Confess

My mind is always in a whirl, lifting used to help the anxiety and depression but now its back. Im just so sad all the time. I havent been sticking to the bulking diet because i feel so sick all the time.

I dont think im going to make it Veeky Forums. im sorry

im going to eat at least 10 hot wings today and drink beer.

I only visit this board to look at your bodies for motivation because your posts give me aneurism from how retarded you guys are

alright, here I go

>be me
>teenager
>fucked up cystic acne
>face looking like a braile copy Shakespeare's complete work
>doctor refuses to get me on roacuttane
>gives me some pills that only sort of work
>acne worsens, spreads to shoulders
>finaly get put on roacuttane
>too late, shoulders scarred with keloids
>tfw the guy who is supposed to be the biggest authority on plastic surgery in your shithole country just pats you on the back saying your only hope is to get as swole as Arnold and hope it stretches your skin enough
>tfw may never comfortably go shirtless again

I finish my workouts with 5x5 db curls...

I have no idea how to cut, I haven't monitored my weight at all but I know I've lost some muscle because some of my lifts have dropped. I've been depressed all week and I ate two large pizzas yesterday.

been lifting for 2 and a half years and i barely look like i've finished Starting Strength

it's like 1% shit genetics 25% bad diet on and off for the past year and 74% me being a lazy fuck and probably not lifting enough

can't even get up before noon most days

just end me now lads

I've been on no fap for 3 months and lost my virginity last night, I came as soon as she stroked my cock once. Holy fuck you could've used what came out of my cock as a line to anchor a boat.

drank a 6 pack of pic related last night

>rip gains

Been drinking pic related and off brand coke zero the last 2 days

Beer's full of vitamin B and shit, I'd say you're better of than

But beer has more calories and bloats you like a balloon, that's why i've been staying away from it. I know it's hell for my liver but at least it keeps the monsters away

I only use machines instead of free weights bc my gym ( the only gym in town) is full of cardio and next to no free weight equipments. I leg press 490 5x5 and chest press 130 5x5. Im 6'2 235. Can one make it off of just machines provided that there are a bunch of really high end machines for every muscle group or am i doomed to be a oddly shaped abortion forever. Pic related is what i have to do

Every day is a cheat day. Im never gonna make it.

Save up some money for some free weights.

We're all gonna make it bro, just have to think about the end result. Never take your eyes of the prize

im 25 and ive been a loser for so long, almost my entire life, that i think im actually afraid to improve my life because all i will ever think about is how many decades of my life i wasted and how i will never be able to get them back if by some miracle i became normal socially

It's never late to start over user, but if you refuse to better yourself day to day, you better go back to /r9k/

Lifting has nothing to do with improving yourself socially. What in particular are you struggling with? I'm gonna shoot from half court and say you're the typical Veeky Forumsizen having girl problems. Don't get on tinder. Approach women irl. Don't be a faggot. You'll get embarrassed. A lot. Just roll with the punches.

I’m 2 pounds over my max allowed weight because I spent the previous weekend in WI, pigging out on steak and beer.

same, also for infographics and braphogs

I put too much oil in my potatoes today ;_;

I skipped cardio last night with no real excuse at all other than it having been a while since i took a rest day

It's not even girls, it's even forming basic friendships. I have not had them since I was 12 years old. If I can't form basic friendships, of course girls will never happen (in conjunction with my ugliness)

Guys, something weird happened today. I was lying down in bad, sideways. My leg was a little over the other, almost in a fetal position. But when i looked down and saw my thighs, i got sexually excited.

I'm an obese guy with big thighs, crawling my way out of fat city and having some results. What the fuck was this? Am i faggot that subconsciously wants to be a tranny?

Time to change routines user.

No. You are not a knob-gobblin.

You look at too much porn.

Stop it.

Now.

Post braphogs plz.

That i do, user. And i'm absolutely fucking terrified of the implications of the earlier events. I fucking hate faggots and their culture.

Will i go back to normal if i quit porn cold turkey? I watch it multiple times daily.

