Feel bar is open, boys

>Be 5 months ago
>GF and I have argument
>be me, 28
>I want marriage and kids in 3-5 years
>be her, 24
>wants to travel the world, no kids
>tell her thats a deal breaker
>she responds, "ok"

Two years of my life with her down the drain. She sent me mixed messages about never wanting kids and having baby fever (her sister had a baby). Came to the hard realization that I loved her more than she loved me. I don't believe that she isn't completely against having kids - she just doesn't want my kids.

We ended in a text. No closure. She's made her Instagram public. Posting pictures of her and some dude with hearts. She never posted shit about us. I know she's doing this to show me up.

Whatever. I've fucked a few girls off of tinder but after every one I feel hollow inside so I've stopped fucking randos. It just fucks my head up more when its done.

I've been struggling to go to the gym regularly. I force myself to go out and be social. I eat like garbage.

Tomorrow I'm waking up at 5am and taking complete and total control of my life. Need to stop pitying myself.

>spent 2017 getting fit, improving my hair, clothes, personality, etc.
>acquire ability to fuck girls at uni fairly easily
>they all want to date me but none of them are gf material imo
>only girl I know that I actually enjoy spending time with and would consider dating goes to a different uni that’s not in my area
>we can hang all we want over breaks but nothing can come of it bc distance
Why does life have 2 be like this

youtube.com/watch?v=kICxJien7xM&feature=youtu.be&t=167

try dragon thrusters boys.

godspeed user. remember if shes doing all that shit to show you up shes probably not happy with herself and her relationship. if you stop pitying yourself and become the best person you can youre the one who is really on top
ik its sort of a meme here, but take vitamin D, ive sort of been through a situation like you but with a girl who didnt even love me back and vitd has noticeable effects on well being
such is life :(

Yeah but you don’t have it that bad m8. Nothing you can do about it anyway. Just gotta play the cards you are dealt

I'll give it a shot. Going to get back on vitamins and supps tomorrow. Checking my diet hard and focusing in on what's important in my life.

I'm going to be shredded for summer. It's time I made it.

youtube.com/watch?v=8jyhJ6TiUPA&t=605s
Is the ab workout I've been doing lately.

>on tinder again
>get a quality match
>converse on the app a bit
>I want to meet up
>she asks for my number
>as soon as I start texting her all I get are one word replies
>decide to just get it over with and ask if she is still interested in drinks
>no response
really don't like them women 2bh

U got it m8. Just be confident and it will all fall into place. And if not, then who gives a fuck

Fuck em. Find another tinder bitch user

she will have a kid in 2 years

>women messages me first with generic "hey :)"
>message back asking what she is up to
>ghosted

Fucking women, what do they even want.

My cousin and I have fallen for each other Veeky Forums

>tfw this happens to me every time I ask a woman what she's up to
Is it just a bad fucking question to ask or what?
I don't get it.

Love these threads every time, user. Thanks for making them. Drinking a vodka with sparkling water and here's where I'm at right now.

>one month into being single for the first time in almost six years
>been focusing on myself since it happened
>started lifting, doing cardio, cutting, down 15 pounds or so
>looking thinner than I've looked in a while, body's feeling good, starting to feel confident again
>absolutely fucking hate being single, but know this is the time I have to figure out who I am by myself
>prepared to go cocoon mode for at least 6 months, probably longer before I get physical with someone again
>last Wednesday, long story short, ran into girl I knew from a few years ago, older than me, remembered me a lot more than I remembered her
>drunk as fuck, locked onto me as soon as she saw me, asked if I was single, knew she wanted to fug
>went back to her place, no condom because holy shit how the fuck am I getting laid already
>got a blowjob, fingered her, we slept together
>was really nice being close to someone again
>was thankfully not awkward the next morning, she thanked me for "being a gentleman" regarding the condom thing
>we part ways, I figure I'll see her when I see her
>surprised that happened, but feels good to hit the timer already on messing around with a girl
>rather than embracing cocoon mode like I was, now finding it really hard not to hit up a couple girls I know I have a chance with
>one is a qt barista I've been chatting up for years
>the other is the girl I've had feelings for for 12 years now, we've always sorta had a thing but never been single at the same time until now. Fucked once, but it was a very bad time to do so
>still super hung up on my ex, don't wanna hurt anyone else with my bullshit, especially not this girl that I've always wanted to be with
>stupidly messaged the girl I messed around with the other day seeing if she wants to hang again. She hasn't gotten back to me yet

Fuck me, man. Being alone sucks.

what was the 4444 get

looks like fun actually!

