How you guys holding up?

obsessed with a guy i saw on a dating site. i'm hotter than him but im so attracted to him for some reason and he just wants to fuck while he's here for contract work. i guess we'll never meet and he'll never know

>Get on prescribed meds
>Go from 305 to 230 in 2 month and three week span
>More motivated in life than ever before
>Never going to use recreational drugs again, personally is to addictive
>Beat depression

Fucking great.

My flight was delayed for work flight and I didn't have internet to check emails and respond from the airport. I basically responded to email hours later that night and I feel like the company won't even care. They'll just say I was lazy or something to respond to emails but I was legit delayed on a flight and what am I supposed too to do??

>Get on prescribed meds
>Go from 305 to 230 in 2 month and three week span
>More motivated in life than ever before
Don't fall for the adderall meme. I took it for 12 years and it destroyed me.

>ate a shitton of candy on christmas
>haven't gone to the gym since
>still no gf
could be worse

Tell them the truth

not him, but in what way?

im on something similar, havent noticed anything too terrible. but it would be nice to know what to watch out for

I'l pass, I have been more successful in my life than ever before, and my adhd is severe enough that two separate doctors prescribed me meds.

Even if it does destroy me in 12 years time i'm fine with that, because I already seen what untreated adhd is like.

Adderall is like the most well known prescribed drug ever, if you have adhd it won't destroy life, if you don't it most likely will.

They're testing you.
The correct response is to fuck them both at once. Then pee on them to assert your dominance.

>met 2 girls
>i still hate women
>but they have cute faces and test makes me want to rape qt girls
>talking to them is slowly killing me

Already sent the email late at night and responded to their questions, but to them they'll use it against me

fuck, flight delayed on takeoff
flight delayed on landing since no runways and its snowing
airport super packed and lines everywhere, live 20min away from airport but it took an hour to get home because of traffic!!!!

These are just excuses for the company, i know they will fuck me

Met some new friends, IRL

They think I'm dumb for liking Trump or Drumf as they called him. Anyway either I've been on the internet too long and enjoy shitposting more than real life or these normies are dumb as fuck and they dont actually understand politics at all

6 months ago i hit rock bottom when a girl i went on a date with and was stupidly infatuated with more or less rejected my kiss attempt and told me she didn't like me that that. i was a fat unemployed slob who got drunk every night and jerked off to cuck porn because i had such a terrible self image. i was on tinder nonstop and was obsessed with the idea of meeting someone

so then i quit drinking and deleted all my social media - including dating websites tinder okc, etc. i lost 35 lbs, shaved off my beard, got a haircut. i got a full time job in the same city all my closest friends are. i havent made it yet but i think im closer than i ever was. this is the first new years where i can comfortably look back on this year and feel good about what ive done to make my life better. i don't obsess over companionship or filling the void in my life anymore. through fitness and bettering myself i've found purpose. thanks Veeky Forums i wouldn't be here without you.

If you work hard all year and you are really trying they will most likely forgive you. Shit happens sometimes brother, it wasn't your fault. Good luck

its important to realize that politics hinge on winning over the majority, and that the average IQ is 100.

most normies are too focused on deailing with daily life to bother forming an informed decision, so they just conform and parrot whatever everybody else says.

its not their fault any more than it's a dogs fault that they shit on the carpet.

They couldn't believe I like the guy and understand his policies, they said no way most of the country voted for him

>lol, do they not know the majority of the country is full of white Americans who don't want to be treated like shit in the media and new age propaganda and they dont understand that, they think Russia obviously did something with the election and everyone wanted the Clinton, hahaha

>btw, my new friends are shitskins

good on you user, you're going to make it

in a way... you already have.

Normies are unironically retarded when it comes to politics. The important thing is that the right person won the election and if they try to overturn it with some bullshit scheme, we shoot them all like dogs in the street.

I need to clean my room. I need to work on my thesis before winter break is over. I need to work out. I need to stop eating so much. I need to not drink like a fish once a week and make a fool of myself. I need to stop smoking a pack a day. I need to pay attention at work. I need to find motivation. I need to stop dreaming about finding a girl.

I know it's not really Veeky Forums but I played Doki Doki literature Club yesterday and I've been in a funk. As if I was taken into a world with characters I loved and then suddenly ripped out with nothing left but the burdens of reality. It was like I was in love again with any of my exes. It was as if I still read books and could become immersed. For a glimpse I got to feel feels I hadn't felt in a long time. And now I'm still covered in injuries and bruises from drinking nights out that the pain and the lack of will power drive me to keep refreshing Veeky Forums. FUCK YOU WINTER BREAK. YOU BROKE MY PRODUCTIVITY STREAK. I WAS DOING SO WELL. And now I have to start all over again. I have to cause another avalanche somehow. School starts again on the 10th. I'm so fucked.

pic 1 jacket with pic two shoes, the rest looks nu-male.

