Guys, I study film

Guys, I study film.
I am alos intersted in philosophy and have read some philosophy books here and there as well as reading in different online ecycopledias about different authors.
I am especialy interested in deleuze and have read parts of bergsonism, movement image and a thousand plateous.
I have also read an introductory book to lacan and again, the articles about him in online ecyclopedias.

I know this is no way to truly study philosophy however I feel that a TRUE study of philosophy involves actually producing content, as in writing books or writings.
Only though that process of comentary on other writers and producing works can you truly be philosopher and fully engage with philosophers and their ideas.

But, I study film and want to make films(I am studying at a film school), so as i am not a philosopher nor intend to be I feel it is not my job to fully understand and engage with philosophers but instead, get inspiration from them.
Understand in feelting their most important concepts and especially modes of thinking.
The absorbtion of these general modes so they become natural to me seems the thing i need to subconsiously use them as i write and make films.

So what I understand of lacan in very very general terms is his understanding of how we try to structure reality but can never pin point it. We grow as kids and are introduced to the symbolic order that is language and through it, through the languages of others we get out place within this order.
This is how we construct who we are.
He divides it into 3 main levels.
Real imaginary and symbolic.
The real is the thing we can never fully grasp but we try to which is the symbolic levle and the imaginary is our misconceptions based on our perception of ourselves whci is essentialy how others percieve us.
Then to live our lives properly we must aknolwedge our inherent desire(petit object) to grasp that ungraspable part that we miss through the structuring of reality through language that can never be quenched.

Now what i understand of deleuze in very general terms is a certain a desire to breakdown ideas of some sort of source.
To stop thinking of knowlede and life in the form of a tree with a trunk, with one source and instead focus on the details and think of everything as connected with other things.
Rhisomatic perticular thinking with focus points where things converge and spread on..
Reminding me of facault's ideas about inspecting points of convergence in their right and specific place, analyzing everything around these focal points using all the standards and realities of the time of these points...

Am I way off? What do you think? What would you say are the most inspiring or key concepts about deleuze and lacan?
I know many here hate lacan but I find his ideas to be much more in line with my interests as oppose to some of freuds which i find, after lacan, to be juvenile(not freuds fault of course).

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This very sober explanation zizec gives of his understanding of lacan is very interesting.

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What I still fail to clearly understand is the virtual as expressed by zizek and deleuze.

If you want to make films, drop film school and go to the films.

Not him, but easy there Tarantino. I'm also a film school idiot, and while it is true that you really don't need a theoretical class as long as you can meticulously analyze cinematography, I think that the main advantage of film school is connection-building.

But what if i dont want to make meme movies but instead want to change human kind's perception of reality?

Favorite filmmakers?

You're never, ever going to succeed.

makes me wonder wheter artaud or brecht would shitpost on Veeky Forums

Well, I dont think its about succeeding.

Hmm.. I dont know about favorite directors but These are directors that made a films I really enjoyed and that spring to my mind atm.
Tarkovsky, Gaspar NoƩ, Haneke, lars von trier, malick, Leos Carax, Kieslowski, Herzog, Brakhage.

I dont know if any of these fit my objectives or standards nor am I sure any should.
In general I enjoy many films, including animations and blockbusters and art films and comedies.