/Saturday Feels/

just ended my 5th day of nofap. feels good bro

ignore we only broke up because we went our separate ways. She went to University and I'm stuck at community college, utterly alone w/ no friends. She's busy partying it up and doing fun shit with her group of Stacies while I shitpost on Veeky Forums all night

Did you ever reconcile with your father?

I'm so unsure of myself and my abilities. I feel like I'm literally uncapable of having a simple job because of this fucking anxiety I feel all the time. What the fuck. Not to mention the prospect of ever having a girlfriend, how can I have a girlfriend if I can't even take care of myself. Here I am bitching on Veeky Forums at midnight.

God damn you lol I responded
I feel you. Went through something similar

7th days with no cigarette, alcohol or fappingl, have been training like a madman at the gym. Libido has awaken. Feelsgood but I can't spend my saturdays alone anymore, I don't feel like it

I have a lot to do but social life always lead to me getting fat and not going to the gym. I’m monk mode until I hit 10% bf

we're here to listen to you user

I just want a gf, lads. I'm not the smartest or the tallest or the strongest or the handsomest, but my dad always told me to play the hand you're dealt. It's just starting to feel like the deck is stacked against me.

>tfw parents are taking away my car(that I paid for half of, or $2000 worth) that is registered in my dad's name because I chose to enlist in the Marines
>None of my family supports my decision
>Creepy aunt is telling me to move in with her while I "figure out life"
>Everytime I talk to the rest of my family they tell me how stupid I am
>Texts bombard me everyday from family members telling me how much they care about me, how I'm making bad decisions, how I need a degree
>All this from fat, white, and poor midwesterners whose degrees netted them maybe 70k a year average after working for 20 years
>Still need to get medically cleared to join, all my records for an elbow surgery are getting prescreened
>Need to pretend to care about my family until I can swear in
>Then I can drop out of college(mummy and daddy made me go cause I was 17 at the beginning of the semester), move to another town, and work a shitty job while waiting for my ship date(hopefully march)

You're not making a bad decision. Serve your country, do cool shit, and get good benefits. Also, how hot is this creepy aunt?

>be me, bulking
>Chasing a natty 405 bench. Long time goal with huge sentimental value
>Older brother got me into lifting 6 years ago. My biggest inspiration
>Now has cancer with limited time left.
>To me the 405 bench was a way of saying "look, I made it. Just like you"
>Previous record 370 at 230bw
Also working full time, starting a start up, and renovating a house.
Not sleeping/eating/resting/training enough. Gain 25lb in 10 weeks.

>Warming up on bench
>Work my way to 225 and tear left pec on second rep. No bench for 3 months
>3 days later working up to 315 in front squats.
>Do a set on 240, distracted by life and pec. Fail third rep and damage right lat
>Two big injuries in a week. Put me out of training for months, left to just cardio or nothing
>Fucked my head real good. Feel like a failure and a joke

>Go out with friends last night to get away
>Bring home girl Ive seen a few times
>Get her undressed, but too distracted from the past week
>Can't get it up. End up collapsing together in a heap of lust and dissapointing desire
>Dissapointed yet can't explain myself
>We don't talk much, but she is just so beautiful
>Sometimes we say nothing and stare at eachother for what feels like an eternity
>Our silence mirrors my mind, and in the darkness and in our embrace, i feel so empty yet complete. The perfect indescribable mix.

>Spend today meal prepping and listening to Charles Bukowski poems in the rain. Found myself overcome with emotions and cry in the rain.
I can't bring myself to talk to people I know, yet somehow I feel at home when I put my thoughts into words here.. we are all anons here, yet I still call you my brothers.
May we all grab life by the balls and ride it til the end with total commitment. And when our times up, may the gods welcome us and say "history will remember you forever"
We all deserve to make it....

Thanks for letting me share anons.
I'm not ready to let my brother go. Not before ive made him proud...

It's a hard decision, but for me, serving the country and doing what you feel is right is more important than what others think. Put yourself first senpai.

You're a good guy user. You've also made my eyes water, faggot.

You're gonna make it, and if not right now, you'll soon, and that's what matters. And it ain't gonna be just 405, it's gonna be much, much more.

