/feels/ thread

Where did you meet your gf? Now that I’m finished school idk where to meet them. Is tinder/bumble my best bet? I’m so lonely I’m considering asking out a coworker.

>tfw girl liked you but you were too late once you asked her out

Never making that mistake again..

>family is fat
>not dad tho so exclude him
>used to be fat AF
>over 250
>start losing, everyone so supportive
>dad buys me healthy shit love it
>FF 200
>support stops
>"Yeah thats great" is the best response
>senpai legit gets fatter
>dad buys less healthy food
>FF now 170
>open hostility at times
>brush it off they FAF
>dad no longer buys healthy
>told he needs rent starting soon
>older, younger and youngest have jobs, arent told to pay rent
>now harder to save up to get out, need to buy cheap healthy food
>ftw gains were already slow

I hate my fucking family. Id apply for aid but I dont make enough to leave and dad makes too much for me to apply while im here

Veeky Forums prepared me to get my life in order but it never prepared me for this

F
sorry brother

>running injuries
>don't hurt that bad, but get worse if I act up and slow to heal
>might interfere with or prevent escape from Bug World
>try to remember that despair is literally a demonic influence
>mfw

man I miss my old cat man :( My old never never bit or scratch in all his 15 years of life and was a very effective hunter. Used to crash next to me in bed and always licked me. Damn man cats are the best, hugs to you user. I'll salute your cat with the three round rifle volleys tonight

Wish I wasn’t in debt...

Iktf, man.

>first cat
>black, long hair, beautiful kitty
>sweet as fuck, liked to come into my room when I was blasting music and lay on my bed and listen with me
>would sleep with me all the time
>when he was 14, noticed he wasn't eating and was getting really skinny
>we figure he's been getting bullied by our bitch of another cat so won't eat
>gf and I start planning on taking him so he could be happy away from the other cat
>get stoked I get to have my kitty again
>my parents take him to vet for a checkup
>fucking stomach cancer
>they have to put him down right then and there
>I'm two hours away in the car
>don't get to say goodbye to my catbro
>bawl stuck in traffic in the passenger seat of my gf's car
>now broken up with gf and moved back in with my parents
>miss that cat every day, things would be slightly better if he was still here

Ya thats rough. I had a young cat die on that same road. another sad story if youre up for it
>5th grade
>riding on the bus after school
>its a T section road
>if u turn left, my house is 10 seconds way
>we always turned right to drop 3 kids off before turning around after 2 miles to double back to my house since i was at the end of the route
>as we are approaching the end of the route, we all see some furry thing by a bush
>instantly realize its my cat Calvin
>hes motionless, know right away hes dead
>start crying and begging driver to let me off right then and there
>she doesnt
>have to finish the bus route which involves driving away and then passing right by him again
>get off the bus and run down to him
>hes obviously dead and stiff already
>only 10 years old but study him
>his bones are ok but his nose is really bloody and face a little fucked up
>he got swiped by a tire mostly killing him but stumbled to side of the road to bleed out
>had to carry him home and call my mom
>me and my brother burried him
>we have 7 acres, mark his grave
>5 years later im 15, old enough to mow our huge yard
>have rode past his grave thinking of him ever since

Never tried online dating, but one of my best friends found his gf on OkCupid and they've been happily together for about four years now and engaged.

>Kind of going out with a girl
>She's nothing special, but very nice and thinks I'm very funny
>Her friends are practically begging me to ask her out and make it "official"

I've never had a girlfriend before. I used to just lay down with my face in my pillow, hoping a girl would eventually be attracted to me, and here I am with a girl who's attracted to me and all I can think about is how I want her best friend and not her. Fucking shit lads. I just wish her best friend was attracted to me and not her, cause I don't want to let this girl down hard cause she's very nice. But she just isn't my type.

