How you holding up fit?

how you holding up fit?

me
>wake up
>feel good, positive
>remind myself of all my problems
>get depressed again

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thinking about her

>Woke up at 4:15 relieved knowing I got full 6 hours
>Thigh and triceps doms from rotating lifts
>Had a shit three times
>ate youghurt, pumpkin seeds and muesli
>diet coke and bupropion now
>I am my world. (The microcosm.)

>Been homegym master race for a couple of months
>Mostly cutting and learning proper form
>Cut goes well, all my beach friends tell me how much weigth I've lost
>Feels good man
>Two days ago sign up for local gym and go for the first time
>Old advice giver kind of guys approach me
>They complement my 1plt squat and tell my how great my DL form is
>Feeling great
Why do compliments of old dudes on my form make me feel better than my female friends compliments on my body?

Reading books on meditation, really starting to think I should train mindfulness the way I train my body.

how long took you to realize this?

Exactly as long as necessary.

Just calculated my energy needs, I'm so fucking mad

>92kg / 27% body fat (including visceral)
>BMR 1900 TDEE 2370
>Deficit 1340 / 1720

I knew it was bad, but this bad holy fucking shit. I was doing 1700/2000 and even that wasn't enough.

I know I can't blame anyone but myself for going on a year-long bender of drugs, alcohol, work, school, eating and mental disorder. But fucking hell does it make me mad, went from 160kg squats to 80kg.

Remember kids, your body is all that matters. Fuck education, career, social life, drugs. Don't do what I did

>tfw could be close to pic related by now

FUCK

>lie down to go to sleep
>feel good, positive about tomorrow
>remind myself of all my problems
>get depressed again
>can't get to sleep on time
>wake up late
>feel like shit
>remind myself of all my problems
>get depressed again

You're not alone, friend. I have routinely destroyed my gains through alcoholism and consequential ailments. Now I'm sober and years behind my former lifts but at least I manage weighed dips and chins again. I squat high reps for conditioning now as my body and coordination are too pummeled for strength programmes.

One thing that helps me is: imagine all the people with broken bones and such. Those things aren't always your own fault, and those people need to tolerate weakness as much as I do, but we're all on the same boat of getting back on track.