Sex repulsion

Related:
I can find women attractive, masturbated lots of times to porn and fantasy. I've chased many girls and consciously I want to have sex.
But when an IRL woman makes a legit (though implicit) proposal for sex I feel kinda disgusted and it just feels very obscene, for the lack of better word.
I can't really describe it, it's as if I subconsciously think that sex can't be just that stupid vulgar act and it makes me think less of the woman.
(Kinda as if she asked me to watch her take a shit or something.)

What's going on?

sounds like you're justifying your inability to get pussy with "I don't even want it if she's being this """obscene""", I could've fucked a bunch of chicks if I wanted to, I was the one who refused them not the other way around". This is the step before going full "I only like 2D women" and general waifufaggotry so tread lightly. I do wonder what a "legit though implicit proposal for sex" from a woman looks like in your experience.

I think you are projecting even harder than he is

You are ill, you need to live in filth to cure it.

Liberation from the ego is at hand.

I'm an user in a similar situation, except I'm actually in a relationship. Does that change how you see it? I read and look at porn but don't always masturbate, and actually having sex feels very uncomfortable and usually just leads to me dissociating from it.

This.

last bump i guess

thomas browne religio medici

H.P. Lovecraft

Euripedes' Hippolytus.

Euripides' Hippolytus.

You're overstimulated from too much /gif/ user. Stop fapping.

Also I think you would like Morissey.

>no Freudian nonsense

Read: "I've already found the seminal works on psychosexual disorder and trauma. The conclusions therein did not buttress the ever-withering cocoon of denial I've spun to dispel critical introspection. Please give me some literary justification for my fucked up and antisocial tendencies."

Perhaps Hypothalamus distraction/focus?

I feel ya, I'm fairly confident that I had the opportunity to lose my virginity (twice to go back with a girl to her place, another for her to come to mine) and I just wormed my way out of them. I pathologically friendzone any girls I know.

You are a porn addict.

Orthodox theology generally views sex as pretty gross. If you can't stand life without it, then get married and knock yourself out, but if you have the power to go without, then remain celibate, preferably becoming a monastic (Saint John Chrysostom, on asked the differences in Christian lifestyle of a monk vs. a married man, said the only difference is that the married man is married)..

gutenberg.org/files/14969/14969-h/14969-h.htm

auf wiedersehen

Calling things sociocultural memes is just a cringey as calling everything chemicals in the brain

It's almost as though you reserve the realm of your sexual desire exclusively for spectral whores and hold these women in your real life up as some sort of...Madonnas?

God I wish there was a term for this sort of thing.

Female sexuality freaks me up sometimes. I mean the way they open themselves up in this kind of passive way.
It's both arousing in some sense and also disgusting and weird and can make you feel like they're in control despite being passive. There's something evil about it.
And few women are aware of their inner workings, most are very immature even if they're older.

I've always been disgusted by queefs. Takes me right out of the mood. In some ways fapping is better. Women seem dirty.

>exchange of genital fluids is not related to disease

please don't actually be this retarded

What do you mean?

You wouldn't watch a chick take a shit?

Fag