How you holding up?

Slowly accepting that between work, the gym, and social obligations, I don't have time for anything else. I just want to play video games, but I guess that part of my life is gone.
Every time I come home from the gym, the "joy" I feel from it quickly fades and after realizing that I have to be back at work in about 10 hours I want to weep.
The sad part is that I don't even like video games or the gym that much anymore. The only reason I continue to go to the gym is because I'll hate myself even more if I don't go.
I should find another hobby, but the only thing that keeps the overwhelming sense of despair at bay is the moment I finish a set. Unfortunately that minor sense of accomplishment goes as easily as it comes.

Just ended things with my gf of 1 year. We got back together kinds for a couple months and it wasn't working so I broke it off because I want to fuck sluts. Going to a party on Saturday with all my friends I haven't seen in a while. This qt.3 is going to be there and told me I'm looking fit. So hopefully I'll smash. Moving out of my parents house in a month and I can stop working 60 hours a week starting in September.

>feelsgoodman

I have a weird ache in my armpit that I think is my rotator cuff, so I'm icing it and laying off the OHP and shitty-form pull-ups for a bit.

Threw a party over the weekend and it went really well, so other than this stupid shoulder crap all's well desu.how are y'all?

that picture is a favorite

Not too well right now, but I already know I'll make it out even better than I went in, so thats okay.

>The only reason I continue to go to the gym is because I'll hate myself even more if I don't go.

iktfb. I think a lot of us have been there. Just keep at it, don't worry too much about making gains but keep going, you'll return to a place in your life where that fire is present again and you'll be glad you kept things up.

As for myself, shit sucks. My girlfriend is an insane miserly emotional wreck that abuses me for not giving her enough money. I'm planning on moving out with my cat and my computer and whatever clothes I can bring and just ghosting this cunt in a couple months when I've saved up enough secret funds to afford escaping. Holy fuck. Brehs, don't ignore red flags. Ever. No matter how thirsty or lonely or confident you are.

Fasted yesterday now shitting my brains out. Idk what I ate but something went wrong it's straight liquid.

do you have a fucked up diet in general?

>Tfw +2 lb on 3x5 OHP and bench after being stuck for a month always missing 1 or 2 reps
>Still weak as fuck
>Probably didn't actually get any stronger, just had perfect bar path, speed, tightness, and luck on every rep this time

its a lot better than constantly wondering 'what if' good job lad

>old crush texts me out of nowhere
>catch up and talk for about 5 hours
>everythings going well
>end up saying something incredibly autistic and cringeworthy
>no response
Feelsbadman

Not really I get plenty of meat and veggies with decent amount of grains. Only problem is sometimes eat sweets and pizza. Ate burger with wheat bun for lunch and BBQ pork with veggies for dinner

its my bday tomorrow and im gonna be 22 with a chopped off middle finger from work, can barely lift but everything is alright

Had a horrible social interaction today, I truly see I just like and enjoy being alone and on occasion coming out of my shell. I don't enjoy situations where the attention isn't on you and you have to force yourself into social interactions.

I used to blame myself and say I hated myself too much, but I have to be honest I just don't care a lot about other people that much. Maybe that's why I'll always be the loner in the office

hmm I got nothing. anyone in this thread knowledgeable about fasting?

Proud of ya bruh.

>lifting at the gym
>the feels come in full force
>tears start dripping from my eyes
>don't have any cares anymore, basically given up socially so i keep lifting
>OHPing with tears streaming down my face
>people are looking
>don't even care

i'm still here lifting and there's tears on my phone. it actually feels pretty good. therapeutic.

Been lifting for 6 months and didn't get the results I thought I would get. My diet is probably the cause, but I'm still disappointed.

Make sure to check if she's doing fishy shit like setting up credit cards in your name or something.

did a week nofap and then binged on porn for 4 hours last night

I feel like killing myself

kek same here, I swear I'm going to hit a month this time around

Fucked, lads. Why is love so irrational? Graduated top of my class twice yet I went full beta on my ex trying to get her back. Begged, in fact.

