Veeky Forums or depressed

Fuck guys what do I do with myself?

I thought lifting would make things better. But I'm so much of an autist and an emotional wreck only thing that helps me keep my sanity is to workout. But only for the hour or so after. Rest of the day is angst and self loathing.

Turned to /fraud/ and I'm getting happier with my progress but fuck me I'm so alone. My ex of two years left a couple weeks ago.

How do you guys do this? I can't even get laid off tinder.

you should keep working out.
you should get an employment if you don't have one.
you should try to go back to school, if you've dropped out.
you should see a therapist, as you can actually get professional help with these kinds of issues.
you should keep yourself occupied, and not spend too much time alone with your thoughts.
you should cut down on alcohol, drugs, sugar, porn, and computer use.
you should spend more time on hobbies, and try finding new ones.
you should consider joining some kind of team sport to make new friends.
you should try to connect to old friends, as they might actually be happy to hear from you.
you should try to get laid, even if it means lowering your standards.
you should know that there are many other great girls out there for you.
you should never lose hope in yourself, or in what the future holds for you.
you should realize that your life most likely will improve if you make an effort in all kinds of ways.
you should remember that you deserve to live a good life, regardless of what has happened in the past.
you should spend less time on Veeky Forums.

I hope you'll make it, bro

This guy knows what's up.

What is it that you're angry/depressed about? What gets to you the most?
Ive lurked the Chan for a few years now but I've never posted, yet I couldn't help but feel inclined to help a brother out today. You seem genuinely stuck rather than just a bitch.
I don't really know if I can give you much value, I haven't been depressed for a few years now but I'll give you my experience and you can make of it what you want.
The only real helpful thing I could say is do you. That sounds shit and lame but everyone I know who has depression has an equal level of self neglect. Most of the time they don't even know it too, it's just the way they are. They are so caught up on pleasing others to win a girl over or to get approval or to make friends or whatever the fuck it might be that they forget to give themselves the exact same qualities. Love, approval, respect. They are all things we need in life, but fighting desperately to win them over isn't the right course of action. You have to earn those sorts of things and from what I've seen the best way to do it is through self discipline and self respect.
You wouldn't buy a barbell off a supplier who doesn't use it themself. Just like you wouldn't genuinely love someone if they didn't love themselves (can vouch for that one until the end of time) maybe I'm getting off topic here but Greg Plitt says in one of his videos, the reason why you put an oxygen mask on yourself in an aeroplane emergency before helping your child is because you're no good to that kid when you're fucking dead.
I think the point was you can't fix others if you're broken yourself, but it applies in a general rule if you ask me.
Earn from yourself exactly what you want from others, and they will follow you.

Head up brother. You gon make it

Honestly I feel stupid most of the time.

Got a job.
Live with parents.
Studying for my NASM cert.
not in school.
No car.
Broke.

I got a new job the other day but quit immediately after my first week because my anxiety shot through the fucking roof.
(Expesnive gym/ club. Memberships were like 200 a month)
And I felt out of place.

Every failure I make I seem stupid. Every thing I do to better myself is expected. Not praised. I don't deserve praise for anything. But fuck me is it hard when I'm constantly being told I'm a failure.

Why don't you deserve praise bro?

Honestly I never grew up with it.
I don't think anyone deserves praise for doing something that should be fucking done in the first place. E.g.: having a car. Having money in savings. Having an apartment. Being in school

I miss my ex so badly I'm going crazy. I don't know how I managed to get her. I suffer from manic depression and bipolar disorder. But even with that I've lived my life fine until now.

Fuck me Veeky Forums.
Should I become a male escort to make enough money to leave or just eat a bullet

They only should have been done in the first place because it's what everyone else is doing man.
Personally I chase materialistic shit because it's some form of validation that I'm doing the right thing. My main goal is to just live a full life and be remembered for something, and in a round about way, a nice car is a symbol that in some sense I'm doing better than I was. In saying that some of the happiest people I know have nothing or very little because that's just how they're wired. I know a girl who comes from a decent family and lives in a yurt by choice. Before meeting her I didn't even know what a yurt was. That's just how she rolls.
If you're gonna make a comparison, compare what you're doing with what you want to do rather than what you're doing compared to what society thinks you should do.
No one really fucking knows what we're supposed to do, so everyone follows the crowd, and they will call you a failure no matter what, up until your success drowns out their voice.

I think you have more options than that but if you want an answer I'd say male escort

>lurked the Chan for a few years now but I've never posted
h-how

Dunno really. I never came here to debate. Just to read and learn from others experiences and shit.
I think everyone would agree that this website is a cesspool of misery and despair but every now and then someone says some shit that just makes you think damn, that's real.
So I just lurk for that shit really. The motivational threads for example. They're filled with pictures of Greek statues with cute quotes and then it's covered with kids being like "Durr motivation is temporary and you need discipline" and shit like that. Then every now and then someone's got a hectic story about how lifting saved their life and it gives you a new perspective.
Life is so much easier when you can view things from someone else's shoes. Lurking on this Mongolian threadweaving image exchange helps me learn that so I just shut up and read

I hear ya for sure. I'm kinda like that, it's just that I can't resist the urge to shitpost/get amongst the bantz with the bros