Whomst here in college

>Forcing yourself out of bed at the same time every morning will quickly make a huge difference I assure you.
yeah you'll probably want to fucking die

Bumppp

Like I read your post and I felt you're me 5 years ago.

> CS major
Are you studying something you like in the first place? Are you depressed? I just finished my bachelor in Physics.

> started lifting sometime last year
I got into Veeky Forums, losing weight and lifting three times a week during the third year (2 years ago). It was difficult at first but I succeeded. It helped get over my breakup after a relationship of 4 years. Because of heartache I failed one course that I shouldn't have.

> gonna try to take up new hobbies to replace browsing/being at the computer
I did the same. I actually did a list with ALL the hobbies (listed around 400) and then proceeded to do elimination. Wasn't a perfect system but this way I got into reading, watching foreign films and martial arts.

> doing my best to be social but still little to no friends
Don't try too hard. Friends come naturally. I found many through my hobbies and daily activities. It's just trial and error. I was very insecure at first, but I followed the "do something you don't like to do once a day". For me it was to say "hi" to people. Holy shit it's still difficult. I'm not a chad of making friends but I managed to get about 5 people I would call "friends".

> use planner for everything
Mang. I do the same for everything. I have to list all the movies I have/will watch, I count my calories everyday, I have a list of books, a list of places, a list of things I have to do for the week and a list of the lists. Obsession.

Sharing a thought: Life is too long to feel like a failure.

>haven't done anything in my accounting class in 3 weeks

probs gonna fail out or get a C at the least

my ADHD is out of control

3 weeks behind in my accounting class here breh

thankfully im fully caught up in all my other ones but accounting can suck my balls

Im just about to finish up my final year.
tfw
No job
No plan
No marketable skills
No discernible talent

Who contemplating suicide here?

if you are putting in an honest effort at CS (attending class, doing homework) and failing then you were not cut out for CS

Guys can I pass without attending class?
I literally have no friends in Uni and my social anxiety makes it a hell to go there.

Pls help

>recent grad

>searching entry level jobs on monster and indeed

must have 3-5 years relevant experience

must have 2 olympic gold medals

entry level my ass the fuck?

Nah,
and going to uni is how you get over your social anxiety
you make friends by going there, just don;t pressure yourself to try too hard for a fair while,

putting off this is the exact same as putting off normal work; you don't get better "later" you just don't get better until you grab your nuts and go do it

I passed the yank equivilent of calc. 1 and 2 without stepping foot in the uni other than for the midsemester and final. I don't recommend it though, your GPA will go to shit.

>chem major
>One month to finishing bachelor's
>Horribly unmotivated and in danger of not graduating
>Pretty happy about my bench press progress
I'll probably make it, boys (I hope)

try not spending all your time on reddit

>Started University in 2014
>Literally fucked around and sold drugs while working at a Pharmacy after class.
>made some good income and was able to pay for tuition and the dorm housing.
>Towards the end of my freshmen year, lost my pharmacy job after 9 months working there.
>Been commuting to school since 2015 and it's absolute hell and I have a shit wage job now at a fucking Jack in the Box.
>Retaking some classes now because I couldn't keep up with the work because now I have to work double the hours just to keep up with tuition.
>Don't really have friends over there and constantly broke.
>Commute, go to class, study, nap in the library, and head to work.
I'm classified as a Senior this August but fuck my grades have been shit. I constantly consider suicide everytime I step on campus and I literally won't say a word till I go to work like 8 hours later.
>Someone pls kill me

>Like I read your post and I felt you're me 5 years ago.
we have so much in common it's blowing my mind

>Are you studying something you like in the first place? Are you depressed?
many times i wondered if this career is what i want, i settled at yes, this is what i want, but i fucking hate the educational process. I am not depressed, i was severely a year ago or so, but these feelings of inadequacy and failure are like flashbacks before i spiraled down

>It was difficult at first but I succeeded. It helped get over my breakup after a relationship
100% relate

>I actually did a list with ALL the hobbies (listed around 400) and then proceeded to do elimination.
this is EXACTLY what i did, albeit nowhere near around 400, my lists are inferior. However this is a very recent development so i havent placed it into practice yet.

