Thank you for being the most supportive board. If you're out of the loop, a robot killed himself and nobody on /r9k/ has any feelings about it at all.
I was suicidal from puberty till about a year and a half ago and yall have really helped me get through it. Just knowing someone else was having the same battle >tfw no gf>tfw no friends>tfw no family. Knowing there were people there who beat that shit gave me confidence I could beat it too.
If anyone is feeling down and needs to let it out, let your Veeky Forums brethren help you
I'm 25. I wake up feeling like complete and total garbage every single day. I'd be infinitely more happy and confident if I could just wake up with energy. I'm on Adderall to counter the fatigue but I don't want to be on it forever. There's my vent contribution.
Joshua Rivera
I agree OP. To anyone thats struggling with depression, its important you find a good group to "hang out" with. Veeky Forums is actually one of the more optimistic places on Veeky Forums. People here are supportive. Sure there are feels but theres always a bro to tell you he knows that feel and remind you to keep your eye on the prize. People should avoid /r9k/ at all costs. It creates a competition of who can be the most depressed and every member gets dragged down further than they were originally.
Jackson Cox
That got so bad for me that I went 2 months at work without doing a single actual thing and legitimately set my career back. You feel like such a loser when getting out of bed feels like an achievement
Ended up finding out it was a hormonal issue for me. Started taking zinc (I have absorption issues) and vitamin D (Seattle) and it sorted itself out.
John Long
I take 2000IUs of Vitamin D3 every other day. As for Zinc no idea but I do masturbate a lot, then again I hear the zinc loss is negligible. Fuck it though, I'll give NoFap a chance if it'll aid in restoring my energy.
Josiah Jackson
Never tried nofap but some people seem to have great results. Plus, ya know, just doing literally anything except what you're doing now is more progress than a lot of people get to
I'm a 22 year old NEET. I have no gun. I sleep a lot and play video games. I try to lift stuff once in a while. I don't eat much. I don't see the sun much. My diet is almost entirely potatoes. I haven't been honest with people who want to help me because of shame.
I just want to feel better.
I have a psychiatric appointment on the 30th. I hope it helps. It hurts to live like this.
Christian Taylor
Topkek. El goblino an heroes, who fucking cares?
Wyatt Gomez
Failed out of college and have to tell my parents tomorrow. I'm a /fat/izen and losing weight, but I just want to be mired. I just want a qt pregnant wife to fugg when I'm older. I hate feeling like a useless piece of shit.
not even bullshitting nofap is the answer, porn fucks with your mind while the fapping enforces the behavior draining all your dopamine stores. and when your feeling like shit your just making yourself feel shittier and shittier the more you do it . i went through that shit and i allways thought busting a nut would make me feel a bit better at the time, but once the nut has been expelled i felt more empty and shitty than i had been before. then i gave nofap a go, my depression vanished along with my social anxiety(i could not piss in public before nofap unless i was in a stall). i lost my weight and developed a healthy diet. nofap gave me the push to remove my vices in life to make me a better human being. give it a try and if you fail get back up and try again.
It's tough leaving the NEET lifestyle. My only advice is to push through either by forcing yourself which is the hardest option or having someone force you (in a good way). Eventually life sorts itself out and you find your purpose.
Christopher Sanchez
Loled when the guys head got blown off lmao. Was epic. Seeing that roastie get butthurt after her failure of a son killed himself was funny as well LOL.
