Tfw schizo

>tfw good looking but autistic
OP, there are girls out there who can appreciate you for what you are. It takes a little while to find them, but spend some time together and when you feel it's right, tell her about your condition. If you find an understanding girl she will only love you more for it

Watch "A beautiful mind", nigga. It's a true story.
Strength of will can change your life.

I realize that saying "don't be weird" is terrible advice, but that's about your only option. If it's not relevant, then don't bother saying it. Take a second before you say something and ask yourself, "Will this slut know what I'm talking about?"

No?

Don't say it.

I have never posted in a thread like this but here it goes, girls just find me nauseating, just plainly disgusting, I have never had any problems making male friends, but girls with girls its horrible, I act diffidently because I have never had any success which creates a loop, I usually fuck up with introductions along with the fact that I have no wardrobe to speak of because I am poor (couldnt even attend uni because I couldnt move out and I am not even living in the US, I am living in Spain) so I usually go out with a hoodie and ill fitting jeans that my best friend (who is bigger than me, a true bro) gave me when he found out so I stand out like a flare when going to the pub we frequent, luckily I get in because I get along with the owner but I am rambling to put it in a few words I can see in their faces a visceral repulsion and even if I tell myself that fuck them it still hurts, I am just hoping to save up enough money with my meager salary so I can move out, put on weight (I am a fucking skeleton, I was 100lbs/45kg soaking wet) and get some decent clothes maybe things will start to get better then.

Do you eat breakfast?
Eat breakfast.
Breakfast main meal.

I do and I am getting enough calories every day, I weigh 64kg/142lbs right now hopefully this year I will look human

I am a woman with some schizoid personality disorder who needs a real man in my life, yet here I am browsing Veeky Forums looking for loose boxer guy.

Just ask the demons that speak to you for other-worldy gains and strength.

>I just made a joke on Veeky Forums saying schizophrenia was like having your CPU overclocked and they though It was weird or didn't get it.
wait wtf that makes sense to me. what's not to get

Ever try group therapy or anything like that where you could find girls like you?

Let's be friends.

>I just made a joke on Veeky Forums saying schizophrenia was like having your CPU overclocked
Are you german per chance ? Fucking hell

Not really. Schizos are a step too far. Very few girls will stay with you if you are a real schizo. Too dangerous, and you will inevitably hurt your loved ones both emotionally and most likely physically. No sane girl will sign up for that.

>6'2
>broad shoulders
>deep voice
>big dong
>good hair
>intelligent
>autistic

SO CLOSE YET SO FAR TO BEING CHAD

My best friend is schizo and he just got a gf. I worry about him hurting her or himself he wont talk to me or get help and just spends all his time with her.

>its another low self esteem carismalets convince themselves they have autism thread

Nah d00d youre just a loser

>always talking about and thinking about skynet "getting me"
>don't even beleive it but it's engulfing my personality

...

She’s putting herself in some serious danger. Schizos always go off their meds, it is inevitable. Have you informed her about your friend? You should, just in case.

What does schizo even mean? Wasn't it some sort of old-school fancy name for anything psychiatric, but isn't an actual diagnosis?

>he was worse than I
Highly likely. Lot of people from my school who had various issues and visited psychologists or psychiatrists later choose to study something along those lines.

Depression is a weakness not an illness

I mean you probably are weird OP, but I'm in the same boat, I got psychotic disorder NOS and hate it so much. I function fine now but if it comes back in chronic form I'll just kys myself

Unlike depression or ocd or anxiety where people can relate somewhat or feel for you (not trying to downplay those conditions), there's literally NOTHING good about psychotic disorders. first of all it scares people away, negative symptoms ruin your (social) life, the medication has horrible side effects. Has there ever been a tumblrina romanticizing having psychosis? It doesn't bring intospection, you can't beat it, it's just shit through and through.

You should see a therapist. If you go into full psychotic episode it'll ruin your life worse than losing your driver's license. Around 20 is a crucial period, and having audible hallucinations isn't a good sign. The earlier you get help, the better so you wont end up homeless talking to yourself.

If you say so. ...but I've seen some crazy women do some poor boyfriend choices, man...

Yeah, but those girls are defective themselves. Decent girls won’t fall for it. No one should. Don’t ever date a schizo, it cannot end well.

I'm also a schizo. I didnt realize there were any other one's on Veeky Forums. I'm married but I religiuosly self care and take all my meds. The psychotic episodes are few and far between so she can handle me.pretending to be sane. She also has severe ocd/bipolar diagnosis, so I support her. Good news is that being a schizo is relatively treatable nowadays. Just follow doctor's orders and learn social stuff. It's ok to be the weirdo making out of the box references.

I think we could be friends user

>tfw all of these things (only 6' though)
>can't make myself shut the fuck up
I feel the intense need to talk about things I like with other people, how do I stop this?

>tfw no defective gf
I've had normalfag ones, but I want someone who's broken inside so I can make her completely dependant on me.

Take your fucking meds then dumbass, you can't complain about mental illness unless you're actively trying to fix it.

schizophrenic

I'm exactly 20, yeah. I've already gone through the worst which was sometimes daily panic attacks in public places which started when I was about 13, regular visual hallucinations about 2 years ago although I've seen shadow people and empty cars since I was a kid but these were almost real since they were audible too, seeing loud construction workers beside me and statues of myself when I woke up, etc. And a severe identity crisis a bit less than a year ago. I felt like a hollow capsule and had a severe closeness to suicide. Time is a mess for me though, I don't have a certain idea of it so this is not exactly right probably.
When I'm writing this out I guess I see that there's no telling if something else will happen so I see your point. I always just thought I was depressed but when I look at my past It's more. I'm not even depressed.
My friends called a few nights ago, piss drunk saying how much they missed me since I used to be the 'activity leader' of a large friend group and I've pretty much self isolated myself for two years now but I'm getting better because I've worked towards it in my own made and individual space.
I view Christian as the best solution to my constant mental problems, the drawing is a visualization how he is the metaphysical purity of myself and my own creation of an ideal. He also understands me and has his values and views formed out. I'm not really losing myself giving him power but I'm creating something better instead of fixing something broken, I've already done that.
>Nice faggy and emotional blog post
Yeah, I know. I'm going out for a run.

