What's it like growing up poor?

real poor people can't even access computers.
back in my third world shithole nobody in my street had a computer, we all went to internet cafes to play dota and our parents only gave us money for 1hour every 15 days or some shit like that since they couldn't take us out.

>grow up rich af
>dad is a badass tech entrepreneur, retires before 40 and is into cool dad shit
>have the blessing of a stay at home mom
>get older
>learn my father's story
>his dad is a scientologist, tore apart his family, took all their money, just wants to give us the childhood he never had
>my senior year in college
>get a call from my mom that dad is in the mental hospital
>not a worry in the world
>hah, dad is prolly going through a mid-life crisis
>3 days later, my aunt is banging at my door telling me that he killed himself
>he actually fucking did it, an hero'd
>gotta sell my BTC to eat, around $200 a BTC
>graduated (with decent majors too), struggling to find work, poor as fucking shit
>family is miserable and poor

shit is weird guys. i don't really feel anything anymore. my dad was prolly a schizo, im prolly one too. oh well. hopefully i make it.

i'd trade all of our material things just to have a stable family again. being rich ain't everything boys.

Yeh, I'll never have a stable family, it fucks with you. Real bad. That's why even when you get rich you can never settle down.

The worst is when you had one for a brief moment in time and then watched everything fall apart as you got older.

All I can hope for is a family of my own one day. It's my only salvation. When I start thinking I may not ever have one I get a bit suicidal. But we gotta keep trying. We gotta keep going. We can make it.

>I spent an evening drinking beers in the park with a long lost friend the other day, felt better than being on the storm moon mission - if it all falls down all we have is our friends and family.
that third world mentality will bring you down and regret you should've sided with money than people.