I'm wishing you the swiftest recovery possible and to DESTROY your PR, but please keep in mind, don't let your emotions overpower you once you can lift again so that you would hurt yourself.

You'll make it user, there is not doubting you. Godspeed.

>all of lifes lessons are leaned through pain
>people are too real for me

user, you must rest. You will make your brother proud by doing that. Let yourself heal and go after it. Spend as much time with your brother as possible. It can be hard having injuries with the self-hate it can produce. Just don't let it get to you and remember to make your brother proud. I have felt the same way too. Started on here weighing 69lbs and depressed. Lifted my way out of depression and now experiencing life for good and for worse. Keep your chin up okay? You need to go and make your brother proud.

Have no idea what I'm doing with my life, and I don't know how to be a successful, independent, mature adult. I live with my mother and work a shitty grocery store job. I'm just coasting right now and I don't know what I'm doing next. The only thing I have going for me right now is my fat loss, and I still have a long way to go with that, too. Also
>tfw no gf
>tfw no friends who want to hang out with me
>tfw Fallout 4 is finally starting to get boring

At least I have Star Trek to occupy me, for now.

joining the military was the best decision i ever made, sucks your family are cunts about it though

Thanks for the support anons. I'll keep pushing And I'll earn my spot in the chambers of eternal glory. My name will be up there, right beside my brother's, and all of your names too.

there's no shortage of new skills and ideas to learn about, user

that's the cool thing about earth i think

>be me
>31 married
>wife is hot and smart
>she's also fucking insane
>can't fucking stand her anymore
>about ready to leave with a suitcase
>kinda depressed af right now
>lifts been shitty
>one injury after another
>first it's runners knee
>then it's tennis elbow
>then it's shin splits
>then it's mandatory vacation time
>can't make any fucking gains
>can't be left alone
>can't be trusted

just wanna sit and rot and feel pathetic.

The main reason I would not join is because the US is still under ZOG control, and you might risk your life for kike greed.

Wait, is that a typo or did you actually weigh 69 lbs? How close were you to death?

Mad as hell that i texted my ex while being drunk

shes still stuck in my head
i was never on her mind tho

Guys?

I cant take rejection (because I really have nothing to offer apart first impression) so when I meet new people(women) I always friendzone them first (even if some show interest in me initially) and act in friendly but casual manner.
The last time I hooked up with someone the girl made the first move, literally took me to her room and told me to fuck her.

Just hit 200kg deadlift, 146kg squat, 127kg bench. Creatine was the answer.

Will get an award for my paper which is great after quite some past frustration at work.

My sister is becoming what some of you people are calling a roastie and yesterday evening I heard all that stuff that I before had only heard other women would say "don't want to spend the next 50 years alone doing the same thing every day" etc. Told her that she should tweak her attractiveness by using mild amounts of make-up and dressing a bit hotter, also smile more and not have such a fucking depressed anxious aura about her all the time, she just said that just because things work like this for many people doesn't mean that for her the inner values cannot be the deciding factor. I told her that nobody or almost nobody will ever see her "true self" or anything like that and that people, men in search of a partner in particular are superficial as fuck and that she just needs to adapt at least a bit. She denied and denied and told me that it's me that lives in an illusion. I don't know how to feel, I'd really be glad to see her happy but I think she has some dysfunctional beliefs and will likely stay alone until she can no longer bear children.

>trying to talk to women while using logic
mistake #1

>believing that creatine gives you magical superpowers
mistake #2

its all in your head

i've ordered pizza,again

#ngm

My sister is being a cunt. Growing up I always wanted her and me to have a normal sibling relationship, but somehow she grew up being a cunt to everyone and thinking it is okay. She is in debt and somehow thinks that in order to be funny she has to insult people or bring up bad memories like 'remember how you were glued tot he tv as a kid' 'well yeh remember how I had a bad trauma as a kid and was also bullied by you, how is that funny?'. She doesn't even know where I live or what I do and only thinks about herself. She recently divorced and tries to get our parents to do everything and they have had enough. It makes me sad sometimes. So she texts me asking if I am home, the first message since new years I heard from her and I was perhaps hoping for something. So I asked why, then 6 hours later at 1AM she responds that she was worried cause mom and dad were ignoring her calls all day. I want to strangle her.

