot of other circumstances start being depressed
>after 3-4 months of that snap and somehow disable my ability to feel sad, took another 6 months before I started to feel normal again
>keep lifting, keep getting good grades
>party a lot, take a lot of drugs
>keep lifting and keep getting good grades
>go through period of around 6 months where I probably could classify as addicted, have been using drugs for way longer tho.
>fast forward to 20 years old met new gf, Chinese girl
>she has to go back to China, do LDR for 3,5 years during which time we saw each other about 5 times.
>realise I'm not happy being with her, break up 1 month ago a few days before our 4 year anniversary.
>keep lifting, keep getting good grades

>currently in my final year of medicine, want to specialise in urology after, probably do my PhD first, possibly already get a chance to start it this year. Meanwhile still have a part time job and earn enough to pay for my tuition fee and living expenses. Have felt happy, sad, nervous ever since the breakup, my sleep has worsened, but I know it was the right decision. Still it suddenly feels so empty. My lifting has been pretty much plateau'd for the past 2 years with now and then a new PR but keep getting stuff interfering with steady progression: work, busy study periods, injuries (now have a tendinitis in my shoulder again), sometimes still do drugs or drink (now in normal amounts), or getting sick or going on a holiday.
Either way I keep on the path I'm on, currently can't deal with the distraction a gf would be, (not that I feel ready for it yet)

where this from boi

>thinks normies post here

We're all insecure faggots for one reason or another. Gaining strength so you are more capable in a confrontation seems like a valid reason to lift to me.

>Get on scales early 2016. Tip em at 140kg
>Decide that's it, line in the sand time
>Be 6ft, 38yo father of 4, married 9 years
>Have played cricket my whole life (Since under 12's in 1988). Fitness always an issue
>Work interesting but shitty pay job (disability worker)
>Buy recumbent exercise bike
>Begin journey April 2016
>Do between 50-70kms every week
>4 months straight of this
>Start watching what I eat (cut down sugar)
>Weight starts to drop off steadily
>September 2016 begin weights
>Bench, lat pulldowns, dumbells, curl bar
>Still doing exercise bike, 70km / week
>Buy mountain bike
>Start riding 3 times a week (between 5-10kms each trip)
>Still doing weights and exercise bike
>Start of 2017 Weight down to 117kg
>Some noticeable gains
>Especially the calves (tones asf)
>But half decent road bike
>Start going for longer rides

>Today
>Weigh in at 110kg
>About to play first game of football since 1995 in a week
>Still doing exercise bike, weights routine and bike riding in local area (slightly more weight lifted, noticeable gains in biceps and manboobs disappearing, wife enjoys the buffer me more)
>Work colleagues notice changes
>Slowly but surely getting there.
>Reasons for doing this?
>Don't want to die early
>Want to play sport for as long as I can
>Ideal weight between 80-90kg
>Keep pedaling and working every week
>Feel like I cheated myself if I dont do anything

My mistake, I thought you were some dirty pole stealing our bottom of the barrel women

its okay man, i would think the same of someone if they had a gf of

nvm found it it's Sun-ken Rock

Been lurkin for years but never posted so no greentext.
When i was 18 years old had a very beautiful female friend. Of course after few months of knowing her started to crush big time on her. I was just a stupid school boy at the time, so i got friendzoned.
She was perfect so it hit me much harder than it should and after spending 3 days staring at the wall, to depressed to do anything, i decided i might as well do something. Signed up in airborne infantry (not US), started hitting the gym, bought an expensive car in order to be prepared next time i meet a girl like her.
A few years passed since i got rejected but i never met a girl like her again. I accomplished a lot due to the anger towards myself, but still im dreaming of her and my life is dominated by hate and sadness

For as long as I can remember, I always wanted to be big and strong. And to be a feared opponent.

I have always loved action movies, pro wrestling, and ancient legends of warrior races. Anything where being a formidable man is celebrated. With luck I grew to be naturally big.

But I got too big. And I was under-informed as to why. Here are some crazy things I actually believed:

>some people just stay fat
>other people will always be fit no matter what they do
>the ways of losing weight are ultimately unknowable
>some people are just better at sports, others won't have a chance of being on their level

When I look back at how ignorant I was, I feel very embarrassed. I remember reading the sticky a few years ago and it really opened my eyes. After that I got interested in reading fitness articles more and more. My weight loss journey started.

Nowadays I do a ton of boxing, kung fu, and I've got my foot-in-the-door with a wrestling crew who do live shows. If I land that I'll be about as happy as I can be.

