Do you look forward to every session you have with your current group?

It is beyond your comprehension

Varies, I lose interest in shit I'd normally be interested in pretty often, so it's hard to gauge.

I generally enjoy the games I'm in. If I'm not in a game I'd stop playing it.

I actually likely have the least consistent fun in my IRL game, while the group are friends the GM and some other players have a few shitty habits which fuck up the occasional session. Online, though? I have a load of great games with great people. It took a long time to find them, to filter through the swathes of shitty players and GMs to find people I enjoyed playing with and to bring them all together, but at this point I have a group of people I consistently enjoy playing with.

I am on the same boat as this guy.

I look forward to it, I'd like to get back to our main game, but I'm enjoying our break from it.
We lost 2 players for our main game, but gained 2 for the side game. And the 2 we gained are interested in our main game, so we can pick up close to where we left off without much hassle.
But still I'd like to wrap this up neatly.

Going through the motions. I love making characters and playing, but I feel so terrible at the game. Everyone else has tons of fun roleplaying and only speaking in character for the most part, taking on different voices, and staying as true as possible to their characters and alignment so faithfully while I've had the habit of "my character does x or says y." I love the idea of roleplaying but I'm too shy and get embarrassed easily and don't want to make a fool of myself. Lately with this new campaign, my party and GM all have been urging my to only speak and act in character while we play. problem is my character is femaleand its ridiculously embarrassing to roleplay one

>I love making characters and playing, but I feel so terrible at the game
I know that feeling. I've been roleplaying for almost a decade, but I feel like I'm the worst at it. I fall flat at everything. I've tried every character type, and I come across completely boring.

Why not try wearing panties during the session?

I look forward to our next session because Trump got elected.

I'm DMing for a group consisting of:

1. A female German poltard who studies management

2. A Croatian gunsmith who is a stormie imigrant who hates muzzies to the bone

3. A French chick who studies to be a kindergarten teacher and is a brainwashed lefty neo-commie.

4. A fat Gay German neet.

I can't wait for this:

Fatty spregging about Trump first chance he gets.
The French chick chiming in with shirts arguments.
The German chick disproving her every word in a well articulated manner.
The fatty getting brainfreeze from trying to keep up.
And finally the Croatian dude pulling out his stormie comedy riling them up only to hatefuck with the French chick after the "session".

As a rule we will spend half an hour on a political discussion with everyone getting six minutes to speak.
After that they will calm down for about two weeks before going at it again.

I'm still relatively new at it. On and off for the last 4 years. I fell into the trap of making mary sue and/or self inserts to variable degrees and unintentionally metagaming. So before the campaign started when everyone was getting their characters together, my GM told me this was gonna be a fun campaign and to make a more fully fleshed out character with a solid backstory and set of morals and/or values and to stay as true to it as possible and to not be afraid to do things outside of my realm of familiarity.

So I went with a female half elf wizard who was raised alone by her wizard father who ran off with me because our hometown wanted our heads for a something my father may or may not have been involved in (crime maybe?) to live in some backwater village with few residents. My character doesn't know yet for sure but thinks he was set up as it happened when she was young and that's what he told her. Long story short, father was killed though she escaped thanks to her father now and she wants to find out why and clear her and her father's name. Thus begins her departure from said village and meeting the rest of the party.

I gave all that to the DM, and he asked me about flaws for my character. Not like game mechanic flaws, but personality flaws, morals, convictions, beliefs, etc.

So I told him she has a minor fear of strangers, and city types in general having grown up in a small village.

Bear in mind this goes far from my usual dick-ass CN thief/ranger characters I tended to play. He liked the idea told me I had to roleplay it speaking only in character. It's been utterly humiliating. Also he made several places we've gone to that don't like some races, including a couple places that don't like elves and especially halfies.

I feel like he's enjoying every bit of it too.

How would that help in any way?

