/MHG/ Mental Health General

Hey Veeky Forumsizens, come on in and talk about your problems. Give some advice and get some advice. Anyone else notice anxiety is good for cutting? I don't feel hungry most of the time, and what I do eat goes thought me without being mostly digested.

>people at work see me as Chad
>one eyed is king in the land of the blind
>like Stacy at work
>Stacy invites me to do all kinds of things
>develop feelings for Stacy
>people keep commenting Stacy is in love with me
>people notice I like Stacy
>Slowly notice Stacy likes a manlet from work, hardly anyone notices
>Stacy still invites me to all kinds of social things
>when I am with her and men invite her to do something she often replies "I am only coming if Chad is coming too"
>the internal struggle is killing me, I want to be around her but being around her makes me realise she does not like me that way
>get invited by two female coworkers to go swimming, Stacy ends up coming too.
>the people are work are mirin saying they wont come if I go since I am good looking
>The manlet Stacy likes comes by and she acts like she hardly knows him
>now its Stacy's last day and she asked me if I am going clubbing with her and two female coworkers
>keeps asking me to come, saying she will stalk me.
>I know she only invited me to be fluff
>It feels like wanting to cuddle with someone that put a knife in you, the the closer you are the more pain it brings.

>I want to see her
>I know it will end up with me feeling like shit

Finally fall in love again since my exgf left me
Being in love sucks when its not going your way bro's

>he has FEMALES who HANG OUT with HIM

Sounds like you are too pussy to make the first move

If its her last day you got nothing to lose
I know its easier said than done but still
If you never dare you never win.
There is a chance to turn your pain into happiness you only have to be honest.

Probably easier to do when you are both shitfaced so i'd say you should def. Go clubbing with her and try your luck

I need a hug, brehs.
I'm afraid I won't make it.

>feel very strongly like I should have been born femanon since 8yo
>never plan on taking steps to transition bc "I was born a guy for a reason"
>wouldn't pass anyways, wide shoulders, thicc neck, 196cm, etc.
>extreme body dysmorphia, 110kg but still see myself in the mirror exactly how I looked at 196kg
>every time my numbers go up on lifts I feel more and more insecure about my lifts
>oral fixation so binge eating is a problem, picked up smoking just to stop eating all hours of the day
>a few other things, not directly related to physical fitness
I'm part of the ngmi group desu

Brah, I don't know you but In know what that feels like. I wish i could give a hug to everyone on fit that need it.
>n-no homo

Remeber, purpose over feelings. You've got this senpai, there's no time limit to "making it" and you have to keep looking forward.

Man, I don't know how i even feel anymore
>My group of friends starts hanging out with a group of cool grills
>Most of them have issues but are high functioning, same as my group
>Best Friend hooks up with one of them
>Decides he doesn't really like her that much and they split
>Hear from friend that she would be cool with hooking up with me
>We start chatting but nothing ever happens
>She has a bad period with drugs
>Gets a shitty boyfriend
>He threatens to kill himself when she goes to hang out with her friends
>At party last night
>She's close with my friend the whole time
>They're talking and sitting the whole time
>He knows I'm still into her

I know I have no claim on her, and shes obviously not interested, but I'm still struggling to get over it. It seems like I get obsessed with every grill that shows the least bit of affection to me. Part of me is pissed at my friend, but at the same time I know I have no right to feel this way. Its like ill never leave highschool bullshit behind.

>be 25
>in my final year of medicine
>work fulltime in the hospital
>sensitivefag
>3 times a week of 1 hour jogging in the morning
>3 times a week of 2 hour boxing class in the evenings
>about 5 hours of biking a week
>history of social anxiety and mild affective disorder with episodes of severe depression
>going to a psychiatrist once a week since 2 1/2 years
>refuse to take medications because in my experience they won't work and imo most of them are a hoax
>can't dissociate myself from my negative egocentric thought patterns
>started using benzos regularly on weekends so i can participate in social activities

Any ideas what else i could do to achieve more tranquility in my mind so i can grow as a person?

Thanks brehs. My oneitis fucked my friend in the other room while I slept. feels fucking bad

iktf, I was at a party a few months ago and this grill I thought I was going to hook up with goes into a room with another guy. I ended up going off with my friends and we beat the shit out of each other. It was cool, but i still feel like shit about it.

