Any mid 20's fags or older here today?

Any mid 20's fags or older here today?

Hows life? Hows lifts? Happy with career? Happy with social life?

25 here. Lifts are fucking shit. Started a new program and got injured immediately after deviating one day. 210 lbs. Want to drop to 190, but new job and stressed. Also want to go back to school but can't afford it. Social life, finally gone.

How about you ladies and gents?

25 sucks man. This is probably been the shittiest year in my life so far.

I'm not really happy with any of it. GF and I broke up (she was a legit 10. Wanted to put a ring on it). Lifts are shit because of job. Job is hard, and long hours (military pilot). Wanted to be a fighter pilot but got BTFO so now I'm flying cargos. Social life is in the shitter since I'm moved from all my friends and family to the base, and everyone here is married and just goes home to domestic bliss when they get home. Wish I fucked around in college a bit more and didn't take it so seriously since the real world is kind of shitty.


Hopefully it'll get better. My job is still really fuckin' cool, and I get paid well.

28. Things are good. Career going well, social improving but still not seeing the gains I'd like. After a lifetime of condescension and derision to the idea of long-term partnership and marriage, being single in your late 20s with very few prospects hits you hard.

There's a six that just got hired at my office. I trained her for a bit, she was slightly flirty on one occasion, and I find myself settling into the idea of dating her now. I don't ask her out, though. Not because of spaghetti, but because I don't like the idea of "settling" for anything or anyone. Never have, never will. If I can't get what I want, I don't want anything at all.

I'll probably die alone.

25. shit job but potentially something in the works. Lifts are alright, pretty much 1/2/3/4 for reps. Everyone at my gym is a turbo dyel so definitely a lot more impressive there than on here.

>tfwnogf

Navy or Air Force? I tried to commission last year, got denied on medical grounds, they told me to get my waivers but I never did. The idea of starting at 25 in the pilot program and giving up a decade of my life for something I'm not sure I'd like scared me. I guess I still have 6 months to tackle it. I really want to go into Med school though. Considering reserves to pay for pre med courses. Would you say it;s too late or dumb for me to go back to recruiters now considering my life goal?
Also I feel you on the woman thing. Was ready to pop the question to my 6 year relationship 18 months ago, she was also a fucking 10. She left me to get engaged to some rich Jew/Italian kid. Sucked.

24 here. Life's shit, lifts are good, career if you can call it that, is also shit. Social life is shit because of my "career" and the only girls i get are thots. Thinking of just joining the military.

The nogf thing is a double edged sword. Had one, fought nonstop. Single, no sex and lonely.

Also 28 here, and I played ff8 as a kid so I appreciate your Quistis.
Everything is darkness. Lifting and weebshit are all I have. Just got fairly serious about going to the gym recently, and think I'm making decent gains.

im 27
started lifting 3 months ago

went from barely benching the bar straight to benching 135x7, and went from benching 25 lb dumbbells to 65's. could not be happier

Consider mail order bridge. Seriously. I'm originally from the Balkans. I know alot of dudes of my ethnic background or similar who hit 30 and just go back home to find a hard working, smart, sexy girl from the village or working 100 hours a week in the capital who just wants out. I feel bad for the girls because the dudes are usually scumbags. But if you are a good dude, they will stay. A couple guys I know were genuinely awesome guys who just forgot to date and they are happily married.

There will be light. I'm not sure when, I'm not sure where, I'm not sure how, but there will be light.

I just replayed FF8. In fact I replay the PS1 era FFs about every 3 years. Not sure why, it's just cozy. Weebshit is cozy. Having your life together but still indulging in what made you happy as a child is cozy. There will be light.

>23
>graduating uni in May
>reserves
>probably getting deployed at the end of 2018
>tfw won't be able to build much a career in 6 months

might try to go to law school after idk

Yes.

It’s okay. Lifts are okay. No, I’m not but I’m much happier than I have been in previous years even if I am making a much, much, less. I never knew what I wanted. I would like to go back to grad school but I have no idea what I’d study.

