How has your worldview changed over time?

Raised a moderate Christian conservative, then I went through an Ayn Rand phase in high school and became very atheistic, egoistic and libertarian. Now I'm more skeptical and apathetic when it comes to politics and still an egoist but on a more hedonistic basis. I'm also starting to place a lot more emphasis on empathy and understanding in my worldview in a way that makes Veeky Forums culture seem more and more distasteful to me.

I read a shitton as a little kid. When I first started reading it was because I loved bugs and wanted to be able to figure out what the books in my library about bugs were saying instead of just looking at the pictures. I would read every single one, then start checking them out again from the beginning. After that I read Harry Potter but got bored of them then discovered the Redwall series, that was my shit.
I got into actual literature from my brother, who was really into Russian lit but realized it would be a bit dry for a middle schooler, so he introduced me to Hitchhiker's Guide and a few other really basic things. From there I spent the first couple years of high school really into Kurt Vonnegut, I read everything he wrote twice and whatever seemed to be a similar style. The end of high school I read sporadically, mostly just for english classes, but then going through Moby Dick on my own got me really interested in classics because I realized they weren't the boring shit people pretend they are.
So then when I got to uni I started browsing Veeky Forums and read through most of the widely-discussed Greeks and other classical stuff. Now I go back and forth between classics and other shit I find on Veeky Forums. Just got through The Recognitions and Steppenwolf, both very good, and now I'm in the middle of Don Quixote.
I also just remembered that when I was like 12 and reading entry-level humor stuff from my brother like Douglas Adams he randomly threw in Storm of Steel, kek

pretty far lib left > theres no hope burn it all and build it again phase > some days neocon some days nietzsche (not treated bipolar/manic depressive) > I just want to leave the west and become a monk now
R8

Try national socialism. unironically TRY it.

in my teens i was an atheist and probably positivist. i liked genre fiction, and was a giant tolkien nerd.

late teens i found my dream future taken away and suddenly became apathetic and purposeless. felt very depressed for a couple of years, trying things out and ended up dropping out of college (out of a career i wasnt even interested)

as i had nothing better to do, i watched robert c. solomon's existentialism video lessons on recommendation of a friend. that got me to read more philosophy material.

reading these brought me great joy and i started to read more and more.

i became obsessed with learning everything for a while and i got me pretty darn confused and depressed again. so i told schopenhauer and all these depressive old men to fuck off.

my current position is stoic/quietist.
also have been more and more attracted to a leap of faith.

as of politics, never really had an interest. i don't feel like my opinion matters on the grand scale. besides, whatever happens we should just deal with it, anyway.

Weak minded. How sincere was this anti-government phase? Vaguely look into anarchism.
Oic. In other words "kill yourselves"
Har har

funny that the anarchist is the one hating on other's views and trying to push them toward anarchism..

B-but, I love you. This is why I point you into the right direction.

Raised fairly religious until I fell out of the church after realizing that I felt most of the people involved with it were totally reprehensible
Did a brief fedoralord phase as a result
Eventually realized that a lot of my thought and ethics was influenced by my religious upbringing even though I had long since decided the modern religious organizations are a bunch of charlatans, still felt very inspired by some of Jesus' teachings and some of the puritan ideas regarding humility and fellowship especially
Not sure what I'd call myself now, probably something close to a Christian Socialist even though I don't really practice anymore, it's probably just the biggest informer of my worldview. Still feeling like every day it's harder not to think that the nihilists are right.
I like Stirner unironically

National Socialist -> Nihilist -> Nietzsche -> Platonic -> Hegelian

Currently shifting to Bakunin's views. Just kill me already.