I'm so fucking unaesthetic
Bulking right now, I look like hot garbage and I'm super weak
I just want to cut but I would look like a spooky skeleton so I have to suffer looking like shit to build muscles and then cut but by then it will be autumn
>tfw have to look subpar all summer
>tfw 6feet3 and 176 pounds and 23%bf

Cats are the best. She was a long haired light gray maine coon.
>2 weeks after she died a gray cat came into my gfs job
>didnt want a new cat that soon cause i was so upset
>didnt really look like my old cat (who name was primer) but he was the same color
>i told her she can take him to our home and ill chill with him for 1 night and make a decision
>he was so lovey and acted just like her
>didnt look like her really so i didnt feel bad like i was replacing him
>hes the nicest cat ive ever met, hes currently on my lap
>shes a vet tech
>he was in some sort of fight at 8 months old and had a huge abcess on his tail
>had to shave the whole thing and nurse him back to health but the entire time he was so sweet
>3 years later, im so glad ew got him.

im not saying to replace your cat. but if an opportunity presents itself and you can help the animal, just do it if its sweet enough.

having that news hit you in the car is the worst. having to drive to the vet with my cat in my lap just looking up at me knowing her time was done, was the hardest thing ive ever done. she new it was over just as much as i did. she didnt try and fight me, she just had those understanding eyes that dying cats seem to have. im not saying youre lucky, cause being away definitely sucks, but its a special kind of pain being there and wishing it was over but at the same time wishing it would last forever.

>GF of 5 years
>always had ups and downs but made it though
>Gonna graduate soon
>Causes stress for us
>last few months been rough but want to keep going
>I go on vacation over Christmas with family, we figure we will use it as time to focus on ourselves
>Do just that
>Come back with a positive mindset ready to make positive changes
>She breaks up with me
>Cold shouldered
>Tells me she slept with a guy on NYE
>Cuts contact with me
Everything in life is transitory guys, but it still hurts

Copying my write up from /r9k/. It's 4 parts.

So recently, out of the blue, I got hit with a "blast of misery". Dunno how else to explain it. I'm an average guy. Going to Uni (studying Physics), getting some 7/10s, some 10/10s in the Semesters. I have one friend. I'm a virgin. Skinnyfat (240 lbs, not visible with clothes). Glasses. Brown eyes. Dark brown hair. Clean-Shaven because a beard takes too long to grow. Good enough face (bar some acne scars that'd probably leave with surgery). 6'1". Good frame (wide shoulders). Like I said, definition of average. Because I'm a lonely autist, I spend most of my free time reading pirated comics, watching shows and wanking it. I'd do it about 2 times per day. Maybe do some crunches and push-ups, keep the illusion of "working out".

One day, while watching porn, I got really fixated on the guy's dick; how much bigger it was. I took out my ruler and measured mine. I think it was about 5.1". A tad smaller than average. I got done, and the shame washed all over me. I tried again, bonepressed a bit. Maybe with some rounding up I got a 6". Again, rather small. And who even knows if I measured correctly? Maybe it was actually 5.5". Or maybe just 5". Maybe my initial measurement was 4.7" or something. That's when it started. I was disgusted with myself. I stopped wanking it. Porn didn't even give me an erection. It only made me feel sad. I stopped studying. I failed my Physics III Exam.

It's been about 2 weeks now, maybe 1.5, I don't know. Doing NoFap/NoPorn basically. I don't sleep much anymore. I go to bed at 04:00, wake up at 06:00 then fall asleep until 08:00. I constantly feel like vomiting and have a sort of "butterflies in the stomach" sensation, but in my chest. I'm cold. And I keep having these... thoughts.

no one ever actually replies to me in these threads lol

I've convinced myself my dick is too small. For any woman. It's pathetic. I keep starring at it in the mirror. It doesn't look half bad. 3.5" flaccid is average. It's fat enough. It's even got a big vein going from base to shaft (uncircumcised). Then I try to get an erection and measure again. I can't. I haven't had an erection since that day. On the off-chance I get an almost-hard-on, it measures at about ~5" and it makes me feel so ashamed I give up. At night I get these half-chubs, and I can feel how small they are proportionately to my body. They go away pretty fast.