I don't want to get banned for off topic posts

fuck dude

I've been going to the gym for a year and I can't even bench lmao one plate. I should give up

Celebrated my graduation yesterday, drank way too much and smoked probably an entire pack that night. Feels shitty, especially because I was smoke free for two months. I hate drunk me.

Quitting porn is the most challenging, yet rewarding decision I have ever made. W/o turning this into a NoFap thread, do some research on how to begin the process via Google.

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But getting excited ove rmy own thighs is the fruit of porngraphy?

you're a closet faggot

Father, I went out drinking last night after promising myself I wouldn't drink for a month. I lasted 3 weeks but caved last night and drank almost a whole fifth by myself. Woke up hung over and stayed in to sleep instead of going to the gym. What is my pittance?

Sexually excited? Yes.

Excited over hard earned gains?

Warranted.

go to the gym right fuckin now

Fasting could help you user

My nigga

I've got 3lbs of chicken in the oven. I will later after I'm done with my meal prep father.

Bless me father, for I have sinned.
This week I drank 6 beers in 2 sessions.
I didn't train last weekend.
I masturbated 3 times and I coveted the cutest little gym bunny I ever seen just this morning.
I pray for your forgiveness and absolution

Mom just bought a shit ton of Krispy Kreme donuts and I'm craving them. I'm trying my best not to guys. Encouragement needed.

time to invest into a home gym

I ate 5 cornbread muffins at a soul food restaurant in addition to the spare ribs, yams, and mac n cheese.

I never go to the gym around 5-10 after everyone is done work because that's when all the alpha males go and I wait until 11

Felt ill today so ate chocolate and drank rum. Feel like a failure

Free weight barbell and dumbbell work make a big difference in the support and coordination accessory muscles, which in turn tends to result in a fuller look in gainz.

I dont know what to do. I go to the gym super irregularly and do at most when im even there 45 minutes. At home i try to maintain a regular basic workout in the morning and before i go to bed. Curls and sit-ups but i do that very irregularly too.

Drank half a fifth of vodka last night, and I'm gonna drink the other half tonight... after weeks of being alcohol free and feeling the gainz, I am wrecking a week of cutting in 2 days.

Pls help me Reverend.Ripped.

Haven't been to the gym in two weeks because my fiancée broke her wrist and tore a muscle in her back on VDay, so I've been doting on her for the past week and a half.
Should be back at it on Monday, but fuck has this sedentary stretch been shitty.

NNNNNNNNNNOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

then get as swole as Arnold

I just had a diet ginger ale because my stomach was upset.

I'm on a fast.

please lord have mercy

Failed nofap several times.

Didn't lift today

I failed your nofap too... don't feel bad.

After 9 months of no alchol i gave on christmass and ever since i haven't been able to lay it down.

There is a napoleon in my fridge. I'm going to eat it after dinner..its 183 grams of butter, sugar, and cream..roughly about 560 kcal

Had a planned cheat day and I still feel absolutely awful. Ate trash all day, fatty pork sausages, bread, peanuts, chips.

On the plus side I decided cheat days are a meme. I don't even enjoy them, I just eat small amounts of shit all through the day and there's not even a satisfying OMAD to look forward to after a whole day of fasting. From now on its one meal a day, every day.

You're gonna make it. I have anxiety and depression issues too, and some days and even weeks are just awful, but it always gets better eventually. Stick to your diet and be proud of the progress you make, no matter how fast or slow it is. I believe in you, user.

I quit Brazilian Jiu Jitsu this week after 6 classes. I just don't give a fuck about it at all. Not to mention I have to either A) haul ass after to work to get there on time, or B) arrive 10 minutes late depending on when I get off. NTM it eats away 2 hours of my free time on weekdays.

I feel like a fucking loser yet at the same time can understand it's a simple case of "Shit didn't work out, senpai". I hate my paranoia. I just wann ago out and do shit. Get another hobby besides vidya and lifting. Might go to Hobby Lobby here in the next month just to find some type of art thing to work on. Maybe pick up Spanish. A possible Udemy class on networking? IDFK. Just something to broaden me as a person.