I have a few friends, the first regular friends since college, but they’re just about all married so I think time seeing them will decrease but I hope not.

I just got out of a three year relationship but, at 30, it’s a different world out there. My siblings are married and, happily, my family has at least stopped asking about it. At this point, I just want to work my job and die.

you are 28 man, I wouldnt worry about not "finding someone" soon. I have talked to a lot of women (not "girls") who say men in their 30s are hotter because they are more mature, still in good shape, and actually have money.

I know a few guys in their early to mid 30s that are dating 25-26 year old woman. Its easy to date younger at that age.

For me:
>age
27
>hows life?
Pretty good, I have been living in a smaller beach town in FL for 2 years now because i have a good job, but trying to get the fuck out. I am literally wasting precious time in my 20s here because the social scene is shit. I still make the best of it though
>hows the lifts
Lifts are going well, currently on a full on cut...down 4 pounds since Jan 1.
>how the career
I have a great job in the finance industry. Should be making $100k this year (especially once I move to a bigger city)
>Hows social life?
My social life is decent, lots of friends in two major cities about an hour drive from me. Where I live is a small beach town and it absolutely sucks.

Go out and get it bros

Air Force.

If you got DQ'd for medical there's no way in hades that they'd let you fly. Pilots have the most rigid health requirements in the entire military. If you can go that route and convince the military to pay for your medical school that would be ideal. I think your life will be a lot comfier, and you'll be around qts all day.

24 but people think I'm younger. Going to hang out with a 20 year old girl, hoping to meet her single friends.

This 19 year old chubby Hispanic girl wants the D but I don't know. It's like I've got borrowed time and I'm not sure if I can bang a girl with a 'teen' at the end of her age but is that worth it?

>28
>Just started lifting again this week after not lifting while /fast/
>lifts are shit
>life is good, have a chill job and a qt gf

weirdly motivated by this post

As an active duty? Or reserve? I just started working an insurance job. Don't like it. Should I just go back to talk to recruiters and discuss what my possible options are? Last time I was with them I got pretty annoyed at the blatant bullshit they fed me, even if I was denied.

My dis qualifier was a heart murmur. I know a former Colonel with the same problem but they caught his when he was 15 years in so they didn't give a shit.

trips confirm you need to smash that teenage puss

Honestly not worth it. Did that when I was 23. Finishing up college, broke up with love of life and started Tindering. Matched with a girl who had turned 18 like 4 months prior and decided to go ahead with it. Her immaturity, even by 5 years was dumbfounding. Really killed my mojo.

28 years old
lifting 5+ years
1 gf since i started lifting
she cheated after 2 years
now i lift everyday and drink myself to sleep while working full time hoping i die on my motorcycle on my way to anywhere since i sold my car

fuck dude...

Glad to hear it.

Although where I live sucks, I try and look at it like this: I want to be the all around attractive male in this little town. Disciplined with diet/workout routine, hustle hard at work, read/learn in spare time, etc. At time it gets hard to keep motivated, but I keep the end game in sight. I want to push myself while Im here to be the best, so that way it translates when I move to a bigger city.

It doesn't make a difference as far as AD vs Res as far as flying goes. They all go to the same medical screening.

Give it a shot, but I don't think you're going to be able to be a pilot. However, you can get the best of both worlds and be a flight doc. You'll basically be a doctor in pilot squadrons, and you'll be doing a lot of flying to keep up currencies. I don't think they have the same medical requirements.

Give it a shot, man. If its truly what you want never give up.

Just turned 24, so I guess I should consider myself in my mid twenties now. How to make the most of them? Is it time to stop dicking around and get serious about a career or enjoy my youth?

sort yourself out, bucko

or what?

Hey bud.

28 here.

Chin up.

I'm 26 and have lived the kind of horrible, pathetic life that a "normal" person probably wouldn't be able to tolerate for even a few weeks and I've lived it for at least half of my entire life. Don't know if I should talk about it though.