Love to all anons out there doing their best.

proud of you user. keep at it, your children will be thankful for your effort now once they realise what your motivation was. maybe get them into sports aswell?

>skinnyfat my entire life
>waste my teenage years playing video games
>acquire gf at uni
>start playing sports at uni
>always wanted to lift and the gym is right next to the lab on campus

I'm fairly normie by Veeky Forums standards and haven't really been through any personal hardship

what are you most proud of?

>In high school
>get bullied all the time
>joined sports to get rid of stigma of being geek
>get bullied by the jocks now
>My dad becomes proud of me for becoming a man
>"Yeah Dad"
>been like this until senior year
>asked girl out to prom
>she denies me, said she promised a friend
>prom night
>see girl making out with " friend"
>heart is crushed
> leave prom and contemplate about life
>spend 5 hours alone just with me and my thoughts
>I lied to my parents, had a shitty 4 years of my life, never truly happy
>promised myself I need to change for the better
> I started lifting, working hard and in school
>I made decent gains, I'm currently making decent money, and bringing up my grade after crap first year at college
>Finally happy with myself
>not lying to my father about my accomplishments
>girls are basically throwing themselves at me because they see my successes
Life is weird. In just 2 years my life turned around. And I feel great cause the people who used to bully me now just got fat and tiny or drop outs with kids. Funny how bullying molded character.

I've never had any particular achievements in my life as of yet. I play Lacrosse at uni and we won our varsity match just this weekend - but I don't think that's a big deal.

Koji grad

Fucking love this one. Imagine us cheering you on next time you're out there

problems and hardships make you a real man. with the right guidance of course. never stop fighting user, never give up. even if you fall off the wagon, you can always climb up. i have a facial defect (born without a nostril, the "pipes" are there, but in a really tiny space of the other nostril). after all the years of bullying they only created a thinker and a problem solver. yes, i could beat them to a pulp, but its to no use. i continue on my own path, successfully. and you should too. never listen to the naysayers

>2015
>5'9 120lb skinny fuck
>messing around with drugs and alcohol as its new to me
>meet qt who becomes first girl i've ever been serious with
>turns out shes a thot and breaks my heart, lose almost all my friends in the process
>2016
>friends with new crowd, still up to my old ways but start lifting
>by mid 2016 i hit a growth spurt 6'0 165 lbs, 190 bench 245 squat
>stop working out for awhile back down to 150 lbs but dyel
>2017
>borderline alcoholic, no hard drugs only smoking weed
>2 months ago meet qt i knew a few years ago through friend
>catch feelings in about 3 days and she is all over me
>constantly texting me and we hangout everyday for almost 2 weeks
>no texts one day kind of sad
>she texts me when i wake up with a huge paragraph about how shes incapable of being in a relationship because of her ex, to make things worse she tells me how much she likes me and she wants to be with me but she would never be able to give me the kind of attention I would give her
>heartbroken instantly, angry at friends because they knew before i did but were too scared to tell me
>feel a hole in my life all the sudden from this girl, major bitch mode, still tries to talk to me but i know things wont go back to how great those few weeks were
>go on a four day burnett and xanax binge until its too much to take
>head into the gym for the first time in a few months and have a rage fueled workout
>back up to 160 lbs after two weeks 175 bench 210 squat
>feel good but lonely
>waiting on her to find someone she can actually be with so she'll leave me alone
>depression and anxiety kicking in hard again
>feels bad

>no nostril
I don't mean to be rude but I had no idea that that was a thing, please post pics

>diagnosed with Major Depressive Disorder at an early age
>Actually had TRUE depression, as in, (I didn't know until I pulled myself out of it) everything I was seeing was apparently greyish and lacked saturation.
>Go through all of highschool with depression
>chemically incapable of feeling happiness
>Drop out of college after my first semester because I put a rope around my neck and was standing on a stool, then I freaked out and ran out of the room
>check myself into a mental hospital because I'm literally going to fucking die
>inpatient for 6 months, they try every medication under the sun
>eventually they intentionally give me serotonin poisioning to jump start my system
>works
>"holy fuck this is the greenest green I've ever seen, this is the bluest blue, what the fuck is this what food tastes like? Holy shit is that a woman? She's fucking beautiful
>I do outpatient and monitor myself carefully and try so hard, so hard for a few years to battle myself and my nature
>Haven't been truly depressed in a few years now
>start college again as a physics major with a focus in optics (I always had potential, both of my parents are MIT educated scientists)
>suck at studying lol but I get by
>randomly become friends with my foreign exchange masters student roommate
>goes on for a year then we fuck
>for the sake of this is a long greentext we decide to marry so she can stay with me
>I'm fucking married
>I'm set to finish my degree in a year now with average starting pay of 60k-ish
>She makes about $90,000
>got into bodybuilding a few months ago because of the psychological benefits of exercise/want to look better for wifey
>bench started at 110lbs now I can bench 190lbs
>I'm fucking doing it
>I didn't die
>Oh God please oh Lord thank you