Fixing your diet is crucial to not feeling shitty. Get eggs, milk, peanutbutter, spinach, bread, ham, green peppers. That will put you off to a decent start if applied properly. Protein powder is highly recommended to go with the milk
>used to primarily browse /r9k/ >seeing such awful sadbois made me feel better about my life >began to get sadder, hate women, etc. >took the Veeky Forums pill Feels guudo desu
I'm riding the same cruise ship of sadness as you. I'm also 22, with no direction in life at the moment. I feel like a complete failure due to the fact that I don't know what I want to do for my life, and the fact that I'm a failure in almost everything I try to do. I try to confide to my friends about my worries, but most of the times I just get ignored, though I always lend them support whenever they feel down. It's given me a sudden realization that I'm completely alone, but I can't even do anything but disappoint my parents. Although applying to jobs almost every week, I get nothing but rejection e-mails. Another reminder of how far behind I am, where high schoolers are beating me out of the entry level jobs. I'm completely lost, but I don't want to take myself out because I don't want to throw away all of my mom's sacrifices she made just to give me a better life. I want to weather this storm, but it feels like I'm sinking deeper and deeper into sadness with every passing day.
I have to thank this board for showing me that a person needs a healthy body and mind to be truly alive. Almost all of the threads made are to support others in achieving their goals. If I didn't transition to this board, I think I'd be more miserable than I am now.
Wyatt Lewis
I had a coworker kill himself earlier in the week. We found out yesterday, and it was his boss who had to chase up his emergency contacts and call the police when he did not reply to calls or emails for 2 days.
We knew he had some issues, and was always very quiet and pessimistic. Honestly, we all had a very hard time trying to connect with him, he was so closed to everyone. No one really saw any unusual warning signs until it was too late, but apparently his family had been worried for some time.
He was socially isolated, and did not really seem to have any passions or hobbies and was about 30 years old working an entry level job below his education level. I'm not really sure any of us could have helped him because he was always so difficult to engage in conversation and rarely ever revealed anything.
If you are someone who is struggling and feeling isolated and wants to break out please try to take up some hobbies, and do not be afraid to open up to people a little. A lot of the time people don't even know how/if you need help. Try to get over the fear of putting yourself out there, because if you try to fight this on your own you might not win.
Brayden Rodriguez
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Asher Mitchell
>Be paramedic >Seen dozens of suicides in the last 8 years >The reactions of the loved ones are always bad >None is ever worse than a dad loosing his son
There is not a thing in this world that is more depressing sounding than a man sobbing while clutching his sons lifeless body.
I remember one who killed himself by shotgun slug after he came back from Iraq. There was nothing left of him, and his father got home just as we were getting ready to leave. I couldn't let him see, so I stood there and just didn't let him through.
He went downstairs to the basement and clutched his sons old baseball glove, rocking back and forth, just saying "papas here, buddy, papas here."
If it makes you feel any better very few people know what they want in life, let alone how to get it. Don't fear failure, failure is natural and often unavoidable. What you can control is how you respond to a setback. If just applying to jobs is not yielding anything try changing your approach, or apply for different types of work. You are 22, you are barely getting started in life. Even if you feel like you are behind others at this point you have decades to make up ground on them.
Aiden Evans
Broke up with gf tonight. >moved to new city 9 months ago to take job >fucking hate the city >hate the job >live in the ghetto >miss family and friends, miss warm weather >still workout every day for 6 months, tinder hookups and explore the city on weekends >winter rolls around, start getting attached to one girl who didnt put out easy >wind up dating >work starts demanding all my time and energy >60 hour weeks >stop working out, begin slide into depression >gf is basically only lasting connection ive made in city >dont know any people, exhausted all the time, basically just roll with whatever she has planned >spend winter becoming passive shell of a man who only works >realize i hate life a few weeks ago >this month join climbing gym and start working out again >trying to move to suburb >to generally improve life, make friends, etc >gf snaps out of nowhere and tells me she doesnt "look up to me enough" because i dont have my own life, and my own shit together even though thats all ive been working on lately >tells me i never even try to be happy in the city and she doesnt feel she can do anything to help >says we should go on a "kind of break" and see each other less while i "sort my shit out", but doesnt want to break up >dump her on the spot, thats already a death sentence for any relationship Pretty upsetting evening. Haters gonna make some pretty valid points
major props. most guys don't have the balls to do what you just did.
