/mhg/ Mental Health General

>not that ugly
>just overwhelmingly autistic
>Never gotten with a girl sober
>should off myself

I wish i could trade places with someone ugly but good personality

I want find a gf but every girl nowadays goes clubbing and gets drunk every weekend. That for some reason inexplicably disgusts me and i get turned off immediately.
Anyone else has this feel?

>Helped mom and cousin clean godmother's house
>Her husband has a small cleaning project for me
>He tells me how proud he is of my achievements in university
>At the end, godmother also tells me she's very proud and says she always knew because I was always very ambitious
>Gives me a check for $85
Feels good mane

>how to deal with a bipolar disorder
Mood stabilizers, see a psychiatrist.

yes

>I'm going through a pretty rough career transition in my mid-20s
>At the same time many of my friends are starting to fall to the wayside.
>I keep waking up in the middle of the night
>Half asleep
>Feel a viscerally, painful mental anguish about being alone
>Wonder if this is forever
>Wonder if I'll every make my career breakthrough
>Wonder if I'll ever meet even a nice 5/10 girl
>Contemplate my life living in a one bed room apartment and then being thrown into a pauper's cemetery by county workers
>Is this my fate?
>Stay in this half asleep, panic and dread laden contemplative mode for a half hour
>Wake up exhausted

I'm in a world of pain right now lads, only a thin ray of hope and the future hell that awaits me if I give up now keep me going.

>tfw was skelly made gains
>normies love you
>military service
>lose gains, now invisible or seen as inferior
>starting to get them back now
>normies creeping back in

also people tend to think il highly successful and shit but the reality is i just shitpost and browse Veeky Forums all day

im starting to unironically despise people yet i crave for meaningful human relationships

anyone else know these feels, im feeling lonely... i need a dog

>turned 21 two weeks ago
>I'm still virgin
>I've never kissed someone
>And I still don't want to kill myself yet
When is it coming?

>hate that I'm a soft manlet with 190cm morning height

is reading philosophy going to help me
so tired of being depressed
so tired of always being tired
it is all so tiring
recommendations for philosophy books that arent textbooks?

>so tired of being depressed
>so tired of always being tired
>it is all so tiring
philosophy won't fuckin help you there

Ever thought it might be a self fulfilling prophecy?

>Anxious because X can see your self perceived fault
>X senses anxiety so assumes you must be hiding something
>You notice X acting weird so you assume its because of thing you're hiding
>Repeat

The average person is not an all seeing all knowing being, people are preoccupied with their own shit and won't bother taking notice of yours unless you make it so.

Might be a good time to see someone a bit more professional than a Taiwanese basket weaving forum.

already see a psychiatrist and therapist :/

>cant catch interest in people no matter what I do
>feels like even my parent dont love me even though their attitude hasnt changed in years
>feel completely alone
>spend most of my time on Veeky Forums which exposes me to things like lookism, redpill theory and look theory
>start to believe such theories because of selection bias and low social interaction
>see everything through the prism of said theories and justify all my failures because of them
>can't unplug my brain from those meme theories because so many things seem to corroborate them.
>have extremely shitty social skills because I was fat and bullied for my whole life until I lost weight

I dont know what to do , I feel so lost and alone

damn son, this hits home

this is starting to look like a mental deterioration thread

>debilitating autism
>anxiety
>SHITTY personality around new people
>fuck everything up all the time
>average in almost everything, below average in things I'm not average in
>never had a gf, kv
>too autistic to act even when i have been TOLD that a girl is into me
>5'9 manlet

I don't want to make my parents sad

low testosterone

>mfw friend payed a hooker to have sex with me
>friend said he'd put down half if I put the other half down
>dropped me off at the hotel where she was at and left to go do an errand
>mfw just went across the street and had a cup of coffee instead
>mfw all my friends still think I lost my virginity to a hooker

Living a lie guys, I know its gonna bite me in the ass somehow someday, should I just tell them I'm still a virgin?

Yes. There's no escape from this.

I lost my virginity to a hooker and fucked more hookers after that. Casual sex is overrated user, it only means something if you have this intimacy with someone you care for that does this likewise. This casual society is toxic user and no one cares to change it.

this is bait

>Also, how to deal with a bipolar disorder?

I wish I knew. The best I've come up with is taking steps to minimize the damage I do to myself when too far one way or the other. I've been dealing with it so long that I don't trust my decisions enough even when I'm level.