Your sister sounds pretty normal, and she’s going through a phase lots of men and women go through.

i know its hard to deal with some people, but she might be going through something hard herself and not being aabble to deal with it on her own, and her negativity might be her "defensive measurement"

t. person that lost his father to alcohollism

She is going through hard times but she is causing those troubles herself. Quitting college cause she wanted to fuck around, on the third attempt she got knocked up and quit school to marry the guy. Then already she was in debt, never cleaned and always needed help but as soon as she got it would insult you or demonize you. After the second kid she calmed down and we got along. We all thought it was going well but she does this thing that when nothing bad is happening she flips the board, suddenly she wanted a divorce without prepping anything while actually in school trying to get a degree which was going well. Now without any back up plan she moved out with both kids who she is now demonizing cause she wants to act like a single mom and fuck guys while having no cash. I lost contact with her right before the divorce, heard she fking a guy married with 2 kids. Her kids though are completely forgotten by her, they hate her even (8 and 10).

my sister is the exact same way. a total liar and manipulator.

just cut contact man. it's what i did.

>>trying to talk to women while using logic
The point is that her problem is that she is what here is called an autist, and all the typical female feely-needy feminine stuff is just disgusting to her. She has a PhD in chemistry and is really good at math and programming. She's not a soft lovely sensual woman but somebody who completely cuts out and hates all the nonverbal aspects of communication and human relationships.

>>believing that creatine gives you magical superpowers
The big three don't lie.

No most women realize somewhere around 15 that they get incredible preferential treatment if they put in a little effort to look good. She's pretty sportive and blonde and slim but she just can't do it for some reason, a bit like I have problems in dressing stylishly. It's just beyond us, we feel fake doing it.

ugh

well
thats sounds nasty af, and horrible from her side, have nothing to add sadly

tell her to stop looking for perfect man, because with each passing year her SMV plummets, compare that to something she can relate to. Idk how attractive she is, some women are like dressing very humble, minimal makeup and still look very cute, of course theres also uggos out there that need to try harder. Smiling is DEF way to go for everyone, even if you are person (like me) who doesnt really like smiling to nothing. It comes down to practice.

Tell her to friggin relax and enjoy life while she still can idk

she doesnt want to fuck around sounds to me more like she wants to finally settle down, but coming out with
>hurr no one sees how much of a beautifull person i am inside, they just care about looks
because, all in all its true, we do care about looks both men and women, its hard to have relationship with someone you arent attracted at all to.

Our physical appearance is like packaging to a product. It can be great and attract lots of people to shitty contents, or it can be mediocre but contents can defend itself.

Problem is, when it comes to dating game exposure is much more important, because products are chosen on appearance FIRST, and then on contents.

Im 25 kissless virgin so dont take anything from me seriously.

my knees hurt....

Why user?

>text with a girl back and forth literally every day for 8 months, shes a friend who moved overseas for work
>always skyping and video chatting, sending selfies and everything, always flirting, things going really well
>communication slows down to a crawl over a two week period
>suddenly I'm getting ghosted and ignored, messages left on read for days

Fuck. The worst part is not knowing. I'd much rather she just tells me flat out she doesn't want to talk to me anymore or has found a boyfriend or girlfriend or whatever the fuck it is than just be ignored for days on end. I know something is up, because how fucking hard is it to send a text message? It takes a few seconds and shes not doing it

Oh well. At least my bf% is finally close to the single digit range, abs are coming through nice. Happy with that, thought it would take longer.

How hard is the medical clearance shit? I got diagnosed with ADHD years ago and had asthma as a kid but took a PFC and got cleared by my doc. Should I be honest with the recruiter? Will they actually look through my shit or?

You sound like Sampson breh, but instead of hair it's pecs. You'll hit that 405

Sounds mentally unstable. Normal people don't act like that.

>tfw waking up every 2 hours to piss

im seriously considering getting a rubber tube on my bed connected to a jug so i don't have to get up anymore

Why is it so hard to find a man who used to weigh 500 lbs and isn't married? I just want to be with someone as floppy as I am.