>pre-puberty blissful child, wholesome nintendo vidya, 1980s american television shows where good guys win, a-team school of ethics , lego, cartoons, asterix, playing outside with friends, having fun, reading childrens books, liking camping and innawoods stuff, gary paulsen favourite author, love dinosaurs, writing, drawing, daydreaming
>puberty normie, non-wholesome vidya, tv, internet, napster, kazaa, first encounters with internet porn, wanking, not reading
>hedonist teen normie, vidya, tv, trying to get pussy, more porn, drinking and smoking weed, not reading
>pseudo-hippie, there's got to be more than this, first stages of conscious desire for ideological commitment, progressive leanings, orientalist nonfic, self-help hacks disguised as spirituality, dharma bums, alan watts, silly hybrid of holy posturing and hedonism, trying to get pussy but being pretentious about it, smoking weed and being pretentious about it
>edgy lad, shitloads of nietzsche and nihilist/existential stuff, transgressive fiction, alternating between anarchist and fascist leanings, silly hybrid of elitist posturing and hedonism, getting pussy but being cynical about it, substance abuse and being blasé about it
>resignator, schopenhauer, hedonic treadmill fatigue, pessimism, antinatalism, celibacy, austerity, fasting, eremitism, silly hybrid of ascetic posturing and hedonism
>quietist, refrain from ideological commitments when possible, read for enjoyment and wonder and try not to try and figure things out and form a consistent worldview, pray to Münchhausen, silly hybrid of non-ideology and the ideology of non-ideology, cautiously trying to unlearn the past 20 years and get back into blissful child mode, the gentle labour of post-ironic comfy cognitive consonance

I used to be of the view that strong opinions about fundamental questions were quite necessary. You just had to have a stance. As I read more, I realized how inconclusive and pale are the arguments for each position, even the latest of them. Matters tend to be either settled, so there is no argument, or open now and always - perennial questions like "what is right" being of the second group.

Now I lean in certain directions that seem more plausible, more towards a kind of realism than skepticism for example, but not to the extent I'd suffer a papercut for any of them. So I have beliefs, but they're mild and tentative.

Edgy teen nihilist atheist with Nazi proclivities -> Full on Communist(member of Communist Youth Party) -> Anarchist -> Center-right deist

Needless to say, I've been eating from the trashcan of ideology for a long time, and I'm done with it.

>National Socialist -> Nihilist -> Nietzsche -> Platonic -> Hegelian

so right back where you started from then

scientism from birth until 30.

Marx -> Hegel -> Kant -> Nietzsche -> Hitler -> Anime

15-19: apolitical hipster teen smoking weed
19-20: RON PAUL 08'
21-24: Lived in China and travelled around Asia and India. Chinese people prove liberalism wrong. We are not all equal. Democracy is a failed project. Still feel like a "world citizen". Take a lot of LSD at this time. I suppose I was a globalist ancap who hated SJW politics?
24-28: Move back to USA, feel completely anomic, reverse culture shock. Get into Zen, then occultism, then became a Freemason.
28-30: Get into NRx, moldbug, Nick Land, Deleuze, etc. TRUMP 2016
30+ Discover traditionalism, orthodoxy, Trumpism. I love /pol/ and The Daily Stormer now, come at me bros

And this is why drugs are bad, kids. They shrink your IQ and destroy your mind.

Socdem-->apathetic-->fascist-->apathetic-->egoist

My life has been the constant alternation between my Oblomovism and frantic bursts of trying to overcome that Oblomovism.

So far the Oblomovism is winning.

>muh Stirner
Fuck off.

14-16 libertarian-like ideas
16-18 moderate libertarian with socially conservative ideas
18-21 hard right conservative
22-26+ nationalist hard right conservative, eugenics now!

stirner is post-egoist flukeboy

nWo -> books about animals, especially tigers -> stone cold steve austin -> babbys first atheist/agnostic quotes online -> thoreau/emerson/nature worship -> maddox -> fox news/bill o'reilly -> richard dawkins -> ron paul -> christopher hitchens -> fuck muslims -> neo-cons/centre-right -> schopenhauer/wittgenstein/tolstoy pessimistic/deny the will -> punk rock and sun bathing -> nietzsche -> all over the place explosion ironic nature worship re-ecounter with Being solar plexus i feel it here montaigne humor lightness of feet symbolism elliot rodger shitposting on Veeky Forums from the lake dam -> nietzsche/thucydides courage in the face of reality SELF-CONTROL CONTROL OVER THINGS REALITY CONTROL COURAGE

>all over the place explosion ironic nature worship re-ecounter with Being solar plexus i feel it here montaigne humor lightness of feet symbolism elliot rodger shitposting on Veeky Forums from the lake dam

Wew lad.

Sorry there was no other way to word it. It's nothing as well thought out as Stirner. I just decided i'm too dumb for a systemic ideology so i arbitrarily decided i would simply pursue my apparent interests from now, unless i don't feel like it.

Too ubermesch for me.

So..... lead poisoning, or mercury?