I have quite a few epic games.
Saturday campaign is wrapping up and if all goes well my pc will essentially win everything.
Sunday game is boring as fuck
Wednesday game needs to straighten out scheduling issues but besides that it is phenomenal.
Thursday I start a Dark Heresy game and I need to rescue my party from the arbites....great

For a handful of sessions in a row, it was the latter; then a really great session got me hyped up.

Then, uh, it went back to the latter.

You'd feel girlier.

I normally look forward to it, but depression has reared its ugly head. It makes everything take 10 times the normal amount of energy, and I've started to feel the urge to self-sabotage. I've had to fight back the urge to get my character killed because I know it would suck for him to die, and depression doesn't want me to have nice things. The game is great. The players are great at roleplaying. They seem to enjoy roleplaying with me. It's just this fucking weight I can't shake.

And what are you?
You have some fairly solid descriptions on your group but how would you describe yourself?

That could be true, but even then, too embarrassing.

>show up in a short skirt, shaved legs. Long socks.
No panties

Get panties that are a neutral colour and wear them under pants, no one would know.

You can also wear nipple pasties under your shirt and shave all your clothes-covered body hair too.

well one group is a good bunch of guys with an extremely experienced GM, but scheduling is balls on that

second group has a solid GM but of the five players three are just fucking obnoxious. One of the non obnoxious ones hogs the spotlight the whole time and tries to be the party leader and the face despite him not being anywhere near actually being a face (loner barbarian with 8 cha) so i guess he's also obnoxious

just realized that everyone in that group save for the gm sucks. it's even worse because it's a semi evil campaign and they're all playing chaotic retard assclowns and i'm strict lawful evil

prob gonna drop that game desu

I'm depressed too senpai, stop being a pussy.

Go get some welbutrin, it helps. No side effects really, though I get headaches when I forget to take them

Games sometimes get derailed, but I love my fellow players and GM. Unless That Guy turns up, then it's like pulling teeth.

I definitely look forward to it.
One player's dice love him to an insane extent, but only if he's fighting stuff.
The other has a way of making dice somehow always try to kill him at least once a session.
Together, they fail forward through plot-hooks that make some modicum of sense even if I asspull 50% of each one.

I'm supposed to roleplay a girl, not be one!

The latter.

Unfortunately my friends have ended up being so monotonous and one-note on their characters and motivations, but when you couple it with just shutting down all of my character's attempts to do anything, it becomes a chore.

Same with a game I'm GMing. All the players act awkwardly when in character and they are always interrupting me to make stupid jokes. They wont stop even when I play the NPCs acting accordingly to what they say as if their character said it.

Sometimes I wonder why am I still in the hobby, you know? I'll go send a message to the best GM I ever had now, see if he's going to host any games soon. I'm not giving up that easily.

Depends.
Some games with my group, I have a great time, sometimes I don't.
I just recently dropped from the game my group is running because it has been more stress and boredom than fun for me, but it isn't an indictment against the game or the group, it's me.

going through the motions. i am a simulationist player stuck with a group of life-long friends that are essentially gamists.

find a group that shares your tastes in roleplaying. you do that by defining your main interests by GNS. it's a really helpful theory in that regard, although I think exploration is a major 4th aspect.

>A female German poltard who studies management
tell us more, user. does she wear a uniform for you?

It's called getting into character you pussy!

He's the DM, obviously.

>That moment when the player realizes that the only way he is getting any pussy is to become a girl and get one of his own.

There's one group I'm in just for the sake of not losing friends. We're playing Through the Breach. The game is a goddamn chore, and we can't get anything done without two of the players getting bogged down by irrelevant decisions (fighting monsters is much simpler and less stressful in this group than deciding what to do for breakfast.) The campaign is dull and rambling and mostly takes on the formula of the party being told to go to a place, the party getting lost on the way to a place, the party getting bogged down by monsters nowhere near the appropriate place, and the party limping home after never actually getting to a place.