>gf of 3 years that I live with
>love her to pieces, was sure she was going to be my wife
>we have an amazing summer alone together in our new apartment, running together, taking walks, going hiking, movies, everything together
>she goes to have dinner with her friends on friday
>messages me at 10pm that shes going out with them too
>doesn't message me again until 8:30am on Saturday morning telling me she slept with her friend from class

The worst part is I was very fishy about her "friend" in the first place. She was always messaging him and asking him to come to open houses with her

I dunno what to do about the feels bros, I have never felt worse in my life... Was I not fucking good enough for her? Whats wrong with me? How do I rebuild trust in women?

It's weird.
I'm a firm believer in balance.
I got a new job, its a sales job but it has potential.
I was deeply depressed when I was out of work for 3 months.
I still worked out 1.5 - 2 hours 6 days a week. Had a great body but life was so dark.
Now my week is like mon - fri 8:30 - 5 work 6 - 8 gym, sleeping by 10. sat - sun off while getting out of the house.

I feel myself climbing back out, I used to go to sleep thinking about death. I've delt with depression since I was a child.
Last week in my head before falling asleep in my head I said.
>I want to live. And I meant it.

Now if I can get a good fuck buddy, start making money, get a new place.

I could see myself actually being happy.

Men need a full schedule and a strong body to feel whole IMO. The answer is not in a pill.

why the fuck did you let her talk to other dudes like that in the first place? hurdur its 2017. obviously most people let their primitive instincts take over and if you are involved with people who do that, you need to steward them or leave them.

I spoke to her about it a few times, we had fights about it probably 7 or 8 times. It's hard to break up with someone you are so deeply in love with. She was my fucking world man.

That hurts.
Take it as a lesson learned and move on.
Atleast it happened now and not when you have a shared bank account 2 kids and a house.
If it wasn't there, it not there. I mean this bitch would cheat on you the minute you are not around is a garbage bitch who will do the same to this next guy and when she hits the wall in a 5 years and becomes a cat mom feminist.

She will regret that night for the rest of her life.

You dumped her and kicked her out right

Time to leave m8. Don't waste your time with someone who obviously doesn't give a shit about you.

>the grill you loved only existed in your head

Don't know what to say other than that sucks, never been in that position and hopefully never will. I suppose better now than 2 years down the track at least.

I can't even imagine how bad that'd feel though, I don't think I'd even be able to eat anything.

Perhaps just be good to yourself and focus on gym/diet for a while, when I'm going through a hard time I normally just watch a YouTube series to distract me, helps I guess.

You'll make it user

I am happy, and for the most part content, but every now and again I am reminded of the one who got away.

Usually when I lay in bed at night. She's always on my mind eventually.

It hurts lads, it hurts.

theres a girl at my school that seems really chill and we have had some conversations before. I dont know how to proceed further.

yeah dumped her and am living alone now. saw a few friends last night and got pretty drunk, had a few girls hit on me but I am just a mess.

Can't eat, sleep, or do anything.

yea man, shit takes time. Use those powerful emotions in the gym.
It's the best life hack there is.
Play "your song" on repeat. Go there, relive that moment over and over during your workout.
Get MANIC, get angry.
You will absolutely kill it at the gym. Work out 90 min minimum HARD.
Try to keep your self loathing at the gym.
Throw out any shit you have that reminds you of her at home.
Keep your self busy.
It hurts. But remember each person is an individual. You will rob yourself if you go into your next relationship thinking every slut is the same...

You will upgrade next time and one day you will feel blessed that what happened, happened as it opened the door for you to find the girl you were meant to be with..

Listen to what I said about the gym.

Thanks bro, I am planning on going to the gym soon and I feel like I could bench a fucking horse right now

It's just so hard since I thought SHE was the one I was meant to be with, you know? I guess I'm only 21, I don't know my ass from my front in the grand scheme of things

thanks for all the help bros, it honestly means so much to me. talking about it here and hearing everything makes me feel much better. I love you guys

Starred a new job and we have a gym at work so I'm using that to my advantage now. Just started lifting a month ago and eating
more since Im a skinny fat skele, I'm already cultivating mass.