>Friends come naturally
i used to think this but then i was left with none, came to the conclusion that i was taking the ones i had for granted, so i rather do an effort at being social because if i dont nothing will happen

> Lists
pic related, i used to make my own planner on excel but it turned out really exhausting which is one of the reasons i put it off for the start of the semester and it fucked me up, now im using outlook, it gets it done

thanks for replying man, it's good to know im not some useless freak, and instead i can be a functional freak

>guy, don't tell us what you're gonna do
I'm sorry I don't mean to do it for validation, it helps me reflect upon and get feedback on how i can improve my plans when i tell people

>I just had to sack up and force that change to happen with attrition
I'm glad you got it down! I think it works as long as you don't burnout :)

Op's image was how I dropped out of college

Med student:
Year 1: study decently get good grades
Year 2: study less still good grades
Year 3: study more again, still good grades
Masters
Year 4: study less for 1 exam, get a 6/10 pick up studying a lot
Years 5: still good grades 8/10 average
Year 6: last few clerkships hope to graduate with 8 or 9 for those too.

Accounting is easy noob

>Thought lifting would improve his academical performance
Have you tried studying

I wasted so much in college worrying about my body. Hours to go outside the city to a cheap gym, money on food, etc. And the kicker is that I made the most progress when I started cooking for myself in large quantities and just using the dorm gym to bench and deadlift (w/ some accessories, and no squat rack).

And then I immediately detrained when I graduated and was too poor to gym/good food.

Focus on getting your studies right. If you don't come into college aesthetic/stronk, you're not going to develop it there. Get the skills that will get you the money to pursue it after school.

>Econ major
>got a full year of college done in high school through dual credit
>graduated from high school with a 4.2 GPA and Bright Flight
>full-ride scholarship
>freshman year (technically sophomore) starts
>don't study ever
>knock up girlfriend
>GPA is a 3.06
>need a 3.25 GPA to maintain scholarship
>have to go back to my hometown and go full-time to local campus with two night courses a week at main campus an hour away for next two years
>working full-time
>still gained 20 pounds and put 30lbs+ on most of my lifts so far
Being young and dumb is something else

The "3-5 years experience" they put in job descriptions are mainly there to weed out the candidates who don't really want the job or don't feel like they can do it, like yourself. You just graduated and don't know shit about shit, let them decide if you're qualified or not. You don't owe them anything and it's good interview practice

I did a medical leave of absence this semester due to health problems. I'm now getting them worked out, but I wish appointments happened faster.

>freshman
>playing Division 3 Baseball
>all these guys are basically their own fraternity
>tons of lifting buddies
>get into all the parties
>nobody takes it too seriously
>3.8 GPA

feels pretty good man, can't complain.

This is simply not true
However OP should focus more on school as opposed to lifting

Me too I just hated school. I got good grades if I felt like it. The structure is not for everyone. I felt like I was robbed because I could have figured out a smarter way (at the time) to make money and gain whatever else I needed.

accounting is boring shit

still pulled A's in both of the courses i needed but it was torture. good luck breh, you can do it

Stop being a pussy. Seriously every time I think about not going to class or skipping the gym I just think about how fucking effeminate I would be 100 years ago. Id be fucking dead as shit. Man the fuck up, respect your ancestors. Stop being a fucking pussy, just repeat over and over and over. Put in the work, there no shortcuts, just little choices every day for years and years until you build yourself into something you can be proud off.

currently 21 and Electrical Eng major at university

holy fucking fuck i can identify with you guys. I hate school and I've failed more classes than I'm willing to admit. GPA still around a 2.2 somehow. Friends are asking me if i plan on dropping out because we will need to sign a lease soon. Felt bad man. Always been much smarter than my peers and consequently I've always been an underachiever. I'll take older anons early wake up advice.

I always seem to have some reason to talk myself out of going to class and when I get back into a normal state of mind, I hate myself. This self resentment and first tendrils of serious depression are really starting to fuck me up.

Good to know that I'm not as alone as I thought at least. Keep fighting guys, We'll make it.

