How you holding up fit?

>wake up with the gf
>make dank goats cheese omlette
>drink protein shake
>have coffee
>drive to gymbros house
>drive to gym
>now at work making those wallet gains

I'm holding up pretty well, just a shame my gym stats are shite.

Yeah substance abuse is a bitch, fortunately I could stop it just like that. But at least now we know how important taking care of one's body is, both physically and aesthetically.

I'm just so fucking angry it came to this. And having to cut right off the bat.

>I squat high reps for conditioning now as my body and coordination are too pummeled for strength programmes.

You might want to read parts 2 and 3 on this article, is has some interesting points and suggests doing lower-rep/higher weight routine instead while cutting.

>get up at 0430 so I can go to the gym and lift when there's no one around to laugh at how weak i am
I'll never be good enough.

And to add it wasn't just the substances that were at fault, it was the whole picture. Maybe that's why I could drop those substances relatively easy.

Forgot the article ":D"

thinkeatlift.com/losing-strength-while-cutting/

obviously a gilf fetish

#staywoke

mixed feels brehs, help me out
>nice fuck buddy 8/10
>she's always wanted more than sex
>always implies how she likes me alot
>making advances like interlocking fingers when we're fucking or cuddling after
>been like this for a year
>last weekend, went to a party she was also invited to
>I was talking to an ex I was good friends with
>she comes out from nowhere and sits on my lap
>I stand up
>happens again
>ff at the end of the night, hugging my ex to say goodbye
>look her in the eye
>she starts crying in the other room
>hostess drags me to her to comfort her
>she's bawling her fucking eyes out - "you don't even want me here, you don't even want to be here"
>make out a bit, I'm drunk af, tell her she's over reacting
>leave
>snaps me
>"you need to fuck me fuck fuck me fuck me"
>basically tell her to fuck off
>ff to now, her friends told me she kissed some other guy at the party
>she hardly drank that night
Sorry for the shitty blog post. I know it's not as wild as other stories but thought I'd share this. My friends tell me how I'm missing out by not wifing because she's such a nice girl, gets good grades, hot asf. Not sure how to feel, I'm kind of a sociopath anyway so I guess it's not something I should be complaining about, but on the other hand its not something I expect from her.

a milf winked and smiled at me after i fucked eye her for a good 30 minutes

im fucking great rn

This shit is paying off

>ff to now, her friends told me she kissed some other guy at the party
>she hardly drank that night

Not really a mature way to deal with emotions, it raises a burning red flag. But what do I know, I don't date women

I'm literally Robert Baratheon.

Legit question. What the fuck am I supposed to do about body hair?

You sound like an absolutely awful person. I sincerely hope you die unfulfilled and alone.

i want to die sempais should buying a motorcicle solve this, i dont know how to drive cars or motorcicle

Not him, but why?
He didn't seem so bad

Elaborate, user... I'm fucked in the head. Show me how I can grow to be a better person please.

>work all day
>feel pretty lonely
>text the trap I like to suck off to see if I could come over
>says yes
>gag on for a good hour
>shoos me out

I usually sleep over and suck him good morning. Feel pretty shitty now

>third class of bjj
>still feel awkward as fuck and slowing down the class when doing the warm up drill
is there anything i can do at home to help? i.e drills i can do at home

feeling pretty bad
>be a fatfuck but losing the weight
>forced to move back with parents and have trouble finding new house
>tfw no gf
lifting is the only thing I have going

Shes a trainwreck, likely has issues that will reveal whilst dating, dont bother user.

Any book recommendations?

Dammit user

DELET

Probably have to go bankrupt this week. A bit disappointing desu.

>Eat
>Yawn uncontrollably
>doctors dont know what it is
>can never get rid of it
>carb heavy meals put me to sleep

>doggo died few days ago, family had to put him down
>cried like a bitch that day
>got over all the crying now but still am melancholy and just feel lethargic and spaced-out all the time
i'm gonna miss him, didn't even get to say goodbye since i'm away from home

this happens to me too. It might be your blood sugar levels spiking. After eating a shit ton of rice, I just crash.

...

