Saturday Night feels thread

What brings you here on a Saturday night?

It seems like the more Veeky Forums i get, the less girls take me seriously. I got stood up today, so now I'm drinking wine and hanging out with yall.

We didn't date long but I thought we hit it off.

Let it out Veeky Forums. Tell me whats on your mind. Here's some music for the background. Play them together and let's get comfy while we talk about our feels.

youtube.com/watch?v=D6KRIMASing

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went into doctors yesterday about ADHD and gyno, doc confirmed its gyno but said I just look like I have abs anyway.

broke down crying later on when talking about ADHD shit doc says it could be hyperactive thyroid.

either way I dunno how the fuck hyperactive thyroid or ADHD would affect gains, Hyperactive thyroid I read eats away at your muscle and shit.

im sorry bro. You'll figure out a way to overcome!

getting bloodwork next week to check for thyroid etc and then seeing Doc week after, then I'll be getting referred to a specialist for both.

Luckily I'm in the UK so I'll be able to get hormone treatment for the gyno or surgery (assuming surgery is only if it doesn't respond to meds) and whatever for the ADHD on the NHS

fuck man. getting stoop up fucking sucks. you dont need her bro

ehh decided to get back on the Tinder train after getting out of a relationship in March. left her because she was getting far too controlling without putting much effort into the relationship. lasted 9 months, ought to have cut the cord sooner.. but hindsight is always 20/20 go figure.

match with some grills, no replies just yet except for one that had gone silent ever since i had asked if she wanted to accompany me to a coffee spot downtown since i was going there to read a book anyways.

whatever, took the car out for a drive around town and finished the book i was reading.

now we're here, lurking Veeky Forums and reading another book. quiet night for me it seems user.

>just graduated with my bachelor's today
>tfw no friends
>everybody taking pics/videos, hugging eachother, exuberant cries of victory and hope
>mfw trying my damnest to muster up some semblance of happiness
>can't believe what a pessimistic and stoic stick in the mud i've become
>went straight from the ceremony to the gym afterward
>tried for 3 plate squat atg
>couldn't even have made it out of the hole with rocket fuel shooting out my ass

I needed something to do while I take a shit. Soon we will put the little ones to bed and keep trying for a third.

I'm so fucking bored man. I don't even care about girls. I've got three fucking months until the move-in for uni and school is basically over. I exercise 3-4 times a week, I read, I browse on the computer, I'm looking to start a job shadow, but at the end of the day I still have long periods where I'm just fucking doing nothing at all.

Wtf do you even do when you're this bored? I can't drink, I don't smoke, I hate parties, and all my friends are either super nerds who do even less than I do or are girls who are out-of-state/dating people.

go find a new hobby group.

Have u considered killing urself m8

>Cinnomon toast crunch
>Veeky Forums
Fuck off, gains goblin

Yes, but then I'd be bored AND dead.

Don't hate on the crunchies man

a month ago I was dating a qt tall redhead and fwb with ex. they knew about each other and actually met. kissed both goodbye that night.

was hoping for a potential 3 way but ex freaked out one night for something i said two years ago and redhead thought I didn't want to date her so shes dating some doofus who works for google now.

having a comfy night trolling on here, working on shoulders, talking to friends, and watching tv

Shoulda listened to my gut. Had a feeling I was being used and the relationship was fake. Turns out I was right and she had been telling people she was using me for money and it was never real.

Mom diagnosed with cancer shortly after.

Punched a wall out of frustration. Hand broken in two places and now can't even lift.

I've been spending a lot of hours cycling because I don't know what to do with myself.

I used to spend lots of hours programming, and doing drugs. But I got addicted to both, and had to get clean of both.

So now I just cycle.
I go to work. I go to bed. I get up. I cycle. I get ready for work. I go to work.

On weekends:
I cycle.
I just cycle.

Picture was today's session.

The 4 hour bullshit is just how much time my bike was moving. I was actually out there for like 6 hours in my first session, and 2 hours on my second session.
Crosswalks really slow you down.