>culturally Christian
Holy shit thanks user I just had the biggest kek

8-14: Left-wing, fervently Catholic.
15-16: Began at an single-gendered Catholic school. Emphasized reading The Bible and hammering their version of Catholic ideology into their students. Here, I was very Pro-US, self-hating Asian. Anti-Eastern ideology. Extremely hyper-individualist. Read a lot of Palahniuk and Hunter S. Thompson. Liked reading Marx to appear contrarian """edgy and cool""" which contradicts everything I just said, as it is to be 15-16.
17-18: Left-libertarian. Started reading the Beats and Jung. Rapidly became nihilistic due to an incident with my school. Spend some time at a prestigious university. Dropped out.
19-20: Very absurdist. Very Jungian. Nihilistic. Started reading Beckett, Ionesco, Kierkegaard, Neecheese. Spent some time at a Jesuit university. Dropped out.
21-23 (Now): Left-wing with largely Catholic ethics. Big into Joyce and Dostoevsky, general entry-level Veeky Forums fare. Still consume a lot of absurdist media. I've been unwavering agnostic goon since I was 14. I've come full circle, and 15-18 I kind of left in the dust and I would like to pretend it didn't happen. I largely avoid all arguments and keep my opinion to myself.

>commie
>green
>traditionalist
>neoliberal globalist
>anarchist
>Murray Bookchin
>Fully automated luxury liberalism
>actually politics is stupid, only art matters although occultism, semi-ironic rituals and LARP-worshipping pagan gods is cool, fuck both the left and right but fuck the right more.

16-18: Extreme Left-Wing Anti-Theist SJW tier. I'm talking Christopher Hitchens podcasts/etc.

18-21: Big shift toward Paleoconservatism (via William F. Buckley jr). Progress further toward normal Conservatism (Burke/etc). Start swinging way right (de Maistre/Evola/etc).

21-23: Discover Veeky Forums and start mellowing out a bit.

24+: Home in on Schopenhauer/Nietzsche. Still have a lot of right-wing tendencies insofar as I think they're more honest/realistic about the threats of immigrants/refugees/globalism/etc, but part ways with them regarding the reactionary frame of mind. There's no "going back" (whether to Nazi Germany/etc), there is only forwards. I can see why people might prefer the former though, it's easier.

1-12 rejection of Catholic upbringing and concept of God, incredibly lazy
12-22 hard swing to the left, most interested in socialism and feminism, begin to develop good work habits for the first time
22- ?? Move to California, witness what liberals look like in their natural environment, no longer feel edgy about left leaning tendencies, begin to shift towards conservatism or some middle ground, further improvements on work ethic

classical liberal -> communist -> post-marxist nihilist

(Dawkins, Pullman, Pratchett) Scientistic Socialist -> (Smith, Moore, Hobbes) Patriotic Libertarian -> (Chesterton, Spengler, Evola) Doom-saying Reactionary -> (Aurelius, Augustine, Hegel) Deistic Nationalist

I'm more relaxed about things now, but no more optimistic.

I was always strongly opposed to injustices around me, like personally witnessing racism or homophobia at random. That mostly stems from growing up in a region that strongly condones those kinds of values. My parents tried very hard to push them onto me as well. I was fairly outspoken about it in my younger days despite having to deal with a lot of backlash for it, but as I got older, I grew into a more cynical mindset and just gave up.

People are largely the products of how they were raised. Once all that information is wired into the brain, a person can't just flip a switch and become someone totally different, especially when their values are consistently affirmed by a majority of people within their immediate surroundings. What did I accomplish by standing up to anyone? People more often than not will strengthen their biases when those biases are confronted. I think this is called psychological reactance. (i.e. stubborn / spiteful behavior) So in reality, I think I just made their hatred more intense.

Now in my 30s, I've mostly lost any faith in humanity. I try to minimize contact with other people as much as possible, because they'll no doubt say or do something to upset me. I haven't been in a relationship in going on a decade now, and I don't currently have any friends. I don't make any efforts to meet new people because my experiences with them have been too similar. People are hateful, they have sectarian views and they think the solution to all their perceived social and economic issues is to kill masses of other people for completely arbitrary reasons. And this hasn't changed over the three decades I've been on this planet.

I find it reprehensible. Strength found by scapegoating on something as arbitrary as ethnicity is false strength. Over-emphasis on militarism, aggression, jingoism, and paranoia also turns me off. Plus I fucking hate /pol/ for shitting all over every other board with their awful bait. Veeky Forums especially is flooded with "women and blacks CANNOT READ OR WRITE" or "everyone but me is a cuck" bullshit.