She ghosted. Won't respond. Even thought of going to her place to see her and person and try to talk.

Ended up blocking her on everything, all social media, and her number. Guess I'll just pretend all this time I spent loving someone, making love, and spending money on her... just... didn't happen.

Fuck, lads. It's been months. I've been on dates with MODEL-TIER girls and all I can do is think about my old 6/10 ex. What the FUCK is wrong with me? I feel like I'm going insane. For awhile I would wake up sick. PHYSICALLY SICK. I would actually throw up thinking about her and how she has cut me out of her life like some cancer.

>used to hold my bicep
>used to say how much she cares
>used to write papers together and sit in class with each other
>used to talk every day and see each other multiple times a week
>used to sleep together
>used to do EVERYTHING together
>even was about to pay for her college

Fuck, guys. I'm going insane. I feel like such a fucking beta but I just can't move on. Help.

No regrets brother. Good job. Hope you get your 4pl8.

you aren't don't worry. You'll drive yourself into a pit if you act like your relationship never happened. Just use it as a learning experience.

Breakups suck bro. A lot. Just remember that most everyone has experienced the same as you, and they made it through it. Give it a couple of months.

>jobless for 5 months
>tired of endless hr bullshit
>tired of endless interview bullshit
>i just want some purpose in life
>i just want to hang out with friends and not have to worry about how im going to pay for everything in life

Sounds like you need to eat more?

Been there.

Change your perception. No one cares about you either, but normies know how to interact in public. Learn from them to "become" one.

Don't jump to conclusions, mate. Unless you really said something TRULY autistic.

>i'm still here lifting and there's tears on my phone. it actually feels pretty good. therapeutic.
i'm proud of you for not giving a fuck anymore my man
life is better when you realize that nobody but you matters

i fapped 4 times in 2 days (which is very rare, my urges are usually once every 3) and it's been a week since i've had an urge.

i must have used all my reserves. i don't even get the pleasant kind of morning wood anymore.

>Ended up blocking her on everything, all social media, and her number.
you did the right thing my man
now you just gotta wait until things get better
if you're into drugs, 4-aco-dmt is my fav after a hard part of life
it'll help you see how small all your worries are in the grand scheme of things

that moment isn't over dumbass.

Thanks for the response, fella.

I'm trying. I ended up going back to church and some Christian therapy sessions. I've never felt this broke up over someone. I pulled out my Nikon the other day and found a whole bunch of pictures of her doing some modeling for me at a river in the park. Fuck man, that was a good day.

It just amazes me how all this time can be invested and it just seems like she cut me out no problem at all. Like some psychopath or something.

Whatever though. I'm trying.

Thanks, man. I feel like blocking her was for the best too. I was blowing up her phone like a fucking retard for too long so that's the only way I can stop. I'm not into drugs really, beyond performance enhancing drugs. I actually just started a cycle of test-e to get back into shape. I also do moda from time to time for long days at work or when I have a bunch of shit I have to do.

Always wanted to try shrooms, lsd, and other drugs of that nature but can't because I get random drug tests at work.

i had a 4/10 GF who worshipped me and i dumped her.

i didn't have that much in common with her, she didn't have the prettiest face, and she was a little flat.

but she was skinny, she was the right height and she always wanted to hang with me.

every once in a while i tell myself 'why did i give this up'. why did i think i could do better. why did i think she wasn't good enough

she was literally the best i could do and i threw it away. i haven't had a gf in 5 years. i have social anxiety up the ass. i was 22 when i stuttered my ass off about going steady with her. i'm fucking retarded.

now i'm on Veeky Forums working to at least be half the person girls want me to be. the least i can say is that i've grown socially, but i still can't carry an interesting conversation on my own. i can only do that when i'm entering an existing one.

>youtube.com/watch?v=Jbk4Tl4K8fM&list=PLRQlmBkNGzQ0sYJmIqvkaT0N0dpALB7rH
Do this exercise. Fucked up my shoulder multiple times with bad bench form and with dumb bell shoulder press once. Doing this with a broomstick really helped my shoulders heal up. I also do this as a stretch before OHP and bench and never had problems since.