Hit up the females user. No harm in seeing how things go. Now that you’re single you got opportunity to play the field so you should capitalize on that. It will also help you get over your ex i would think

I know, and this eats away at me.

She just doesn't love me the way I love her. Figures as much.

I'm pretty sure I caught a voodoo curse from an ex of mine. She was a stripper. Best sex of my life, but she was batshit crazy. I couldn't handle taking her to the hospital regularly because she felt she wasnt getting enough attention so she threatened suicide. Whatever. Her last words to me hit home. She said, "I hope someday you are madly in love with a girl, and I hope that she'll want absolutely nothing to do with you."

Feels like that shit caught up to me almost 7 years later. Like fuck me, this really what I deserve?

Post greentext.

I second this

I'm in another state on business.

Super fucking drunk in my hotel room
"Company paid bitches"

>Friend is a dyel
>Fucks tinder hoes on a regular
>I'm taller and bigger than him
>No matches ever except for fat chicks

I've been drinking pretty heavily lately. It all started with a dream I had about my ex, and went down from there. It's like the blocks in my memory about what happened in that relationship are all opening up and I really can't tell if I should stop thinking about this shit or confront my demons head on.

I am lonely and alone. I have spent my life yearning for companionship yet one of my biggest dreams is to literally fall asleep with someone I love. I am lovesick for someone I cannot have. I am tired of poverty and regret being born into the worst first-world country in the world to be poor in as I need a corrective surgery I cannot afford. I feel as if I am an outcast in nearly any groups I inhabit. It is already difficult to connect to people, coming from an atypical upbringing. I have very few close friends and do not know how to ask for emotional support although all my problems are external and uncontrollable. I crave the call of the void, to remove the curse that is existence as suffering is the only constant in my life. I am a handful of years away from 30 and I really do not know how much longer I can do this. There is nothing keeping me here beyond my own cowardice.
polite sage

>hit 2pl8 OHP
Shoulder injury
>hit 5pl8 deadlift
Back injury
>hit 10 miles on the treadmill
Shin splints

Fuck my fucking life. All of this has been in two weeks and I feel like I'm 80 right now. Taking two weeks off and just doing low-impact cardio and mild calisthenics plus a cut/fast.... Gains will be gone.

Maybe. This girl that blew me was the perfect person to do so because I had no prior involvement with her. I really want to hit up the girl I have feelings for ASAP, but I want to give it at least a couple months and get at least some noob gains and self confidence so I actually have something to offer her other than a desperate DYEL faggot who's still hung up on his ex.

>Family lives overseas, visit them for Christmas
>Older qt female cousin gets very touchy with me, holds my hand, randomly hugs me
>Starts "jokingly" calling herself my girlfriend, family does too
>Don't fugg because rarely anytime alone
>Get back home and she constantly messages me saying she loves me and misses me
I don't know what to do Veeky Forums

kill yourself and leave a will saying it was just a prank bro

>Overseas
It is good then right? What else could you wish for?

Face your demons, user. I'm in the process of it right now and I've gone from wanting to kill myself to feeling like I'm beginning to refine myself into the person I was always meant to be. Be stronger than the alcohol jew. That doesn't necessarily mean become sober, just don't let it control you anymore. You're stronger than it, you can use it for its purpose without letting it turn you into an asshole. Have some fucking discipline.

I'm doing my best, user. I was actually doing pretty well for a bit there, started learning to trust people again. I think at the center of all of it I'm just very angry at who I used to be. I think if I could go back there with what I know now things could turn out better.

I feel the same way, user. Everybody feels that way. But it's a completely useless thing to dwell on because there is no changing the past. Focus on what you're doing now and what that means for the future. I wasted so much of my life and so much of my potential, but it's never too late to get back on track and be the best you can be. We're all gonna make it, man.

godspeed user, you will do great in no time

I appreciate it guys. I'll make it through this.