It's gotten worse now. I still don't study. I don't watch any shows. I shitpost a bit here. I eat my lunch and nothing else all day. I drink water. I try to keep it in so that it'll fill up my dick to measure an erection, but no luck. I just stare at my wall and have fantasies. Usually about becoming someone important, famous and vital, but... I don't allow myself happiness. My "ideal" fictionalized self is plagued by the same problem. He's revered by everyone, yet he's a social recluse. They think he's gay. The tabloids say he's asexual. The truth is he's got such a small dick he's even afraid to call a hooker. "It will get out", "he" says, and "it will destroy me", "he" thinks. When my sadness turns to anger, I imagine he's killing some terrorists who crushed a Gala. I then go and choke my pillow, or swing a water bottle at the air. I realize the sheer absurdity and stop, feeling ashamed.

Never be the one to ask if you're together.

Never chase.

Other times I fantasize about killing myself. I've been doing that for years now, but I never gave it much thought. I used to think I was just being an edgelord. I'm too much of a pussy to do it anyway, so it doesn't matter. I sometimes wish my parents were dead so that I could go through with it... I haven't been diagnosed with anything since I never went to any psychiatrist/psychologist. I doubt I have anything, really. I used to band my head on objects whenever I didn't get a perfect score, if that matters in any way... Nevertheless, I fantasize about it all the time. It's all I do. At night, I used to dream how I'd be a great scientist and have tons of sex, when I was a kid. When I grew up, I fantasized about finding "the one". Now I fantasize about being alone on this Earth, and dying on some ditch, unmourned.

I get some "happy" flashes once in a while, and figure moves can make up for a small size. Then I realize that to obtain moves you need to fuck a lot. And to have a lot you need a decent package, which I lack. I visit Veeky Forums a lot, to look at some new exercises. I see all them posting about their "little 7" dicks". Most provide pics with timestamps. It kills me inside. I visit Pornhub, trying to get an erection, but nothing. I see the BLACKED vids, and their enormous dicks, and I feel the rage in me. Funny, to hate someone because you're inadequate. I became racist because of it. Fear of physical superiority, perceived, or otherwise.

>found out she's with "just a friend" now

The only thing that kept me going for a while, was that the PhD in Biotech I was interested in might allow me to go into Prosthetics, and figure out a way to make Dick Augmentations a reality. Then I visit Veeky Forums, and read about all these guys with their 140+ IQs, their grades, and here I am struggling with Introductory Physics. What hope do I have? Best case scenario, I'll escape my Yuropoor Country and become some Cog in some Large Machine. I used to at least have my brain as a crutch, but now the illusion's gone.

I try to identify with some fictional character, hoping it'll give me some motivation, but... I tried Iron Man because of his depression, but he's a Chad who fucks thots 24/7. I tried Doom, but he's a super-genius and a Gypsy, and I hate those. I tried Hunter Rose, but he's just a killer. Even Hawkeye is portrayed as hung like a horse. Why can I not find a character to identify with? Even that's out of reach... Maybe Hank Pym? Inferiority issues, depression, but at the same time he's a Super-Genius who can enlarge himself, so...

Yeah, that's... that's it. I've convinced myself I'll die a virgin by now. You could say "hey, why not settle for a 5/10" but, truth is... I'd rather die than settle. I'd rather die a lonely, ugly man, than settle. Honestly I don't mind that much. I'm getting some weird sense of.... "satisfaction" from this misery. This feeling in my chest isn't... bad. It... feels good, actually. I pity my parents, working class folk, who'll probably be disappointed in me.

It's just that... I never believed in anything. I'm afraid of Hell so I pray every night but... I don't believe it. I don't think I ever liked anything. Shows, movies, comics. I just... "like" them. I've never loved anything, or became obsessed with it. There's no worthy cause for me to fight for. I have no special talents or inclinations. I doubt I'll make a difference. I'm not smart enough to make some scientific breakthrough. I don't have any connections to make it in the business world. I'm destined for... mediocrity. Before I pushed those thoughts back but after that day, when my self-image of my "manhood" was destroyed, I let go of any delusion.

I don't talk to enough girls

Being a software engineer sucks, but I can't blame that.

My Fiance cheated on me and got HIV. She tried to pass it on to me but I was too busy for sex every time she tried to initiate it with me. When the time came for sex came. I couldnt get hard. She then suddenly snapped at me in a crying mess.
> YOU KNEW ALL ALONG I HAVE HIV
> HA! I CHEATED ON YOU!
I couldn't believe what I just heard. It was just a coincidence that we couldn't sleep together this week. Fuck I feel empty. My Fiance not only cheated on me but also tried to kill me with the disease she got from cheating on me. I really want to kill myself.