One group I love to bits
One group I just go to be social
and I'm always looking for a third game to be cool

and I've learn to just leave groups that I hate. time's too short for bullshit

>Skeletal Horse

pff try a zombie T Rex Next time or you just missing out user

>Or are you doing it just because, just going through the motions?
That's my entire life bro. The only thing keeping my momentum up are a few brief moments of friendly affection or sympathetic compassion the members of that group give me when I start to run out of steam. Running the game for their enjoyment is a small price for that.

As a GM, I derive sadistic satisfaction from fucking over the resident "strategical genius" and his plans.

He wants to be so fucking smart, but I just keep subverting all his expectations because I got total control.

I'm kind of sick of the game itself, but I keep going because I like hang out with my friends and get out of the house for once.

It varies. Currently I'm in a good place; a new game's started, and we're all quite into the campaign plot thus far. However, I've had some games with the same group wherein the campaign became such a drag that the only thing stopping me from dropping out was a need for social interaction.

I'd actually meant to type skeleton horde but autocorrect apparently hates me
So your just being a dick for no real reason, I don't envy your players at all.

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Immersion, motherfucker

Why would you subject yourself to play going through the motions?
Just quit

The panties would make you feel pretty. U-um, I mean, that's just what I've been told!

As for worrying about making Mary Sue characters, I fin to this is an okay resource for preventing that. This actually also helps me see if a character is *too* boring. And the "low-moderate" score is pretty much the sweet spot for an RPG character. You'll automatically gain some Sue points in most D&D-likes and almost all WoD games.

springhole.net/writing/marysue.htm

I got some pretty severe depression too ohana. I often don't want to go to the game but I tell myself I'll have fun at one point or another in the night, and that's healthier than just wallowing my own filth and misery. Seconding the Wellbutrin idea if you aren't bipolar or something else. It doubles as a weight loss drug and helped me lose 100 pounds, most of which had been put on because of depression.

>welbutrin
>no side effects
Except fattening you up and killing your libido that is

Yeah. I've been playing with the same group for 20+ years. They're like family.

Also, it's a two hour trip to play. I wouldn't do it if I didn't love it.

I was kind of excited to hear my group (mostly liberals) bitch and moan. But the GM preemptively told everyone there was to be not political talk at the table.

Pretty based. I'm still going to miss their tears though.

I actually experienced rapid weight loss and a markedly spiked libido. Hell, it's not even really a normal increased libido, it's more like orgasming no longer diminishes my sexual appetite at all.

It's funny that drugs can have the opposite effects on people. That's always been weird to me to hear at the end of a pharmaceutical commercial.

You lucky bastard, your antidepressants double as diet pills and as viagra

I probably would have killed myself by now if I didn't have rp to look forward to every week.

It can't be that bad, bro

I kind of had a shitty year. rp really helps to take my mind off it.

How would getting into character by crossdressing make it any less humiliating? If anything it sounds like it would make it worse for me. I want to be a better roleplayer, not a woman.

Well uhh the second bit seemed helpful. Kinda want to try to make a character with maximum sue points just to see if I can. But hopefully, it'll help me better flesh out my future characters.

Don't you think you're being too ambitious? Roleplaying well as the other gender is really fucking hard, start out with something closer to home

But user, the humiliation makes it hotter.

On a serious note, focus on the parts of your character that aren't related to her gender. You mentioned that she's wary around city-types and strangers, which is a good spring-board. Is she timid around most people? She's a wizard, which means there's at least some natural curiosity there, does she feel the urge to simply push strangers away, or learn more about them so they're less strange?

She's a half-elf, which also brings up some interesting implications. Which parent was the elf? Is she naturally suited to solving the framing/death of her father, or is she not the detective type? The advantage of her being less-filled-out is that you have plenty of directions you can take her character with. Go in the direction that feels most comfortable to you, but remember that your roleplaying skills won't improve if you don't push yourself.

