What can I do about skipping workout due to depression?

i don't need muscles
i just want to be less of a fat fuck

Funnily enough, I always fall into a really poor state of mind when leaving my parents for a workweek on Sundays.
I feel really bad. Somehow all of my negative emotions seem to stir up and I have tears in my eyes when driving away.
These feelings stay with me for the entire 45 min. drive to my flat and persist until I unpacked all my bags...
But then I hit the gym. After that hour I feel normal again. No matter how shitty my thoughts were before.

I'm quite sure it's the same for you. You won't feel worse after working out for sure. Especially cardio gives a huge mental boost.

yeah, it's true, I do feel better after a good workout
all I need is something to make me begin
that's why i asked, I don't think I would've cared enough if working out was a bad feeling

Well you asked Veeky Forums about working out through a mental illness, I suppose this is what you get. Get therapy, now. Depression can be overcome, but you need help if you're clinically depressed. This shit kills a lot of people, don't take it lightly. Take care of your mind and its health, it's what gives you the experience of living

Really user, get help. This can be overcome - see a therapist (or two, or three - until you get someone you feel comfortable with).

thanks and yeah, I'm planning on doing that asap
it's just that I've been fine for a while because I was in a relationship and I didn't need anything else from life but then we broke up, then i got into some mess with my friends and it came back

The knowledge of feeling better after having started is quite a good reason to begin, don't you think?

there's like an invisible force stopping me

Yeah I feel you. I suppose one has to strive to have some margains when it comes to bottoming out, life hits hard sometimes even when you're healthy.

I believe in you my man, you can get through this. You deserve to feel alright, you're working against the wind trying to get to the gym with a depression. That said, exercise is a great tool to establish routine and getting some feel good-chemicals going, but getting to talk to someone is what's going to enable you to learn to spread your wings again, without being afraid to fall.

I believe in you man, you can do this

thanks man
I'll keep trying my best

lift
cunt

fuck of he's mentally ill, you try doing anything with a chemical imbalance in your brain

ikr
i'm a fag as well

how does caffeine/preworkout affect you?

does it fill you with energy to the point where your body feels like it needs to move??

Maybe it can help. Just an idea.

only enough caffeine to cause a crash
which is not a good thing, especially considering I'm willing to exercise everyday

we all are
cunt

I don't have problems with skipping training because I use all of my self loathing as fuel.
If you're as pathetic as you say you are I don't understand how you're unwilling to do whatever it takes to not be the worthless sack of shit that you are currently.
It's not the most healthy outlook, but it keeps me on an upward trajectory.

a little bit is always better than nothing

with regards to exercise, that is

ive been depressed before. It fucking sucks. All you do is just lay around not giving a shit about anything. Not eating, not working, not talking, nothing.
I got out of it without medication. But I really don't know how i made it out.

This has nothing to do with fitness and here your are in a fitness board trying to fix it.

What are you actually doing to deal with your depression? Therapy? Medication? Meditation?

Working out isn't your problem, depression is.

my problem is depression, however the problem i'm trying to fix here is lack of motivation for workout
pretty sure this Veeky Forumss Veeky Forums

I'm not saying it doesn't belong on the board, I'm saying you are focusing on the wrong thing.

Your lack of motivation isn't because you don't want to work
out, you obviously do or you wouldn't be asking for help. Your problem is the lack of motivation is caused by depression, that's a much bigger issue.

Even if you get motivation to workout, which by the way won't come from someone's answer here because our goals are different from yours, that won't actually solve what caused the lack of motivation.

You're asking for a bandaid for your bullet wound.

You also didn't answer my original question.

this guy is right. Focus on getting better, get therapy and possibly antidepressants

Yeah, I know. As I said however, it wasn't a problem for a while because I found a way to distract myself that lasted long enough for me not to require any help, but now it's over

anyway, I meditate once in a while, also I'm going to visit a therapist as soon as I can. In the past a friend who was studying psychology helped a lot, I should speak with him as well.

I was depressed and suicidal when I started lifting.

I was eating 500 calories a day and sleeping 3 hours a night and was living day by day and lucky to be alive right now

I lifted just the bar during squats, and fainted more than once. One time I woke up in vomit, with people surrounding me, and found out an ambulance was on its way.

My advice to OP is to spend your limitied mental energy on building the habit. Go to the gym if only just to shower and use the toilet, while you get comfortable. If you are too sick to lift one day then still go to the gym just to keep the habit. Maybe only do one compound lift if you are on verge of tears.

though again, i'm not interested in lifting nor using gym equipement. I can't stand feeling judged and that's how I feel when exercising in public

get mad
youtu.be/K91WIBsKu_Y?t=1m10s

I'm a human bean, god dammit
anyway, i'd rather not go too far considering I used to have anger issues

I have anger issues, but it's the only thing that keeps me going.

if you say so
for me it was a problem

Hey mate. Best thing to do in my experience is find someone else who goes and do a buddy system where you both go together and keep each other motivated.

I struggle to motivate myself but I've found that if someone else keeps you accountable for going to the gym it will encourage you more to go.

youtube.com/watch?v=kaNO09cPS6c&spfreload=1
watch , meditate

and if you need some help meditating heres headspace
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turn your depression into rage

You need to somehow force yourself to keep going. A body at rest tends to stay at rest and a body in motion tends to stay in motion
.Also people dont really care in the gym, most of em are just focusing on doing their own thing.

Try a 10-15 minute yoga video on youtube just to get your body moving, once you get that blood flowing, it's easier to get to the gym.

hey it's op again the morning after (can't set name because on shitty mobile app)
all you anons made me feel better and i managed to start my routine over somehow
i have risen like a phoenix
>probably the best workout i ever had
thanks to everyone
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also to all anons i didn't reply to: advice taken

I'm going to tell you a well known secret, everything is mind over matter. If you don't mind it doesn't matter. Quit feeling sorry for yourself. Think about and meditate on the positive things about your life, you, and always remember there are many who would live your shitty little problems. You are sad because life sucks generally for everyone. We don't just have good lives as adults, we have to make them good, and sometimes they're still shit-but we believe it's all good, and so it is. You are also likely depressed because of unfulfilled potential. Skipping your workout will only feed your depression. Get sunlight, water, eat your veggies, clean your room, and I guarantee you'll feel better.

You're supposed to lift to keep depression away, not skip workouts because you're depressed