It seems like you're doing really well in the physical aspect to help mentally. Do you think you do enough social stuff? That can be a huge roadblock to development on a personal level. If you have issues with autism like most of fit, start trying to treat your social skills like any other muscle. It'll be painful, but you need to grow there to progress as a person.

I also know that feel. My oneitis fucking teased me and lead me on for a year and one of my former best friends started hitting on her knowing I was into her. Then she rejects me and now they are a couple. Fuck that shit. The blow to my pride is the worst part about that whole situation. Now I'm removing myself from that whole friend group because I realized they never really respected me anyway, and they all witnessed it happen and they know I got cucked. At least I know now not to ever associate with people like that anymore.

>date girl for a month and get dumped
>Almost 3 months later and it's still all I think about

I just want out of this mental fog hell, it makes me feel even more pathetic obsessing over something so short.

If you're taking benzos then why do you think all meds are bullshit?
There are different kinds of treatment, some medication is used to keep people sane with chronic mental illness, while other methods of therapy are used to lighten the symptoms of the illness itself.

Don't think of it as the meds would cure you, they would take the edge off and reduce anxiety and depression.
This will allow you to have more energy and be able to be more sociable, while on these meds you would go to therapy with preferably less negative thought patterns so cognitive therapy would be more beneficial.
It would also allow you to become more acquainted with stressful situations that you would otherwise not put yourself in without medication, meaning your anxiety will lessen after you are off the meds.

Medication doesn't have to be chronic, you can use it as a tool.

Source: Someone so anxious they have been on Veeky Forums for 5 years and panics even thinking about going to a gym.

My current relationship is making me deeply, deeply unhappy and is a constant source of anxiety. I want to vent and explain the entire thing to anonymous people on the internet but the situation is so complicated I don't even trust myself to explain it properly.

Jesus fucking Christ I fucked up boys

explain

Anyone has experience with ocd? I keep remembering all my failures and embarrasment every second of my life when I'm not distracted and I semi-involuntary say things, sometimes even in public, like cursing.

I'm diagnosed as schizophrenic, but I think I'm schizotypal with stress-induced psychosis. The only thing that bothers me about it is they won't let me do this ten day ten hours a day meditation retreat I've wanted to go on for a couple years because "in our experience, schizophrenics don't benefit from doing this"

As long as it won't harm you I can't see why not. I would argue not allowing a patient to undergo a therapy they've wanted to try for this long only makes them less susceptible to other kinds of therapy.
Tell them this idea won't leave you alone and unless they think this could lead into a psychotic break or something (I don't know your mental health, hope you're doing better) then you want to go do it.
Hopefully it will either help you or just allow this notion to pass on by.

okay sry i wasn't specific enough.
I tried medication like different types of ssri's and atypic antidepressants with anxiolytic effect in the likes of gapapentin, pregabalin and lamictal. what i experienced was a positive change in the first weeks/months which could also be related to a placebo effect. i found it harder to be reliant on pill and especially when stopping a medication so i decided for myself to reduce my general anxiety/depression lvl through lots of sports, which has imo the same effect on me as chronic medication usage.

benzos on the other hand are another story since they give you a short total anxiety free period of time which is really nice when you just want to go out in a stressy enviroment and want to have careless fun like normal people.
Always in consideration that one has to be carefull with tolerance building.

Since i had problems though with said tolerance building i am trying to distance myself again from benzos and other centrally dampening substances.

Of course everybody is different so i agree with you that chronic medication can be helpfull and sometimes necessary in combination with therapy for some people.

I don't know if I can. It's a saga that started over a year ago and is filled with small incidents that built up over time

The tl;dr is I'm dating a girl I hate but who is extraordinarily sensitive, depressed and attached to me. I want to break up with her but I don't want to break her heart.
I have no move

>Probably have some kind of personality disorder
>Isolate my self most of the time
>Can't understand how my family and a friends are still with me even though i don't care about them
>Can't connect with others
>Hide behind a mask of humility, empathy and patience in public but i'm actually the opposite of that
>Rarely feel joy
>Years of porn addiction has fucked me up sexually
Let's just say i really don't like myself personally

meditate

Alen?

gotta do what you gotta do

>when she turns off chat for you in FB
>when you keep noticing that 1m on FB, knowing shes online but shes hiding from you
t-thanks

Fuck. That's me.