I'm hoping and planning on this being a big year. 24 khv, but I was relatively consistent with the gym for the first time in my life last year, and now I'm doing the trifecta of quitting vaping, no porn , and eating disciplined.

Career wise, it's pretty shit (3.8 gpa, finished my bachelor's, but I make $15/ hr doing a job where most of the other people here have high school education only). Either gonna go back for a master's or start applying for more jobs.

Gonna move out of my parents place soon, hopefully I can start feeling like a fucking adult. I'm worried that, being 24, I'm so fucking behind in my social and sexual development at this point that I'll never get laid, or get a decent job, etc... But I'm really trying to resist the urge to be a sadkunt. Goals this year are to move out, to be in a better job, and to engage in sexual relations in the missionary position. If I don't complete the last one by my birthday at the end of the year, I might just end it desu.

Good luck boys.

nothing really, i don't give a shit if you live a miserable life. you have the power to change it instead of wallowing in self-pity, though

Yeah I might go and talk to some recruiters again, but I don't want to pussyfoot around with them or be fed some bullshit lines. I've only got 6 months left to even consider pilot route, but probably not worth the shot. Considering everything we've discussed so far, should I just lay it out straight for the recruiter? I'd be willing to go talk to my doctor and get back into shape if there's a real possibility of them saying "yeah, study, well take care of it".

I don't that for a second. In fact I'm counting on that because I've come around to the idea finally. It just took a long time, and the regret of missing out these things in my younger years still brings me down from time to time.

>25
>178, 92.5 kg
>trying to lose weight
>visibly thinner since christmas, but haven't lost any weight
>have gained muscle mass though
>Done with college in a year
>will have a useless degree and massive debt
>relationship with gf of 8 years probably ending in less than a month
>have a shitty part time job that I hate
>hate most things right now

this is benching 1pl8 then right? how did you do it, 90 pounds in 3 months?>

Stay strong buddy. Definitely move out. I havn't yet and it's killing me inside. With you on shit pay/job thing, I suppose to keep trying new options. You'll get laid. Don't worry. Just don't be a sperg. But it will be 100X easier if you have your own place.

Cargos is good life. Navy aircrew here. You'll travel/party around the world without actually deploying and never be on a ship consider yourself blessed.

What do you have to lose? Go for it, man.

Go ahead and share user

Solid point. Thanks pilot bro.

23, currently doing a paid internship for a small military museum. I love the work but I'm considering contacting a couple abbots in my area and seeing if they'll let me join the monastic community

it will be ok user there are always good times and bad times but the bad times make us who we are today

Almost 21, so I'm excited for that. I'm moving out in a few weeks, very excited for that. I'm a waiter and I go to school.

Just turning 25, never had a boyfriend (I'm a girl) because of being fat, spent every day of 2017 crying because loneliness and sexual frustration

But things are looking up, I'm getting Veeky Forums, getting a degree, preparing for a career, lots of travelling. I finally have hope for the future and have given up on finding a boyfriend.

I feel for you Navy bros. Being gone all the time sucks but I would abhor being stuck on a ship for 6 months straight.

Thanks Navy bro. That made me feel a bit better.

full body lifting 3x a week, eating a lot, resting. i also worked out very hard

monastic communities are memes, ive had multiple family members literally ruin their lives through the clergy. Have fun being a virgin

I'm not a sperg, I have approach anxiety and I've been fat for as long as I can remember. I've been trying to work on that self love self esteem shit.

Moving out is definitely happening. I'm only at my parents place because I needed somewhere after college to live. But I got complacent.

Thanks for reading my shitty blog post senpai, and thanks for the nice words.

>24
>still no bachelor's
>no sex in years
>stay inside all the time
>sleep all the time
>quit lifting

28 here. Hang in there buddeh.

thanks frog bro

gave up a long time ago tho

Thanks bro solid advice, not a virgin though

Welcome to the life of men. Honestly it's pretty sad what alot of fat/chubby girls go through these days. Back when society had some semblance of morality, hefty girls got married just as easily if not easier. Blame 4th wave feminists for what's happening to everyone.

20.

Life sucks fucking ass.