Julian Torres
You did the right thing
Connor Price
Sounds like you knew how to make life work out for you even with the shitty job and new city, shouldn't be too hard to get it all sorted out. Ya know, after the standard two days of staring at the wall wondering if the place you went wrong was not doing something to make her more into you or if it was that you shouldn't have committed to her so long in the first place
I asked her point blank if she respected me, and she hesitated, and then said she respected my personality, and then clarified that i was "nice". I told her i wont try to earn back her respect, i refuse to be looked down on in a relationship. And then i picked up my shit and left. Ive got about 8 texts sitting on unread right now.
Justin Harris
Just lost the v card and it was so awkward and shit. If I'm being honest, this was a motivator (not the sole or most significant) for me to improve my life. Aside from music (and mainly just listening to it), I'm not sure if I enjoy anything in life. I'm kinda awkward (make alright jokes, though) and not sure I see the point in going on. I just signed a contract for a grad job as a geotech engineer, but I think deep down I want to die instead. I feel like once my parents go, I'll be right behind them.
you did well, but don't be dumb and look at those texts women make emotional decisions all the time and if i were you, i'd keep my options open
John Allen
It's like /r9k/ has accepted failure to the point they can't really care or react to anything because they are sure they will still be exactly the same amount of failure after
Take control of your life, bring goodness to it, bring goodness to people you care about it, bring goodness to those in your community, then finally bring goodness to everyone
Zyzz would want us to work together and help each other
No worries there, im done. The sex wasnt even good. I just enjoyed her company and she was cuddly as fuck. I survived the winter, and i suppose thats all i can ask of her.
Jaxon Garcia
Im at my wits end for taking care of my self. i had a fucked up life, but am only seen by those around me as a testament to accomplishing these trials. only my wife knows the depth of my depression, and it has worn her very thin. everything i have done, and continue to do is met with resounding yes! that is correct from EVERYONE i ask; Yet im falling faster and faster as time goes on, despite continuing to try. This paired with endless anxiety and a paranoia makes it to where i cant even leave the house. I put it this way to my wife: like when you are sitting around eating, and you finally have the nerve to look around, you make eyecontact with someone. boom! they getcha! thats my mind, so im like ok, 'obsessive meta thinking, you just mean more', so the situation ends up looking like the grocery store from fallout in my head, with people irl sneaking for groceries but not death" its like no alerts MGS or pic.
The gym is all i have had to try to cope, im entirely neet shutin except for my wife. I only leave to stores with her. The gym was the on place i could go to alone. On top of wanting to go i NEED to go to keep my scoliosis in check(which gets worse the longer i am shut-in) & to keep mending a lifting injury that when combined with my scoli., has kept me from real lifting/pushing progress FOR 3 YEARS. i have been dealing with debilitating pain for more of my life than i have lived without. I have gone to specialists for both my body and mind, i have been doing my best to fix myself, i have become more knowledgeable and am better at articulating my feelings and symptoms than anyone i have come in contact with; but nothing is working. Im told to keep trying, buck up, i love you, hang in there, it will get better soon. its all so tiresome; being told by the world around you that you are doing things as best as possible, yet feeling like im living groundhogs day with my pain and mental problems to the point where it feels like i know their scripts, even my wife's
Hey, if you decide to do that in the end then you have control over the
Promise me you'll try a few things first tho, k? Buy your gun or whatever to make sure you have it, but then spend some of your extra cash trying other solutions first. Antidepressants, therapy, moving to a different city, try talking to 5 new people every day maybe you'll eventually luck into doing the conversation right and meeting someone who you want to live for.
because of the reference to the suicide or just general feels? I'm biased as OP, but these threads are what the core of fit is. We work together to grow, defeat our feels, make it together. Fitness is the first step because it's an amazing way to take control of your life and being able to pick up 500lbs just feels good, but all feels are part of Veeky Forums
Aiden Collins
you sound like you have no goals, nothing to fight for, and you're stuck overanalyzing small things in your life do you have anything that you love? anything that you could dedicate yourself to besides the things you already do?