I avoid all simply carbs now but it still happens. I just ate bacon and eggs, yawning like crazy.

fml

Tell me about it. I recently started with ZMA and had the most intense dream and it featured her, after years of not even thinking about her.
I log into social media and turns out she just got married.

He did literally nothing wrong you pathetic whiteknight faggot.

I think I'm going through midlife crisis and I don't even enjoy lifting anymore. Partially cause I'm not seeing any gains or growth but I really do feel like shit.

I'm over the thot, making sick gains and feel fucking AMAZING

woke up headbanging and punching the air to the whole of RATM's first, that's how good this day started

You need to get out in the wilderness.
youtube.com/watch?v=7NMQnDrBp60

I live in a small tropical country, no access to such stuff. Funny you should mention that, I have been telling my wife we should move to a third world country where life is simpler.

I'm in my first romantic relationship right now at 19, I missed a lot of developmental milestones in my teens and I guess I'm living them out now, better late than never.

But I've been lonely for so long that it's hard to do the physical stuff because it doesn't feel like something that belongs to me, I don't feel like the type of person who gets kisses and hugs and sex, so I can never really get into it and just experience it without feeling out of place.

It hurts because my gf is absolutely perfect for me and the light of my life, but I cant have confidence in my own relationship, and sex is awkward because she's really vanilla and emotionally involved where I have weird and degrading fetishes.

I'm hopeful that this is just a phase and that I'm finally on the road to experiencing a full life but it worries me that missing out on teen love and having weird sexual interests as a teen might have fucked me up a bit too bad for me to ever recover.

Don't be surprised if that relationship doesn't last. That being said, don't assume it has no value. This is what one might call a teachable moment.

I'm doing good, as always user.

I'm always thinking about her, but when I'm actually around her there is no desire for a relationship, only when she's not there. Am I fucked? what's going on?

dont fuck it up
stop fapping and watching porn

Same problem. I think I like the idea of a relationship but in reality I just want sex and to be left alone.

It's not even just sex though. I want a relationship but when i talk to her i just stop caring about it. does that make sense?

Maybe you're creating unrealistic expectations in your head, as opposed to when she's actually around.

Or maybe you're gay.

Hormones confusing lust for love.
Just accept it for what it is first.

FUK

>unrealistic expectations
fuck, you're probably right, how do I stop that?

because you miss your dad

> 19
> Veeky Forums by normie standards
> no friends outside housemates
> all housemates do is play mtg and smash which I dont
> weekends spent playing dota solo queue cant anymore because of patch so end up smoking my weekends away
> no women I can meet through friends or outside class
> too autistic to approach the ones in class
just feels like a part of my life is just missing
I just wanna walk holding hands with an average looking girl dont even care about sex

That's a question you'll probably have to answer on your own. My problem is, and has been, that I don't know how to be alone around someone else. I feel like if I'm hanging out with the gf I have to give her my undivided attention and we have to do everything together. I don't know how to just exist in the same space with someone. I admitted this to her about 3 months in and to my surprise she has put up with my bullshit and is trying to help me figure it out.

>I just wanna walk holding hands with an average looking girl dont even care about sex
DELET THIS

>woke up
>feel depressed as fuck
>thinking about dropping out of college
>don't go to lecture
>go to gym instead
>load my bench so I almost pass out at the end of my series
>suddenly depression is gone
It works better than drugs

>life is almost getting better
>her
>it gets even worse

I think I've reached the epitome of depression lads

My only plus in life is money, and I'm not really rich. I have 20k saved and want 100k by 30. Already planned out how to get there.
Literally no other dreams or goals in life. Already resolved to die alone, far past the stages of depression and deep in to apathy.
I lift 3-4x a week and eat healthy most the time for no real reason anymore. It's a simple life free of stress, but free from most emotion in general. I think without stress, sadness, and other negative emotions you can't really feel extreme happiness or joy. It's 4am and I woke up early to go deadlift. Wish me luck boys.

Just get an eastern european mail waifu, user

At this point, if I knew how, I would.

>anons always say it gets better
>it just gets worse

WHEN does it get BETTER

When you're dead.