I started college five years ago at a community college, then transferred to a state school to study business. From there I dropped out for a year to work at a start up, which took off and is now worth 1 billion dollars. With this story I was able to apply and get accepted to an ivy league school. i am not about to finish my last year early so I can go work at the same start up I left college for originally. However, my degree from the ivy league uni is in environmental sciences and to business, but I think that is ok because I learned a lot of things that I can apply to my business career (things about culture, people, writing, etc. They do make you well rounded I have to say), plus I really like being outside so its been a really nice experience to learn something I genuinely enjoy even thought I will never use it. What this uni did teach me though was how to think critically and articulate my thoughts. I remember sitting on pol five years ago wondering what the fuck was going to happen to my life when I was working at Costco part time and taking classes at night. I know things may suck and I know I got really luck, but I would encourage everyone who is down in the dumps to keep working. I always found encouragement on this website, especially fit, when I was a loser, but now that I have some success I want to keep coming here so I can help people who were like me. I promised myself that if I ever got out of my shit situation I would come back to the prison, kill the guards, free the inmates, and burn this fucker to the ground. Knowing what I know now thanks to pol, I can say that I'm going to try my best to help guys like us who never had a fucking chance to begin with. I love this website and you all were my friends when I was nobody. I appreciate that more than anyone will ever know.

>nearly finished with junior year
>still can't talk to girls

s-still gonna make it, guys
maybe I'll figure out how you're supposed to approach people when they all look like they don't even want to be here

Why does this one girl I know like tapping my nose so much.

Also
>tfw i'm failing calc 2 for the second time

Help me...

:') genuinely want to thank you for that story

>think critically and articulate my thoughts
Please, how do I become better at this?

so read scientific papers. I know it sounds boring but the language is so crazy that you'll eventually learn about how to structure arguments coherently

>start college
>work full/part time for the next three years while taking courses part time
>start lifting these last 8 or so months
>nothing changes
>graduate
>only talk to a couple friends made in my three years

Hopefully I can at least go to a pool party this summer and show off what little gains I have.

Was community college btw. I did graduate with high honors though, so there's that.

I haven't been to a comp sci lecture since the first week and I got a higher grade than most of the class on the first exam. It depends on the class. If the prof posts notes online and you have the textbook and chegg I don't see why not going to class is bad. If you put the time in yourself you'll be fine.

I want to die, and I hate myself.

Thanks, I'll do that

also be frank but not too harsh with your statement. its risky but if you can back up your arguments with facts you can convince a lot of people

been there man it was a hard time but made me a stronger person. i eventually went to an ivy league school so i want to encourage you to keep striving for those big dreams i know you have. believe me anything is possible

I'm about to graduate in May, finishing my 5th year (took a semester off for an internship). CS major.

1st year (freshman):
>a lot of adjustment to class workload, grades everywhere, only went out to a house party occasionally on the weekend when I could find one, hot chicks hard to come by, kind of stuck on high school oneitis
2nd year:
>got into an apartment with some other guys I knew, went out more, drank more, lost my virginity first week (no one knew I was still a virgin), ups and downs thanks to mono and grades, met a girl and hooked up, eventually gf'd her for the next summer
3rd year:
>got internship, broke up with gf, worked and partied on the weekends, went on spring break to Panama City, amazing time, really started gaining confidence in myself and my path
4th year:
>peak drinking, going out 2-3 times a week, hooked up with a lot of girls, went on a cruise for spring break, fell hard for a chick and got into a hot/cold thing with her for months, got really drunk at a party back at my hometown and drove for some reason, ding DUI, legal system went to town on me
5th year:
>pretty chill in comparison, still going out 1-2 times a week, meeting new women but nothing working out long term on my end or hers, looking at graduation as a much more experienced (jaded?) individual, still couldn't ask for a much better situation (tall, jacked and Veeky Forums, got a job)

It's been a rollercoaster, couldn't ask for more. Now I have 40 years of desk life to "look forward" to.

