Mental health general boys

Lifts going good
Been reading a lot
Trying to keep my dick in my pants around this girl that my best friend likes
Waiting for the Roman Empire to rise again

>Decide to go back to school
>Weird exploding brain feeling in head
>Tension headache ever since

This happened coming up on three weeks ago now. I know it was stress, but now that I'm feeling like it's cool to go back and finish my degree, the shitty headaches are still there. It's really sapping my will to fucking do anything.

Got me into Starting Strength though BECAUSE I'M TIRED OF MY BODY BETRAYING ME WE'RE SUPPOSED TO BE FRIENDS

>Doing madcow 5x5
>First actual program i've tried in my 4 years of lifting
>was 183 lbs at the start of it a week and a half ago, made it to 189.8 lbs by today since I made the decision to stop being a pussy and actually eat
>Compound lifts getting respectable
>Feel big today, fucking ego lift on dead lift like a dumb fuck
>Area around tailbone in considerable pain, hurts to bend suddenly and lift heavy things in general

Feels bad guys. At least I've been seeing gains for the first time in a while and can maybe make it to 200 lbs before summer.

>6'7 btw

Dude, fucking rough. Sorry to hear that. Do you think it was your form or what?

Also I'm 6'0 and when I stand to people like you there's a primal fear that wells up inside of me. Consider removing your shins for everyone elses sanity.

It was definitely my form. Did 275 for 5 and my form was starting to suffer. Was using lower back more than driving with my heels and retaining good posture, should've stopped there desu. Did 315 for one and immediately started wobbling and seeing stars. Nearly passed out on the floor. That part was because I didn't breath correctly though.

Just gonna call in a script for ibuprofen 800's tomorrow and take a week off from legs/back.

>Also I'm 6'0 and when I stand to people like you there's a primal fear that wells up inside of me

6'7 at 180. Primal fear wut

I'm feeling great lately. I've been sticking to my diet, lifting regularly and doing cardio. I cut out all drugs and stopped watching porn. I'm doing cold showers and nofap for fun, just to test my willpower.
The past few years were rough and I thought about killing myself all the time. Mostly stress from relationships with family and bad work ethic in college. Now I'm feeling really positive and all of these other things are improving too. We're all going to make it.

>Veeky Forums - Fitness

What are you gonna do in the meantime? Also won't working out on 800's just bring back the wobbling and stars?

The moment I cut drugs out of my life I've felt clearer headed and more focused on the iron. In college now, studies certainly improving as well. Very familiar with this feel user, good on you

I hope you continue this trend of improvement.

What would you go back and tell kys you to do? I feel like a lot of folks get things going for them and forget to tell what the person they were in the pits needed to hear.

>been lifting for almost a year
>see stupid confidence gains
>buy pic related just because I want to wear em

I've posted this saga before.
>want to drop out and go back home to work and go to community college
>parents straight up don't listen to me
>forcing me to move into a suite and try another term
>know it's just because they don't want to have a son that dropped out of a precious liberal arts college
I'm losing my fucking mind.

Thanks man. I'm hoping that once I've taken care of myself I can begin to heal my family, friends, etc.

Do you think that black strap on cells cock was where his mouth from imperfect cell moved to when he digivolved?

I plan to consolidate my bicep/tricep workout tomorrow down to a relatively intense 35 minutes. I'll only run a mile on Friday as well instead of two just so I can get at least a little of that in. Take the weekend off, potentially get back on Monday, completely dependent on my flexibility and general feeling though.

In the meantime I'm going to spend extra time with the FWB, take time to shop and create a new wardrobe to more fitted stuff, and read some Cal Newport.

How are they forcing you?

If thats what you seriously want to do, and feel it will genuinely impact your life in a positive, just do it user.

I dropped out of a 4 year and now attend a community college. I'm about to graduate in may with an AA in Communications and attend a state school with an amazing program that I actually like much more. Doing all of this helped me realize exactly what I wanted out of life.

Best of luck.

That is a good question. I'm not far from the pits. What worked for me was realizing that every day I have choices to make, and if I have the discipline to make the right choices every time then my situation will improve. I'd tell kys me that I am responsible for putting in work to create a life worth living. I'm already deeply thankful to my past self for all of the little things that built up the momentum which lead me to where I am now. Even things like making my bed, or going to class on time, etc. all add up. Once they become routine it's one less small thing to worry about and then you can move on to fixing the big things. I hope that post made sense.