The fact that you wake up at 4:30 to go to the gym is good. You're gonna make it brah

>good

Based on what exactly? A 150 year old concept originating from a time before artificial light?

We're not living on candle light or wake up to milk cows anymore.

>i dont know how to drive
yes

delet

shave pubes (assuming you are sexually active) dont bother with the rest unless you have crazy pajeet back hair or something

Trying to find a job but no ones giving me one

shave pubes if you have hope of anyone seeing them
and armpits

forbes.com/pictures/gglg45gfd/benefits-of-early-risers/

It always gets worse before it gets better.

My life is going pretty ok right now, does that mean it's about to get worse?

hilarious image
also stop being a faggot and fuck you gf

Deleted texts from my ex including the one where she told me her new adress to send her stuff to.
I guess she blocked me or something because i ain't got no reply.

I miss her so much that a random email which found its way to my work email, reminded me about her, in some twisted mind fucked way.

Other than that.... shitty, depressed, sad af oh and so lonely i could kill myself

/Blog

Alright...

it's been getting worse and worse for about 18 months now

I'm really close to offing myself at this point so tell me when it gets better user

Life seems to be good - I'm about to spend £112 on tees to actually look good when I go out. Lifting is paying off, now I need to stop wearing shitty clothing that hides everything.

What are anons thoughs on these tees? any recommendations? 11degrees.co.uk/sale/clothing-c1/tees-c8#sort3

It gets better when you decide enough is enough.

Condolences, my dude.

Lots of doggos in the world live shitty lives (see sarah mcglofmeme commericials) your doggo was loved.

Doggos know that. It was a good life.

shit's heavy, mane

...

look pretty basic to me, this is not Veeky Forums though

Why am i ruining my life over thoughts of a girl who clearly has no incentive to even text me again (after a relationship) ?

Is anyone else conforted by the fact that other people have problems in life? Its like in school when you feel relieved that you arent the only person who failed the test.

I’m thinking about dropping out of college and taking a year break
Sort myself out and stuff

Fuck I’m in the same boat, I have a fuck buddy and I am mixed about what I should do, I mean I totally enjoy where I am at now, not putting any labels on us but I wonder what she thinks and if she wants me to lock her up? Plus how do I even begin to say “hey I wanna be in a relationship with you?” I’m content with being fuck buddies but I also wouldn’t mind being in a relationship

If it's going to get better compared to now it will.
I can't tell you, I can't see the future.
But if you off yourself, you've just watched it get worse and ended it. You've got no clue how much better it could get.

Going to bravely push through and see if you can make it better? Or are you just gonna take the easy way out and stop the ride where it is?

The site gave me a wall and only saw the second point, better grades.

It's no surprise that a self-described morning person has a chance of getting better grades in an institution that was built around being a morning person.

It's all fine if a person is a morning person, I just find the assumption that getting up early is somehow better a little irking. Most people can't seem to handle a nocturnal rhythm.

Lad im well passed the point of "pushing through it"

You'll drop out for life. Just keep going.
Wish I didn't make the same mistake.

Nice digits.
You're clearly not past the point where you need to push through it if it's still getting worse though.

ffs this whole board reminds me of my ex

pathetic i know but that's how my brain's wired

NOT YOU AGAIN LONDON BOI

Here's a question for you: why is it that you allow the negative things to affect you but not the positivity you feel? Times are tough, but know that everyone feels like this at some point, you're not a freak you're just a normal dude/dudette.

Find something you love and love it with all your might, appreciate the leaves on the ground and the smile on a baby's face. Just like we are built out of atoms, happiness too is built out of small appreciations for little things. If you let yourself, maybe you can build yourself anew :)

Fucking this, you couldn't be any more right

It takes a while though. Took me 7 years before I realized gaming was literally all I did outside classes, followed by deletion of every steam game and steam itself. Even though it's been only a week, I feel better than goddamn ever

At some point in your life, the scales will tip and your feeling of want will overtake you. How soon that comes, that's up to you. Reflect on what you've done to get up to where you are. What caused this? What's keeping you in? What are you scared of? Just think