fuck
>used to be marine commando
>do illegal stuff with buddies, but mainly petty stuff because you wanna blow off steam in weekends when you're off to coop
>no record
>4 years later
>law abiding citizen
>find out parents got into three way stuff (with other guys only)
>conservative guy so don't approve but it's not my life and they always treated me well so don't talk about it
>they don't know I know
>talk high and mighty about morals and shit, shake it off at times
>caught my mum once with a guy (it was a black guy.. t..thx fit and pol for hatred of these sub humans)
>my dad wasn't home though so my mum probably met up with the faggot behind his back while they met through their sexual adventures
>internal issues in my state of mind caused by this
>walk with it for a week or so, don't know what to do and avoid being there
>go to uni for last semester
>get arrested for illegal possession of a firearm (eu laws shit)
>they think I was gonna shoot up the school because marine time apparently fucked up my head (suspected)
>while interrogated I give them permission to see my milfag file
>they talk about it, start to relive memories and can't sleep at night due to flashbacks (that's not the problem, I see my dead buddy all the time in my head and that's fucking with me most)
>solve shit with university, not suspended thank god
>big fine coming my way

At least my first cycle ever is going pretty good, massive gains and look / feel better (test only)

Without going into a /k/ rant I'd just like to say it's fucking preposterous that a country can't even trust its warriors to carry weapons, even as civilians. Seems backwards to me. Anyway, I've found that if you pay too much attention to your parent's activities you lose a lot of respect for them (ever hear that phrase "don't meet your heroes?") so as hard as it might be just try and ignore their shit as much as you can.

you're just a fucking faggot. Stop caring about whores.

>exam in two days
>dont know anything

i'm fucked

Start cramming now, user. It's gonna be hard as fuck, but you still have a chance if you try. What's the class?

stop posting on laotian bon iver appreciation networks and study faggot

ever heard of ptsd and a lack of mental health services.

its food chemistry. i've been studying on and off but nothing sticks

i cant stop.

i will try user

Yeah, I have. Ever hear of presumption of innocence?

It's pretty sad government institutions treat ex military personnel like that here. Civilians are the same though, even if I'm one right now. Lots of hate towards military people, it's quite sad. Especially at university the past few years. We had a discussion once and I didn't speak out that I was ex mil. They all spoke with such arrogance, lacking every realistic point of view in their opinions.
>im ex this and that (in my country marines / commandos are seen as "ey watch the fuck out these fags are spooky)
>never heard a negative word about it again

Just a shit start of 2018, kek.

I have one tomorrow and didn't do shit due to circumstances stated above kek

I want my wife to be attracted to me again, so I've been doing some research into a diet and exercise program.

Wish me luck, Veeky Forums

>have seriously fucked up 2017
>end up hitting my squat goal 3 months into the year
>break neck a month later
>spend 4 months rehabing and learning to write properly again
>lose 12 kg
>finally get back into gym
>basically have to begin again including movement patterns
>finally comfortable making gains
>gf dumps me
>lose appetite
>lose another 3 kg
>fog starts to lift about 6 weeks ago
>start training harder than ever
>added 10 kg to squat in a week
>DL soaring
>chest press up to near what it was when i was 12 kg heavier
>tfw talking to new girl who seems great

we're all gonna make it lads, your choice whether obstacles are speed bumps or walls.

kek the SASR are stationed in the most cucked gun state in australia. these guy literally cannot own more than like 50 rounds of ammunition despite being tier 1 special forces and being given 200k worth of equipment on any given deployment.

Fighting depression everyday so I don't slip back into eating shit. Made solid weight loss and strength gains I've last 3 months but still unhappy with progress and having a ton of trouble with the self loathing and looking in the mirror.

Attracted to old friend who has kids and a partner now. I know I couldn't be in a relationship with her. It didnt work when we were in highschool, won't work now, regardless of the other circumstances.

Attracted to a girl at work. If I quit in the next few months I might try asking her out to see what she says. Honestly don't think I could be with her either, but I'm planning on trying to move to another city, so maybe some short term fun, because she's smart, and not complete trash like a lot of the people I meet.

Stressed out of my mind at work, deadlines to projects coming fast, nothing going right, and now dealing with passive aggressive shit from coworkers about the dumbest fucking shit. I don't have time to think about their fucking middle age petty bullshit, but it grates on me.