Depends on the game.

I'm worn out in the Rogue Trader game I'm I because while I love the concepts it's been going for long time and I need a break but I don't want to spoil everyone else's fun.

In my other games I'm excited as fuck.

Thank you for making this Thread. I really needed to get this off my chest.

Have a drawing of a fictional memester cosplaying as a meme as a reward.

At this point, I'm going through the motions, but that's because nothing seems to bring me joy anymore.

>Old group falls apart
>Find a new group
>I'm always the DM

O N L I N E

You faggot.

I didn't make the character knowing I'd have to act in character.

>Is she timid around most people?
Yes. Had it not been for the springboard that was all of our characters meeting and the bard helping me out in an area hostile to elves, I wouldn't have trusted any of the party members.
>She's a wizard, which means there's at least some natural curiosity there, does she feel the urge to simply push strangers away, or learn more about them so they're less strange?
When I made my character's backstory, I did it with the DM and he liked the idea of leaving holes in the story that I do not know yet to give some fodder for future possible campaign encounters as well as give me some experience with roleplaying and the possibility of a dynamic character who can change throughout the story depending on the plot development. She became a wizard because her father was one and taught her it to keep her safe. While she has a natural curiosity, growing up secluded and at times in fear, can impact one's drive to sate said curiosity.

>Which parent was the elf?
My mother. Father is human, but mother died from illness before i could remember as far as I know.

>Is she naturally suited to solving the framing/death of her father, or is she not the detective type?
No, but her father was her only family. Knowing that the people that went after her and her father were targeting them and not some random pilllage murderhobo shit, she has no choice but to find out why.

Before I left my group I realized that D&D was becoming more of a job than a hobby.

look at the fighting chance on this one

this makes me deeply uncomfortable

Alright, so you've obviously thought out her character, the tricky part is just staying in it. Really, nothing to do except think before speaking.

Also,
>my mother
You're talking in-character even here! Nice.

Why is he so perfect?

Used to, but not this week. We meet every Friday and play some Magic. But this is the first gaming session since gf and I split Sunday. This is gonna suck. More than she ever did

Damn I killed the thread. Not even you faggots want to be around me

I'm not looking forward to our next session.

Primarily because the Bard fucked us over on some weird triple-cross idea that he didn't run by the rest of the group, and the Wizard tried to fix it but blew a concentration check on a Dominate spell at the worst possible time and got caught (his thumbs were broken and his tongue is cut out).

Thinking it's time for my Paladin to suggest that his blood-brother bear totem Barbarian friend and he round up the Barb's Cleric sister and do things in a much more simple, direct fashion.

I run a weekly game and love it.

I even managed to get a stable roll20 group.

I've only just gotten in Tabletop and even if it's only online, I'm enjoying the fuck out of it. My group's pretty cool and most seem to enjoy the roleplaying aspect, which I love.
We do have a player who's turning into That Guy in one of our games though, and it's pissed me off more than a couple of times. Lovely guy out of the game but in it... oh boy.

It's because of your lame dad-jokes, bro

The group I'm in has good people, but the GM is terrible. He has some kind of speech impediment and skips over long words as fast as he possibly can so you can only make out maybe half of what he's saying. And if you ask him to speak up or repeat himself, you look like a dick.

He's also really, really bad at improvising and tends toward railroading even minor decisions. Often when one of us asks him a simple yes-or-no question ("Does my spell detect any undead? Is that NPC still in the room with us?) he waffles and says something like "ehhhh, maybe a little, it's hard for you to tell..."He steers us away from towns as hard as he possibly can because towns are full of people to meet and things to do, some of which he has not anticipated or placed neatly along the railroad tracks.