Dominic Collins
I know people usually get surgery for that, is that an option for you? Maybe having that off your mind will make it easier to do what said
Cameron Perry
I typed out this big thing about how I was feeling bad for the kid, then I looked at his steam and realized he wasn't a very good person to begin with. I still sympathize with him since I was just like him when I was 15; a huge, edgy tool that was just a scared bitch who liked to hurt other people because my own life was shit. I don't see any point in living but I know my death would inconvenience others, so I'm trying to fix my issues and become normal again. It's working, surprisingly.
I think if anyone else is in this situation, they should try to start lifting, reading, stop playing vidya constantly (I personally used to think I could never go without vidya for even a day; nowadays I can do more productive things and not touch vidya for weeks and I'm even happier than when I used to play 24/7,) do some hard fucking work, if you cant because you work part time, be the best fucking part time employee you can then, and start talking to others one on one. Discord has helped me a lot with being more socially adjusted, just don't talk to toxic people. At one point in time I personally couldn't even fathom talking in voice chat and I'd have panic attacks just messaging people, but now I can talk to literal who normies over video chat after only a few months.
Also, even if the kid was kind of a dickhead, he was probably a good kid deep down, just like (most) of you edgelords. I say most because I know some are irredeemable.
Oh, forgot to mention, diet is also big in making you not feel like shit. No, you're not too poor to eat healthily if you're eating fast food all of the time. You can easily make more nutritious meals that arent gonna give you 7 types of rectal cancer AND you'll save money doing so. Fast food is fucking expensive.
Ian Campbell
videogames are one of the worst hobbies anyone can have past 20 years old, unless you're going pro. they take up a lot of your time with small easy to do tasks, you keep doing repetitive mindless tasks and when the game ends you're left with nothing. any activity that doesnt demand you to grow as a man and surpass old limitations does the same, it feels like you've wasted your time when it ends. obessively playing games or watching anime like that kid did leads to a regretful sad life.
Brandon Moore
I think most evil in the world is possibly good people lashing out because of their own internal pain. I was isolated for most of my life. Dad chose cocaine over me and left. Mom would occasionally show up just to tell me how all men hurt everyone they talked to. Didn't talk to other people because I thought I would hurt them because I was male. All the evil I did was based around not being over that yet.
You have to remove the pain from your life before you can help those you love. Lift and diet. Fix any other health issues. Find the warped thoughts in your head and what caused them. Break them down as much as possible. One by one make a little progress at least every week. The pain eventually goes away. You'll notice people like you more and only then realize how much more compassionately you've become
/ic/ has a meme calling everyone crabs. Basically if you put crabs in a bucket, instead of climbing out, they will actively prevent other crabs from trying to climb out. /r9k/ is like that only worse. Fuck that place. I've had some rough times and I spent years on that board, and the only thing I got out of it was pure cancer. No other board on Veeky Forums is as toxic as /r9k/. I really hope that if someone in future comes to anons for help (like I have before), they will avoid that place.
Parker Young
that's pretty inspiring dude, wish you all the best
Liam Johnson
Hey user, I am in a similar position as you. It sucks pretty hard, and it's shit knowing you're basically nothing and your only tether to the real world is your spouse. The only thing I do outside of the house is kickboxing. All I can currently do is make sure anything home-related is done and its not a stressful environment. I get no judgement and full support in a currently difficult position but it doesn't stop me from feeling like absolute trash. I still somehow manage to keep Veeky Forums and eat healthy but it's getting increasingly harder to hold out hope for finding work outside of part time things. I've been putting all of my energy into self improvement and trying to bring myself out of this mess, but it still doesn't feel like it's enough - not from outside pressure, but from myself. Anyway, I dont really have any point to make here, I just want you to know you're not alone.
Austin Ward
>Promise me you'll try a few things first tho, k? I've been making an honest effort to turn things around for the past year and a half. Gave everything I had to uni and went from 3 Cs and 2 failed classes to straight As in my final semester (I handed in my final uni report last week and will graduate in September, provided I pass). Doing so led eventually led me to that grad position that I just accepted. The thing is that in general, "good" events don't make me feel as good as they should IMO and "bad" things make me feel worse than they should.