Going on ritalin destroyed me, it has totally ruined my sexual functioning in every way and no doctor I've seen has taken the problems seriously. Some even saying "It's all in your head".

I'm a neet so don't have the money to go private. Sucks because of childhood trauma I've had a fucked up life and didn't honestly think anyone could ever like me. That's not true, actually the complete opposite. On hornet currently 62 people favourited me. For a self-conscious cunt like me that's unbelievable.

62 fucking people.

But, ritalin also made me break out in a rash, mainly behind the eyebrows, hair started falling out massively with my scalp getting itchy/dandruffy (I did start doing no-shampoo around the same time too which added to the problem I think), my eyebrows have thinned hard too but apparently my thyroid is fine.

It sucks now, after going through therapy, being able to accept people do like me and are attracted to me and not being able to act on it. I'm thinking of going on rogaine or whatever to stop any further hairloss because there's no way I can handle going bald on top of all this.

I just want my fucking dick to work! One evening a few years back I had a wank, went to bed, had a wet dream which I was shocked at and then had another wet dream later that night, I always used to wake with morning wood but not since going on ritalin (which I stopped almost three years ago). Maca and zinc have no effect on me either.

FUCKKKKKK!

Wow, this sounds exactly like my situation.
It's been 3 months since dating this girl from my school and I still can't get her out of my mind.

Read "No More Mr. Nice Guy" asap.

>have been gyming for over 2 years
>go from 93kg down to 71kg at this stage
>looking Veeky Forums
>struggled with anxiety and depression since my early days of schooling.
>gym helps a little bit, but i still have no real mates and never had a gf apart from scoring some pussy from tinder ONCE
>recently decided to book a 3 month backpacking adventure across europe to help with my issues
>hopes to actually enjoy myself for once

user, suggest you meditate.

Does anyone else here use asmr as a way to escape the crushing loneliness? It just started as a just a relaxation thing, but now its the only way I find casual intimacy in my life. I don't even care so much about getting laid or having a girlfriend, I just want someone to hold my hand and cuddle with. I feel pathetic, but its the only thing I've found to cure my lifelong issue with falling asleep.

>I ended up going off with my friends and we beat the shit out of each other.
??

I'm crying

>tfw cunt friend doesn't celebrate birthday with me
So much for best friend.
>tfw your army buds would never betray you, but they're all underground now

>I just want someone to hold my hand and cuddle with.

This

>41682294
I do this with qt japanese ASMR

Nah man, its fun sometimes. When everyone's drunk and has some shit going on in their lives, its cathartic. Fightclub has a lot of stupid shit, but it was onto something with that.

Call me back when you turn 18

>be given a scholarship for a seminar for life improvement or something by a friend
>go and give it a shot despite internal resistance
>do every assignment and feeling committed to completing it
>second day of 3.5 we do a guided exercise on Fear
>no big deal this is one of my favorite topics, read a lot about that emotion back in the existential days
>leader has people close eyes and relax
>go along with it
> have a fucking disassociative episode
>find myself in another room really confused and instantly know I had lost my shit
>smoke a cigarette and chill with friend until I'm back from the daze of the aftermath
>be told I can't go back to the program

It sucks to be mentally ill. I feel like shit.

It may have failed, but at least you try to get better. There's so many people that take mental illness as an excuse to give up on life. You're already ahead of them all.

It just sucks to be told I can't do anything. I become my diagnosis. People want me medicated all the time. I got fat and suicidal on antidepressants. I was a zombie on lithium. Seriously one of the worst experiences of my life. I had visual hallucinations on Seroquel. I'm trying so hard man there was a time I couldn't leave my house. I've been hospitalized. People didn't think I'd function.

The thing I was trying to overcome there was my feelings of worthlessness. This makes me feel like I'm legitimately worth less to the world than other people are. It just sucks. I didn't choose this for myself.

I know that feeling, my shit hasn't been that bad though. For me its my autism that make me feel like a failure compared to all my friends. its been going on for so many years that I don't even feel like anyone can actually like me anymore.

tfw no gf

>tfw I never get a chance to talk to her