>break neck a month later
what happened?

also
>spend 4 months rehabing and learning to write properly again
were you at home with your family or what?
>tfw I have no family if I broke my neck there would be no one to wipe my ass

>Nothing is ever my fault
The post

landed on my head while surfing. the rehab was basically 2 months of sitting in a neck brace followed by 2 months of movements designed to a) get my neck rom back after being in the brace, b) assist healing and c) try to resist scar tissue or something along those lines.

the writing was something i kept to myself but basically it fucked up all of these nerves along C6/C7 junction which control some wrist flexion as well as thumb, index and the part of the middle finger that touches the index finger. this meant i couldn't hold a pen properly, and i have a permanent 20%~ weakness in the index/thumb on that hand so i basically had to relearn how to write with decreased strength and sensation.

It's 2 AM where I am and I'm up working on a project since I'm a retard who can't do things ahead of time. I hope the sleep deprivation doesn't fuck up my lifts tomorrow.

about soy being good

I went to get some stuff from a former fling who I was a rebound to. Pulled the whole "let's still be friends" card and all

I felt so fucking awkward going there, nervous. But after a while of superficial small-talk I started getting real mad, visibly too. I'm glad I didn't start ranting or running my mouth at them like I have done before, it was really hard to contain myself

Just told them something like "see you, whatever" and got out. Could've gone better but at least I contained myself and faced a situation I absolutely hate

Logged on to facebook for the first time in 6 years. I saw that everyone I went to high school with are getting married, having kids and buying homes. Made me feel like a shit person because I'm still behind in my college courses and still living with my parents while working a shit bar tending/part time bouncer job.

I got a flu and it fucked up my recovery for the program. This fucking sucks.
I already lost 2 fucking kilos

I feel like I'm getting short tempered and irritable with everyone, that basic socialisation is either a huge effort or a fight. I want to think it's a coping mechanism to deal with the shitty abusive people in my life, but it's ruining me regardless.

How do you deal with people who do nothing but start fights or demand everything from you without becoming bitter?

for some reason I can't talk to anyone about the shit thats going on personally, and i've never been able to
i feel like my gf deserves to know, especially since i occasionally act out
i also wish she'd understand the reasons why i'm so upset, she's really supportive and I hate this coming between us

i dont know whats wrong with me, i just wish i could let all of it out

Well Bucko, you're an user on this site so just let it all out.

GJ user,
Im about to make it too.

Not soon but i will make it.

Be a man.
Fight back and learn how to fight.
Be emotionless so you dont think with your emotions they just fuck you.

I've been cutting and it's going good so far. Started the year off at 230 lbs with a goal of getting to 200 by the time my cousin's wedding comes around in April at which I'm gonna be an usher so I really want to look good.
Just by counting calories to not go over 2,000, swimming at the local pool, staying away from soda like it's the plague, drinking all of my coffee black, and cutting down on eating sweets (still have a Snickers every once in a while) I've managed to get to 220 lbs already. Just gotta keep it up, I guess. Counting calories really does make a difference, as does minimizing sugar intake.

Everything is going well, work is going well, school is going well, got a date Friday

Only issue is it isn't with her brehs
She's giving me so many mixed signals

I’m a little sad because this girl and I from class had this connection, she was even chasing me a bit, then she went cold like nothing ever happened. Just like that. It’s funny too because she’s the first girl I’ve asked out in 5 fucking years....... well I’m glad I’m over that mental barrier and I know everything is gonna be okay I just need to meet more women but It makes me sad how something that seemed special can end in the blink of an eye like I meant nothing. I know that there could be other reasons for her going cold because I see her ex boyfriend is tagging her in memes, they dated for at least 5 years. I don’t blame her for going back to him if that is the case because I’m some new guy in her life but the connection they have is much deeper. Or maybe she lost interest. Who knows man. I’m not gonna let this shit slow me down. If anything this experience is valuable, I need to get rejected so I can learn better and make up for lost time. I’ve been pulling the trigger for the first time in my life these past two years and it started with going to the gym, like I have actually put forth my intent and desire to achieve where as before I was a leaf blowing in the wind. I’ve made so many positive changes and built myself up into a man that I’m starting to become proud of. I’m noticing a level of female attention I haven’t had since high school.

Take it easy bros.. we’re all worthy of love.

I seem to be losing weight at an alright pace. Soda is the only thing really holding me back, but I account for it. The ruminations still hit hard as fuck though.