Also, I'm about 2 years behind my peers career wise and about 5 years behind socially and I can't stop dwelling on it.
I do want to get my motorcycle license - I hope riding gives me a newfound love for life, but I'm not counting on it (especially because I have a hard time dealing with sucking at new things). I'm sick of being shit at pretty much everything.
Samuel Lee
i crossboard Veeky Forums and /ic/ for more than 4 years straight and never understood what the fuck crab meme is holy shit user you just enlightened me kek
>"good" events don't make me feel as good as they should This should be your first priority desu senpai. For me, there were two causes for this. 1) my hormonal issues that needed to be fixed from the medical side 2) my "identity" didn't catch good things
To expand on #2, say I did something mean. I would say "I am a mean person". If I did something good I would never day "I am a good person". I would never actually let it sit around and make me happy past the initial moment. First of all, investigate biological causes. But that takes effort. The easy thing I want you to try is that next time something good happens to you I want you to VERBALLY say "this is why it's good to be me" and really think about how you're the kind of person who does good things and has good things happen to them.
Yes VERBALLY we're going full meme here bois because if you are going to kill yourself anyways might as well try it
>Be me >eat one egg breakfast >lift like a retard, almost die because lol no energy >eat some more during exercise >continue >finish exercises >feel absolutely shit on for the rest of the day >was sick too but wasn't feeling it until I overexerted
ever been a complete retard?
another time
>eat little all day >exercise rigorously >feeling hot and sweaty (was summer), hop into shower to make myself feel better >literally gasp out of shock at the cold water, curl up on the floor spastically >vomit water >dry up and play STALKER
JUST
Cooper Butler
i havent told anyone to kill themselves in 6 years user, i think we should all put this meme to rest. also, when people do reach out on here, theyre usually told to "just do it" man Veeky Forums is pretty lame now that i think about it
Isaiah Ramirez
I was seriously considering killing myself a couple months ago because of heavy depression and social anxiety and just feeling isolated and like I didn't fit anywhere I went. You guys have given me some serious support and words of encouragement and now I'm doing lots of positive things with my stress like working out and eating better and I'm looking and feeling so much better.
The 'ch0n is pretty much the only place I feel like I belong most of the time. I unironically lift for the bros here.
Alexander Allen
My brothers are visiting me and will be staying with me for two weeks, i told them we can try and go camping for one night but i found out a lot of these campgrounds are by reservation and they're booked until summer for now
so we might not go camping after all,..
Carter Hernandez
Yea, l should sleep more.
Thinking back l guess I have an acute internet addiction.
Night guys
Ethan Stewart
Thanks breh, got nothing to lose at this point so might as well try it out.
Nathaniel Morales
I'm always surprised when this isn't gore or something else designed to shock you
Kayden Ross
If that was my first relationship, I would be devastated, but if it was second or third, I woudn't give too much fucks because there is life to be living and sorting out, focusing on other peoples whims is kind of stupid
Robert Butler
I hope to see you again user! Glad to have you around.
Luis Ross
24, trying to make this online business thing work, but not having balls to go all in, makes me feel hopeless, I got kind of bad friends, not exactly people I would like to be surrounded with but at least I'm going out once in a while that's why I talk to them
I wish I could just get a steady income from my biz and just move somewhere to get some time alone and just enjoy life like a new born person
Ayden Diaz
"Im depressed" is seriously such a fucking cop-out.
Just had an interaction with a girl over snapchat that I flirted with a couple years ago. I remembered her, but she didn't remember me and it hit me hard for some reason, like I wanted to break down and cry. Ive been doing the whole "improve yourself and disregard thots" thing as long as i can remember, but what the fuck do i have to show for it? I can't change my face. I can't change my race. I can't change my height. My personality is trash thanks to the toxic environment i grew up in. I don't even give that much of a shit about girls but the fact that I get no attention from them eats away at my self esteem and makes me angrier and bitter by the day.