I'm always wondering if I should keep doing this comfy desk job since it comes with full benefits and opportunity to go anywhere in Canada after my 3 year contract here is done. But there's always that feeling of wanting to do another job that I genuinely enjoy and have fun with. I'm having trouble discovering my passion and deciding if I want to go to school or not. I have 3 years to think about it which is nice, anyone in the same boat on that brahs?

I'm also getting laid and have a good roster of FWB from tinder but I feel I'm getting too addicted to that shit. I fill up my spare time with seeing these girls because I feel alone and empty when I'm by myself.

I recently got off Adderall as well back in September, was on a 10mg dose every day for the past 1.5 years. Im still torn between getting back on it, or seeing if my focus would get better over time since I'm having trouble staying focused now. Anyone have experience with this?

Thanks for letting me vent brahs

Made this post on /adv/ yesterday. Got 1 reply. Can Veeky Forums help me out instead: I've been talking to this girl for the past year as friends, and have been meeting up with here every few months. We have always been friends, however she began to grow on me back in February. I saw her last week and she was very flirty with me. I, being the pussy that I am, didn't act upon it and for the past week I've have been very sad and angry at myself for not doing anything. So I saw her again a few hours ago, and she clearly wasn't very interested anymore, so I've realized that she's a lost cause and I'm going to stop trying with her, so I have three options now. I could either admit to her what I think to confirm that she isn't interested, I could keep everything going the way it is but understand that I'm not going to be in a proper relationship with her and keep her as a friend, or literally just stop talking to her forever, which would be bad because I don't have many friends anyway and I basically have to see her every few months. I won't explain why I have to, I just do. What should I do /adv/. (She would probably be a 7.5/10 in my eyes, and she is a very nice person).

I went on a run with a qt who I have a huge crush on from work! We did six miles. She did most of the talking on her own volition. It was good since I got to know her better.

I see her at work sometimes but I'm going to give it one more time running with her before I start asking things like "hey, wanna hang out and go to a movie or something?". Don't want to scare her off.

first option for sure, the fact that you are even asking makes it very clear. don't bottle the emotions up, be up front with her and communicate CLEARLY.

I’m really ugly and struggle to get a gf

Any other /uglybros/ out there?

Problem with it is that I have to see her every few months regardless of what I do, and it would be very awkward.

I am in a very similar situation bro. Hope you are able to cope with this shit better then me

Only thing you can do is learn how to dress well, and have a good brain since aesthetics will get you so far. Keep lifting, but also read books and watch comedians you enjoy. Be funny and witty.

its either a few awkward moments 4 to 6 times a year or a lifetime of regret, up to you

Lifetime?

depending on how much you are pining for her man, do you really like her all that much?

Yeah, I like her, but it's not like I'll be looking back at her in several years time, will it? I'm pretty young and inexperienced with this sort of shit so it's better to ask people who might know. There are plenty of fish in the sea aren't there.

Also, I don't have many friends at the moment, and I wouldn't particularly like to lose another one. She is probably my only friend who is actually a nice person as well, the rest of them are all dickheads.

>60kg 5'11 skeleton currently
>18 years old
>want to move to los angeles (ausfag right now) to achieve my life long dream of pursuing a great acting career in tv and film
>always told from drama teachers at high school that i need to pursue this and that i'm very talented and natural
>no money for such a thing
>no money for gym
>just some weights and a pull up bar
>want to get big like you guys and make it in LA within the next 5 years
i-i can make it guys, right?

What did she talk about? You might have turned into her emotional tampon and in the friend zone.

Hey brah, we just gotta sometimes accept that sometimes people aren't who we want them to be, and thats heartbreaking. I was and still am so into this girl, but theres not much I can do right now. I get so mad and upset about it, but I try and just channel that negative energy into the gym. Get mad, lift weights. Getting mad at a read message at a phone screen is only gonna fuck you up. This whole situation hurts me deeply, but at the same time, fuck her, fuck life. You gotta adopt a positive mindset and the attitude of I am solid fucking gold, and I am going to get in the best shape of my life and she's going to regret giving this up. Then either things work out and everything is peachy, or they don't work out, but at least you'll have a rocking body and she'll be the one missing out.