>tfw finals week and have to get all a's or my gpa is fucked beyond repair

Where can I buy that sweater

you are cancer who just wishes to be noticed

why not just call it /general/ to force hehe le new content and memes so we can all enjoy our reddit happy upboat time

sounds solid. shame on the no-go on the 3 way.

hope your hand heals with no future problems. condolences about your mother too. keep your head on your shoulders man, play the best hand from the cards that are dealt to you.

sounds like you may have an obsessive personality m8, have you considered professional help? otherwise just slow down.. try meditating in the morning with a cup of coffee or tea and try to get yourself to try new things outside of cycling and work.

...

The slightly brighter side of this, is that this was probably one of the lowest days you're going to have for a while. This was supposed to be a happy occasion, but you couldn't enjoy it at all. That's a majorly depressing feeling. I've been there. And those are your low points. Most of the days to come will not be as bad.

Hopefully in the last 4 years you found something, 1 thing that brought you some semblance of pleasure. If you can, try to hold onto it. As long as it isn't self destructive to do so. If it is, you'll just have to weigh the pleasure with the destructiveness and make your own decision on the net worth of the activity.

But the point is:
You have your degree now. You can join the workforce and subscribe to the depressing monotony of ordinary life, just like the rest of us.
Its depressing. I'm not even going to try to sugarcoat it. Life is really fucking depressing sometimes.

If you haven't found that 1 thing that can give you some pleasure, then you need to do so quickly. Life is hard to survive if you have nothing.

If you do have that 1 thing...
Hold onto it. At all costs.

>be 18
>no parties today to drink my sorrow away at in a socially acceptable manner
>no money
>no lady
>no gym membership, stuck with dads shitty home setup
>listening to xxxtentacion and beating the fuck out of a punching bag

could be worse

This is terrible advice. I found alcohol in college (well before desu). It was the one thing I found joy in life for the next ten years.

I just want to a qt3.14 nerdy cosplayer gf who I can be weird and socially retarded with. But I don't even know where to start ;_;

Went on a run, and listening to some Mcelroy's play some DnD

Howdy fellow Texan.

I actually cycle to work but that's just because I'm a sad faggot with no car. I would cycle more but only if I could go out into long stretches of road. Sometimes I wonder what it would be like to just bike away. The only thing keeping me home is my family.

All of my friends have faded away and don't talk to me anymore. No one texts or calls or anything. Maybe a like on Instagram from one or two friends but goddamn, there's nobody here who even notices me anymore.

Only one girl but I feel like I'm trying hard to fit whatever description of a guy she might like.

>be me
>dating girl for 4 months
>got into a bigass argument today and decided to take a break from our relationship
>im getting depressed as shit and i think she is too
>i can't tell her bc she always calls me out on keeping my word
>meanwhile my gains arent getting anywhere and im still a scrawny fuck

Long stretches?

I don't know if it helps, but I actually have something right here.
I had to compress it due to Veeky Forums image size limits. Don't know if it will be readable.

happy for you user

I hope to live a life like yours someday

Thanks for the thought but I'm in the Austin area. Traffic sucks balls here. I'd probably go south or maybe further north. How long did it take you to start going long distances like that? The most I ever really do is like 6 miles but I'm never really tired after that. Maybe thirst as fuck, but that's just the summer heat. Also biking in pants.

>gf of 5 years is out at a concert with her friend
>just glad to have some time alone because I'm fucking sick of her
>don't want to break up with her because I'd have to find a new place to live as a broke law school student
>finished another semester with a 4.0 and made impressive gains at the gym
>went to my niece's birthday dinner tonight and nobody in my family cares about my achievements
>bought a single Sabaton ticket because I have no friends
>day 1 of my cut and it sucks already

This jazz music is comfy tho

Instead of hanging out with and smashing Tinder date, I went to hang with a bro, crashed some shit birthday party and didn't talk to a single female the whole night. But it's aight, I get that it takes time to get over a long relationship etc.