>Over-emphasis on militarism, aggression, jingoism, and paranoia also turns me off.

Why?

They're all good things, realistically.

This is me

It's not even a political position really, just a sad little cult worshipping "the nation" or "the race", all tied to some leader figure who'll stab them in the back the second they're no longer useful.

National Socialism is not about scapegoating. Surely: at the beginning you have to bully all other races out.

Just read some works. TRY it. Think of it as learning from the enemy.

I got Alex Jones filters. My precious fluids are safe.

Realistically no, they are not. They are good things on art deco posters of strongmen building tanks. "Realistically" they're ways of manipulating people for political gain, fostering needless aggression between people with no real conflict, and making a paranoid society I would never want to live in.

Although if there was a natsoc party whose only goal was to gas all frogposters, I could get behind that.

t. falls for every single /pol/ meme

t. libcuck

I never looked around, never second-guessed
Then I read some Howard Zinn now I'm always depressed
And now I can't sleep from years of apathy
All because I read a little Noam Chomsky

I remember my wee days as an agnostic, nationalist
American. Now look at me, I'm a Christian socialist. So much has changed since then, so much.

I intend to read about it because I intend to read about everything. The closest I've come so far is Ernst Jünger years ago, who hated Nazis anyway.

I used to believe in God. I still do, but I used to too. ;)

>Veeky Forums especially is flooded with "women and blacks CANNOT READ OR WRITE"
if you're going to whine about /pol/ please don't do so when they're right, it's bad for your cause

Born an apolitical atheist in 1973, I remember attending services and sitting through long sermons and brunches afterwards, playing with my toys as silently as could. I attended one Sunday school which I can only recall for the coloring assignments we had handed out concerning Moses. The one page had a door frame where the teacher told us to pointed out that the spots on sides were lambs blood. Have a red crayon. – I remember watching All in the Family with my dad laughing with Archy, and subtly bitching about blacks, Porto Ricans, Jews and meathead, the lib-Polack son-in-law. My mom liked Nixon and bragged that the Kennedy assassination meant nothing to her.

In the early 90s, after reading much of the bible, I began to read more history books and since we were separated from church services and I was naturally a quiet sort, I began to silently question my early dogma. Briefly explored some political thoughts, but remained rather apolitical. I agreed with the sentiment that they were all corrupt and untrustworthy. Started to self-identify as a "gnostic". This was in fact an agnostic-theist phase, or the spiritualist side of the fence. I sputtered along trying to get my life and career going.

Didn't vote in 2000, but soon started to hate the Supreme Court's choice for president. By 2004 I identified as *progressive liberal* but this lasted for about four years. I dropped the pretense of a god, heaven and immortal soul, and immediately felt the existential crisis lift off my shoulders, I felt free. Obama comes along and though I may have voted for him, I knew he wasn't even going to be progressive. By this time I thought of myself as a democratic-socialist, but in 2011 I gave anarchism another thought and though I still found it Quixotic, it actually blossomed in my mind as beautifully possible. I may have taken a long time to get there, but my journey has been a thoughtful, measured and solid one.

basically, starting from 13

existential dread
apathetic
apathetic
apathetic
music
music
WHOA ART
WHOA LITERATURE
philosophy
science
philosophy
fuck em both
ART

havent touched politics yet

Marxist -> Liberal -> Social Democrat -> Trotskyist -> Apoist

a christian socialist is the best possible woldview if you cast out Apostle Paul along with his hateful teachings.

libertarian->liberal->fascist->traditionalist->Marxist->Christian anarchist

To each according to his needs, am I right?

It literally changes everyday. Somedays I think Im a nihilist and other ones I think there might be an objective transcendent morality. Fuck if I know, existence is too incomprehensible

Lutheran -> agnostic -> atheist -> agnostic

Does this mean I'll soon turn back to religion?

agnostic is a good state, user
embrace authentic spirituality

What side of the fence are you on? Are you shopping around for a faith or are you sure the likelihood is too remote for any of it?

Pure agnosticism is a fence you sit on for about a day.

Just remember Pascal's wager and you'll be fine.

>agnostic is a good state, user
Agnostic-theism causes painful existentialism. People crack up or scurry off to just any cult. Or jump the fence.
>embrace authentic spirituality
This is you encouraging him to scurry back to some theism.
What currently holds your attention, user?

>seek out your own salvation with fear and trembling
I think big questions should leave people confused and worried.