I'm just hanging on until dementia takes over and I no longer have to worry about it.

I don't think I'll ever get it on my own anyways user, 23 y/o and still nothing, I have been getting mires since I started lifting but I'm such a social fucking retard I can't make anything from it.

Why did I have to be tall and not ugly but with the emotional intelligence of a fucking poisonous snake?

Fuck all this sad shit, I'm going to tell stuff that's made me feel better overall

>Cardio. Been doing cardio regularly and feel pretty good. That endorphin rush isn't a joke
>meditation. Brings you to the forefront and stops worrying about the future and past.
>Reading: sometimes a good trip, story, or thinking about the nature of life is what one needs. I've been reading Mediations by Marcus Aurelius and re philosophy has really helped changed my mental attitude and by extension my confidence.
>i also just try my best to put myself out there and be in social situations to practice social skills, even if I end up looking like an ass sometimes.

And for the no gf people, this is what I found is best when I'm on a dry streak.

>stop caring so god damn much about women

Seriously stop. There's more than life to women. Issac Newtons discoveries ruled scientific thought for centuries and he considered his celibacy his greatest achievement. Focus on working on yourself and being happy and content within your own mind. That's something nobody can take away. And besides, it'll allow you to grow and become skilled in your life's goals. And for the autists, social interactions with girls become easier when you stop caring so much. When you don't put women on a pedastol to be acquired like an object, you treat them more like a human rather than some foreign entity. Social interactions come much smoother and organically then.

Yes. The only girls i know that dont do that are ugly

This. The hottest, mind blowing, remeberable sex comes when your doing it with someone you love.

still suffer from anxiety/panic attacks, have had it for the past 4 years and when I began lifting and eating healthy worked, ansd it was fine so far with once in a while having some kind of attack but instantly realizing and chilling out no problemo

thing is the foggy/messy head feeling is back which I didn't have for such long time, it's like I can't think properly since there's something on my fucking brain, the feeling of death or passing out or having heart attack also came back REALLY strong, even if I think I'm fine it's like shit doesn't go away and I have to hold on to something

probably gonna suffer from dementia or schizophrenia when I'm older, fuck me.
never do drugs since they can trigger shit in you

>gf said "I love you" for the first time last week
>Said it to her at the train station yesterday as we were parting ways
>Doesn't say anything back
Apparently she feels 'awkward' saying it in public.

Think about people like me, who is manlet, ugly and doesn't have emotional inteligence :)"

thats bs, idk why she would say it to you first then not say it back though, try it in private and see how her she reacts body language wise if she does say it back

I don't know man, the only thing that seems to do the trick about the anxiety is pot or alcohol, I'm more likable and easier to be around when I stoned or shitfaced. I just want to be able to do that without all the drugs and alcohol though.

>tfw smoke a bowl before going to church just so I can talk to people without coming off as a sperg

Try to identify exactly how your behaviour changes when you do drugs, then try to practice and apply those changes to your sober self. Worked for me and MDMA.

Whats MDMA like? Been thinking of trying it and my guy can get his hands on some.

Also, thanks for the advice, wtf is wrong with me why didn't I think of that

user...

Reasons to live
>I want a qt gf
>I want to maximise my aesthetics at least for a while before I die
>I want to work for NASA on an interplanetary mission
>I want to own a Datsun 240z

That's about it lads.

>have severe OCD
>the intrusive thoughts take my mind completely
>when I'm in a bad day I generally can't do shit
>depression generally sets in after severe OCD days
>daily rituals make easy things difficult

It's hard to live some days, but when the bad thoughts are gone I have some happy days

Get rid of your friends

They're long gone user, would've been whether I wanted them to be or not

nice
>be me
>fail out of university

I cant seem to allow myself to take pride in my accomplishments. I talked to a friend the other day about my weight loss, and even though I've lost 100+ lbs in a year and a half, I still don't feel... worthy. I went out yesterday and bought my first pair of actual nice pants in 8 years, instead of my normal semi saggy jeans, and put on some decent looking shoes, instead of Vans, and even though I can see the clothes fitting me, I just can't allow myself to feel anything. Maybe I'm just too shocked at how far I've come, and it just hasn't set in yet. Wearing these clothes makes me feel like a completely different person, but something in the back of my mind keeps nagging at me that I don't deserve to feel good, because I still have 50lbs left to lose. I just want to be normal, brehs, instead of looking like a monstrosity that's showcased at the circus for people to laugh at.