The first thing is: I recommend getting one of those clamp-on bars on the back of your bike (if you don't have one already) that allows you to strap like 3 to 6 drinks down. Or always just carry lots of money and stop at gas stations to buy drinks when you need them.

It took me about 2 months to get into going long distances. Not all of my initial training was on bike. I'm not sure how much it played a role, but before I did long haul biking, I'd go on really long walks. Obviously not as much distance, but every bit as much time.

I don't try to go very fast. Ironically when I rode with my sister once (she almost never bikes), I struggled to keep up with her. Just because she averages 10 to 12 mph, and I average like 8 mph. Kinda felt wrong. She almost never uses her bike, and yet after months of cycling I still cant keep up with her.

But anyway, the point is: if you push yourself and stay properly hydrated, and go for long distance at a COMFORTABLE pace, you should be able to go long distances pretty soon. If you're willing to put obsessive amounts of time into it. And I mean like: You wake up, eat breakfast, go cycling, and accept that that is the only thing you're going to do with your Saturday.

God, I have to do laundry tomorrow.

what major

Also don't stress yourself out a ton on the job search, it sucks but just suck it up and avoid the bullshit

My somewhat mild OCD tendencies have taken over my life & made relationships difficult.
I have the gym & I'm making gains but my significant other refuses to get fit. How can I convince them to get on my level & stop eating garbage, Veeky Forums?

I don't have any advice for you other than my own story

>finals week two weeks ago
>same position as you
>gpa is pretty fucked
>university requirement is to have a certain number gpa to get into the specific college of study that I want
>have to ace every one of my finals
>work my ass off, say no to every other obligation that comes my way to make more time for studying
>finals grades just got posted three days ago
>ended up getting all a's
>barely get a passable gpa to get accepted into my area of study
>mfw

It may seem like a hard task, but if you put the work in anything can be possible

I believe in you user

Good advice. I've been biking to work for going on 5 years now. Usually bike a few miles to work, work 7-9 hours, then bike back home. After that I'm usually pumped and have energy to spend. I only crash if I got less than 5 hours the night before or worked longer hours at work.

I've experimented with being in the saddle, out of the saddle, slow, fast and anything else I can think of. I think I can mentally take it but the only think limiting me has been hydration. I think the longest I did was 3-4 hours without drinking anything. I felt like dying that day, but I learned a valuable lessen and got a good tan. Honestly I just have to go out and pick a distance to see if I can handle it. I'm thinking like 10-20 miles in one go without too many stops. In city limits though there are all kinds of stop signs, intersections and shit so I'm sure I'll have ample rest time.

My advice to you would be to just swallow your pride and tell her

If it really is hurting both of you that much you honestly do need to talk about it. Fuck keeping your word and all that

Also, 6 miles really is a good starting point. If you can do 6 miles, you can do 30. Just got to make sure you do it in the right way.

I wear blue jeans too. I actually prefer a completely-covered approach, for protection against: Sun, Bugs, Trees/Shrubbery, etc.

I go out with a helmet, sunglasses, full long-sleeved undershirt, full long-sleeved topshirt, blue jeans, and gloves. (red, so people can see your hands if you give them a 'stop' or 'go ahead' gesture)

And bring plenty of waters. Always bring 2 more water bottles than you think you need. Just in case.
If you use gatorade, make sure that you have 2 waters for every 1 gatorade.

Don't forget your helmet. Its not just to protect your head if you fall. It's also useful in smashing through low-hanging tree limbs when people forget to trim their trees. If you've got a good helmet, you can just lower your head and ram your way through.

Late 20s, and came home to my apartment where I live alone from my entry-level retail job where people almost a decade younger than me are my bosses. I definitely made bad choices, and am still skinnyfat after a year of working out.

>break up with gf of 2.5 yrs a few months ago
>really quick clean break
>still getting weird vibes from it
>still have to remind myself of the dumb shit she as doing
>comparing me to her friends relationships
>talking shit about me to her friends
>hugely hypocritical
>constantly annoyed with me
>and how it would not have gotten better
it was so good at the beginning though. I talked to two other chicks who were interested since the breakup, decided to not do anything until I sort myself and my life out a little

it's your diet

Thanks I just texted her. I think she may be asleep but I'm gonna keep waiting for a response.

