I have stage IV non-small cell lung cancer (only ever a social smoker, but heavy as far as social smokers go you might say ;)) with mets to my brain and unless I have a great response to some exciting modern treatments I'm going to die pretty soon.
What should I read to make me feel better about dying young, and to prepare myself mentally for the whole process of dying in a painful way? In particular I have always been into futurism and dying just short of very exciting times makes me extremely bummed out, but I suspect certain perspectives could make a feel a little more at ease. Whatever happens I'm going to be in hospital a lot over the next few months so it can keep me occupied
Terribly sorry to hear that, OP. I would read a lot of Rumi if I were you. You can start anywhere with him. Percy Shelley is also some essential death-reading. Hope you recover, best wishes.
Zachary Diaz
can't you go bang some hookers and some meth and do some acid and write your own book? literally what i would do, no joke.
i'm sorry user, i hope you survive. try fungus (look up paul stamets)
Christopher Smith
read the sticky and fuck off
Gabriel Lee
I don't have any interest in sex, drugs is a different story.....
Leo Carter
the bible~
Caleb Reyes
try to get your hands on some liquid psilocybin and bang that shit mixed with heroin and dmt, bro.
Benjamin Howard
I'm a smoker. I fear I may be in the same position you are at, OP. Then again, perhaps not.
I will recommend what I usually recommend for many situations: read the Bhagavad Gita. It is particularly comforting and calming on the idea of death.
Blake Morgan
>stage IV non-small cell lung cancer with mets to my brain >great response to some exciting modern treatments ask the oncologists around user, my dad just got that in chimio form, with less side effects it's an experimental protocol in France, if that helps
Well shit, that sucks OP. I guess if I was dying I wouldn't like to think my existence will be erased in every way, so you should read some philosophical defenses of the soul and afterlife. Plato is your friend.
Joseph Thomas
I'm glad someone else on lit that finds beauty in Spinoza's "pantheism".
Matthew Garcia
but pantheism is atheism
Evan Robinson
On Heroes and Tombs Journey to the End of the Night The Cossacks
Leo Richardson
>Plato Recommending Plato to OP would be like his doctor recommending leeches as treatment
Justin Murphy
>not being inspired by Socrates' fearless dissent and death Have you even read the Apology?
Kayden Gutierrez
He's not an easy read and I think that scares away a lot of the riff raff
Daniel Bennett
How old are you OP?
Leo Morgan
>of all philosophical thought, the best parallel i have to coping with terminal disease is 'hold to your convictions despite popular opinion'
Brandon Ramirez
It's not a book, but listen to the song Horse Soldier, Horse Soldier by Corb Lund
It's sort of melancholy, but the core concept really changed the way I look at death. It's the only song that I'd actually describe as having actually changed my life. I don't know if it'll help you the same way, but it's worth a try.
Whatever is, is in God, and nothing can be or be conceived without God.
Jose Wilson
Stop being a special snowflake and die like a man. You took a chance knowing the risks and you lost. There's no tragedy here.
Justin Flores
WOAH, SO FUCKING EDGY! Teach me your ways XD!!
Julian Taylor
OP is roleplaying, lung cancer before 40 is extremely rare.
Matthew Phillips
>extremely rare. I notice that doesn't say impossible.
Landon Allen
Lung cancer if you've barely smoked literally shouldn't happen unless you live in Beijing for 20 years.
Brody Bell
What are you trying to prove by being a huge edgelord?
Wyatt Lewis
death of ivan ilyich by tolstoy
Christian Johnson
Spend money on a gun and blow your brains out before it all gets all too painful desu.
Saw my mom die to that shit, and I'd want to end it a bit before the slow and ugly finale.
Caleb Stewart
What a boring way to die.
Gavin Jackson
Which one? Lung cancer or blowing your brains? Because I don't think one gets the chance to become very bored either way.
Carter Sanders
Both.
Jacob Flores
fuck man, this
Grayson Turner
I'm not a well read person but I have read a few things from which I was able to extract some consolation for my mortality (chances are I'm going to die fairly young too):
The Death of Ivan Ilych The Book of Job (lots of other parts of the Bible too) Stoner Philoctetes The Trial Till I End My Song (poetry anthology edited by Bloom)
Can't think of anything else right now and I can see some of them have been mentioned in this thread already. Sorry, op.
Christian Collins
impending death is always the best time to get mystical. i suggest the tibetan book of the dead