It's ok user, you're not the only one who's done this.

I'm sitting here wishing I could afford BJJ classes. Fuck you man...

Think about how bad all of that sugar will make you feel.

I've ruined any chance of having a normal relationship for myself.

I've indulged in cancerous online meme culture for years which have taught me nothing else than that women are lying whores. I literally can't interact with women in real life without suspecting that everything they say is a lie with some ulterior motive. I never meet the gaze of women on the street. I have a constant resting bitch face to scare off any potential interaction. If I'm forced to interact with them I put on a friendly persona that's the furthest from my real personality so that they never know who I really am. I am an A grade misogynist, and I doubt that will ever change.

It's not that I can't pick up women. I'm tall, okay looking, on my way to getting ripped. I've had relationships before, but I've always broken them up before they could develop into something serious, mainly because the girls got too clingy. Being raised by a single mother and two elder sisters, I was brainwashed from a very early age and only broke out of it in my late teenage years, which have left me scarred and without any real experience on how to deal with women. So I avoid them.

I want a good wife and kids, of course I do. But I doubt that will ever, EVER happen with the way women in the western world are right now. We are reaching Weimar Berlin levels of degeneracy, and I hate that I have to live among it every day. Part of me want to just learn Japanese or something and move to Japan, I might end up in a sexless marriage but at least they have some sense of tradition left there.

Watched Jordan Peterson and ruined a budding relationship. Fuck this place forever. Always going to be working on myself. Ignoring bait threads more and cutting down on Veeky Forums

I am drinking tonight, well beyond caloric excess.

I broke down and started using nicotine lozenges at work again. Totally kills my ability to do good cardio afterwards.

I ate a huge lunch followed by a huge dessert and I loved it.

>never gonna make it

Fatfuck.

I went out with a qt today and ate a greasy cheeseburger, followed by pop tarts and a bag of cheetos

I ate 3 whole 375g packets of salt & vinegar flavoured peanuts

Thanks

Yessum mastah

Its ok user. Thing like this take practice...and failure. Keep trying and you will succeed.

I-I STILL MISS HER

I know user...been married 7 years and I still miss my ex sometimes. You just have to swallow it and keep going. Make sure your current or future relationships dont end in the same way.

Father, I drank a barleywine style ale last night (Old Foghorn). The today I had another (Gnarlywine), after I had about 4 little pastries, a powerade, and some cheetos before smacking on a Subway footlong and 4 of their cookies. For the past two or three weeks I've been eating like shit and skipping every workout possible.

Please.... PLEASE forgive me.... anybody..

you're eternally damned to be a fat ass

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>that pic
They need the Neckpill, ASAP.
One gust of wind and boom- off with your head.

RIP GAINS

Had sex with a Latina qt twice tonight. We're both Catholic.

user, I was in the same boat for like a year before getting a better job that paid me plenty of extra spending money. Wish I would've looked more into it. I dabbled in it every once in a while, but not full on obsessed. Probably would've saved me this feeling of worthlessness

I work on this large camp ground during my summer breaks and on weekends when needed, last week, myself and 4 other counselors had to supervise a film crew that rented out the land to film a movie there and being all 20 year old males, all the other counselors brought a bunch of chips, soda and pizza for everyone and for 3 days we literally just had to sit in offices in case the crew needed anything so I was surrounded by miles of beautiful hiking trails but had to sit in an office for like 14 hours a day eating pizza and drinking soda. It was an easy 400$ paycheck, but I still feel shame.

Forgive me father.

>got really desperate finding a girl, been on a year and a half dry spell
>Match with a trap on tinder
>Ahhh fuck it why not at this point
>Start trading pics, want to hang out
>The day we planned, I message the trap I'm ready
>"Okay Im about to head over I'll message you when I'm heading out"
>No other text
>I can't even get traps