Ddnt even go to college n got a 180k a year job as a sr react dev at the age of 23 feelsgoodman

Don't we all. I've come to realize that "we're all gonna make it" means that our efforts right now are not in vain and that we will enjoy the fruits of our labor in the future. All we have to do is keep lifting and trudge through this horrible disease that is depression. Keep improving and we'll all make it.

>enrolled halfway through 2014
>did criminology for a year and a half
>started law last year
>only know one person because we were forced to work together on an assignment
>no other uni contacts
the line between cocoonmode and autism is blurry my dudes

To anons having trouble with college, I've got something for you.

I started school in 2002 and fucked around a lot. A LOT. Drinking, vidya, girls, getting into trouble...pretty much everything short of drugs. I switched my major four times - Economics, History, Global Analysis, Political Science. After a while, I decided I needed to change. I moved to a different city and enrolled at a different university. By 2006, I was succeeding in a way I never had at my old school. 3.8 gpa, making great money as a bartender, involved in a lot of extracurricular organizations, fantastic and stable relationship - it was perfect.

2007 - enter the epilepsy.

I started having crazy seizures, and they determined that it was congenital with no specific triggers. I was on all kinds of medications, and they fucked with me. My memory was shot, I was in a horrible mental state, and was forced to leave school because of how badly it affected my academic standing. It took years of experimenting with different medications and lifestyle changes to find something that worked and made me whole again. I had been working, lifting, and just getting by before, but I rediscovered my ambition once my head had cleared, and I finally finished school in 2015.

For any anons who are struggling, you can do it. You're gonna make it, brah.

Studying stuff tends to compound on itself. If you don't learn the early stuff properly, then everything that follows will be harder to learn. You may need to hunker down and make sure you understand all the material you're supposed to up to this point.

Also why do you want to graduate if you don't yet understand the material you're studying? In CS job interviews they often give you little problems to solve. Your diploma won't help you there. They'd rather hire the self-taught guy who knows his stuff.

As a guy who doesn't know what he wants to do: what is your ambition? And what degree did you graduate with?

Your story is very inspiring. Hope to make it one day too.

join a club lmao

You really think it takes discipline to abstain from drugs and porn, then you need to get on my level. Too lazy to even fap or drink, failed 1st year 3 times in a row by now, because I'm literally too lazy to write the reports I even passed all the exams. Or maybe it's not even laziness but lack of any sort of motivation even drugs don't bring me pleasure anymore, but I also don't feel like killing myself. I just kinda want to do nothing.

I just got rejected by the Graphic Design program for the 2nd time and I can't reapply.
I've been in College sitting on a 2.4 GPA since 2013 and I'm seriously considering dropping and joining the police before debt piles up

If I get below a 2 GPA again this semester I get kicked out of college. I have no way to pay my 100k of debt back if that happens. I know I'm supposed to feel stress or motivation or whatever, but I feel nothing. Absolutely nothing. My parents thought I was gonna get a 4.0 and make millions of dollars or some shit but they ended up getting a fuck up of a son. I'd kill myself but my mom wouldn't be able to handle it.

>heavy academic workload
>half of class failing, other half dropping out
>started lifting
>met bf
>moving in with bf
>party/go out/drink occasionally when not buried in homework
Just trying to really get my shit together and figure stuff out now

Depressed af. Change up your life. Do something new and stick to it. If you don't already, exercise is easy mode since it releases those good hormones. Writing about your feelings every night before you sleep is so fucking helpful and I bet you don't do that. One page every single night. If there's one thing you should do it's that.

Listen to more music and just walk somewhere you have never been. For true satisfaction you need to create instead of consume. Pick up some form of artistic hobby.
Sounds like low test and if you already lift, you should get that checked.

I ended up graduating with a degree in Political Science. Meme degree, I know, but whatever. I'm currently the marketing director for a small craft beer distribution company, but I'll be taking the LSAT in October. Though it's something I'm passionate about, if law doesn't work out, I'll likely go back to the craft beer industry. Mead is going to be coming up in the next five years the way that cider is coming up now.

We're on Veeky Forums why wouldn't I lift and I doubt it's low test since I lift more than almost everyone I see at gyms.