One of the groups I'm in, I super enjoy going for them I just pray they don't break the setting I built by being too murderhobo. I'm in a separate game as a player where, while I enjoy being the new group, no one really comes up with plans except for me which kinda sucks

>Alright, so you've obviously thought out her character, the tricky part is just staying in it. Really, nothing to do except think before speaking.
The hardest part is talking like a faggot. It kills me inside.

>You're talking in-character even here! Nice.
Shit you're right. Didn't even realize.

Sometimes.
I feel often that I fucked up badly as GM and I'm having issues to handle my group properly, to the point that I'm not managing to get any fun from the game.
But I keep going: I'm not a quitter. And they tell me they like the games.
Probably I could manage to do more if I had more than one hour per session of prep time, due how my work life keeps me busy all the time from morning to night.
I feel guilty I never manage to amount to enough stuff.

>it sounds like it would make it worse for me
It gets it to a level where instead of being minorly awkward, you can revel in it.

I used to like it
I started to get bored, but then we played We Be Goblins and were pissing ourselves laughing at how much our retarded goblins were attempting to derail the entire AP.

>White Hair Witch sets himself on fire
>SNEEKIES GOBBO DAT EVER DID LIVE does like 1 fucking damage with each attack and elects to just sneak and never fight
>Goblin riding a bat drops bombs on allies because he's too far up and can't make out who is who
>Cavalier gets mad at his pony and sends it away

It was retarded humor but it made me realize that our current campaign is just boring.

>tfw always play quiet stoics because that's all I can handle

>tfw in an 8 player game and more than 50% of the party are silent stoics
>the other 50% have to do all the talking
the only one who has an excuse to be LE SILENT MAN is the dwarf paladin that got his throat cut because of our mistake of making an enemy out of the thieve's guild

But still. My group would never let me live it down even if I ever considered it. I just wish I could be silly and not give a fuck rather than get choked up and nervous to the point of stuttering.

You don't have to tell them what underwear you're wearing.

What if they as in-character?

Oh i thought that was about the full on crossdressing. The underwear just sounds perverted tbqh familia

I feel like I'm just going through the motions with my ravenloft group. We have a guy who ignores the fact that it's a sandbox and actually wants to be railroaded to the end. Every game is an argument.

I'm not the DM

Maybe you should be

So what's next?

>connecting with old friends from hometown, before college
>try and get them interested in an online game since I can't visit too often with new job
>cool!
>fun
>Oh, hey, the rando you guys included isn't making it; do you mind if we shift it back an hour or three so my friend who works as a line chef can play? He's running a campaign for me and I want to give him a chance to play so he doesn't burn out.
>okay
>Three sessions of increasingly lackluster performance
>offer solo-session stuff to each of the PCs, only chefriend takes me up
>friend 1 gets petty and bitch (turns out to be going through some rough stuff in his life too)
>is missing during one session, party gets captured by enemies
>is missing during first breakout session when party manages to start escaping and get gear back
>reluctantly shows up again during second breakout session, complains about not having gear
>"are you trying to punish me for missing last session?"
>finally just fucks off
>bring in college friend to replace
>friend 2 is much more pleasant but overworked
>fucks off
>bring in another college friend (who's now condemned to the hell that is the east coast)
>suddenly players are enthusiastic
>suddenly games are fun
>suddenly can fudge the rules a little bit and they'll go along with me, because they're more interested in having a good time, well-rounded character interaction, and a cool story
>suddenly looking forward to running sessions
>suddenly have players clamoring to do solo session stuff on the side

All you GMs, remember, it DOES get better, and it CAN be awesome again. All you players, remember that you control a pretty significant fraction of the game quality.

>>is missing during one session, party gets captured by enemies
>>is missing during first breakout session when party manages to start escaping and get gear back
>>reluctantly shows up again during second breakout session, complains about not having gear
>>"are you trying to punish me for missing last session?"
I remember this story. Glad to hear things are looking up.

Its my first time DMing and it's stressful as fuck, but I'm still enjoying it.
It's my relationship with my girlfriend that's just going through the motions