Somebody please explain to me the neurochemical and and/or psychological aspects of depression, please.
I just finished Stains;Gate 3 days ago, and it caused me to fall into a deep depression.
It is comparable to my first big breakup irl.
I just can not get over this feeling. It feels empty. I feel like bursting into tears all of the sudden.
I relate a lot with okabe, I'm practically him down to the childish attitude. Kurisu is exactly how I picture my ideal partner. Si, I guess I see myself in the anime, and I feel like I ended up in the wrong "worldline", and there is no coming back...
I found myself plying the saddest songs from silent hill... And crying to sleep last night, then I woke up at 2:30 am and couldn't fall asleep..
I already asked for help at my University's mental health service, but unless I'm literally suicidal, won't see me until the 10'th...
Playing, fuck my hands are not steady right now...
Gabriel Gomez
Steins;Gate is one of my favorite anime of all time OP. Watched that shit as it aired.
I don't know how much this will help, but I'm kind of in the same boat as you. Except there's a real girl involved. Basically I formed an extremely close relationship with my friend's sister over several months and ended up falling in love. When it came apparent that it wouldn't work out and she found someone else, I tried to avoid her until she came to a party I was at. Once I made it clear how I actually felt, she got upset herself and broke down crying. We met up last month to discuss things, but I couldn't get a clear answer about how she felt. Then at the end of the night, my sadness hit me like a truck and after embracing her for a bit, I moved in for a kiss without realizing it, pulled away. And then ran aimlessly in the pouring rain for an hour.
The only solution I could think of after that was to just tell her we should hold off for a month before talking and holy fuck I have never felt emptier in my life. She was one of the few people in my life that ever made me feel that someone else was there, and I fucking ruined it.
So, to address your feelings. There is no ideal partner. There's girls you groove with and girls you don't. Once you find a girl you like, ask her to hang out. If you two groove together it will just naturally progress. The point of Steins;Gate, especially the ending, is that the idea of a set destiny is bullshit and that with enough determination and hard work, you can cheat destiny.
Sebastian Reyes
Thanks for sharing tour story... I hope it goes well for you.
But right now my depression is crippling me... I cant wait to see if I find someone, specially since I avoid people like the plague...
Benjamin Sanchez
I almost feel like I have spent a life time with somebody who just isn't here, no that is exactly how I feel...
This anime hit the right spot, and the dam containing my feels came crashing down...
I almost feel like downing a bottle of SSRIs and a bottle of vodka...
Josiah Ramirez
Which makes me think, how is romantic depression related to serotonin?
Lucas Flores
You should act on those feelings and kill yourself, disgusting pedophile.
Chase Rogers
Kurisu is 18.
I hate pedos, besides I'm "in Love" with the idea of kurisu, not with the drawing...
But I might just off myself... I cant do this anymore...
Alexander Smith
Changing the subject, what is a good way to suicide?
I don't want ti leave a mess, but I don't fear a bit of pain, although painless would be better.
My car is fucked and I don't have a hose...
I do have about 50 pills of SSRIs (dont remember the concentration, I was prescribed those about 4 years ago and never took them after the first time) somewhere and a litre of vodka.
Christopher Rogers
I have depression, and stories similar to you guys. I often project my fantasy of "the one" onto random girls I barely know and become obsessed with them. The best advice I can give you is not to sink too deep into fantasy (anime in particular). They may relieve the pain for a while, but you always have to let go eventually.
the Silent Hill ST is pretty good, if you need sad music I've got sad music albums: Jon Hopkins - Immunity Damien Rice - O Radiohead - Kid A, and In Rainbows Keaton Henson - Dear The Middle East - I Want that You Are Always Happy Yo La Tengo - Painful
songs: James Blake - Lindisfarne Radiohead - Daydreaming Pink Floyd - Nobody Home Ween - I Don't Want It Daft Punk - Something About Us Spiritualized - Broken Heart Elliott Smith - Say Yes Fionn Regan - Abacus Sweet Trip - Your World is Eternally Complete Neutral Milk Hotel - Two Headed Boy Pt.2
some are born to sweet delight, some are born to sweet delight, some are born to the endless night
Charles Phillips
Why the fuck would you want to kill yourself over a Chinese Girl Cartoon?