I had a huge post typed but it deleted so fuck it.
>was cross country skeleton
>decided to lift and packed on 80lbs of muscle in 3 years
>acquired 10/10 ballet dancer gf
>lose virginity, happiest year of my life
>become long distance due to internships and her career path
>lost 10/10 gf because long distance is a bitch when you're insecure.
>tried to lift away feelings
>did not succeed but got huge and met all of my longstanding lifting goals
>tried to fuck away feelings with tinder hoes
>partly succeeded
>got lazy with lifting while trying to work 2 jobs and graduate (working out of the hole of failed classes from post breakup depression)
>start balding from 2 jobs, classes, freelance work and no stress outlet (ie the gym)
>graduate
>done with these hoes
>working jobs and applying for a career
>trying to get back in shape after a year of shit eating and no gym
>only gym I can afford within 30 minutes drive is a planet shitness
>been 2 years and I still dream about ex gf
>shes a pro ballet dancer now. Still single. Got a dog to deal with the breakup
>still has feelings for me but won't do long distance again.
>haven't spoken in almost a year
Im only working out now because I'd be ashamed if she say my balding and my once great body in ruins.
I need a good routine for my next few months at planet shitness before I get a new job and move. Got interviews lined up for some dream jobs.

here it is. sorry for the shit quality, but you get the idea.

>Tell me your story
Bitter weak faggot who got sick of being a weak faggot

>Tell me why you lift
I lift because I hate myself and want to improve so that I can watch all who ever wronged me get old, fat, and disgusting while I become more beautiful.

>What struggles you've faced
Aside from growing up a poorfag and getting picked on to the point of completely shutting off emotionally to the point of socially crippling myself I don't think I've struggled a lot in life.

>How you're doing now.
Great, and I keep getting better with every passing day.
My hatred for myself and others is still there, so is my unholy amounts of social autism but physically and mentally I feel a lot better than a year ago.
I've also started gaining some weight now so that's good.

couldn't you get a prosthetic?

not worth it when i was young, i should have changed it every 6 months. now i dont have time for surgery. will do it at some point in life.

Go through highschool being social retard despite having hot girls hit on me first. Join the Navy helped me not be a social retard. Had to lose weight to get in. Stayed thin and stronger in highschool due to dad making me do hard labor. In the Navy yo yo from fat to thin in six month cycles with boat schedule.

I got out of the Navy and got a desk job and blew up from eating shit and not working out. Finally realized I look like shit and decided to change two years down went from 220 to 175 now it's not about body weight but health. Try to eat clean and work out five days a week. Weights not even an issue now just conditioned myself to eat better. Want to show my kids the way to live now so they don't turn into fat slobs. I figure they learn now the biggest part of being successful is being disciplined and actually putting in work no matter aspect of life it is.

Thank you, friend.

Damn dude. legit inspiring. Were u driving drunk?

What happened to the old ones?

This one's heart wrenching. My dad always says he's proud of me and I believe he is, but I know he'd rather have me bettering my body than playing so many video games. He's a military man, after all.

You and me both, friend

>Grew up as an overweight kid
>TFW 130lbs in 5th grade for reference
>Get older and become more self aware
>Realize I'm obese
>Parents let me eat whatever I wanted and however much I wanted
>Get older and want to make a change
>Become anorexic and achieve skelly mode with obsessive fear of becoming fat again
>Start doing some calisthenics and cross country to get moderately fit
>Have tremendous pressure on me from parents, over achieving brother, magnet highschool
>Parents rarely gave me praise for things, constantly criticized, always yelled at (siblings get off with anything)
>Feels bad
>Super low self-esteem
>Never feel like I'm good enough
>No emotional connection to family or emotional support
>Develop bulimia
>Develop depression but ignore it
>Bottle it up for years
>Get GF, best girl I ever met, first time im genuinely happy
>join gym and start to develop good gains
>Make decent results (from what people tell me, I got that dysmorphia)
>GF loves it, I keep going, still only see a fatty in the mirror though
>GF dumps me a few months into freshman year of college unexpectedly
>Tipped over the edge and sent into a deep depressive spiral
>Continue to lift to help ease the self loathing to this day

TL;DR was fatty, got fit but still depressed, have extremely low self-esteem, body dysmorphia and lifting is a way to help ease the self-loathing

How do I learn to enjoy lifting again rather than thinking of it as a chore and using it to help justify my pitiful existence Veeky Forums?