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No that OP but you need to take that advice seriously. Your mental health above others. I know you love her but you have to love yourself as well. You need to get out of that before you spiral into a worse state. It might be hard but you got to man up. Also don't let her trick you in to thinking she'll change even if you have hope she will. It's not a risk you should take in your current state.

I had a therapist one time who told me just every now and then to visualize spending a moment with past me, the one who tried to make my days now that much better, and just say thanks. Really tell them you appreciate what they did for you, and promise you're gonna pay it forward.

It sounds like past you really manned up, and put in those hours, no matter how fucked up they were, they did it, and they did it for you.

>26 years old
>Going back to school to get my life in order
>Battled with mental illness (mainly social anxiety) most of my adult life
>Finally get courage to ask out attractive girl showing interest in me
>Surprisingly she says yes and gives me her number
>I immediately try to set up a date after getting her number
>Completely ignoring me

Did I do something wrong? I was always told to not waste time when attracted to a girl.

youtube.com/watch?v=AAP72d9ei-Q

how are meme pants vain you retard

Don't waste time if she's ignoring you. That's an easy way to waste your time too.

It's okay to be rejected. Literally nothing wrong with that.

Just rub one out thinking of her and call it justice/a day.

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I'm doing the best I have in years, I think i finally have my social anxiety under control. there's also a girl I met who I like so things are looking up

A lot of times they’ll give it to you so they don’t have to reject you in person

rolling

why derail this thread of all things

She probably just gave you her number because she didn't want to turn you down. Don't feel bad and try with a different girl who is into you. Also try to make it clear your getting her number to ask her out, people exchange numbers to be friends too.

Don't steal my shit you thief

JK some people need a distraction

>can't have oneitis
>never had a oneitis before and hate every bit of it
>most relatable human I have ever met when I already don't relate to 99% of people I meet on any fundamental level (didn't have one of those nice happy healthy childhoods)
>also have PTSD and have a very discourteous roommate who is LOUD AS ALMIGHTY SHIT ALL FUCKING DAY constantly making me anxious and tense
>knows I have PTSD and we have talked about his noise more than once
I crave the sweet release of death.

yea pretty much what these guys say,,,9

it's a common tactic to just give you their number with 0 intention of responding. don't let it get you down though, it doesn't matter if you're mega chad you're going to get rejected at some point. get up and try again

Trust me, you don't want to do that.

I dropped out of college, went back home, started going to a local college. It was easy af... too easy, made me realize that even though the college I went to was extremely difficult I was atleast being challenged and not paying for babysitting 2.0. I got a gf at my local college which was the only positive thing about the whole ordeal. Decided to go back to lac. My parents made me take out loans, now I'm finishing up one of my last semesters.

I suffer from depression and anxiety so I know how it feels. I still feel shitty most of the time, but now I have a reason (providing for myself and my gf) that helps me to suppress the hopelessness. Just hang in there until the summer, man, you're almost there.

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>24
>Alcoholic
>Haven't gotten paid in a month funds are swindling down to 0, get paid beginning of March
>Started routinely lifting, fucked up routine today
>Haven't gotten a lay in 2 years, near 3
>Been depressed since 17 but it has been getting better
>I don't want to fail.

My roommate and best friend goes under paranoid psychosis once in a while. First thought it was caused by drugs but now it's triggered without, randomly.

Not sure what to do bros, he's losing his mind slowly. I can see the fear in his eyes every day. Fear of losing himself

I guess they aren't "forcing" me, but they own the car I use and pretty much everything else.
I'm kind of spineless around them, and I know it's completely pathetic.
Yeah, I want to get a 2 year and transfer.
I think it'll be better for me because I perform better when I have those who care about me around me, and I'm all alone here.
Thanks, user. I still think it'll be better than here, but I suppose I can understand how it might sound like a bad idea to others.

My mental health is in shambles.
I'm scared of everyone's judgement and opinions.
I'm scared to be around people.
I see everyone as better than me and think of myself as a freakish goblin.