>What currently holds your attention, user?that is a vague question, beauty i guess

Captain Kierk, it seems. How quaint.
No, holding onto the ancient fantasies of spiritualism doesn't grow character or make you more enlightened. It troubles you with the unnecessary.

Like determinism. Who the hell cares if all actions are fated? There's room for both acceptance in some forms and plenty of wiggle room for free action. The chances of the existence of god(s), an immortal soul and an afterlife for it, are very very slim. Should there be something of the sort, it doesn't matter. A-la Epicurus.

eh.

I dabbled with a lot of thing in my short life, at times even holding to contradictory beliefs in my short time. Marxist, thelemist, nietzschean, absurdism, stoicism. I still hold some beliefs from these as true, if even if they're not coherent.
Now find myself again drifting towards Derrida while at the same time feeling the lack of foundations in ethics, why I do what I do, why I'm not doing otherwise...

I'm probably going to end up as a mad christian

10-18: between consciously apolitical and typical liberal, agnostic.
Feel no particular interest in getting politically involved because I follow a somewhat nihilist worldview. Typical edgy contrarian
More interested in art, science (astronomy), literature, music, history

18-21:Still mostly interested in above fields plus architecture (my professional field)
Start reading Guy Debord, Situationists, Baudrillard.
My taste for technology inspired aesthetics starts
Jump between agnosticism and gnosticism

21-22: Start browsing Veeky Forums. Start getting into philosophy and politics proper. Still a somewhat apolitical liberal, any reading in politics is mainly detached from personal views.

22: Studied a year in Paris. Get more time to read. Start getting into economics. Read intros to Keynes. Discover Austrian Economics. Read Schumpeter and love him. Read Marx consistently (I knew my marxism since teen years thanks to my parents, but only read Marx consistently now). Turn into Libertarian.
My time in Paris is a real wake-up call to contemporary progressive (neo)liberalism, threat of alienation, atomization.
The abject failure of Syriza destroys any remaining left/socialist delusions.
Fully accept my right-wing tendencies

23-24: Read Spengler. Find Nick Land and Moldbug. Accept democracy as a sociopolitical cycle doomed to collapse.
Turn into a Fatalist and at the same time an right-accelerationist/futurist
Declinephile and technophile
Still an agnostic

From 12-16 I was an unabashed Marxist communist, but I was forced to confront the failure of central planning and human nature

I became a libertarian until I was about 20.

Then I read Niezsche, Kierkegaard, Evola, and some modern thinkers like Haidt and Durkheim, which is when I was absolutely throttled and forced to concede the necessity of religion and by extension social restriction and cohesion in an ideally racially but absolutely culturally homogeneous society as a function of social capital and harmony.

Now I tell people I'm a Christian when I'm really something of a "cultural Christian." I actively advocate for America to return to Christian homogeneity throughout society and other values like monogamy and sexual restriction -- without advocating for state intervention, rather just trying to restore the culture to a time in which taboos and clear social virtues existed.

I don't know. I never expected to turn into such a curmudgeonly old bastard at such a young age (22).

Also the culture war is pretty much lost and I've become a doomsday "democracy will fail" asshole

I didn't choose to become this

0-12: apolitical atheist
12-14: edgy reddit atheist and mainstream liberal
14-16: contrarian, le enlightened skeptic, and hard-rightist
16-21: read Nietzsche and the modernists and become intensely aware of the issues with contemporary society, mainly the way global capitalism and technology make people unhappy and anxious. Realization that ideology isn't necessarily bad and that humans are animals driven by animal instincts, therefore struggle and war are the only ways to keep society from stagnating. Antipathy to postmodernism and the thought that, now that liberals and postmodern thinkers have destroyed our society, we have a responsibility to begin it anew.

You do choose to be like this.
Reactionary counterrevolutionaries are so unrealistic.

Libertartian (17-19) I even interned at my very conservative congressman's office. Also the time I started on Veeky Forums. Orwell and Huxley probably had the largest effect. I bought Road to Serfdom and actually read it like a pseud. At 18 I had an existential panic brought on by smoking synthetic marijuana. This made me get back into athletics and stop hanging out with my stoner friends too much.

Imperialist (19) I was simultaneously a Libertarian. This period ended when I tried reading Atlas Shrugged (I had read The Fountainhead in high school and liked it).