>Christian
>Doing drugs
Not saying I'm perfect or that I dont fall senpai but you have to realize that you already have one of the most fulfilling things that there is and that is a relationship with Christ.

shrooms helped me after a breakup. I recommend trying them sometimes

Christ did drugs and also turned water into drugs

>working to at least be half the person girls want me to be

ultimate omega
you did her a favor by breaking up with her

she would hve broken up with you eventually when she saw how much of a colossal faggot you are

>Doing shrooms/acid is the same as having a cup of wine
Really activated my almonds

thanks brah. i've let my form go after hitting lmao1pl8, too, so time to start paying better attention

You'll make it man. Don't know if you're still in contact with her, but maybe reach out?

It's long and complicated. I went to Catholic school from kindergarten to the end of middle school. Became edgelord Veeky Forums atheist in high school and throughout most of college. Eventually started going back, reading the KJV, etc. I'm not perfect and know I have a lot to work out... idk. It's complicated for me. I'm figuring that out too.

Yeah I probably do. I've been on a cut and was hoping to put on a little muscle. I've been eating 1,800cal and 100g prot/day

Trying to avoid the friendzone with this new girl. Fucking purgatory of dating, let me tell ya

>Always wanted to try shrooms, lsd, and other drugs of that nature but can't because I get random drug tests at work.
triptamine based psycadelics won't be caught on a drug test

I feel you senpai, I was Catholic and became an atheist in highschool, eventually met someone who invited me out to his Bible study and college and became convinced that god was real. I have a lot of my own problems that I need to work on, I feel like I've started drinking too much to curb my anxiety about the future and also jerk off way more than I should as well as have some identity issues, it's definitely not easy and I have a lot to work on myself but all that Jesus cares about is that we try, honestly try, not to be perfect.

>meet much older woman during pilgrimage in europe
>we start traveling together, I put the moves on her, we hook up and have sex every night throughout the galician countryside
>see her a few more times after that, she video chats me to see my face so she can sleep
>she gets depressed that she's not able to see me, and the impossibility of our age gap working out sets in
>tell her that she should look into finding someone more her age, want her to be happy
>she does

Eztremely bittersweet feeling.

>have a gf whom i absolutely love
>got a new job a few months back
>girl who works there is insanely pretty, but i never speak to her because have a gf so what the fuck
>girl at work is all of a sudden showing insane amounts of interest in me out of nowhere.
>going out of her way to talk to me constantly and shit, i did nothing to warrant this either.
>shes actually cool, and as I said insanely pretty
>still have my gf who im perfectly happy with, but now im crushing hard on the girl from work
I am 1000% not going to cheat or do anything with this girl, as i love my gf more than anything, but the emotional turmoil this is creating inside me is fucking awful. I dont really feel like i can tell anyone either because i feel guilty for crushing on this girl. the only good thing is that the anguish is fueling my workouts pretty well so theres that...

Lifting's always been my solace during summer, else I'd probably be inebriated 24/7 with all the spare time I'm left to think about my pathetic life.

Unrelated to fit.... What texts do you recommend studying? I got another year before taking the exam so I'm in the market for books now.

Respect

>been liftan for 2 years now
>Weak and look like shit
>Buddy of mine started lifting 3 months ago and he already looks better
>No job no education no future
>Kisless virgin
>Losing will to lift
Should i just kms?

Why not join clubs related to your major or interests?

No because at the end of the day we're all gonna make it brah
You just need to get a skill while you lift and market that skill so you can get a job, just use the discipline you've gotten from lifting and also pick up an instrument or some sort of hobby you like doing, you're probably better off than you actually think you are. I believe you can do it user

Girlfriend on business trip from work, focusing on routine. Gym, work, martial arts, sleep, repeat. Makes time fly. Didn't get any heavy feels yet so that's a plus.

You did good user

Lifting isn't the be all and end all, cunt. You've imposed your own limits to an extent.