>Poor white trash abusive mother
>Left home at 16 and have been bouncing around friend's houses for about a year at a time
>Wanna got to college but no money because no family to depend on unconditionally
>Working at Wal Mart and already gonna have to move in about half a year again, planning my next step mid-stride here
>Can't lift but I still want to take care of my useless self


Life literally could not get any darker, but the only thing that keeps me going is the fact that there definitely is more to life. I just have to dig at it until I get there...

>just turned 26
>kissless virgin, never even been on a date or asked a girl out
>ugly as sin
>have not had real friends for at least half of my life which turned me to a miserable angry shut-in life
>bachelor's from 4 year college, had a miserable experience
>can't get into the medical grad school I tried for after two tries, applied for a nearby medically related assistant program and even got waitlisted there
>don't know how much longer i can keep applying and dealing with failure and i don't even know what job i would do otherwise since all my work and experience and degree was specifically for this job
>work a shitty entry level job the past 3 years that was supposed to just be a year or so between college and grad school, shitty pay, long commute
>live with parents, hate it but i live in one of the most expensive areas in the country (bay area california) and with my shit pay can't afford anything (equally bad because i see how everyone else here makes 150k a year)
>literally just got my DRIVER'S LICENSE a few months ago AT TWENTY FIVE but have no car and the thought of driving alone gives me nightmares even though the instructor i used said i was a great driver (have never driven a car other than with the instructor a handful of times last year) so I just bike and subway where I need to go
>all my life every single day is "up work home tv bed"
>honestly afraid to even try to meet people (friends or dating) because they will see what a shut in aspie I am with no life experience at all and reject me anyway

>emaciated holocaust manlet


Suicide was made for people like me and I'm sure that's how it will eventually end. Currently I don't have suicidal thoughts or cry about no friends or no gf but I'm sure that will change soon. Sorry to ruin the thread guys, I just post on Veeky Forums because there's no where else to share. Also I'll probably save this in a notepad file and paste it elsewhere on Veeky Forums and people will call it a copypasta, no one can be this sad.

Please hang on.

25, life is ok. Been lifting 6 years, no career yet and shit social life. no one prepared me for life after college, friends live far away, jobs are hard to find. moving to asia in a couple of weeks with the savings I have, might as well spend the rest of my youth traveling and going for easy lays, worry about all that other shit later

>Hows life?
It's not bad. Getting divorced this week which has put a bit of a damper on things, but I still can't really complain. I've got some good friends, enough money for bills, a little extra for hobbies, and little/no drama.

>Hows lifts?
Finally able to squat again after months of tendinitis, finally able to OHP after messing up my lower back, bench is good, everything else is good.

>Happy with career?
I'm indifferent to it, only because I have no idea what I want to do with myself. Even when I was a kid I never had dreams of being a policeman or doctor or anything. It's a good job, my coworkers are good people, the money is decent and I'm getting a promotion in a few weeks, but if I found something more interesting or that offered me more money I'd take it. I've thought about becoming a PT because fitness is one of my few interests, and I specifically enjoy training people, but I'm worried that if I turned it into an obligation I'd enjoy it less.

>Happy with social life?
Yeah. I see everyone often enough to not be lonely but also little enough to satisfy my inner introvert. Sometimes I wish we'd hangout more, but everyone is doing their own shit now. Work, school, babies, whatever. The couple of times a month we go out for wings or get coffee are enough. We text each other pretty often anyways.

We all have one shot at this life. I refuse to succumb to the notion that only chads get to live the best life because of genetics. Thats cuck thinking. Reject that thinking and literally strive to be the best at everything you do. Why should others live a great life and you live a shitty life? Fuck that, go get it bros. We are in this together. Lets fucking do it.

Damn bro. I'm sure you've heard all the generic advice, but here's a tough one for you especially. Military. Seriously consider it. Not because "BRO MAN! BRO!". But because it seems like you need something massive to jump start your life.