>raw dogged 2 days ago, pulled out successfully
>gf still scared, takes plan b
>yesterday eat edibles with unknown amounts of thc in them, we get baked
>go to texas roadhouse fried with gf and her friend, she throws up all over floor
>her friend feels left out, leaves once we get home
>gf feels like our closeness has caused a wedge in her friendship
>asks for some space

damn

Dodged a bullet there user.
She's trash, she's out of your life and she's only going to rot away inside as the piece of trash she's proven herself to be. Fuck her. I hope you get the chance to laugh in that cunt's face.

It doesn't happen often that people truly get what they deserve, but that cunt did and there's nothing left for you there. Train hard, work hard and make yourself happy alone and someone that isn't a HIV infected gutter whore will enter your life.

Say something interesting then manlet

You're LARPing, right user?

Dodged a massive bullet there pal. Shit situation but lucky you were busy.

It's times like these
you learn to live again
youtube.com/watch?v=faX0V-FVcyE

i'm just feeling terrible tonight guys

>Then maybe find a partner but anyone worthwhile will be long married.

right but you will definitely be worthwhile

I think i'm actually getting worse and one day past the point of no return

Anywhere I go people just say kys

No. I'm afraid not. This is something you can joke about. I just came home and as I walked home from the hospital after getting myself checked. I want a car to run me over. My own fiancé tried to kill me. She not only cheated on me but also tried to kill me. I'm really destroyed, am I the bad person. Why did I deserve this. I can't tell anyone. Every time I hear her name, everytime I keep being asked why I ended it with my fiancé from my own friends and family. I want to kill myself. I wish someone knew my pain.

>Girl who I had a slight thing with a few months ago randomly initiates contact again
>Says we should hang out
>Hang out last night, went to a book store and then back to her house
>Had tea, watched her play piano, talked
>In her room at one point, talking about books and shit
>Nothing sexual happens
I don't get it, literally one of the last times I had seen her before last night we slept in my bed together. Then we stopped talking and then she just randomly says we should hang out.
We're pretty agreeable with each other, but for some reason I still feel like she doesn't want me, I don't know. I don't understand her intentions. I'm house sitting for people next weekend so I'll probably ask to see if she wants to come over then, but still kind of confused about it all

I started working out in the summer and got tons of mires from my friends and shit, but now that I'm bulking I look like absolute shit. My lifts have been going up but I always feel like I'm not making enough progress and I'm obsessed my shit proportions.

I'm literally forcing myself to be extremely self conscious about my body

>i want to kill myself

WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING. WHY WOULD THIS MAKE YOU WANT TO KILL YOURSELF? YOU CONSIDER YOURSELF LUCKY, YOU MIRACULOUSLY DIDN'T GET INFECTED BY A PSYCHOPATH

WHAT DO YOU MEAN IT'S HARD TO EXPLAIN TO PEOPLE. YOU TELL THEM YOUR CUNT OF A FIANCEE CHEATED ON YOU, GOT HIV, AND TRIED TO PASS IT TO YOU. HOW IS THAT EMBARRASSING FOR YOU

GET YOUR HEAD OUT OF YOUR ASS. HELL YOU SHOULD EVEN SUE THAT FUCKING CUNT BECAUSE THAT SHIT IS ILLEGAL, SUE HER OR GET HER IMPRISONED FOR IT. SERIOUSLY LOOK IT UP, YOU CAN PRESS CHARGES AND SHE WILL GO TO PRISON

HIIT my dude

If you hesitate you're gonna masturbate user. I really recommend you watch some Corey Wayne videos.
You fucking had her in your bed, if you can't be sure to make a move on her then, what the fuck are your chances going to be.
Make a date, hang out, have fun and hook up. Create an opportunity for sex to happen or you're going to get slapped into the friendzone because you bitched out.

luckiest man on Veeky Forums I don't know why you are complaining about surviving a near-death experience.

What the fuck was her problem?

That pic has no sense...

>unironically choosing to be autistic

I dont fucking trust anyone anymore Veeky Forums? How do i get it back? Everytime a girl texts me, even for trivial shit i get worried she is trying to fuck with me and my feelings.