This is the /r9k/ self improvement board. It is a circle jerk of 'muh feels' Even /fat/ has better fitness advice than every non general thread.
Landon Stewart
Based on that post I doubt you've experienced it. You can't relate bro; it's easy to say that from the outside looking in
Michael Sullivan
I respect the fuck out of that decision
Liam Russell
How did discord help your social skills?
Lincoln Reyes
So uh, sauce me on this spicy video, or do I have to try and find it on another board?
Jace White
>been sexually frustrated recently >relationship is in a rut, no sex life, thinking of ending it >had a really vivid, tactile dream last night where I made out with two different guys, fooled around with a thicc short qt and ate her ass, then went back to hooking up with one of the guys >wake up rock-hard H-help me Veeky Forums what does this mean?
Same here, just twice. I suggest we both just go to trade school instead.
Eli Edwards
r9k really is the most cancerous place on the planet.
Gavin Clark
Repressed bisexual tendencies. Just like everyone else on this board.
Jace Collins
We all obsess over looks on this board, but for men looks are not the most important thing. Being social and having goals in life is. Self improvement is good, but don't neglect the social part of it. Be the guy that you'd like to be around.
Lucas Baker
If someone tells you they're depressed they may not be depressed that's true. That doesn't mean it isn't a real debilitating illness for some people. Just like lots of people say they have OCD because they like to keep their room clean when they don't. Because a person with real OCD may not be able to leave their room for the whole day because they're focused on making everything perfect down to the angle of a book on their desk. Just like a person with depression may feel completely empty or unable to perform normal functions or even unable to leave their bed and just sleep all day.
Liam Taylor
Fuck that you can camp anywhere, the best places I've ever camped has been off the beaten track. Reservations are for boring people. Make a fire, chill with your bro and survive the night
Nathaniel Brooks
Did it turn off the stove?
Connor Watson
take this garbage to /r9k/ I have no sympathy for weaklings that give up without even fighting
Dominic Harris
how do you know they didn't fight? you don't know SHIT about people's lives
Noah Collins
>Constant manlet bashing > You will never make it if you are not Chad, why bother >your gf will always cuck you >why bother lifting if Chad can do it better
supportive my arse
Sebastian Ramirez
>falling for the memes >no good at banter never gonna make it
Aaron Perry
>finally get to an acceptable weight (mostly cutting while beginner gains) >goal weight is only 10 lbs away >see CBT and inspos where people are taller weighing 20-30 lbs less and looking my idea aesthetic >i thought i was close but now i feel like im starting over >leg day is best day and go hard because "i cant get huge being a beginner AND cutting" >thigh gains coming in strong but its basically making problem area (widest part of thigh being extra fatty) look even more noticeable compared to lower thigh looking better/fitter despite getting wider because i have "hip dip". >at least back and arms are finally looking better
Leo Cruz
someone who fights doesn't stream their suicide to the world. that's just being an edgelord.
Wyatt Peterson
tell me about it. im a 5'4 manlet and now i think everyone just laughs at me for being this short. im legit about to off myself unless i get a miracle spurt since i probably wont get a good job, or have a loving wife who loves me no matter what. i've been made fun of, and my self-esteem has plummeted because of the manlet memes. at first i thought height didnt matter. i worked out until i got fit and in the end, women only go for tall dudes. fuck my genes
Evan Roberts
Americans really take everything they read seriously, huh?
Alexander Morgan
I know that's not good Veeky Forums advice but after I started playing yugioh at a local card shop and started winning more games than losing, I got a serious ego boost. Find a community that you can flourish in.
Ryan Nelson
this a million fucking times
Bentley Hill
You're right. I always forget how competitive I can be when I'm playing a game or a sport that I can actually flourish in. Makes me feel like less of a loser
Cooper Lewis
If you don't love yourself, no one will love you, man.