Just told a girl I was talking to that I just enjoyed the chase and she shouldn't get involved with me. Feels very wrong but I know it's right.

Agree with this user.

Also where did you get that coat in pic 1, looks nice as fuck bro.

common prideful fool mistake. Always get the pussy you clown.

Financial Aid office has started dicking me around now that the time's come to pay fall's bill. Might be able to take care of it, but I have a little concern that things won't end up okay and I don't know if I can take that now that I'm doing better for myself.

We dated once and I got bored and dumped her. Saw her with other guys and got jealous and was actively working to get her back (which she was considering). You have to admit that's pathetic.

just ignore it. know who you are, know what they are, and know the line.
my personal philosophy is that a person is not inherently human. but through the values and principles they hold dear, they eventually become human.

if a person conforms to the opinions of others without actively questioning it, then they are no better than sheep and therefore aren't really humans.
therefore its safe to consider those of weak morality, virtues, lacking in conviction and/or ability to be effectively subhuman.

but to live in a world populated by subhumans means that you are the minority and even though you are "greater" than one of them, you arent against multiple. its how they exist, by sharing virtues and values they can run to each other for help to deal with people greater than them, therefore never becoming anything more than they are, but never losing at anything.

which its why its important to maintain a guise that you are one of them, but making sure you hold fast to the values that you think make you great.

such is the state of the world.

dont watch anime/VNs. they suck you into a fantasy you can never have. i made that mistake. just gotta stop running away from reality and embrace the suffering

>skinny twig
>work in physical therapy department of hospital
>every morning i get some kind of bran cereal to eat for breakfast (all the other cereal they have is cheerios/corn flakes/other no-nutrition junk), and get a few hard boiled eggs to eat with my lunch
>coworkers mock me for always eating the same stuff and for eating bran

>while they do shit like drink full sugar soda at lunch and eat donuts

>have to restrain myself from making any comments to them

Coworkers give you shit for eating healthy and you have to hold back from saying anything to then while they pig out? You guys are fucking pussies man it's embarrassing

yes user, sorry i dont want to call out my coworkers for eating like shit and ruining friendly relationships with them.

oh also
>only drink water at work besides the milk for my cereal
>joke with them that the only stuff i drink is water and milk
>they call me boring while they drink sodas and shit

>confronting coworkers over literally nothing
I mean, if it bothers him then definitely call them out. But otherwise you're just stooping to their level despite knowing that you'll have the last laugh anyways.

If you wanna get walked over be my guest

What. Are these people adults?

>didn’t gain any weight over the holidays (FeelsGoodMan)
>been hitting the gym consistently
>quit my dead end job and got a scholarship at uni
>still feel completely empty inside
>know deep down I’ll always be alone

I’m making the right decisions in life these days but it feels like I’m on autopilot

I love you all. This may be a fitness board, but people need to feel too.
We're all gonna make it. Our outcomes will be unique, but doesn't deter from its true sentiment.
Please keep lifting.

I met a nice qt girl but I'm worried I'm going to fuck it up. I've told her I have Aspergers, I've told her I'm a virgin, and I kissed her really terribly, but she still seems into me. It honestly feels like a red flag for a girl to like me.

Crushed a bench PR yesterday tho

its just banter man. the thing is while im good at banter, when i get teased about stuff i kinda go asshole mode in response and people get upset at me

>told her you're an aspergers virgin
>she is into you and you think shes cute

dude she already knows the worst about you and youre worried? wtf. if anything you can use her as a practice girl before she breaks up with you if you sperg out too much

as another sperg, mid 20s permavirgin, what you have right now is what i wish i could have.

Yeah, I guess that might be the reason I've been avoiding reading fiction or playing plot driven games or watching TV for a long while. I don't want to lose myself again.

When school was going on I was doing so well. How did this winter break fuck everything up so bad?

GF broke up with me and has cut all contact and I'm trying to fight off these "I'm going to die alone" feels.

i think i need a therapist, i just want to talk to someone about my feelings, i dont want to bother my friends or family about this

>tfw watching my ex and her friend go out on snapchat and get drunk
>try to make me jelous after many months of being broken up
>little does she know I've been working out 6 times a week since then
>and I'm talking to a 10/10 qt which we leave into the Lord's Hands.
I don't care. I'm going to make it, if its the last thing I do. I'm going to be a shredded sick cunt

how do i motivate myself

>gf broke up with me but I cut off all contact

Wasn't easy, made her actually want me more than before. Also got those dieing alone feels. I can get girls easy but I question if I'll ever get one like her

remove it from your vocabulary. Know that your motivation is fleeting and your long term goals are what you really want. your day to day desires are feeble.