That's autism for you. You can talk about what you like for 24 hours straight but can't give a shit about anything else.

I'm not autistic thankfully, just ADHD. I can care about other people's shit, I just can't sit in a quiet room with other people and not want to talk.

Yeah mate I am a schiz and my ex gf was a bi polar and one night for some reason after we had sex we got high on weed and convinced ourselves it would be fun to start self harming.I ended up in hospital.

Yo anotner schiz reporting in. I know its wrong but who else just like smoking so much weed just to see how dark the thoughts get for the sake of it?

I've never touched alcohol nor weed. Porn was enough of an addictive stimulant for me. I'm never touching anything like that again.

I'm an English council estate chav so pints and beer are more important to me than my antipsychotics in my opinion.

Pints and weed*

>severe OCD
>almost 20
>family history
>starting to have stranger, more emotional intrusive thoughts
i-if you're worried about it you don't have it right?

Try doing loads of invasive psychoactive drugs and report back.

youtube.com/watch?v=QQPJYnr48yU

But user you described asperger.

Maybe you don't have the right diagnostic.

usually i do

...

its how it is man your brain wont even let you sleep and people just dont understand no one tells you youre worth it or that youre valued cause youre so outside the box

hhmm noted need to find harley quinn

Do you have an actual diagnosis?
You're just describing being imaginative, but less socialized. You have a sense of humor that developed differently than your 'peers', likely from some degree of formative isolation, and it's a trivial degree of culture shock when you try to make those connections in a conversation with other people.

In all reality, you're likely on the light end of the autism spectrum.

you litterally see visions but it varies in intensity schizo affective schizo typal and full blown schizophrenia i cant remember the whole terminalology

You're on (((new))) Veeky Forums, many normies can't get that

you dont know unless you have it

nope, indiphirentiated schizophrenia, actually diagnosed since I was a teen and into medication since I was 15.

good man i try to im not a violent man though

This.

Learn how the brain works, ignorant normie
Depression has been proven an illness even on a physical basis

i like to draw also

>didn't seem to describe auditory, or any other kind of, hallucinations as part of your life experience
>only described the classic experience of a reasonably intelligent, but socially stunted individual

I had my doubts here. I'll assume that your medication probably alleviates some of the more disorienting symptoms of schizophrenia.

haha aint that the truth

yup

I have a light version, I usually used to talk alone, I had persecutions dreams all the time, I used to think people talked about me when I was just walking on the street, and once I hear a voice when I was 7, also saw sparks on the night.

>Learn how the brain works, ignorant normie
>Implying "neurotypical" isn't a buzzword

can anyone relate to the song. i sometimes feel more human than human others i feel somewhat less than because of how mental illness as a whole is portrayed in hollywood movies

does anyone else like the pain of working out

What?

Yes I also enjoy the pain from stabbing my arm with a knitting needle.

>I just made a joke on Veeky Forums saying schizophrenia was like having your CPU overclocked and they though It was weird or didn't get it.

I would have qualified that joke by saying it was like overclocking a CPU too far, to the point that it starts overheating. Then they would have understood. They probably assumed you meant a *stable* overclock.

Also, did you specify Intel or AMD?

Whilst high of course.

it distracts from the mental stuff

strange i dont self harm tho

Agree, I like working out too, thank your brain

Now that's more informative.
There is a fine line there though. Talking to yourself is far less of a pathology than just being shamed out of the habit growing up, and thinking that people don't like you or are talking about you (depending on the severity of the feeling) is part of just human perception where a person knows and imagines all possible criticisms of themselves and reflexively project that awareness onto other people. "It's so obvious to me, it must be obvious to everyone else too".

The dreams and the minor hallucinations are interesting. Something usually has to be very stressful, chronic, and/or traumatic for someone to have repetitive dreams about it. I hope the medication helped with that.
Distinct voices and minor visual hallucinations seem pretty on the nose for schizophrenia.

Can relate but the songs still shit.

Stop namefagging, you're posts are extremely grungy and don't really add anything of value. It's obvious you just feel good about yourself because you (think) you have some mental illness and that's what makes you a snowflake. Gtfo

i feel like ive been thrown away. i stay secluded in my house and drink most of the time

He is posts indeed

Fucking ignorant American

Tried it but it freaks me out. The thoughts get too dark. Same with DPH

its my only escape from the cage of my mind

yup no validation most of the time i dont know my strengths or weaknesses

i came back from the military and they diagnosed me and observed for over half a year constant observation

reeeeeee

Cute

i know what you mean most cant handle the darkness and live or i mean the dankness

>low self esteem carismalets
how do i fix this?

>6'2
>blonde hair blue eyes
>large broad shoulders and build
>have severe social anxiety and depression

So damn close...

haha its always something

Sounds interesting, I'm also planning to get a masters in Economics a few years after I finish my finance focused business degrees so I've heard a bit about John. I'll definitely check it out.

i think this guy has mental problems

this song excites me and calms me it makes me happyyoutube.com/watch?v=mhJh5_6MuCk

We live in the modern age, just record yourself acting out a conversation.

>Short
>Bald
>Bipolar
>Anxiety disorder
>Hyperhidrosis

Get on my level faggot