>Welcome to the life of men

Welcome? I've been living like this my entire adult life

You sound exactly like my uber manlet buddy who works in Finance and does coke every day. Awesome guy, slays pussy like a fucking God, high as a kite 24/7, gets good money, hates his job though, wants to be a professor.

I know you have, but most women haven't.

haha nice, I shit you not i am in finance myself. And I love coke although I have backed off it in the past few months

Sorry to hear about it user, hope she has a change of heart for you. Lift heavy bro.

How old are you user? Asking mostly about the divorce thing. Any kids?

lmao at all the faggots thinking joining the military and having their lives set out for them will solve their problems

There's two guys in the military in this thread. One who is considering it to pay for Medical school, and another who really needs it. What are you on about?

27, at uni studying dietetics, got a 19 year old girlfriend and a really good group of close friends for the first time since I was at school.

Lifts are shit, bench 75kg, squat 110kg, deadlift 150kg, OHP 55kg all for 5 but they are going up fast because I am bulking like a maniac.

Life is good man, about to crush an exam I studied hard for then go out with my girl and some friends for a much deserved night out.

what would the military do exactly? also i dont really like the military as a whole or guns or any of that

the thing is i know the exact thing that has caused my life to be like this: it is, and always has been, not having friends. not having friends is what snowballed to cause every problem of my life. don't even care about my parents or terrible looks

>have no friends in high school, learn no social skills
>get to college with no social skill development so no friends there either, obviously was depressed there
>no social skills or development means not getting places with girls either
>after college i'm just a miserable shut-in with a decade of no social skill development in most social time of your life
>see no fucking point in anything when I am and always have been completely alone
>afraid to even try to make friends/date because of my lack of any social life at all


and the worst part is that it isn't like i don't have friends because i sit in a corner and don't talk to people. i am actually rather talkative and always have and still do make people laugh all the time and people *seem* to like being around me, but just nothing has every materialized into friendship (whether high school, college, or post-college work), so obviously im just the weird annoying spastic autist with ADHD

>27
>dates a 19 year old

Pathetic. Get a girl your own age instead of a teenage one with daddy issues who's using you to replace hers.

23, gonna be 24 in a couple months. I know, I know, "too young to be married" blahblahblah. I've heard it a million times, but I really was ready to settle down with this girl. Can't be helped now, though, and probably for the best anyways. Nah, no kids. That's a responsibility I know that I'm not ready for. I can't imagine trying to form a child's psyche while still working on myself.

the military is a meme. see a psychologist

Dude seriously the military is ideal for people like you. You'll learn life skills that you should've been taught in a stable household, get free food and place to live, a paycheck every 2 weeks, and if you pick a good MOS marketable skills to take into private sector.

>inb4 hurr durr becoming a bullet sponge for the jewz

don't go infantry learn a real skill. Navy Seabees, Airforce computer nerd shit, Army medical stuff, mechanic.

25 1/2 year old here and life is a 4/10 right now

I still live my parents because they need help with the bills and my mom is an ultra christian so i have to listen to lectures everyday. Every time I'm about to move out I get a huge guilt trip placed on me.

Massive year long dry spell and still going after being sexually active

Working 2 jobs in a shit town.

Finally started to lift again which is helping a lot though. Actually got a gym membership rather than using my home gym and its the best thing ever.

All in all, being 25 for me is no different than being 20. Almost ready to end it.

I was the same age when I almost got engaged. Kind bumed about it. Maybe for the better.

Because this dude >Psychologist
SO he can just talk about nothing at exorbitant prices and then take drugs?

ill ride with you bike friend

Check'ed.

Yeah, that's how I feel about it. Like, it sucks and I'm hurting, but I know I'll get over it and find someone better eventually. I think the thing that bugs me the most about it is how easily and for apparently how long she's been out of love with me, while I'm still not quite over her. If you can get what I mean. It's honestly my own fault for letting go even as long as we did. Looking back on it, I saw the signs, I just chose to attribute them to other things.