Find something you're actually suited to doing, whatever that may be. See your confidence increase. Fuck, don't any of you cunts have capable parents.

I feel so tired from living user
I don't think I'm gonna make it

Damn user, were you insured? I totalled a car once by running it (accidentally) into a boulder, but things worked out fine

> Fuck, don't any of you cunts have capable parents.
Nope

Nice job user! You should be proud

Please try focusing more when you're lifting user, I wouldn't want you to hurt yourself, but good on you that you kept at it. You'll lift those feels eventually

>GF of 3 years broke up with me, basically said I'm a loser

It hurts bros, but I'm entering Cocoon-Mode for the next year and when she wants to get back together, I'm gonna tell her to fuck off.

if i had capable parents inwouldnt even know what Veeky Forums was

i also wouldnt be smoking heroin

know your amino acids by heart, be familiar with as many lab techniques in biology/chemistry as you possibly can. new MCAT has no pure physics/math questions, but be passingly familiar with the equations. my shittiest section was psych/soc, so its worth spending cram time on. other than that practice tests help, and so does being a DAMN good reader. speed reading accurately saved me an ass load of time, finished each section with about 20 min to spare

turned 22 today, still a virgin, still not happy with my body

so tired of this Veeky Forums

>Only life goal I had is never gonna happen because of my genetics (I've posted about it before so I won't elaborate unless someone really wants to know)
>Insane Body Dysmorphia, feel smaller then ever after 1 1/2 years of lifting
>Can't sleep because I've been getting dreams about some childhood shit I thought I put behind me.
>Get angry and start hitting things, getting hard to control emotions.
>Feeling intense existential dread and self loathing
I think I need to go pray.

Does anyone here feel like they were born just to fail.

I'm 25 and I dropped out of college when I was 20. I went from a business admin major to a marketing major to finally, an accounting major (I don't know why I picked that because I suck at math). I hated all three of my majors and I really didn't know what I was doing in school, so I just ended up leaving. I've been working at this easy/shitty restaurant for the past 7 years and I'm finally ready to quit. I want to leave so badly. I hate all my coworkers and I feel like the place is really taking its toll on me. Even though its easy, I still fuck up a lot. I feel like a dumb fuck everyday I step foot into that building.

I've tried to find other jobs in offices, but no one wants to hire a college drop out. I can't even get an easy high school lvl office job. I've tried to get a IT cert, but that didn't workout. I don't really want to go for a trade. I'm not physically/mentally strong enough for the military either.

All I want is to work in a nice office with good people. I just feel stuck right now and I feel like nothing will ever change.

>drinking
Man, been there. I used to kill whatever alcohol was in my fridge then go teach classes at the university the next morning hungover. Best way to avoid using it is to stop buying it and being around it. Includes going with your friends to the bar. Save it for special occasions like concerts, weddings, etc.

Found out i can only do 1 one handed pushup on either arm and its making me so fucking mad that I can't do more

>and when she wants to get back together, I'm gonna tell her to fuck off.
Let me tell you, lad. That WILL happen. I saw my ex at the grocery store after two years of lifting and she wanted to hang out again. Said I'd think about it and then she wanted a "nice to see you hug" after and I denied that cunt kek. She broke up with me for the same reason. Because I was a "loser." Now she's almost 30 with dried up eggs working a 40k year job. Congrats on being a "career woman" bitch.

>financially unstable
>classwork is getting harder
>job work is getting harder
>my place is a mess
>can't even lift what I used to
>30% body fat never goes away
>grandmother slowly going insane
>girl I loved moved away
>old friends don't understand me anymore
>New friends are shallow husks of relationships
>no qt3.14159 I want to ship
>don't have time to read philosophy
>don't enjoy video games anymore
>don't enjoy any of my old hobbies anymore

I'm hanging in there I guess. Two more years of this and then I'll be a lawyer or something.

