23 year old KV neet

>23 year old KV neet
>parents split up when I was 3
>remember feeling anger towards my mother whenever she acted confident when I was as young as 4 years old
>mom remarried a guy I've never really talked to when I was 5
>always the smart weird kid in school, a few people liked talking to me here and there
>never thought anything of it until middle school when puberty kicked in
>the cool kids that I wanted to hang around were constantly rejecting me
>became a shut in as much as possible with WoW, Runescape, etc.
>get fat, self-esteem completely dies, mom never kicks me out of the house
>self-esteem too low to try talking to girls, assume they'll all reject me so why bother
>always called weird, creepy, future school-shooter
>tell myself they're just stupid and ignore them which I now realize made me look even weirder
>fast forward to the past few months
>down to 200lbs from 250, making alright strength gains with a decent diet & full body BW routines
>stopped playing video games and watching porn altogether which has unnumbed my emotional state
>realize i'm the saddest cunt on the face of the earth, almost hopelessly emotionally crippled
>my default emotion for almost everything is fear, sadness, anger, inadequacy, etc.
>almost everything I do at my core is for validation
>realize I missed out on everything youth has to offer; innocent young love, awkward bonfire parties drinking beers in the 10th grade, sports, etc.
>start thinking a lot about what I want out of life, what would make me content
>want a smart, cute, and loving woman to raise kids with and give them a dad I didn't have
>constantly fantasize about what it would be like to raise them right and teach them how to be happy, can't think of anything that would make me happier
>know that people, women in particular, can see right through a person's soul and I'll never find an emotionally stable, good woman who will love me until I become quasi-normal

What do I do Veeky Forums?

Also how do I do sit-ups?

>self-esteem too low to try talking to girls, assume they'll all reject me so why bother
literally me

Pretty sure it's most of us

>brofist

please respond

that's the reason to talk to them then. if you are already at peace with rejection why not try it? there is a chance of someone saying yes

Psychologist/psychiatrist

It sucks, but it can help.

Going through shit with my ex and kid man,
She's being a right cunt... woman,

Cant keep down a job, been working hard as fuck but depression keeps kicking back in.
But psychologist helps somewhat.

>Also how do I do sit-ups?
Keep trying, every day
Also, do some planks every day for at the absolute least 20 seconds to build your core strength
Do cardio and eat less to lose weight as well

this is literally me except instead of my parents splitting up my dad died when I was 4 and my mom didn't remarry
also I'm only 18 instead of 23

everyday I'm haunted by the fact that all my peers are partying and having the time of their lives right now while I'm gymceling it up just so one day I can receive validation from the very people that condemned me to this fate in the first place

we haven't suffered enough yet and misery will follow us our whole lives, but we gotta keep going brah
it's the only way

tfw got undiagnosed mental condition (or hyperactive thyroid possibly)
went to doctors today about this and while I was there mention gyno and ask if she can take a look and see if it is.

Looks at me and just says its looks like abs and asks if I work out

>I missed out on everything youth has to offer
>23

you are literally in your youth right now. stop looking at the teen years through rose tinted spectacles. theyre shit. your early 20s and early 30s are the best years of your life. you have the freedom to do what you want without the limitations of responsibility or age

stop throwing yourself a pity party and go live your fucking life

>Also how do I do sit-ups?

Do l-sits, side planks, and ab wheel rollouts instead. Also, you're gonna make it.

>know that people, women in particular, can see right through a person's soul
This isn't true at all. I mean people can sense insecurity by your mannerisms, facial expressions, body language and such, but people can't tell what you're thinking or anything like that. Everybody is insecure, most of them almost as insecure as you.

i know it will sound corny or whatever but maybe you'd better try finding some peace within yourself my dude. ive recently been struggling a lot with goals and shit like that and i do envision something like forming a family would be kind nice, but before i do that i believe what is necessary is to work on myself, learning to become better and either change what can be changed for the better or accept the things i cant change/the way i am. so yeah, is right, a psychologist/psychiatrist might help you with things like that. anyways, thats just my 2 cents

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>you're the male version of me
except I was never fat lol, I was a weird skinny teenage girl with short hair and no tits who was frequently mistaken for a boy

>tfw attractive now but still I missed out on the teenage years.

the fact that a cute female relates to me and has expressed some sort of interest has me feeling all types of ways

if we unironically lived in london I would reach out to you to meet somewhere public yet private (like a park) where we could sit on the grass and avoid eye contact while talking about our feelings

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this sort of shit is why you have no friends lad

just being honest m8

you shoulda been able to tell by the OP that i'm a sad cunt

literally just stop saying/thinking shit like that and no one will think youre creepy anymore

its not hard

I don't say shit like that, but I can't help but think it because it's what I feel, dummy.

Well I think you're a sweetie and Veeky Forums would do well to stop lifting their respective feels away.

>Well I think you're a sweetie

Boo fucking hoo no one gives a shit about you and your shitty life. Either do something about it and force yourself out if your comfort zone or go back into your cocoon and keep being a little bitch.

This OP. You're still young, realizing this in your 40s would've been too late, you have time.

you don't have to be so tough all the time dude

It's not being tough my man just being honest. If you want to change your life for the better you have to go and do it. Asking for help on a chinese cartoon board is not doing anything besides validating yourself that yes in fact you are a sadcunt. You can change as a person but the burden is on you to actually do something.