I kinda know that feeling. My relationship of 6 years died a natural death some time ago, feelings of love etc. ended before the relationsip did and all that. I was expecting to spend some time single but it was not to be. A younger girl I've been friends with, and who dated a buddy of mine, for a couple of years and I were drawn together. We've seen each other a lot due to same hobbies and social circles. Now we have this strange dating but not really, doing all the things a couple would do but still not certain if we're a couple -thing going on. I feel so strange. I care for her a lot and she has made me feel things I havent felt in years. But we both ended our relationships not that long ago and she was adamant that she would not get into a new relationship for a while. And still we cant keep away from each other. It's so damn stupid.

I feel like I'm making anti-gains, at this point. When I try to build mass, I lose weight. When I try to cut, I just hover.

Why would you have kids with a near 30-year old woman? That's a sure fire way that the kids will have at least some issues

face

>hate my job
>only coworker i liked/shared my workload with just quit so now i have a mountain more shit to do
>left arm is in a sling because hyperextended elbow (fell snowboarding)
>minor ligament tears we think, havnt had mris yet because fucking expensive, but the doctor says its likely a nonsurgical case
>limited motion, clicks and pops and feels wrong
>cant lift for weeks at best, months at worst
>im left handed
>have sweet and emotionally mature gf who makes me laugh all the time
>but shes kinda ugly and im less and less sexually attracted to her daily
Im not having a great week. Gotta figure out how to stay fit with one arm

I don't feel like going to the gym today

I have gone 3 days a week for 6 months, but today I woke up so tired... it's 1pm now and I can't bear the thought of walking half an hour, training and then walking half an hour back.

Would it be ok if I just do cardio today at night? it's so hot outside already and I feel awful.

listening to teenager skater music and feeling pumped lads
hit my weight goal now ill change my diet to keep muscles
fuck women btw

>Can see my abs for the first time in my life (when flexed)
>Just 5 pounds away from finishing my cut, lost 10 pounds in 1 month
>Lifts are being maintained or going up slightly even on my cut
>Confidence and happiness gains

What was your diet? Start and end weight?

I've quickly learnt meaningless sex with tinder sluts doesn't make me feel satisfied.
Still think about her.

Probably gonna hit 4pl8 in the coming weeks if I stop being a pussy at 16

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>mad my delts arent growing
>work the ever loving shit out of them
>hurt myself
>cant workout
>delts will be even smaller

i'm sad beyond words

Havent posted in Veeky Forums in a few years. Used to be a regular here who gave power lifting advice. Still lifting but after a heart scare I have a different focus.

Something popped in my head today and I dont know why.

Is anyone still here who remembers that user we had who got cancer but would give us updates. He was trying to get fit and would tell us even with the chemo he was lifting weights and drinking protein.

It got so bad near the end all he could do was curl 10lb dbs by his hospital bed.

Then he just stopped posting. He asked everyone to remember him as "M" (I think it was) and to always lift hard for him as he was dieing. I used to write his initial above every log I kept.

This was 5 or 6 years ago, I dont know if anyone who was there then, is here now. But if anyone had a screen grab of that I would like to see it again. I think it would be good for all the new guys to see it too.

Thx

My diet is pretty much "Try to eat the very least you psychologically possibly can". I have protein powder so I minimize muscle loss and have been doing excessive cardio.
Start weight was 152, current weight is 141, goal weight is 135ish but it's more dependent on my body fat percentage and not total weight.

adblock?

Taking me too fucking long to find full time work. Finished my undergrad in history almost a year ago and am looking for work at a big university so I can continue my education for free. Lifts are going well though, which is nice. My only other gripe right now is I miss having a female partner and fucking. Long term relationship ended in a really ugly way right around my graduation, ok now because her life is miserable and I got to shoot her down when she tried to crawl back. Did tinder during the summer and fall and slept with girls I thought we’re way beyond my grade. Swore off of tinder though because it just made me feel shitty after every fling, drained and used. Beginning to look out for good partner qualities and thinking about trying no sex until marriage, briefly tried catholic match but deleted my account rather quickly because I realized I wasn’t ready yet. Thanks for reading my gay blog

My life is such a mess right now. I only feel good when im lifting.

>Being alone sucks
>isn't alone

Even if you dont get up at 5am, dont beat yourself up, and still take control. Good luck.

>heart scare
explain?

I feel like I should stop GOMAD but I'm just so shit at tracking my food to gain weight..

Just drink less milk and more real food. Like do half a gallon a day and slowly work your way

I'm lonely as fuck. All of my interests and hobbies and things I'm involved in are male-dominated. I don't get any opportunity to interact with women. My university is over 70% men. I don't know how I can form connections with women, realistically.