Accepted she will never love me like I love her. Hold me Bros.

>always had tinder, hardly any matches or conversations
>join bumble
>girls number in 2 days
>she seems pretty keen on me
confidence boosted

Well the worst about me is my OCD but yeah overall my anxiety about fucking this up is a better feel than the utter loneliness I felt earlier this month so I am grateful for that.

trips of torture. don't do this to me lad.

>I keep reading about withdrawal symptoms online but I feel completely fine.
>smoking a gram almost every day

Give yourself a pat on the back. You weren't smoking nearly enough to get withdrawals. I was smoking an 8th every 1.5-2 days, then the butane jew got me and I was dabbing a gram of hash wax a day (at 70%+ THC). That much of a dopamine spike in your brain truly is weed crack, and when you make a habit out of it, it can be hard to quit.

>I'll ever get one like her
How do I know she wasn't the one user?

We all are going to die alone. If those thoughts get the best of you then you should die. Being dumped is painful, and you deserve a period of grieving, but you also need to be the strong man that people can depend on.
user. This is what friends and family are for. They should be your security net. No, you shouldn't just dump it all on them at once, but you should not have to be a stoic at all times.

But getting a therapist to have someone to talk to for a while before you learn this isn't a bad idea.
Keep it up user. Stop opening snap chats from your ex though.
I was about to type out something beautiful and detailed and explanatory, but I realized that I'm not following my own advice so I didn't. I need to get my shit together too user.

h-how do you know user

Someone once said to find someone that loves you more than you love them. For her you are that person and its okay. The act of loving someone is selfish anyway. You by loving more intensely are getting more an emotional benefit out of it anyway, even if she gets the end result of that love more than you.
I think you should ask Why more to things, but come to a real answer, not the first thing that the anxiety/Aspergers tells your monkey brain. Really sit and think why someone would do something like that. Why you do what you are doing, but don't come to the easy conclusions of "I'm an idiot" or something like that.

Its the story's on there. And yeah I should just delete her friend. She's a hoe.

>crushing pain of lonliness actually made me cry like a bitch for the first time
>that feeling of never getting what i want which is to actually be liked and important to a girl that i like too just once in my life
>every girl i ever cared about either rejects me or has a bf, or leads me on for attention and drops me
>how else am i supposed to feel like but its not fair? nothing has ever worked out for me like my friends. nobody understands how it feels to feel nothing but rejection and disappointment so much that now its like a familiar friend
>unironically a KHV at 25

Thanks user, I know that I should probably talk to them, i just feel like a burden

>tfw unironically a khv at 25 and have never cried over loneliness, never bothered pursuing a girl, dont give a shit

guys, how much worse than this guy am i?

don't compare yourself to others moron

You should, unless youre gonna fuck her too?
What good are you if your entire life revolves around the social stigma of being in a relationship? user, you need to look deep inside and find out why those are things that emotionally drive you.
Why do you feel like a burden user? Why do they like talking to you or being around you? Think about why they are your friends in the first place.

Seems like a bad place to work tbqh.

Nah. You're right. Im deleting her now. I would greentext you a story about a qt. It's not needed.

>take a week off from diet/gym
>cat that I thought was dying is alive and better
>friends came by so we hung out/went shooting and played pool
>relaxed all week on vacation
>comfy as fuck playing video games and sleeping
>come back to the gym after a week off
>lifts are great
>little rusty but the basics are there

feels amazing senpai. the only thing that would make it better is a gf but oh well that won't spoil my fun.

I feel like killing myself.
I'm 22 and my wife told me today that she doesn't love me and can't see herself loving me again. I don't have education, nor am I employed, we are poor and I've had neurological illnesses my whole life.

what the fuck are you doing with a wife at 22? You are lucky you are not employed because she can only fuck you out of half of nothing.

i dont care about what people think. i just want somebody to love and appreciate me for once and all the hard shit i go through.

I'm hit with anxiety and I'm okay with it.

I spent a couple years smoking weed heavily and being a useless piece of shit. The more I smoked the more I became detached from myself and the world. Everything seemed fake and meaningless and I felt like I could die and nothing would be different. Funny enough, I thought this wasn't that bad because on top of smoking heavily, my situation was very stressful and this helped take the pain away.

But I knew this wasn't natural. You're supposed to have feelings. I moved away and quit cold turkey. Progress was steady with the head pressure going after about two months, the feeling of being in a dream fading after six months and now, after a year and some change, I can say that I feel anxious. There are so many things that I need to improve on and do. Lord knows my body needed some attending to. I'm browsing Veeky Forums, cutting out alcohol and going to the gym again. I've already results and caught some noobgain mires.

I never thought I'd want to feel anxiety and depression but it's a healthy part of life. It keeps you on track. Blogpost over.

lel. But really this..