Damn bro that sucks. Wtf are you eating that keeps you from making gains after a year

>3-4 hours without drinking anything.
Dude. You're going to die.

Take a drink break every hour. Try to kill a whole water bottle (or more) during each drink break.

Also, one thing very helpful for hitting those distance goals is those smartphone health apps.

I don't know if you've got Samsung, LG, Apple, HTC, ZTE, Nokia, whoever. But most of the major cell phone providers have a health app with a cycling mode, where you can literally see your goal tick down as you complete each mile. (or part of a mile)

Found out today I might have blood cancer

Something is wrong, had a doc tell me a few things

Got a second opinion, and they mention get in touch with a specialist ASAP

Have an appointment tomorrow to give blood and will see where it goes. I turn 30 next year, wonder what will happen if this diagnosis is confirmed

>Dude. You're going to die.
kek that was only once and I never again wanted to go that long. I normally get hydrated well before biking in the event that I might go longer than I plan to. I'm looking for a good steel water bottle that I can take with me on my regular bike trips. Maybe when I start going long distance I'll get a bag that can hold a few bottles with me. What do you think about those hydration backpack things? I bike with a backpack all the time so having the extra load on me isn't all that troublesome.

I use MapMyRide and that seems to work pretty well. I use the free part of it and that's kept me pretty motivated and given me the base for what I think I can do. I like that you can save rides that you've done before into a route and use that as a workout "plan".

I care about you, dude. Even if no one else does.

thanks user

i'd say more but my keyboard just died. We're here for you.

Boyfriend is out of town so I'm slamming boiled eggs and whey and not holding back my farts

Feels good man

wow

even if it doesn't mean much you're in my thoughts bro

my dad is dealing with cancer rn. fuck cancer

cause i cant talk to people.

5'5 manlet genes made me into the biggest introvert. Now i Got Veeky Forums so i can take buff pictures in the mirror for tinder and say im 6 foot and talk to all the girls that match me, Masturbate to the conversations and then block them.

Start talking to semi-pro female basketball players. One of them will have a buff manlet fetish and will prob be dtf. You may be able to spare your children from your fate....but this is the only way.

Same boat as you. Up the working out and find a hobby. Learn an instrument, play some games. Take things slow and try to enjoy the day. Meditate maybe:v

might do this lol

0 cost and 0 drama

Dude I fucking WISH I had a punch bag, not even my local gym has one. It sucks man

Feels real good to just punch the stress away, I'd go back to boxing or muy thai but I snapped a ligament in my only good knee and the other one has floating patella

>tfw its my birthday today and all I want is a punching bag but house is too small for one

oh no man i gave up on children a long time ago.

The manlet genes run in the family. My grandfather is 5'5, His grandfather was 5'6. Im not bringing another manlet into this cruel world.
Adoption all the way.

>tfw I got prognosis'ed with Leukemia when I was 2
>Inflammatory levels were 21 (I'm not kidding)
>4 years later I was clean af

You'll make it, bro. I got real lucky but if I can slip by after being hospitalized after birth for a whole year with Failure to Thrive you can make this easy with a Veeky Forums body.

>There is nothing wrong with being a mantlet

dw about the meme dude, theres happiness in many forms out there. Keep at it, even if you don't somebody, we all find someTHING that keeps us here for 40+ years.

I just feel really bad. All the time.

Here goes a blog post.
>have really good friends, (SRS, because of them I wasn't horribly miserable this winter)
>but one likes to push my buttons about this one girl who's like a sister to me because she's basically saved my life (but he doesn't know)
>watching UFC, and the banter about this girl begins
>user is a virgin joke and chasing after her jokes
>Gets to the point where they start disrespecting her and I have to control myself not to yell something about friends disgusting gf
>situation calms down as I redirect Banter

On one hand, I'm glad I could control my anger, but at the same time it annoys me. I am definitely going to speak to him tomorrow, but I just don't know how harsh to be. What would /fit do. They both mean a lot to me, but lines were crossed.

yeah its fine really. But sometimes you can just feel really inferior when everyone is bigger than you and you have to constantly look up to people.