Why didn't you end up getting engaged, if you don't mind me asking?

honestly you sound like a faggot but see my post for the other guy You are a fucking loser on the tracks of being a forever alone 50 year old loser, oh you don't like the military as whole? What the fuck do you have to lose you entitled fuckbag

>I'll probably die alone.
nothing wrong with that m8.
its a hard road, but you can do it yourself.

oh look, someone who is clearly speaking from a position of ignorance. you realise there's a difference between psychologists and psychiatrists, right? psychologists don't prescribe drugs.

seriously, lmao'ing at you cucks who think joining the military will solve anything. if you have mental problems before joining they are only going to be compounded afterwards

I can relate to some of this. You need to work towards a car though. The mobility it gives you is insane, just buy a cheap one and don't forget insurance.

She left me. I was with her from senior year of highschool to junior year of college. About 5 1/2 years. (Year off to work, extra semester as well). I started focusing completely on my studies. She was wholesome and gorgeous but had alot of problems at home and was a bit deranged from it all. One thing led to another, and bang it was over. I'm over the breakup, but I'm not over the loss of my time, energy, and frankly love. Same thing as you though, she fell out of love for me long before I ever did. In a strange way I still love her, but could never take her back. Even though just a few months ago, despite her being engaged she texted me in the middle of the night and we talked for hours. She fucked with me too hard after the breakup. She went complete psycho whore.

I'm fully aware of the difference you bum ass bitch. But they push you into a psychiatrists in no time.

why? Dating a 19 year old is fun as fuck

is that what happened to you? that generally only happens if you have legitimate mental disorders which are fixed through drugs, not just depression/general dissatisfaction with life. sounds like you got a diagnosis you couldn't handle, bud

let me guess, the reason she is "fun" is because of the sex. cause theres sure as hell no other reason a teenager who would date a much much older guy because of her daddy issues would be fun... in fact im sure she's pretty psycho

imagine beinga father and your 19 year old girl comes home from college telling you shes dating a 27 year old, youd be like "where did i go wrong"

No, But it happened to two people I know. One of them didn't even finish two sessions before the Psych was trying to get him over to a pusher. I'm not discounting the benefits of a psychologist. But for that kid in particular he's better off just getting thrown in the deep end.

im turning 26 in 5 days
life is....strange.
dating a girl for about 4 years now. I used to be crazy about, now i almost don't care at all, i just dont want to hurt her. every other girl ive spoken to gives me the impression they want something from me, almost like a car salesman trying to get rid of last years model. if i break up with my gf I honestly don't think ill peruse another relationship. dying alone sounds easier than putting up with the bullshit.
my job isn't bad, but I want a lot more in a career, both money wise, and responsibility. probably not going to happen though, i feel stuck in the limbo that is my "alright" job.
lifts are decent. approaching 2/3/4/5 or have already attained it, i need to drop a lot of fat though.
I dunno, life is watered down, amorphous oblivion that has become a burden. when death comes to take me ill finally be released from this joke of an existence.

Blog post incoming:

Turning 25 in a couple weeks and... idk. Life just got away from me. I was a normie in high school who had plenty of friends and partied and chased girls, but decided to move out on my own several states away for no real reason except wanting an “adventure”.

Well turns out making new friends is extremely hard and requires some serious time outside of your comfort zone which I apparently have just unable to get to.

I’ve made a couple acquaintances here and there, but no real friends or social circle to speak of. I always make mental plans to begin putting myself out there more and in the appropriate places, but always end up at home on a weekend night alone and wallowing in self-pity. What really gets me is seeing a young group of visibly close friends laughing and heading out on the town. Like literally makes me almost choke up because I want that so, so badly, but it keeps seeming farther out of reach.

Like many here I’ve wanted to die frequently these last few years, but have been too much of a puss to actually do it.