She's been sending suicidal texts to me and threats that if I told anyone then she'll say I raped her. We were so close user. My whole family knows her and worst of she still around them. Shes acting like what happened and what she did and tried to do was nothing. Telling my family and hers that we just didn't work out but remained friends. I can't sue it will destroy everything including my family. I can't stay in the same room as her or I'll go insane. No matter how much I ghost her she keeps being in my face. The only option is to move states or worse another country. But I'm scared she's being flirty with my cousin who's basically like a brother to me. She'll give him hiv if I'm gone!

Trust no one, go innawoods and live the rest of your live as Simo Häyhä would.

She said that... over text? God damn, what an absolutely stupid cunt. That mistake was fortunate for you.

You need to tell them, user. There is literally no other option. She can't follow-up on her threats.

This guy knows.

>told guy I like him
>he knew already
>seems he thinks he's not good enough
>I think Im not good enough either and tell him
>basically get no answer if he wants something or not
I feel stupid

>she literally says this over text
>you are still scared

YOU LITERALLY HAVE PROOF OF THIS. TAKE IT TO THE AUTHORITIES

faggot

My cousin is a fucking horndog. By the time I tell her she's got hiv and he sleeps with her will be too late. He never listened to me and will listen to his dick before anyone else. If he gets hiv and I told everyone. She'll win my family will be ruined. My cousin is my aunts only child it will break her.

I'd be down to replace my cat but I'd like to wait til I get a better living condition. That cat I used to have was when I lived on an avocado ranch which we lost during the previous recession and provided the best outdoors activities for that cat. Now I currently live in Downtown LA, I could get a cat but I don't want it to be stuck in a small, lame apartment.

THIS. Holy fuck aids-wife, stop being a retard and get legal people involved for your fucking safety.

We had a really rough sex a couple of months ago. Took videos and pictures. She'll fucking used that in court.

WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU, YOU EVEN HAVE PROOF OF HER FAKING RAPE STUFF, TAKE THIS TO THE AUTHORITIES, HAVE HER ARRESTED FOR ATTEMPTING TO INTENTIONALLY INFECT YOU WITH HIV AND IT GETS HERE AWAY FROM YOUR COUSIN AS WELL

Yeah I am

>withholding crucial information from him that could save his life because you're afraid of hurting people's feefees

You are betamax.

>have videos and pictures of a "rape"

Nobody with two brain cells to rub together is going to buy that.

God damn, both of you are fucking stupid.

You need to cut man. That’s fat as fuck. I’m 13% 172 at 6’2 and I’m gonna cut next week until I get to 9% maybe lower. Bodyfat is everything when it comes to aesthetics.

the day you start lifting is the worst day because you will never be good enough user
and that'S the best thing, strive for more. your bulk will end one day and once you cut and become the most shredded motherfucker on the entire planet, the mires will be worth it

Do people like this really exist? What the fuck man you guys need to stop associating with thots.

You don't understand. She was my long term gf, my fiance! Do you know what that means. She entered my personal space. My whole family got to know her. Treat her like one of her own. She obtained huge amount of trust and bond. I'm currently formulating a plan for her to get away from my family. She's really getting to close with my cousin. It sounds easy to tell just tell him, my former fiance's got HIV but he will definitely tell her and she'll probably give him the fake tears the old excuse of me being jealous and then guess what will happen. They will fuck! The only person I can tell this to is my Uncle but I need to find a way for him and us to speak privately. He'll know what to do. I hope.

I’m hitting prs in the gym while losing weight and feeling good in that aspect. I have a huge workload. Between work and school and am struggling to keep up. A cute girl sits next to me every day in class and I haven’t worked up the courage to say anything because I’m an enormous pussy. Another large girl from class has been smiling at me and is interested I think but I feel like I’d regret it.

Are you from the 3rd world?

At least kill this bitch

dude... this made me wet my eyes.. and I don't even like cats!

It was really rough mate. I'm telling you this man to man. It was fucking no holds barred hardcore sex. My favourite pics and videos are now my nightmare.

Thanks user, we're all gonna make it

USA my friend. I'm responding through my phone in bed depressed.

