>I'm not sure if that's the direction you're pointing?
No. What you're saying is that the Buddha wasn't "good", but that he wasn't "good enough", and by this you're saying he was "good" but not "truly good", which makes no sense.
To echo Max Stirner: you're spooked;
to quote Parmenides: "either it is or it is not";
and if you asked Zhuangzi: "The wise man looks into space and does not regard the small as too little, nor the great as too big, for he knows that, there is no limit to dimensions."
>I'm not really sure where you're going with that though.
You and your physical self aren't separate, and you can choose not to be coerced by it, no? Then you and your physical universe aren't separate, and you can choose not to be coerced by it, no?
>which could make things impossible for countless rebirths.
Well yes. You can't teach a grasshopper to meditate. And again, how to save those that don't want to be saved?
>I just find it unfulfilling and unfounded.
That's because you're trying to fulfill and found something with it (it being NOTHING)! The point is for you to understand that you're doing this even on things which could never do it!
>To walk the wrong path and lead others down it is no act of kindness.
How do you go from no justification to a lack of kindness? Do you consider evil to be justified? What would you do if you found reality to be a lie?
>If making effort is warring then even meditation becomes warring.
It can be. But you're confusing effort with action.
>There is perhaps no absolute best but there is often a better option.
And if for reaching for the best option, you avoided the easy second best, failed, and got the worst? Knowing isn't always better.
>Upon which Buddhism is built, no?
Yes. Which is why the Buddha stressed that people should see for themselves.
>It might protect him from suffering but it shows no care for others suffering past that which immediately concerns him.
Again, a man has limits. You can't reach those people that are at the other side of the universe. Concentrate on what you can do, not on what-ifs. And second, a man does not exist in isolation. If one man stops suffering then that is still one man less, and the world is holistically change--this is a difference of kind, as any real difference is.
>could you sleep well if the guy next door was being waterboarded every 15 minutes because he got a shitty rebirth?
I would help him if it was in my power; otherwise, nobody is helped by me feeling bad about it--asking the impossible of myself would be like asking it of anybody else, and that would be prejudice, because my person is a person just like any other.
>If nirvana is nothing then it seems a little like just putting in ear plugs and going to sleep which seems a strange way to finish a life that would lead to nirvana or enlightenment. To go from mindfulness and selflessness to what could be construed as reward or ignorance. Then perhaps it's unavoidable.
Not sure what you mean by this.