Depression

does your wife knows? Aren't your kids a big help in a way,knowing that you have a meaning

She knows but she's very unsupportive. Fair enough, it's my burden, not hers. The kids are the only reason I don't off myself a lot of the time. So I don't want to kill myself (at least not as much as I want to be with them), but at the same time I can't stop thinking about it.

1. Veeky Forums memed autism into being something cool so anons here use that as an excuse not to go out and meet people when they're not actually autistic
2. being afraid of rejection and public embarrassment is natural but at some point you have to take it and get over it to build your social skills

Depression sort of runs within my mom's side of the family, and for about 4 or 5 years I went through a kind of existential depression that was brought on by low self-esteem and poor habits. (Eating, shitty friends, etc) In the last year or so I found the only things that helped me at least maintain some semblance of satisfaction within my life was working out and changing who I associated with, people who I shared values with and who were kind. The other thing, which I wouldn't necessarily recommend but hey it worked for me, was psychedelics. I am not a spiritual person, and I don't believe I'm "woke" or any sort of shit like that, but after some experiences with LSD and mushrooms, I think I sort of caught a glimpse of the person I want to be, and I sort of understand my place. Stay strong my brethren, find what works for you and what brings you happiness.

Thanks bb

You're a good dude user

I'm depressed because there are some many 17 year old kids pulling 600lbs+ and I can't even deadlift 5pl8 after years lifting :(

>implying autism isn't cool

Yes. Mostly due my lack of a girl in my life and general loneliness. I go to the gym to get my head on straight. Recently it's been harder to get the same fullfillment from lifting because a bunch of people who I thought were my friends just straight up abandoned me. I have always had a bit of an issue with abandonment and it hit my heart hard, so it's hard just to go to the gym as thoughts of whether or not I'm even worth anything keep coming after that.

Listen to me you self pittying fuck.
You're not depressed. You're just fucking sad that a sloot broke up with you. ITS A GIRL YOU MORON. Life happens and so does brake ups. Get over it and go lift. You'll find someone else. You're sad, not depressed.