How do you keep your mental health stronq?

Yeah. I mean life is pretty fucked up. Just thinking about it do we even know if life is "real" i'm not trying to sound deep and like a fucking philosophy graduate but life is fucking weird.

for some reason ive been struggling recently, i get to the gym and straight away i want to leave.

you inspired me

i eat butterdogs

like all the time breh
i feel this intense nothingness and im simply baffled by the fact that anyone can feel joy in this life
i just dont fucking get it

yup

said this in another thread but time to be an attentionfag again

daddy used to whip me and my brothers with a horse whip
i was molested at 10-11
my father made fun of me wih my uncle about it calling me a cock sucker
my mom was kinda ok but alcoholic (i dont blame her, i would havebeen to if i was her) would get very drunk and come into my room falling on the ground and telling me that she knows she is an unfit mother and shes sorry
i would hold back tears and say nothing just staring at the corner of the room blankly

i was kind of ok until i was about 21 but then suddenly everything that happened hit me, i kinda forgot most of it
started feeling like shit

got into heroin
got a hand tattoo
pretty much killed myself without killing myself
withdrawals are hell but its worth the period of time i get to be comfortably numb to everything

i hope the rest of you faggots are doing ok

>you inspired me

Strongly suggest never touching cigarettes. I started when I was 16/17. Always scared to go home after school since dad worked in the afternoons. In order to avoid going home on time after school I would hang out with the 'cool kids' and picked up the nasty habit of smoking.

Over the years its been an on and off relationship with cigarettes, mid 20's had a 1-2 years heavy, heavy drinking spree.

Otherwise I'm turning my ship around. All the best to you. I hope you can take away something positive from what I've shared.

Thanks for sharing user. I don't want to make comparisons as everyones experiences are their own. I hope you turn things around for yourself. Don't throw away the remaining years of your life over situations that you had no control over.

Accept it. Feel the anger/hatred/resentment acknowledge it and start moving on with your life. I truly wish you the best. I know its easier said than done.

>Classical studies meme
>Ignore every thinker in the past 1000 years

thanks for reading and the advice man
i tried letting myself feel those things and i couldnt handle it
maybe i will try again some day but right now i just got home with a bundle and im about nod myself into oblivion

Hang in there, brah.

Commit 1 rape every six months honestly the best decision ive made in my entire life

Define real. What is real? What is fake? Is logic real? Or is it fake?

Dostoyevsky and Sartre

>le 'in too deep' meme

nice one lad xDddddddd

I have no idea. I had a really good motivation spurt that lasted for about 4-5 years. Made steady gains in studies and physical well being. Then around last winter I just got 'depressed'. Went from 80kg to 60kg. Years of work trying to escape skeleton city lost. I haven't left the house in months. Now I got back to playing guitar and doing some light physical work and it might look like it could get better but idk. It doesn't help that I'm a sperg and too awkward to socialize with other people. Might probably end up even worse when uni starts in a month and I'm forced to go out.

by not coming to Veeky Forums

Stay strong brother.

As above
So below

Meditation seriously helps. I try to do it 3 times a day
>first when waking up
>afternoon
>right before going to sleep.

Mindfulness meditation, Happiness meditation and just straight prayer are what work best for me.

Other than that i want to start spending more time outside. Live in florida so its hot as fuck and hard to do.

>Live in florida

You poor soul

Avoid negative self-talk. That's probably one of the things you'll have issues with after being on Veeky Forums so much, because everyone here is always so down on themselves.

A wank a day keeps the gender dysphoria at bay.

Alan Watts and Earl Nightingal

cut out the fucking heroin man

you are making it impossible to get "comfortable numbness" from healthy habits like exercise for as long as you are not cold-turkey quit from heroin. you are spiralling out of control right now. FFS man cut it out so you can become somebody great

Muscle memory is real and you will gain your progress back faster

I guess you plan to get going with the gym this week, so that you have a good habit going for when you return to uni and can hit the ground running

I'm out brother. It's 4 am and I'm getting dressed for work.

I truly feel for you. I hope you turn things around. I don't know how. But I know you will.

90% of what I read about meditation seems like bullshit

Can you give me the 10%?