>be DYEL skinnyfat
>go for 275 1x5 diddly
>do it but now the back of my hip hurts

I'm probably gonna have to deload. Fug.

The only girl I've ever loved in my entire life got married today and people at work noticed my shitty behavior because I was all depressed n' shit and couldn't hide it and everyone knew.

I ironically started lifting because she liked big, strong guys.

During her wedding, I was in the gym and was the only person there this saturday night, and I was just lifting with a heavy heart.

...hopefully someone will love me. I only have tuesdays and thursdays off from work, but tomorrow I am taking a point and taking off work. I'm depressed, and I got Monday and Tuesday naturally off, so that's 3 days in a row.

As a 23 year old going on 24 in july, I am truly one depressed, tired, lonely motherfucker.

>on vacation seeing old friends
>see best friends from high school
>recently released from mental hospital
>had no idea he had been going through the shit he was going through
>went to the loonie bin because was thinking about sucide
>I've also been talking with this amazing girl I met on a cruise a couple months ago
>have been slowly falling in love with her
>talked to her almost everyday since the ship
>only 2 hours from where I'm visiting friends
>spent time with her at her place, she spent time here with me and my friends
>met friend recently released from mental hospital
>he killed himself 2 days ago
>blew his fucking brains out
>can't decide if I'm glad I saw him before he did it or if I might have done something to cause it
>the girl is first person that wasn't my family I told
>See her tomorrow
>she's having a graduation party
>She is moving to her dad's and then starting basic soon
>might never see her again
>losing 2 people I love in different ways in under a week
>never been hit this hard before
>feel numb inside
>can't really process it anymore it's just so much

same

lifting is my only escape from this

It's my birthday but I don't have anywhere else to go.

I wouldn't get too worked up about it. they were obviously just messing with you and trying to get a reaction out of you. It sounds like you handled it the best way that you could.

Damn user I feel for you. You didn't make him kill himself. At the end of the day, whatever he was feeling is not your fault.

dude seriously the whole manlet thing is just a meme. people on this site really like to make fun of people who are shorter than the rest, manlet threads are designed to irritate people like you but they are full of shit. you really shouldn't take it to heart, you deserve just as much as any other human being on this godforsaken planet. this is coming from a dude who is 6'4 and has virtually no life so he spends his saturday nights on Veeky Forums. don't worry so much about it.

Alright sure, why not. It's final exam time, so I'm really stressed out. I've been slipping on controlling my diet for the past week. Still trying to go to the gym but I've had to say no a few times because of work and studying. I'll be back to normal again after Monday though.

That aside, my ex has told me that she's going to break up with her boyfriend. We stay friends because there aren't too many people around that have as much stuff in common as us. I literally have less than 5 people I can truly call friends, and I talk to a decent amount of people. Anyways, she dropped hints that she might want to get back together. The initial breakup was hard on me, but I've been getting in shape and improving myself. It's been about a couple years since the breakup, so feelings have come and gone. I'm not sure if I should go for it or not.

Also trying to find an internship this summer before it's too late. I recently changed majors so I have very little chance of getting anything. I still have a job at least. It's fun, pays decently, and the people there are cool, but the reality of having a job I'm ashamed to tell people I have is really getting to me. I don't want to flip burgers anymore.

At least summer is coming soon. There will be plenty of time for fun and improvement. I wish I had some alcohol right now though.

>obsessively listening to tame impala et al. on spotify so I can have a daily mix with them on it when the girl from tinder comes over later
this is my life now, how about that eh

> in the back of a cab on my way to vegas for work
> just had my birthday with family and gf
>hit prs on all my lifts last week.

Feeling good how about you?