Anarchist (19-22) McCarthy was the biggest influence, Blood Meridian was the best book I had read. Had another episode at 21 after moving out of parents house for college. I dropped out about 2 weeks into transferring as a junior. I realized I hated what I was doing and that I needed to start honing myself instead of relying on my natural talents. During this time I tried to grow a lot but stopped reading.

STEM Sperg (23-24) Read History of Western Philosophy and re enrolled in college. Started reading some good books and some good non-fiction, lots of economics and political philosophy that I missed my first pass through college.

Democratic Socialist (24 - present) Socialism is the future of humanity. No challenge cannot be met without bureaucratic precision. I read great books weekly. Average about 100 pages per day as a student. Favorite book is 100 Years of Solitude. Re learning Spanish to read Garcia Marquez and Borges in the original language.

The issue is that the mythical black-and-white conservative 1950s America /pol/ types yearn for never actually existed, and the inevitable result of that was modern liberalism. This is an era of the Internet after all, the elites can't project their fantasies onto the television set and expect everyone to follow anymore.

Seconding this (in as many words), plus two years.

In terms of politics, a center-left (by American standards) political orientation of the teens and college years has given way to a vaguely center-right orientation, with certain socially liberal caveats which are typical of libertarians and the like. This slow burn towards a slightly more right-wing view is reflected in my historical voting patterns.

I also used to describe myself as agnostic during the above younger period, but this gave way to simple full-on fedora tipping during the mid-twenties, when I realized that the appellation invites a superfluous and unnecessary conversation. Further, atheism is the simplest and most literally accurate appelation/ism. At no point since about age fourteen have I seriously entertained the possibility of the existence of god, except as a historical/intellectual exercise. And I've satisfied myself that if one does exist and is anything along the lines of what is historically described, then the only genuinely moral course with respect to such a creature is to reject it, /even and especially/ in the case that it is capricious enough to damn you only because you reject it. In other words, the only genuinely moral choice is the impossible choice of defiance with perfect knowledge that defiance earns you damnnation. In the Christian treatment of things, at any rate.

As also commonly happens, a sincerely held absence of religion/conviction in irreligion, has lately led toward a sincerely held nihilism, which is rife with problems. Pushing things a step further, this conclusion entails a general contradiction/hypocrisy with the above various value systems, of which I am aware. Furthermore, since biological immortality seems to be distinct possibility in the future, and since some seem to threaten to be able to avail themselves of this possibility, while everyone else to date has not been so lucky, and has been irredeemably lost to nothingness, it seems to me in the interest of general fairness (again, holding a hypocritical value in view of the above, which I am unable to shake) that everyone must be prevented from ever enjoying arbitrary life extension/escape into genuinely new modes of being, etc. And since humans will always tinker as long as they are around in anything like the way that we understand ourselves, the threat to advance science again toward this excecrable possibility will always exist. "Equilibrium" is not possible.

The conclusion of all this is now an /anti-scientism/, is my conception that the species must be extinguished, on general principles. Pay especial attention that this conclusion is not based in any environmental considerations, but instead simply in the conception that no human being should ever be allowed to escape death while a single human who ever lived has failed to do so. The fact that one person has died means exactly that no one must be "saved".

Good work! Truly, socialism is the future.

rice looks exceptionally dry

potato looks starchy

shrimp looks too tough

fish is perhaps the only acceptable-looking food on the plate.

0-11 fox news republican lukewarm catholic(although i started doubting at about 8)
12- completely apolitical besides thinking weed sounded cool(I was in a major car accident at this time and don't remember too much of this year of my life)
13-14 edgy reddit atheist, started smoking weed at this time and skating
15-16 stopped smoking weed, got into /pol/, became traditionalist Catholic, also Hitler-worshipping and 1488 stuff
16.25-16.75 start doubting Catholicism, search for other faiths, mostly in protestantism but have a brief (about a week long) /fringe/ phase which I regret. Started smoking weed again, although only 1-3 times a month.
16.75-17 time of extreme doubt, but I stopped smoking weed. Want to be Christian, can't make myself have faith continually. During this time I would regularly wake up agnostic, go through the day confused, confess Faith in Christ at night and try to bargain with God asking for this to be the final time, to help me remain christian forevermore, then wake up an agnostic again. Tried to force myself to read during this time but never finished anything philosophical.
17-present Confused, but enjoy reading now and learning. I read a lot of plato(various dialogues, Symposium, Republic), read some books from Veeky Forums recommended reading, and am starting to get morals in check. I find myself getting closer and closer to Christian morality but I can't force myself to believe in Christianity because Catholics are obviously not biblical, but most good protestant denominations are YEC, and I can't force myself to believe that this one religion out of everything else got it right, that so many great philosophers are in hell, so many great people are in hell, and they have no chance of getting out. I feel like I want to drift away from politics but I am getting more liberal in a compassionate sense, I don't like LGBT stuff, I think it is morally wrong, I don't like free love, I don't like a lot of the culturally (for lack of a better word) degenerate stuff that the left promotes, but find socialism more appealing. Right now I am still confused, but I feel somewhat better than I did as a /pol/ack, less angry, less pessimistic. Still, I am very confused, I don't know quite what is right and I kind of want to be Christian again.