What am I supposed to feel afterwards, when is it most useful, how do I get better, what book/pdf/website is no-bullshit and good?

>florida
same, fuck.

Take a multivitamin and vitamin D. I don't know whether it's just memeing but I really don't get any sun at all ever and have a pretty homogeneous diet of chicken, rice, broccoli so it makes sense.

Also meditating a little and reading the book by this guy called culadasa gave me a useful model of where my thoughts come and how I can influence my thinking.

Then as my lifts went up also my mental energy seems to have improved.

I would like this too

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thanks man
have a good day at work
take care

quit cold turkey several times
both out of intent to quit and lack of gear
went through what i can only describe as infinite mental and physical torture but the thing about opiates is that once you try them, they make a vacation home in the back of your skull
even if you are clean for a while you will always be an addict and i swear to god ive tried but i just dont have the will to anymore

thanks
wouldn't call it strong but i am definitely staying

Obviously my waifu

Now on to the next thing you have to do in order to die happy.

Chances are, with this pattern of thinking' you will not die happy precisely because it is going to get harder and harder to accomplish that one last thing.

I do WIm Hoff daily with breathing and cold showers. My anxiety problems vanished.
I stay away from grains and proccesed dairy.
Daily exersize, and at least bi weekly trips to the woods.
Also I garden

Do me a favor and kill your father please.
Make sure not to get caught.

he got arthritis
and a shit load of other medical problems with his brain and heart
now he kinda starts whining that he is alone and nobody likes him

i dont even enjoy any of it

You need to go somewhere where "lack of gear" is a permanent thing and burn all bridges to stop yourself from getting more.

I know of one guy who went to a log cabin with supplies of food and water for a winter. He was forced to do it cold turkey

> even if you are clean for a while you will always be an addict

this is only half true. With enough time, and by filling the void with other things, you can overcome it to a point where you know the vacation home is there but you never want to visit, even where you are sick and tired you will find it easy to say "no"

do you have any goals in life ? if you have a goal big enough maybe that would be worth giving up heroine as it surely stands in the way of most goals one would have ?

dont use smaller setbacks as an excuse to slack off. it is a vicious cycle and A LOT of people do it. "well I cheated on my diet today, might as well eat this choclate bar since I already fucked up" or "damn I didnt have time to go to the gym this week yet, oh well guess I will take the week off."

it is a very common mindset and I also tend to fall back into it, if I take a week off from lifting I almost always eat worse subconciously because my mind thinks it's time to relax or some shit.

Dont do this user and you will make it, but please dont use setbacks as a reason to fall further behind.

yeah that could help but i dont have a cabin in the woods nor the financial means of sustaining myself without working

i used to want to start a family but that faded away and i dont have any (nor do i think i want) any goals in life
i apreciate your advice user

Yeah meditation is the best. Mind Illuminated is great book to start. Have not been this happy in a long time. Just do it daily for ten minutes

I hope you can find the strength to set goals for yourself and not give up on life. I am sure it's not too late to be happy for you although it might not seem like it right now. Judging from the fact that you are here maybe getting into lifting and getting stronger could be one of your goals ? It has helped me at a time where I was depressed also having a family is a good goal you shouldnt give up on that.

Lifting has helped a few people get through rough times: youtube.com/watch?v=3vr8bZxlWuM

A lot of the truly expectional lifters have emotional scars and train like masochists but honestly I think it's one of the better ways to deal with your problems and use your weakness to achieve something great.

yeah i used to lift a fee years ago before i messed around with dope and i remember it helping me greatly with my mental state
i just started going again like a week ago and its definitely helping, it will not make me happy or 'fix' me and it will not become my life goal but for now its making me feel better and i will continue doing it until it stops making me feel what i want to

Man. You're my idol. Thanks for being.
I've always been self-conscious about the smoking and continuously hiding it but it's like a small vice, it doesn't affect me in any other way and I hate how people would branch off to conclusions because you're smoking so I want to skip it and just do it alone and continue normal life like I don't smoke.
Rest besides tren I can relate to. Fuck perfectionist parents, my dad told me he was proud of me once, when I was little and spat on my uncle I still despise him for being who he is.

Anyway, blogposting, sorry, but yeah, thanks man.