Please help me brehs
>it's been about a year and a half since I've had sex
>3 weeks ago try out tinder
>3 weeks ago start going out with this short Aryan qt with a great body.
>drive 50 miles to see her on the first date.
>she's pretty quiet but we have a great time and she laughs like a maniac at all my jokes
>on the first date I can tell she's extremely attracted to me.
>I find out she's a virgin
>fuckingyes
>night plays out with me fingering her and making out with her naked in the back of my car.
>she says she really likes me
>a week later We go on our second date.
>the date goes even better and I end up going back to her place.
>We stay up and do the same thing as the first date excepts she ends up grinding on top of me while we were both naked. No penetration.
>While we are doing this, she says she's falling for me and I say that I really like her
>We do a bunch of cutesy stuff expressing our feelings.
>says she isn't ready to lose her virginity.
>I say "that's fine" and leave the next morning.
(On a side note, I found out she actually said she was opposed to me being tall and having big muscles and a masculine face. She prefers feminine boys hence her being a little bi)
>she texts me the next day saying "I was just wondering about how you think of me, And if we might be becoming exclusive?"
>I tell her it might be early to talk about that but I really like her a lot and that I want her
>third week arrives and we go on our third date (sunday)
>date goes great yet again and i start to notice I really like her a lot
>we get food and have a great time laughing and talking and I help her with her math homework
>at the end of the date, we are making out in my car again.
>I make her laugh a bunch again and she shows more genuine signs of love (as she did on the first 2 dates)
>Then out of fucking NOWHERE she starts crying
>I ask her what's wrong
>she tells me she ended up losing her virginity to a friend the day after I spent the night
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>I feel fucking mortified and like a fucking SILLY MAN
>I tell her there's no way this will ever work after what she did.
>I start feeling like a disgusting loser
>she cries and holds onto my arm for hours saying she's sorry and that "she didn't know I liked her" and that she was "worried I was seeing other people too" and that she loves me and that she needs me back more than anything and that I make her so happy and that she's been daydreaming about me nonstop for 3 weeks.
>I told her that she's a LIAR and that she doesn't deserve to feel that way about me
>she stays crying and squeezing me and begging for me to take her back and that she didn't know I felt the way I did about her.
>I tell her no and that I won't ever take her back.
>I drive 50 miles home in my fucking KEK MACHINE feeling like the biggest cuck loser.
>fucking crying and shit and thinking about how much of a loser I am.
>wake up to over 100 messages from her telling me that she loves me and wants to be my gf.
>She feels helpless and stupid and she's saying she did it because she didn't want to be inexperienced when she got to have sex with a guy like me
>meanwhile I feel worse than I've felt in a whole year.
What do i do brehs..i feel like shit. How do i recover? I feel like I'll never trust a girl again especially since something similar happened to me before. I have this desire to fuck her out of spite but I don't want to accidentally cuck myself even further. And btw I feel like such a cuck for not fucking her first, it's eating away at my confidence and fucking destroying me. I'm fucked.
Sorry for blog.
>Aryan
Stop.
>Virgin who lets you finger her on the first date
Nope.
You're a retard. Kill yourself.
you fucked up user, when she said she wasn't ready to lose her virginity, it was LMR. You're supposed to say ok, and keep making out and getting her hot and heavy. Do all the things you can up to that point. If she's consulting her logical side of the brain then you're not doing your job. Her animilistic instincts should be the major force driving her decisions and you get that by licking that pussy like there's no tomorrow and kissing behind her ear. Biting the neck too helps while fingering her. TlDr, she was ready to get fucked, you fell for her hamstering, the other chap she saw the day after you left didn't fall for the hamstering thus he secured the victory. Keep your chin up user and take it as a learning lesson but I would stop seeing this girl as you secured the #2 spot in her eyes.
Sound like a complete beta male, block her on everything. Grow up and don't waste that much time on a girl. Fuck on the first date or ditch and continue hunting.
Thanks brehs. You're so right
You messed up when you denied her exclusivity; that was her testing the waters of how interested you actually are. But since she didn't have a BF to lose her virginity to, her friend did it for you.
Truth be told I don't see what the big deal is. Or did you seriously believe that she'd lose her virginity to you, who she's known for a weeks and has (from her POV) no interest in exclusivity, when she has plenty of orbiters from her own social circle?
Sounds like you were becoming truly happy with her. If you can get over her being tainted then id say give her another chance and then call it off if she fucks up again. Your call op you already know what all the incels here will say.
She wants exclusivity
>Virgin who lets you finger her on the first date
Yeah, that part is suspicious to me too desu. Would be willing to bet that she never was a virgin but fooled OP like a champ.