Wtf just happend

Wtf just happend

>Just watching youtube like normal and saw a pic related video about steroids.
>I thought it was interesting so I kept watching.
>Have previously taken a 3week cycle on oral Dbol and I got reminded of the positive psychological changes
>Start getting a raging boner.
>Open up my tor browser and go to my favorite market and start looking up testo
>Start fapping while reading prices of different steroids while reading information about them
>Go to /r/steroids read some information while still fapping
>Go back to darknet markets and find testoviron
>Click on it
>Reading information the seller gives about it and imagining me on roids again
>Fap and cum hard
>Instantly after cumming I close the tabs as if they were porn links
>Almost instantly get no temptation of going on roids again
>Clean up
>Notice what the fuck just happened and started writing about it here

Did I actually just fap about the idea of me becoming psychologically more manly? Because that was the only really positive change I got from the dbol. (the extra gains were nice but I also did get really fat from overeating/getting really fucking hungry)

what the fuck

what the fuck is wrong with you

eh wut b0ss

ive jacked off to my own photos where i look shredded, so i feel you brother

But this was straight up me getting rock hard from the idea of me getting more energized as a person. (Which in my case makes me a lot more manly)

Is this my body hinting me something?

hmm, i wouldnt say so much that you are gay more so as that you are attracted to the power you can get from becoming your ideal self

he's gay as a cum bucket

hmm, i wouldnt say so much that he's gay more so as that he's attracted to the power he can get from becoming his ideal self

I think you're right there actually. I guess its time for me to work extra hard to become the person I want to be. Thank you noticing this.

Take off your energy crystals bro. Your OVER charged desu and they shouldn't be used alone

On test now. Every training session is like sex with the most beautiful woman I have ever meet. Really want to add an oral on top of this madness.

What do you mean? Do you mean that the dbol changed me too much? Because all how it changed me was just making me more into the person I want to be. I felt more like myself with the extra energy :(

Well if you're going to get back into it don't do a dbol only cycle again because that's retarded.

If im gonna go back its gonna be with test most likely. But since I have friends going dbol cycle only can you explain why its retarded? My friends gotten pretty good results and haven't seen too much on why its bad apart form the liver toxicity online.

This reminded me of when I fapped to the imagination of fucking my own ass while fingering, grabbing and spanking it when I was 15

> he doesn't know about energy crystals

is being on test better than being on roids?

Liver, water weight, just straight up not as good as test. Only reason to do a dbol only cycle is because you're scared of injecting which is dumb because it's really not bad whatsoever after you've done it a couple times.

Test sucks tbqh. take dbol and proviron to keep the water down with increased sodium tolerance

>going to reddit
found your problem

it's the feeling of feeling in power and being alpha.
that's why I fap to Man on Manlet prison rape vids.
Im not gay just love the power struggle.