I'm basically a mental patient at this point, but I can find reasons and fears and problems which can't be solved by the people who care for me, so I'm alone trying to grapple these psychotic delusions (which I know are delusions, but which I can't get rid of). I even have tonnes of psychosomatic symptoms and can sleep for 20 hours a day, obsessional, have moments of total terror and panic that they send me physically sick for days... It's a mess Veeky Forums, but I read and I know some things at least, I'm reasonably smart, put myself to writing a lot in a notebook, and read often, listen to Wagner and Richard Strauss; I also like german philosophy and poetry, I'm a huge germanophile... I'm also big into Freud and find so much of what he wrote to be such a good observation of the reality of mental illness, but there we go. Others are so puzzled by how I take everything so seriously, I go days and days listening to the same Wagner lines over and over in my head or in and out of sleep, same with words said at odd times which I repeat over and over. Okay, I'm basically quite an extreme case of paranoiac obsessional neurosis, oh also I'm male of course though I was transgender before. I'm a total madman, can anyone else here relate? There must be quite a few others like me here, you can't be a normal person if you're here.
Anyone else mentally disturbed here?
I was there at one point.
I became an alcoholic, which actually did get rid of my psychotic symptoms, for about 15 years then got into rehab and therapy and all that, and now am booze and psycho free.
It's sad to read this. You're a product of this time period.
Maybe you can find some support by reading the old Greek.
Maybe Marc Aurel or Epictet can help you...
Good luck, my friend.
I've read all that and to be frank I'm not very impressed
What if you're the sane one, and everyone else isn't?
You should kill them all before they kill you.
Kys
>Okay, I'm basically quite an extreme case of paranoiac obsessional neurosis, oh also I'm male of course though I was transgender before.
Proof that transgender people are mentally ill
Thanks user, but it's not really to do with that, I just have an anal fixation and can only get off to domination I'm afraid
REALLY MAKE
>what is pegging
>what are strapons
As long as you can support yourself, do what you love. If you can't find what you love, that's your life goal. Finding what you love.
If you regret what you loved later on... live and learn.
Genitalised sex is plebeian, inscriptions on the surface on the skin and different body tenses and torsions is the height of ex-stacy.
Nice cat picture but how can I support myself when I'm a mental patient without a job or qualifications living on other people's support?
You just said you have an anal fixation... Make your mind up and stop fapping to weird porn
Also, all of what you listed is possible in a hetero setting too. Stop trying to feel like a special snowflake
what if you're the crazy one, and everyone else is sane? as that's like....the most likely explanation.
Wtf are you talking about? I don't fap at all, I already told you that the little sexual desire I experience is non-genital? And anyway this is nothing to do with literature!
And what does your insanity have to do win lit? You made this your blog, so I feel entitled to dissect your fucked up sexuality in this thread too.
Tell me where the pastor has touched you
Er. My favourite book is called Phenomenology of Spirit...
Stupid fucking transniggers like you ruin this board
That heavily implies that you are going to fap to cock sounding next
>tfw
>now am booze and psycho free
Yay! You sound like you're so happy!
you can make it user. literature is not that different from shared illness if you read literature to understand what constitutes illness in the first place. in that way its not really so dreary because it becomes a humane thing.
New fuckin faggot tryin to fit in
Learn how to paint. This is the type of obsession one needs to be good at painting
Your mania reminds me of something I experienced during the Summer of last year. Moved back in with my parents and got a script for diazepam and made it over the worst of it though. What are you diagnosed with OP? I have mixed personality disorder, hope you are doing well.
it's funny how you're posting on a literature board, yet lack the basic tools needed to actually string together a grammatically correct sentence.
Comma splices everywhere! Do you even know how to use a fucking semi-colon?