That's terrible :(

what's bothering me is that I went out drinking and I can't remember half the evening. I should stop completely I think

I’m kind of hoping the girl who liked me comes back because I don’t meet enough girls.. I usually can get some pretty ones attracted but my issue is finding them.

She went cold with me and I know she’s on some other dudes dick now(I waited too long to ask her out and I know she really liked me). It sucks only because she was my only option other than a girl at work but idk if I should do that. Maybe I’ll find another job and ask her out so I don’t have to deal with the awkwardness of possible rejection. I’m lonely and I need a girlfriend, I can’t deny this desire in me but it’s good I’m actually being proactive about it for the first time in my life.

Met my first gf on Happn, but we kinda knew each other indirectly. The relationship was great during the first months and then it went downhill. She broke with me around 4 months ago.

Now I just met a qt on Tinder. 16 years old and she's really into me. The feeling is completely different from my ex and makes me think that it will work out.

It's not that hard to look around these apps. Like, just swipe and talk. The worst it can happen is a bad date and move to another girl.

we're all gonna make it. Rich and Zyzz are watching over us
i don't have much to say user, that sucks. but it's gonna get better
youtube.com/watch?v=jHPOzQzk9Qo

Thanks user that song resonated with my circumstance

I've been sick for three weeks now. Coughing is almost gone but I still feel super tired and weak. This fucking pause makes me absolutely mad. My precious gains are all fading away.

The more I hang out and bang random girls I don’t really care about, the more I miss the only girl i’m actually interested in who is at a uni hours away

Whats keeping you away from her?

Yea that’s true. Thanks man. I need good pictures though. Like hanging out with my friends and getting them to take one of me.. selfies are a bad idea on tinder right?

Day 5 of no fap/porn

>sex dreams of old exs/crushes run rampant
>flirting with fat chick cuz horny (non high test)
>almost about to give in to a fap just to stop myself from fucking her

help me...

iktf
I think I'm like 5.5 on a good day, but I live in Scandinavia where everyone is crazy with fucking 7 or 8 inch dicks. How can I even fucking compete!?
fucking Spanish sandnigger genes.

>back to home
>spot nice cutie lady in the train
>instead of pick up her I took some photes
>talk to my friend, he said I am stupid that I haven't do that
At least my school is fine I guess.

>gf is a little overweight
>ABSOLUTELY refuses to put any effort in putting herself in shape whatsoever
>thinks that working out for aesthetics is retarded
>extremely offended by the mere implication that she should do so
>says that she doesn't care that I'm doing that myself (am former spooky skeleton, finally reaching ottermode).
She's a great girl but fuck me lads this is frustrating as fuck.
wat do?

Not sure how it works where you live. But I got one frontal picture of me and the rest are all taken during my trips, to make it interesting.

Fucked up with another girl so went to the pub and got 3 snapchats and 2 facebook adds out of it. And I'll still fuckup trying to get them out for a date or something. The one girl I did meet I do actually want, danced away with her but I didn't get her snapchat or number because I was so busy dancing.

FML Veeky Forums.

Give her an ultimatum or buy less food so it will be a hassle to eat big portions.

>she says you raped her
>you don't have HIV, so thats obviously not possible
Lmao what a dumb bitch. You're lucky, user. She seems like a terrible person and you don't have to spend another second with her.

Yeah I know that. After she left I had no girls in my life. Now she came back in for some unknown reason.
I'm pretty attractive, but sometimes that's just not enough. It's still annoying and worrying because just as easily as she came back in she can just leave and not talk to me again

I feel your pain user. It's sad though, isn't it? A man's entire self worth depending on a piece of junk that hangs between his legs. No matter what he'll achieve, it'll always, ALWAYS, be a flaw. You can simply say "it's not all a man is" and it's true, but at the end of the day, you also cannot dismiss it. I cannot begin to imagine the confidence of big dicked dudes.

You must be 18 to post here.

Its terrible, really. You could be a sculpted god of a man, but most girls would still pick an average dude with a big dick over you.
Jelq'ing is a meme, and reduces girth, and surgery is cheating.
The only natural way to compete is getting good with your tongue and fingers I guess... or start taking it in the ass and get good at that.