Howd you suss you were bipolar? I get sad sometimes and happy others, maybe I'm overthinking it.

stay strong man

know that feel 1000%

>ex gf and I split back in September
>I wanted a future marriage and children
>she wanted a future of having a career and traveling the world
>feminism.is.cancer.
>she'll be married and pregnant in 2 years and that shit will eat me up inside because she was supposed to be mine
>everyday it feels like my fucking heart is being torn apart
Add to that
>best friend of more than 15 years fucking offs himself a few days before Christmas
>have no one to really reach out to close to me
>all my job applications for the last 6mo have produced nothing
>only have an associates because I was working toward specific classes to get into PA school
>state requirements change requiring a Bachelors
>dont have bachelors - only mandatory classes specific to the school I wanted to attend
>GI bill drying up end of the year so pressure is on

Now the good

>have a connection to get into autobody industry
>I'm expecting a call this week
>entry position but ample opportunity to grow
>been back in the gym regularly
>been out learning salsa and bachata again which will help me stay social and find another woman

I'm not doing well my dudes but I'm doing my best.

roll

>Be working out regularly for 6 months, longest streak I've ever had. Feeling great.
>go out of the country to visit a friend for a week
>Joke with him that I miss working out
>I really do
>Get back home
>Almost immediately get really fucking sick
>infection puts me out for 10 days
>it's now been almost a full month since I've been to the gym
>and I've lost like 5 lbs in the process

I just wanna make it...

>I think i finally have my social anxiety under control
How did you do that?

>knee is finally recovering from injury, making great gains
>up by 7,5 kgs in bench the last two weeks
>grades are better than ever
>supportive friends and family
>my gf moved to denmark to study and we broke up
I miss her, but it will be alright in the end. She gave me a lot of happy memories.

Hang in there lads

rull

What I'd give for a Varro gymbf.

>being very autistic about training, sleep, diet and supps these past few month
>very time-consuming but feeling great, gains are real
>got a job after 4 years neeting
>not really what i want to do but at least i'm doing something
>want to develop new skills, get a better job and sort myself out

It's not great really but it's way better than the state I was in the last past years.

was on the longest streak since I got anorexic, currently have the fucking superflu or whatever, almost died twice from fever
lost 14lbs in 6 days.

Do you understand how weak I am atm? Do you understand what I would give for JUST a 5lbs loss?

>lost 14lbs in 6 days
So basically water and a bit of fat, wew.

>Neighbor is knocking out a load bearing wall
>Wake up to the sound of impact drills for 2 weeks now
>Cant get a decent night sleep because work at night.
>Failing my last few collage exams
>Might have to do one more year
>Have occasional waves or rage followed by waves of depression
>cant take it out on cumdupster since shes studying for her own exams

What is this clinically depressed stuff, i mean, my gf got it and keeps talking about anxiety and stuff yet from time to time i want to tell her that being anxious and being depressed is merely being human yet i feel that might just be an invitation to just explode on me.

He was literally a cuck

* being depressed and anxious from time to time ofcourse.

Are you me

Literally feel the same just in the early stages and the same problems. Dont worry bro we are gonna make it

Stay strong man

That's why nobody should date women, ever.

How old are you dude n what causes your PTSD if you don't mind saying? Hang in there bro

Sounds harsh but you gotta strive to survive, that's what makes strong men which is what society needs.

5 months in and I still think about my ex.
That's probably the only things letting me down, but it hits hard.

I've gotten fat
Depressed
Missing school cause fuck it

broke up with my brown gf queen in november cause all she wanted was dick and no future. feels bad bros.

been struggling to focus on gains and getting hardbody again.

sorry you're dealing with shit OP

we're all gonna make it, just gotta push

Bipolar disorder is much more than just mood changes, though those may be indicative of some chemical imbalances. It's a very vicious mental cycle.
I'm talking extreme depression, even suicidal, turning over into extremely "happy" (manic) moods. Mania can be psychotic.

It has to be a pretty intense problem to be considered a disorder.

Just keep swimming, lads

Sat next to and talked to the qt in my discussion class today. Made her laugh and I participated a lot to make her think me big brain. Feeling really confident and happy now. I think I'm gonna do this more often, I feel light

Bro go clock that nigga so you can get some sleep lol. It's your right to quiet from construction before 8am and after 6pm, at least in my state

I'm going crazy, i have chronic anxiety, i'm nervous/stressed constantly, been with psychiatrist for a year, tried 5 different meds and none worked, but i can't loose hope