How to lift the depression away?

I'm depressed. I always have been. But for a long time I've been able to push it to the side. And distract myself long enough to be okay.

But now its back. And I need someone. Veeky Forums
Anyone.

>I have attachment issues stemming from childhood
>every girl I get close to I've fallen for
>recently broke up with my ex
>moved on to someone else to help it hurt less
>that person plays me for a fool
>I find another girl I knew
>sweet and cares
>but she has a boyfriend
>we got drunk a night ago and fooled around but I couldn't get it up
>my depression is making sex life miserable
>I want to stay friends but it hurts
>the feelings are growing for her
>and it eats away inside of me knowing this won't happen
>i have night terrors
>I am always antsy and agitated
>there's no one left because my ex destroyed all bridges I had with anyone
>I've tried killing myself in the past many times and contemplate it now
I can't eat. I don't sleep right. I wake up and my heart is pounding.

I'm so lost now.
I've turned to /frauds/ in a vain attempt to get attention that I long for.

But I know its not fulfilling. And now I can't even make love with someone I cared about.

I feel numb for anyone who cares about me. But I care for people who don't.

I want to die

Wut

Go see a psychiatrist

real talk
hop on meds
>t depressed faggot on three meds

I have. Not recently. But as a kid. And it did nothing.
Will it make my dick work again? I don't even have the drive to masturbate. And I'm on test e.

It was so fucking embarrassing to finally be alone with the girl who cared about me for so long. And I couldn't even get it up.

Quit caring so much. Harden your emotions. Fill your heart with hate. Be angry. It's hard to be sad when you're angry all the time. Worked for me.

Fucking Jews...

antidepressants may fuck up your ding dong in all honesty, its one of the possible side effects
but i know that feel bro
my dick has had troubles recently as well
no problem when im masturbating, unable to get an erection when finally with a woman

been doing noporn
thinking about doing nofap
cardio will probably help, but i fucking hate cardio

hop on meds, start talking to a therapist, try and get better user
life sucks but we gotta play the hands we were dealt, even if that means popping pills like skittles

Do not see a psychiatrist and do not "hop" on meds. I'm in the same boat as you, but I've tired both extensively and they do not work. "Meds" will change you for the worse and it is sometimes permanent. Shrinks are full of shit.

I've always been angry.
>T. Angry emo kid
I just learned to be outgoing.

Fuck. It just seems like lately its one thing after the other. I keep thinking its sides from the juice but it hasn't been long enough. Only in my head. I keep thinking how badly I fucked up and disappointed her. We both laughed it off but i know there won't be a repeat performance. I just want to fuck the pain away but now I can't even fucking do that

I'm thinking drugs. But shit. Do they fuck up my cycle? Lol.
Might just come off it in all honestly.

for me, it was lifting + cardio

running sucks when youre just starting, so i joined a mt class. my knees and leg muscles got strong, so now I can run no problem.

you need to be so tired and full of things, at the end of the day, that you don't even have time for depression. I know it sounds horrible but it's a really good feeling.

oh, I stopped drinking too. had mad mood swings when hangovered

Does cardio really help? I want my dick to work. That's all I give a fuck about at this point.

i just wanna fuck random girls too in hopes that it will fill the empty void that is within

can Veeky Forums come together and come up with the ultimate benis routine?
>dont be fat
>lift weights
>eat healthy
>cardio?

not sure what else to add after that
anyone have any experience with supplements?

P.S. eat healthy, try and get enough sleep, CARDIO, find something (hobby, intramural sport, anything creative or competitive) to look forward to and be a reason to get up in the morning. Never, ever, expect happiness from another person, it can only start with you. If you're unhealthy, any girl that wants to be with you is as well. Then you just bring each other down

Enter the no fun zone and don't drink, it makes any mental issues way worse than they would be with a sober mind.
Use up the energy you have until you can sleep, work out or run or chop wood. This helped me out and maintaining a very physically active life keeps me from crawling into my sad sack.
Use an alarm, and limit just how much you sleep, start at 8-9 hours and work your way back until the nightmares slow down or stop. Try to find out what in your life is causing the nightmares and work to change it.
If the place you live sucks move somewhere, anywhere. You're considering suicide so you should be able to pack up and head out. Take out a loan if you have to
As for lady troubles, you need to get your life where you want it to be before you try and get your dick wet
The only way left to go is up user

I'm gonna buy some 5-htp and start a cutting routine. I like eating healthy. Felt good. Lately don't even want to eat though. As for cardio. Gonna just do it until I can't.
I know drinking can fuck me up more. I just wish I wasn't so alone. I don't even have friends. They don't understand this shit. They'd laugh and talk about it to other people. Faggots.