If you guys couldn't hack it long distance, you couldn't hack it a long term relationship and you honestly want a gf who so easily would change to become the type of person that just looks forward to drinking, fucking around as her only hobbies and easily manipulated because she wants to fit in and has no proper founding of her character?

.t Had a long distance relationship because of same exact reasons such as yours and made it work because we were devoted to each other and now married for over 10 years

My female friend (7/10) Is scared to sleep alone in the house soo she asked a friend to sleep in same house
But they were both drunk and they fucked for sure(she have a bf)
But this night she called me to stay with her soo I went to her and she Invited a qt 9/10 and we've been drinking together.
No touching or something like that were given to me even they were drunk af beacuse I'm 250pound and 6'28 tall and look like shit
During my puberty I've been training wrestling 5 times a week and all it gave me is big ass thighs and wide hips. My spine looks like a zig zag.
You can clearly see that I've got cifosis, and with my weak shoulders i look like a fucking bowling pin
I went to sleep with qt(no touchin) and when I woke up I saw guy from friends yesterday adventure. I grabed my shit and went home.
They had thresome for sure. Im feelin like beta male

So I need to cut to fuck qt and have fun
2000 calories
200g proteins
106 fats
60g carb
3times a week cardio with strenght training
I never felt so determined and so sad at the same time

Cut contact, don't acknowledge her and erase her from your life.

As to the chuckleheads saying why did you let your girl talk to other guys. This doesn't work. All it will make you look like is an insecure controlling fuck. Either your girl is loyal or she isn't. Yours wasn't. Just put your big boy pants on and move on. It wasn't your fault. She was just a shitty person.

Just about general stuff. school, some work, life. Like "get to know each other" shit. I mean we work but we barely know each other beyond that surface.

Also it's the first real full length conversation I've had with this chick beyond some cursory exchanges at work. So I don't think I've fallen into the friend zone just yet. At least I hope.

Fuck that’s brutal man. I’m so sorry

Realizing that liking this particular woman was a mistake, sucking it up and moving on. Also people cancelling on plans to hang out with me. Motivation is really low almost no sleep every day.
Overall pretty shitty man rip.

you'll make it brah

Really just feels nice when you hear from a bro that she fucked a guy she just met drunk huh? Why do I even do this to myself.

bitches are bitches man, there's like 4 billion of them out there

Just gotta stay strong I guess. Thankfully the gym helps me clear my mind.

Hopefully. Act now to avoid becoming the tampon.

Remember: when you ask her out, don't let her have the option to say no. Find an event that you both enjoy, be assertive and tell her "There is this event on whatever date. Let's go." I'm not a fan of a movie because you want to grow the interest between you two, not sit in a dark room quietly for 2 hours. Find dates with physical movement, laughter, find that child-like spirit and have fun.

Save the movie for later when she can lean her head on your shoulder, you can whisper in her ear, do things you can do in the dark.

She really likes Coffee, I bet I could ask her out for coffee following our run.

Fuck her. Make her regret her decision by smashing it the gym. Thats how you make it brah. Acquire gains, and you'll acquire a better woman

I finally hit 1pl8 OHP but i relapsed to porn again last night. Help me brahs I can't get past one week

Bruh I feel you. My gf and I tried to go long distance when she went to school on the east coast and I stayed in Cali to go to community college. I did it to save money so staying with her and her debt didn’t make sense but fuck it I was delusional. It didn’t last, she dumped me over FaceTime, I cried, got over it, and now I’m getting Veeky Forums while she’s most likely getting fat and accumulating debt. It’ll all work out, just transfer to a good Uni and get a decent degree

>tfw dick is measured over 6 inches, like 6.5
>Kinda skinny, not much girth
>Used to think it was fine, just an average dick
>No girl ever complained irl
>Start seeing dick size threads, all the info graphics etc about how you can't please a woman if you aren't 8 inches
>Look at porn and see that everyone's dick is comically bigger than mine
>Get more insecure
>Literally had a hard time getting it up when I was with the oneitis because I know she had been with a guy who has a confirmed 9 inch dick
Fuck lads, I let the memes get to me. How do I get over this? I'm not going to jelq btw, I mean mentally.

i know that feel