Anxiety is getting a hold of me again
My brain won't shut up

Last few weeks were so good, but the switch got flipped yesterday for some reason

Sit down and meditate for 10 minutes. Set a timer. Focus on your breathing. Let the anxious thoughts come to mind, but eventually be aware you are having them and return to your breathing.

not so good, senpai. Had a long, busy day between making up a workout and working all afternoon/evening

came home, made dinner, realized how much i would like to have come home to a nice gf. In a really transitional period right now so even if i had the chance to get one it wouldn't be for very long

Do you guys think that some people are just born to be alone?

embrace solitude. READ READ READ. Learn to play an instrument or find another hobby. READ

I'm not too well, I fell I wasted the last five years of my life.

i think people can overcome that stuff, it just takes work and some luck.

I'm flying out to visit a close friend in October. That's pretty much the only event I'm looking forward to between now and then.
I wish my life was more exciting.

You probably need a different hobby that makes you meet women casually in a free-pressure environment.

Take some dancing classes.

would just be nice to have someone to "decompress" with at the end of a long day. I'm independent enough to be fine on my own but god damn to i want someone to just "be" with sometimes

Thanks, I'll try my best.

I used to think that, then at age 27, I somehow ended up with a wonderful girlfriend.
I think it helped that I worked to be happy with myself, so I can make someone else happy to.

This is bad advice. No. Join a club at your uni. Add EVERYONE on facebook from your classes. If you see someone in your class, go up to them at the cafe and say, "Lol, Professor Smith is killing me with this paper." Make friends with your professors during their office hours. Join a club or organization which relates to your major.

I'm giving you advice from the other side, lads. Listen to me. No one gives a fuck about your hobbies, instruments, what you've read. They care about who you know and how you're involved in the community. I used to be extremely autistic to the point of eating cake alone during club meetings and would lie and say I have to leave early for "work" or something. No. Quit being a faggot and make some friends. Trial by fire cunt.

Don't get me wrong. Personal development, /fitlit/, all that is important. But I'm telling you, socializing will get you a lot further and will make you happier in the long run.

Trying to get my drivers license.... Taking too long and its making me pissy.

>be happy with myself

How did you do this?
I have a lot of insecurities, family problems and social problems.

Can I get a gf through /fitlit/ without doing all of that anxiety inducing social interaction?

It could go either way retard. Im doing great right now and i gave the advice. I didn't have any friends until about junior year and I don't even talk to those guys much anymore. I read constantly all day every day instead of drinking and wasting money. It helped me in the long run and I can play guitar pretty well now. The best place to make friends is through a job desu. I made my true friends at my first job and Im still close friends with my childhood budies. Most people in college are faggots and tools who only care about getting drunk and listen to coon toons at bars

Moved to a new city 2 months ago
>apartment wasn't ready so landlord dropped me in with two girls while he renovated mine
>they're both crazy party girls
>after a month living here sick of both of their shit
>fucked a few of their friends but now want nothing to do with either of them
>wouldn't fuck anyone associated with them even with a rented dick
>they constantly do drugs in the living room, weed, coke, shrooms
Fucking hell I hate this apartment. Hair goddamn everywhere. I move out on the first.
>no way to move my furniture up from home so I had to drop $300 dollars on a new bed and mattress for the new place in a week
However
>lifts have continued to go up even 30lbs into my cut
>finally fixed my squat form from a knee injury a few years ago
>work is going awesome, actually lift with my boss and wrote him a workout plan
>started reading more
Life is good. But bitches are crazy.

Got diagnosed with cancer back in January. Between chemo, radiation, and surgery, this year has been pretty shitty.

Not great, been 6 months since my twin brother was killed in a hit and run and I'm still struggling to get over it in the slightest. I just don't see the point of any of this shit any more, I mean people tell you that you should always carry on but there has to be a failsafe where there are certain things that can happen to you that just signal the end of your run and people will understand if you just pack it in, but I couldn't do that to my elderly parents so I dunno

HBD bro its also my birthday, dont fret, do your best and dont be autistic

How do I get a cute crazy azn bish?

Objectively everything is fine, but I keep sabotaging my relationship with a hot/cool gf because I can't get over the fact that she had sex with other people in the past. I think I'm ruined by Veeky Forums and redpillers.