I don't know either, I feel kind of duped into this whole relationship

>25 year old permavirgin never been in relationship
>work with this beautiful indian girl who is around 30-31 if i guessed, who ive known for a long time working here, at least a year
>like legit from india on a visa, accent, light skinned, tiny (probably 5' 100 lb) tight body, pretty face, shy/reserved, kinda sarcastic/asshole personality, would call her a legit 7 myself but i dunno i might just be clouded by my permavirginity, maybe shes like a 5 or 6 to normal people idk

>even me as a fucking autist im pretty sure she likes me (pretty much laughs at all the stuff i say, even the slightly racist indian jokes i make to her, we look at each other a lot i think)

>have never hung out with her or even like eaten lunch with her or anything
>the complete autism and humiliation of my situation makes me not even try anything just like how its been my whole life

im never gonna make it guys. ever.

>light skinned, tiny (probably 5' 100 lb) tight body, pretty face, shy/reserved, kinda sarcastic/asshole personality

Fuck me, pretty much my type minus indian but I don't mind that. Ask her to lunch sometime. That way it's not really a date but can become one from there or become nothing. Nothing to lose.

if you're confident in it user, hint at a relationship thing and see how she reacts
better to risk her liking you than never knowing if she did

i only mentioned the light skinned thing because light skinned indians are usually so much better looking than dark skinned ones. also im pretty sure theres something like light skinned indians come from the north of india and are usually more wealthy than the degenerate darkies from the south or something

good point, the northern/light skinned ones are much more attractive. Go for it user

>place of work always has bananas out and available
>i always get one for myself
>she sees i get them and tells me to get her one too, but get brown ones
>get her one every day and tell her "my goal is to eventually find one as brown as you"
>she thinks its just hilarious, while calling my racist

if this response to my horrible jokes doesnt say "please be my bf" i dont know what does right

go for it nigga

Guys, I'm such a weirdo virgin that I notice myself always wanting to touch female coworkers. Not like sexually assaultingly, but just like if I'm standing next to them showing them something on the computer while they sit, wanting to put my arm around their shoulder or touching their arm/gently poking their flat stomach. i dont know why i do it, maybe its like a subconscious because ive heard that a key to flirting is touch so i do that

i have to almost physically restraint myself from doing it

Am i beyond help.

I'm just trying to figure out what I want to do with my life. I tend to jump around and not really know what I really want though. I've switched majors like 3 times already and I'm still not happy. Finding motivation and staying happy is also kinda hard for me. I've had days where I get a lot of shit done and other days where I just lay around feeling sorry for myself. I'm just trying to leave my shit bar tending job. The tips are pretty good but I don't want to fucking work with the new coworkers anymore. Most of them are felons and I just don't trust them.

Also the feeling of loneliness is killing me. I'm slowly loosing all my friends. They're all moving away, getting married, having kids and just starting their new lives without me in the picture.

shit sucks man.

if you don't actually do it, you're not that bad
just find a girl soon and take out all your energy on her

It’s been a year, but I still think about her.

trust me, this is how it is with fashion nowadays without looking like complete normie, but I like dressing more upscale.

You can literally buy it any department store, like nordstrom for example. Basic overcoat. Makes any guy into a tasteful man..

it gets easier

>if you don't actually do it, you're not that bad

but i do do it sometimes

oh god someone just castrate me already

Been very close to contacting my ex tonight. And that's after I was with the girl I am currently dating. I love my ex so much but she wasn't good for me so I had to leave. Im sad I didn't get to have Xmas with her. What do I do bros.

yo this is real talk.

Guys get yourself some nice boots, some khakis, and u can rock a shirt or a hoodie with the overcoat (look at an outdoors apparel place) and a clean haircut (a fade hoe) and just be fit and wear some cologne and wear a dope belt and boy like, you'll get some good looks.
Since I started dressing like that ive caught qt's staring at my fuckin junk just thirsty as shit for me

More chance of your life improving than falling apart if you care about yourself at all

If this post end in a number you ask her out

Oh shit look at that 3

I've lost 95 pounds and Ive been stalling for a month. I keep hitting the same mental block every time I think about going out and trying to get a girl, it's always me telling myself that I still look disgusting and I'm disgusting. I'm afraid that even when I get down to my goal weight I'll always think I'm nasty, so I've been trying to just jump in and try dating right now and fight through that fear. I've thought about making some sort of profile all day and keep stopping myself, what the hell is wrong with me?

This,

it takes so little to make your self image that much better if you actually be well groomed, well dressed, and smell great.

Just wear any of this, spray some nice winter spicy tobacco scented cologne and watch how many looks you get. I shit you not, I started dressing better and I've been getting tons of compliments from both guys and mostly girls.