>I died twice on the operating table
>Friend I made on the bed next to me didn't make it
>Was organ donor
>His family let me have one of his lungs and both kidneys

I wrestled in high school. Started my freshman year and made varsity. I wrestled overseas because my dad was in the military and stationed in korea.
We only had one or two tournaments per season, i got 2nd place my freshman year. I could have won the championship match, but as i was about to do a head amd arm throw, i gave up because "i was tired." I went outside by myself and cried.

I tore both of my rotator cuffa but only got surgery for one. Missed the season mh sophomore year. And won every single match my junior and senior year - the competition wasnt that good.

So, one of my korean wrestling coach, who had a lot f connections with the korean olympic team hooked me up with camps and trained me himself, i think he got silver in the world championship back in the day.

I "kinda" thiught about wrestling in college, but instead cause i lived in korea, i went to the bars every weekend, started smoking, and doing drugs, i got out of shape instead of getting in shape.

My mom would tell me that coach lee, my korean coach, would always ask me if i would want to train with him during the breaks. Intold my mom nah, becaude instead i wanted to be a fucking degenerate.

My dad would always tell me, you know you could wrestlenin college, you have natural talent

>inb4 dad was just giving you false hope

I had the perfect athletic build, just needed to build some more muscle mass. But I was a really quick wrestler for being 215 and i had natural technique.

Now im ending my sophomore year in college with one of the best wrestling teams in the nation. And all i want to do is be atleast a practice dummy for the team.

I just got done lifting, and before every set, I just kept on thinking about all the time i wasted and all the potential i squandered, all my failures. I get so angry with myself. I dont want to look back again and think to myself I could of, would of, should of.

That feeling of regret is crushing. I imagine to myself what my life could have been, if i just tried my best in wrestling and in school.

We all have time to work on our goals, but we keep coming with excuses or succumb to the easy way out.

Dont be like me user, devote your life to your goals.

I know this isnt the right place to post this, but i just had to let this out.

>6 foot 5
>Always skinny, cant put on weight unless I spend $200/week on food and too lazy to cook
>Gym'd all through high-school, mostly otter-mode gains
>Still lanklet so give up Gym for few years
>Try to make Military but didnt have the motivations to do shit I don't want to all day for some asshole who hasn't done a pushup in 30 years
>Find purpose in training working dogs
>Work Security to pay the bills
>Start Judo for Security and muscular stamina
>Still 6 foot 5, 86kg
>22 years old, only reason im still alive is My Dutch Shepherd

>130 lb 6' skeleton in high school
>no job, no money, ate roommates extra food out of the garbage a few times in college
>now 170 lb
>finally started going to the gym
i've been going for 3 weeks now. it was embarrassing to have weak legs from just squatting the bar but it felt good to get started. i managed to two rep 145 today

Shit man hope your dad gets better

That's some real shit man. Keep it up

I lift because it keeps me from drinking myself to death and it's really good for me mentally. Everything feels easier after an intense work out.

>20
>play d3 soccer
>been lifting for almost 4 years
>6'2"
>still virgin

I almost got it in a couple of weeks ago because I've lately been counting my calories which has made a huge difference. 51 day streak on MyFitnessPal at the moment.

>Why I lift
I want to be fit for the rest of my life, I don't want to be fat and have issues in my old age I want to be fit as a fiddle til the day I die.

>What struggles you've faced
Have been obese for 10 years of my life from the age of 14, this was because I'm autistic (for real) and as a result dealt with a lot of emotional abuse from peers and adults alike.

>How you're doing now
Have been eating right and lifting since early December last year, I've only lost 4lbs so far but still dealing with loneliness and dealing with my family that have been going down a spiral in recent years, especially my mum.

...

>she breaks up with you
Why? You have something else to fix too, unless she broke up with you because you're skinnyfat

>female-to-male transsexual
>went from being that weird girl in high school to that weird guy freshman year college
>went from 'crawling in my skin' levels of angst and depression with an eating disorder to being a functional adult
>one day I decided to stop being spooky and start going to the gym and lift things up and down
>now I love my body and go to the gym routinely so I can be as strong as I can
>everyday it feels amazing to just live and be happy

My life is good

I 'try' my best, i say try because i'm fucking weak who only benches 70 and im a fucking skele who doesn't want to look like a fucking skele.

i started a month ago and progress has been pretty slow, probably because i didn't know what the fuck i was doing the first 2 week and i probably ain't eating right.

waah my life is so hard

Used to weigh 389. Basically ate and played video games from age 12 to 27.