[cont’d]

>iktf

>Hows life?
24, turning 25 in July. I can’t believe how old I’m getting. Life is decent. I’m relatively happy despite the circumstances. As I’m getting old I realize that I need to put more effort into my love life, I can’t be passive like I was in high school and expect girls to flock. Met this girl in class, she was my high school crush, never talked to her in grade 9 but became friends 4 months ago, I genuinely enjoyed talking to her and she made me laugh because we had the same sense of humor (rare for a girl) and we had a really deep connection. She suddenly went cold after chasing me a bit which I assume was because I moved too slow. I should have asked her out at the end of October but finally did the end of December. After looking at her Instagram feed I see her baby daddy and her are possibly back together. It’s for the best so I’m not forced to be some kids step dad I suppose. I was falling in love hard and I don’t blame her if that was the case. Just hoping I meet someone I connect with on that level again soon.. I’m pretty good at attracting women my issue is meeting them.

>Happy with social life?
All my best friends live 1.5 hours away. Not terrible but the other friends I have here are a little nerdy and don’t hang out with pretty girls. I’m alone a lot so I focus on the gym/chill and then go out every couple weeks. I’m torn because I want to stay healthy but I also want to meet more girls, and if I go out with my best friends more I’ll be around alcohol/drugs. I slack on my diet and gym when I go out with them. Sometimes for up to a few days.

sounds like they saw shit psychs desu. anyway, i wholeheartedly disagree. as someone who joined the military thinking it would fix similar problems, i can assure you/him it only made things worse. i am infinitely more content having left the military, sorted myself out, and began to pursue a career i considered worthwhile. I can't see how, if you're feeling alone and worthless, joining the military and getting treated primarily as a number with no intrinsic value as an individual will help

the thing is i will have no problem financially buying a car, and a cheap one (like a 10 year old honda or something) is what i would get. the thing is the thought of driving really scares me. it's part of the reason why i got to the age of TWENTY FIVE without a license. a number of factors: not having friends, being anxious about it, and my parents refusing to teach me. even though im 26 i've never driven a car without the instructor i used last year (and the DMV tester) and even though the instructor said i was great and i passed my test with only one small mark, it was a USA driving test which is retard easy, and all people do here in my area (bay area california) is say how terrible drivers here are, its literally all everyone says, which scares me even more

25th birthday 3 days ago

i don't know how to feel right now. my life is at a pivotal crossroad. my life has been shit except for my girlfriend. she was the only thing that gave me happiness and worth, and now she's gone too.

But you know what’s really funny? Is that literally none of this bullshit matters. Not your friends, not your girlfriend, not your job, nothing! We are all going to die someday soon and on our death beds we are going to look back with a sad milky-eyed smile and start laughing at just how stupid and insignificant all of our trials and tribulations were.

We can literally choose what to physically have our bodies do. Does not matter what pain we feel, what anxious feelings arise or how much fear courses through us.. we can send the electrical signals and forcibly do what our brains tell us.

So idk about you guys, but before I hit absolute rock bottom 5-10 years from now from this slow downward, stagnant spiral I am going to do one thing:

I am going to wake up each morning, and write down one easy, small, attainable objective task to do in order to meet some friends and cultivate a rich life. I’m going to do all of the dumb meme shit like “join a club” or reach out anyone who will come lifting with me, or go to the park or even go bowling on a Friday night.

And when I wake up at 30 with some funny texts from my goofy friends about what a good time we have, I’ll allow myself a small chuckle at the foolish plight of my early 20s.

You can join me or not, idc. I’m going to make it, or die trying.

Thanks for reading.

24, working on an offshore drilling rig right now. Life is going alright, shit social life by virtue of the career I chose but it pays fat stacks. All meals are catered out here and there are plenty of healthy and unhealthy options so it's just been a test of willpower to keep riding the chicken/steamed veggies train. The gym out here is pretty stocked considering the limited space, plenty of dumbbells and barbell racks. The motion of the vessel makes it really tough to do anything near my ORM on land but my auxiliary/stabilizer muscles are getting much more developed because of it.

Currently sitting around 220, would like to make it down to 190 without losing much strength or muscle mass so I've been experimenting with keto and drinking a fuckton of green tea.

Fair enough. I'm not in the military nor have I served. So I won't speak from that angle. But I feel as if with this kid in particular his problems are less about depression and more about being coddled waaaaay too hard.