There is no /psy/ board so I'm post here in hopes that someone with some knowledge in psychology will view it.
I am very vulnerable to all sorts of stimuli. Touching me makes me feel invaded, tickling me physically hurts. My hearing is very sensitive and I am very sensitive to light. I can only focus on one thing at a time. I never understood social ques or hints, like sarcasm. In elementary school I used to follow a person around and didn't understand that they didn't want me around at all because they were very not very direct about it, things like that happened a lot. I would've stopped being a creep if I knew. I've kept my distance ever since. I tend to ramble on without realizing the other person in the conversation doesn't care, just to get every last detail down. So I've learned to shut up ever since. I'm easily distracted and can only focus on things I'm very interested in. I memorize things again and again. I have obsessed over things to the point of printing out hundreds of photos of them just to admire them. I pace and I fidget and fiddle constantly, it takes up most of my day. I gag on certain textures of food. I used to use my forefeet to walk, I stopped though because it looks creepy. I have a lot of trouble understanding other peoples motives and views for things, and can't really empathize with them. But when I DO empathize I get very very sucked into that role, I think I relate to characters and people to much and start worrying about what I'd do then.
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Jace Wood
And due to these things and some others I suspected I had Aspergers. I have read a lot about it and it matches me well. Besides that, I've always had suicidal and homicidal thoughts, they are only getting worse over time. I don't have a real motivation for anything at this point. I am convinced that whatever I do will ultimately result in failure, and I think this way for good reason: It always has. I'm under constant stress due to the chaos of this household (and this world in general) I've always lived in, too many people shouting and walking around and I can't get my mind off of it. I will never succeed in this world, I don't think people want me to. I am very scared in general. There are other things. I don't feel alright. I am very scared.
I recently started seeing a therapist, about two months ago. In our last session I asked what he thought was wrong with me and he decided that I had no issues besides probably depression. I didn't think that way, I told him I was very worried there was more than that (I didn't say I KNEW THAT, I only said I suspected it was more) and he just shrugged it off. "Yeah, I think you've been reading way too much online" I've been thinking about that statement again and again since then. I'm honestly believing it now. There could be nothing wrong with me and I'm just really stupid and have no excuse to be this much of a failure. I think that is the case.
Is there something wrong with me? And is therapy a meme? Also, does Veeky Forums need a /psy/ board?
Jose Roberts
Therapy can work, but finding a good therapist is difficult. Ideally find someone with a research oriented PhD or at least a PsyD.
It's highly unlikely (though possible) that a masters in counseling therapist is competent.
Luis Brown
>Is there something wrong with me? to answer that question I need more information.
How old are you? Did you complete highschool? College? Do you have a job? What is the longest you have ever kept a job? What is the longest relationship you have ever had with a person of the opposite sex who isn't a member of your family?
In spite of your own perceived flaws about yourself that is not as important as your ability to function in society.
Jonathan Taylor
He has a PhD, he's pretty credible.
I'm 19 years old.
I dropped out of highschool, I was unable to learn anything and the other students didn't like me very much besides just being nuisances to me.
No, but I had a job.
A few months. It was very basic and I could be listening to music and left to my own thoughts while I did it. It was very comfy and nice.
I've never really felt any romantic attraction towards anyone. I used to fake having a crush in 3rd grade so I could fit in more, but that is the most I've ever gotten to romance.
Aiden Anderson
Too much 'me'.
How's that supposed to make life treat ya? Life is chaotic but fair. You are not giving it reasons to help you.
Luke Adams
What you're asking about is psychiatry, NOT psychology. Psychology is the scientific study of the mind, psychiatry is the branch of medicine that deals with mental health issues.
Also you're autistic.
Aiden Jenkins
You sound unironically autistic, lack of romantic attraction is a massive red flag
Jack Hughes
>I'm 19 years old.I dropped out of highschool, I was unable to learn anything and the other students didn't like me very much besides just being nuisances to me. No, but I had a job. A few months. It was very basic and I could be listening to music and left to my own thoughts while I did it. It was very comfy and nice. I've never really felt any romantic attraction towards anyone. I used to fake having a crush in 3rd grade so I could fit in more, but that is the most I've ever gotten to romance.
follow up questions: do you live alone? if not who do you live with? How are you supporting yourself financially or are you financially dependent?
Oliver Adams
There is no reason for life to help me, I already said I'm starting to realize this was all my own fault. I'm starting to feel bad because people had to actually put up with me.
Yeah but there are are lot of non-autists with no romantic attraction too, right? Empathy ties into this. My therapist says that it could just be the view I've put on the world and not my actual problems with it, is that a possibility?