And thank you guys. More responsive than /adv/. Those fuckers.

Anyone have experience with my dilemma though. I know its all mental but fuck, WHY DIDNT MY DICK WORK.

leave Veeky Forums go seek professional help

indulging in attention obviously hurts you

it works

my dick was and has been always functional, but since I started cardio the boners and much more hard

I feel at home here.
Everyone here is fucked up otherwise they wouldn't be on here.

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I know this horrible cycle OP. I've had a lot of the same issues my entire life and am also going through some shit right now too.

Lifting is one of the best things that keeps me focused. You need to realize that your happiness isn't dependent on anyone else around you, but comes from deep down inside yourself. Give yourself something about you to love. Make yourself into someone who sticks to routine, who works hard, who lifts heavy, and always does what he says he will. Then, you will start to respect yourself, and others will start to like you more--but hopefully by then, you wont care as much. Instead of being sad about how weak you are inside, be happy that every day you get to improve.

t. sad faggot becoming less sad and faggoty everyday

i felt i had depression at one point too, how i overcame it is get in touch with as many people as i could , i would always distract myself by hanging with my closest friends and i felt wanted again which made me realise my self-worth.Most of it came from my father bullying me for many years but i think i have grew out of it now, it still haunts me at certain nights but not nearly as bad. You have to open up to your closest friends and let them know that you feel that way so they can help you by giving you more attention and also watch after your diet- there are foods that help with uplifting and other hormonal advantages, look it up. I hope you feel better, i havent killed it yet but i sure am in the process of it.( girlfriends should be the last thing in your mind right now, stick with people that really care for you like your family (hopefully) and your best friends (hopefully). Put some music and keep lifting , good luck. If you feel bad , someone will always be here to talk with you , dont feel lonely

>I feel at home here.
>Everyone here is fucked up otherwise they wouldn't be on here.

This solidarity among anons is one of the most genuine things I have ever found.

At work try to be friends with your least douchey coworkers
Try going to an AA meeting to help with staying dry and even making friends.
As for your dick
My ex gave me gonorrhea for my 17th birthday and after all that shit I didn't get it up for almost a year. I have a relatively low sex drive now but I don't have any issues getting an erection

Also stop /frauding/ , you obviously cant handle it and it makes you all emotional and it will end up in a disaster.Run a pct , let your hormones rebalance and get mental balance aswell, then you wont have problems with your dick either, if you are feeling depressed and anxious about your dick, IT DEFINITELY WONT WORK. try no fap , no porn

I think this everyday. But it ends up biting me in the ass. Maybe ill wake up earlier and become military disciplined. Maybe ill get over myself.

Thank you user.

We're all messed up in this world. But on here we lift the veil and just talk to each other. And that's all I ever want. So I come here. We're honest and open. And even a little gay. But I know we're all after the same goal in life. To be happy and Veeky Forums

Thank you Faggots. I feel like I'm gonna cry but its workout time.

Fuck this. We're gonna make it. I found this photo a while back. Ill look at it everyday.

How many anons do you think have died since you've been browsing?
>people you've laughed with
>cried with
>fought with
>argued with
>bro'd out with
>gone forever, and you never even knew that they left

Go see a psychiatrist OP. I onky suffered with depression once, and I'd takeedication over that. If you're anti meds they can at least teach you coping mechanisms and other things

Another thing, go to a church and ask the if there's any volunteer work that needs done.
Even if you don't believe in a god or if you tip your fedora at the hint of faith, churches make a sense of community and hope. Completing a task is rewarding, like having a maintained yard or a clean house or doing all the dishes and not having a sink full of rotting food.

>tfw you develop Bipolar Disorder @ age 22

Yeah, it sucks. Meds will work for a while and there's a chance it'll suddenly stop working later, but at least for that while you'll feel normal again.

Build a support structure around you not laden with vapid pussy.