All the lifting in the world wont make her like me

Correct

KYS

you should be shot in the streets like the degenerate you are

>Have oneitis female friend
>Want to date her
>Lose a ton of weight
>Get a better job
>Get in breddy gud shape by normie standards
>Start dressing better
>She starts hooking up with tinder guys
>Get leaner lift bigger
>She tells me about guy she met on coffeemeetsbagel
>He bullied me for years in school and i fucking hate him
>Her: ya but hes cute and he liked the cookies i brought into class one time
>Tries to get with him
>Get leaner lift bigger
>She starts talking to one guy regularly
>She starts hooking up with that guy regularly
>She starts dating this guy
>Comes to me with relationship problems and talks to me about sex
>Asks to hang out and tricks me into going shopping
>Clothes shopping for her boyfriend
>Holds shirts up to me because im about his size
>Get leaner lift bigger
>Finally meet the bf at a cookout
>Hes fat, dresses like a nerd, shit jawline, and cant grow facial hair
>Finally hit 1/2/3/4
>She hasnt even responded to my texts in months because of work and bf
Is the pain even worth it brahs?

Fuck her I just want to live my dream

forget that THOTTY

Not yet. I can still make it. Rough year but I'm getting back on the horse
Probably.

...

Veeky Forums said girls would be mirin, but all that happened is my heart started hurting when i think about it too much

spite from my ex gf dumping me has given me more fuel and motivation than anything in my life. Just the thought of one day seeing her fat and worn out while im thicc gives me immense satisfaction. Whether it happens or not is irrelevant

Bruh i /pol/ too but fuck man i hope you didnt tell her you were breaking it off because of the rape

what's 1/2/3/4?

> 1 plate OHP
> 2 plate bench
> 3 plate squat
> 4 plate deadlift

I don't want to get into a whole long story. I really really didn't mean to hijack the thread I just forget others aren't used to people talking like I do. All my friends accept who I am even if we disagree.
So long story short.

>Sitting in car, 2 months or so after getting engaged
>Talking about my friends friend J being over at a get together this weekend
>It puts her off ease and I notice, we talk
>She opens up about what happened
>Bert stare for a few minutes and give her a hug before leaving for the night
We were sitting in my car at her house
>Go home, drive, cry, argue, phone friends and mentors
>Wake up with fresh resolve
>Meet her after work and break things off because "I feel terrible you went through that but my feelings and yours don't matter in the grand scheme, I have to do what's right for my people, you're tainted"

And everyone hated me for a while. Spent a year in a spiral with only a few close friends. Job jumped. Dated a little but decided that getting right was the best thing to do for the moment. It's a shitty story and a shitty situation but whether by coercion or force I cannot abide the thought of my partner having fucked black.

thanks bro

this can't be true user.... you can't be that autistic

1pl8 bench means 1 plate per side, right?

Where do you think you are right now?

yes

sup cucks

Says the loser that actually got cucked

Unfortunately it is. I have problems. Big ones. But certain things I don't compromise on.

You did the right thing breaking it off, but for god's sake actually telling her the rape is the reason you broke up is autistic as shit.

You have to lie about that kind of shit so normies don't hate you.

THE AUTISM LEVELS, LET THIS BE TRUE

I try really hard not to lie. I think in this situation it might've been beneficial but at the same time as soon as she said it she was dead in my eyes. I wasn't worried about her anymore. Worried about the future and "doing the right thing"
Sometimes I wonder if my self righteous behaviour is selfish or stupid.

Oh
my
god
please fucking tell me you're larping and you did not tell a girl who was raped that she was "tainted" and you "did it for your people".

This is exactly why you shouldn't be lifting for her, you huge idiot.

Not my smartest moment but I try hard not to lie. Her life fell to shit ( it wasn't great to start with) and I try not to eat that guilt all the time. Gets to me some nights though. I like to think of it as my punishment. I don't talk about it a lot in real life. Maybe I should. I feel a little better writing it out.

It is both selfish and stupid, yes.

>for my people
>tainted
*breathes in*
*inhales*
AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH

She cucked you and you cucked yourself. Christ almighty.

It’s both, please seek mental help.

why did you say it then you actual idiot?
you're like the "pick that up" guy but racist in terms of actually talking if you did this
can you not understand emotions you sociopath?
I know people tell you to kill yourself but that won't help anyone
you have to apologize and do some charity stuff for the rest of your life to make up for that moment.
I can't believe people like you exist

You made the right decision bro. I'd do exactly the same

I hope your not real cause you should kys. Rape =/= coal burning.

Of course not. It's false flagging by tiny dicked faggots from stormfront/nazi sites or worse some JIDF psyops.

Thanks for saying that user. It actually makes me feel better.

No it means one plate on one side and nothing on the other side

Unironically proud of you user

Nope. You put the weight on one end of the barbell and not on the other. It really works the stabilizers.

I swear this board is no different than /r9k/ sometimes

I meant 1/2 pl8 per side

Thanks Snake

Honestly. Because I was retarded and autistic. I've worked incredibly hard on speech patterns and empathy since this happened. I can pass for a regular if morbid person for hours at a time now. But then, there, in that moment I had nothing.
I was neglected growing up. Spent my whole life thinking I wasn't shit, wasn't worth loving, wasn't good enough to love. Then someone came along and for the first time in my life accepted me for who I was. Flaws and all. Laughed at my paranoid habits and loved me even when I needed space or couldn't attend an event she wanted to go to. I thought that she was the one to finally fix me. I'd been into the Nazi thing for about a year. Had just gotten some tattoos. Was getting back into the church. Was losing weight and educating myself to better be ready for everyday life and to explain my position.

Then it happened. In .25 seconds my safety net and only pillar of support was cracked. I was falling back into what I was before. I had the choice to swallow my pride for the rest of my life and accept that the beautiful disaster that went out of her way to make sure my life was on track had been victimised, made less than whole and shattered in a way that you can't ever fully repair. Hiding my disgust everytime we kissed or touched or had sex.

1/2

Or grasp onto my ideology that had withstood a world war, the murder and public shame of its followers, an entire propaganda campaign against its very existence. Something real and alive. A beacon in a dark and hard world I had lived in too long.

I don't mean to be poetic but goddamn in that moment I did what I thought was right. I'll stand by that. It wasn't a good move. Far from my best but goddamn it I had a choice to make. Humans come and go but my mark on society needs to be bigger than myself and if the entire world hates me for that I'm okay with it. I'm not edgy, I don't think I'm cool. I'm a hurt, lost little boy who grew up too fast and got hurt a few too many times. I hurt her. That's my burden to live with. I'm scum but I'll arrive everyday to be better and step by step I'll get there.

Sorry. Field too long. Damn anons got me in my feelings.
2/2

do you expect me to feel sympathy for you?
I'm going to spell it out to you
your ideology is based off of hate for anyone not you. this is extremely unhealthy as it will lead to many miss opportunities because of some dumb beliefs you hold. i know you can't change easily but you need to reflect on everything you do. pride and philosophy can all crumble in real life. fix yourself and learn to accept things as they are sometimes