It's a fucking baked potato, of course it's starchy

I should note that in my 16.75-17 phase I dove into wizchan-tier woman hate and was very antisocial. I quit my job and saved the money to use to eat and buy books and other small luxuries over time. I still have most of the money from that job and haven't gotten another one since, just living frugally off of my own self-made neetbux. I am still a KHV.

as a captain D's employee, watch what you fukkin say about my POE

>how has your worldview changed over time?
In high school I was a right-leaning moderate with virtually no critical thinking ability. I quickly became more left-leaning in my late teens/early 20s, eventually identifying as anarchist by about 23ish. I soon saw issues with that philosophy that I could find no satisfying answer for but wasn't sure where to go. Now (at 27), I suppose I would most closely idetify with communitarianism.

>what's the evolution of your favorite philosophers/writers/etc?
A thorough answer to this would be way too long wind-winded. Suffice it to say Vonnegut was my favorite writer when I was younger, now my favorites are many and wide-ranging in eras, styles, nationalities, etc. I didn't get into philosophy until I was about 20, and I'm 27 now. Berkeley and Hume are probably my favorites, but I'm still not really too well-read in this area.

Very good. I am glad to say that you're heading in the right direction. Keep it up.

compassion and empathy are the greatest virtues, and any god worth his tithes will feel the same

love people user

>bureaucratic precision
>bureaucratic
>precision

Can we dispel this fiction that socialists know that they're talking about?

How has your worldview changed over time?
>apolitical atheistic child
>edge towards communism because I liked the Russian story in Call of Duty
>read Animal farm in middle school
>woah bruh what if?
>apolitical but now my family goes to church a bit
>get super edgy but in an ironic way because it makes people laugh and otherwise I feel like everyone hates me
>watch Neon Genesis Evanjellion
>woah bruh maybe I should jus be myself?
>hey what's Veeky Forums?
>start with the Greeks
>read some other books here
>overall feel the best I've felt in my life
Nowadays I'm pretty don't tread on me.

nice user

>19-20: RON PAUL 08'
How are you 30+ if you were 19-20 in 2008?

You remind me a lot of myself.
5 - Decided church wasn't for me
10 - 14 reddit atheism. Socially and culturally liberal, but right tendencies. Dawkins, had a copy of atlas shrugged i didnt read. Hitchens, samuel harris, interest in nietzsche but not the mind yet to grasp it
15 - 17 largely apolitical, generic schoolboy literature like orwell, bradbury, huxley, leaning further right. Milquetoast interests in philosophy. Started doing drugs, stopped doing drugs. Weed isnt good for you. Mild curiosity about psychedelics still but I've taken somewhere around 30 hits of acid and it's fair to say I get it.
18 - sam hyde. Begin tetosterone. Begin lifting and honing the body. Begin reading McCarthy, Nietzsche, Marcus aurelius, Camus, and others i have but have not yet read. Racial realism, right socially/fiscally, voted trump, you have to work within the mechinations of the system. All this idealism, but about what? I don't see revolutionaries in the hearts of my compatriots with their marxism and social justice and anger. I try to find happiness in these books and fucking girls and figuring out where i can go right from where i have gone wrong. I tend to keep it to myself generally, but i do think what we concern ourselves with now will either have no effect or an ultimate effect on the generations to come.

>he doesn't understand the dialectic
Maybe you should read some Hegel.

so you just play videogames?

you're right on track, but please know that if all goes well, you'll cringe at where you are now in a few years
that's not to say you aren't reading good stuff; it's good, age-appropriate--I don't mean that in a patronizing way, though I realize this is an extremely patronizing post.
make sure to talk to people you disagree with