Cut to 187 over 5 years. Looked like melted wax.

Maintained at 205 for ~2 years to see if skin would retract at all.

It didn't, and I had a bit of a breakdown last Oct. Quit going to the gym for a few months and spent most of that time drunk and depressed.

I've given up on being attractive and now just want to get as strong as possible.

Managed to pull 4pl8 for the first time ever last week. Want to break 500lbs before Sept of this year.

so this is off topic and a bit personal, but my sons mom has BPD. Lies, does hard drugs, gets violent, all the good stuff. I've been seriously considering taking full custody of him and cutting her out of his life almost entirely.
As someone who grew up with a BPD mother, do you think that's the right thing to do? Would you have resented your father? If yes, do you think you'd have eventually realized it was for the better?
Sorry for all the questions, this is something I haven't had the chance to talk about with anyone.

>my son's mother

I lift because I'm a competitive weightlifter but I struggle a lot with getting enough calories in every day to gain weight. I should weigh around 30 kilos more in order to be competitive with my leverages. But it's not possible to gain that much muscle natty.

Damn son. You made it. You really made it.

Dude, you're awesome. Viewing negative energy as simply fuel for positive change is what has helped me lately as well. You're my inspiration in this thread. Keep at it.

>lift for a few months in high school, make some decent noob gains then stop going bc lazy
>few years pass, now in college, haven't been lifting, have friends but also anxiety and not that confident
>another year passes, find out my good friend who used to be a spooky skeleton in high school now lifts, making some nice gains
>'wtf am i doing with myself'
>get my shit together, start lifting again
>more confident, less anxious, improving social skills, making decent gains
>feelsgoodman.jpg

im in college and wanted to smash with QTs. but then i remembered i still live with my parents so i decided to just get strong as faurk.

Sorry not sorry. Communism is for the weak, michael.

/fattie/ coming through, trying to be a cardiofag

>Why I do it
I just wanna take off my shirt and mentally smile.

>What struggles you've faced
Eating. Literally I can't seem to diet for shit. Soda, chips, etc.

>How you're doing now
I guess pretty bad. Just got back from a run and I'm all sweaty and sore. Kinda missed this, tbfh.

I was raped in the military so I lift so that will never ever happen again

Do it, brother. You'd be helping that kid so much. Right now you just seem to be thinking in the context of
>I'm taking away a mother's child
But a mother should be able to take care of herself. If she can't, she's a serious danger to the kid. Even if it isn't physically, that will still be an impact mentally.

How else should I have phrased it?

Wanted to be aesthetic, needed a hobby, ended up enjoying lifting and getting strong
also fixed my raging bulimia

I'm ugly as shit, like crooked eyes, acne etc. that said, I was always big for my age and loved my coaches. So I lifted to make them proud. Won state at wrestling. Anyway now I'm just going on inertia, because I will always be ugly as shit.

>Always get called a skinny cunt by skinny cunts throughout highschool
>never getting girls
>starting college
>Really wanted to change, people calling me skinny gave me terrible anxiety and depression
Even though I've made a lot of progress, I still have a long ways to go to meet my goal

>be 6'0 135lb hungry skellington living abroad for a few years
>in this country, people have no shame talking about weight or appearance like they do in USA
>can feel everyone judging me
>but judgement from fellow Americans hurts the most
>meet this girl in the city
>only see her for a few days but I keep in touch with her later during whatsapp
>fall in love with her, probably more than I ever have with anyone else, or ever will
>I can tell she's not into me like that
>whether by paranoia or perception, I can tell she's put off by my bony arms and general lack of health
>want to get in shape but can't cook or find food too well where I am
>start running and eventually run a 10k
>still skinny and weak
>that's when I realize she'll never love me like I love her
>fuck it
>fuck her
>decide I'm going to start lifting when I get back to the states
>going to get so fit that people won't recognize me
>3 years later, I've gained 40 pounds of mostly muscle, my posture has improved, and I feel more confident and attractive than before
>still haven't made it but I haven't given up
>my birthday is next weekend
>going to get myself a new set of PRs

T-thanks Veeky Forums

Holy shit, that's really impressive man. Amazing perseverance.

>get picked on by Mexicans
>become skin head
>gets picked on by everyone, the cartlage in the left side of nose is smashed
>work out to fight

>gloves

How much test do you get?