Jesus OP just go outside. Go for a walk when you feel depressed and suicidal. You're most likely young enough so that any regrets you have about your life up until this point can be corrected by a year of just working out and forcing yourself to socialize. Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem.
Anthony Rivera
I'm at uni right now, and I could jump easily from the 11th floor, there is no proper security... I just don't because I feel like I have to get to my department and delete my porn, I don't want my mom looking through that afer I go... (I'm serious)
I just don't have anything to live for, and I haven't for a while, but I still pushed through.
But now, this feel dreadful... I just want it to end... I'm... so.... tired....
Isaiah Jones
Thanks for the music bro...
I'm not. I'm 27 forever alone kisses virgin zero friends, 100% recluse, I don't even belong in this country (moved from America to Australia)
Brayden Parker
>mfw this entire thread Christ, OP. Drink some fucking coffee and have a wank. Life isn't that bad.
Charles Kelly
I haven't been able to to feel any sexual desire since I watched s;g, and I'm sleeping less than 4 hours without coffee...
Alexander Allen
don't sell yourself short my dude we all have infinite potential yet to be realized you don't know that you have nothing to live for, it's probably just barely outside of your sight
Carson Russell
I've been telling myself that for 10 years...
The only thing that helps me is working obsessively
Camden Miller
You faggots need the red pill on women. Fucking oneitis sufferers. Kill yourselves.
Owen Reyes
i need a Veeky Forums answer, not a normie answer.
How the the fuck does this work?
Levi Green
I never gave a shit about woman after high school, I'm 27 now.
This is different. Feels like
Bentley Sanders
>how does this work It's quite simple: you have shit taste in anime.
Asher Bell
>"the one" Kill yourself.
Jacob Butler
Well I guess you'll be happy to know they're making a sequel, Steins;Gate 0. There's also other shows in the same universe that go by the same naming convention. Chaos;Child, Robotics;Notes, and Chaos;Head are all in the same universe too.
John Bailey
>I never gave a shit about woman after high school, This is quite obviously not true. You're an incel who's sick with oneitis.
Adrian Perry
I advice you to stay away from steins;gate zero if you already feel this way...
Jayden King
>I advice It's "advise". Advice is a noun.
Lincoln Peterson
I'm a virgin because I spend too much time on the internet/studying/working, and I was fine with it. Yes, I got a bad love deception in high school, then I guess I decided not to try again...
I don't believe in "the one". like I said, its like my brain fabricated non existent "memories", no, more like nostalgic emotions from nothing...
That's why s;g feels so much like "me"...
Noah Wright
I'm not going to touch it, I know its on the beta line...
Blake Thompson
>Stains;Gate 0 Yeah, its going to kill OP
John Sanders
>he watches anime I'm afraid that's incurable
Gavin Bell
Yeah, I used to be like you. I don't have 10 animes in my watched list...
Why don't we have a philosophy board?
I hate to talk about this on Veeky Forums since nobody is commenting brain chemistry stuff...
Grayson Peterson
i bet you didnt even get the best ending
Ryan Gomez
Veeky Forums you fucking troglodyte.
Nathan Gray
hit a nerve, user?
Cooper Foster
You are just indulging on the emotions triggered by the show, emotions you probably suppress usually.
Take your mind off of it and tell yourself to get a fucking grip.
Honeslty, stop thinking about the show as anything other than some dumb cartoon and distract yoursef for a bit.
Dylan Rodriguez
>just don't think about it wow, you should be a therapist
Aaron Wood
>watching the anime >not reading the vn
Colton Hughes
You people make me worried because Kurisu is literally the only anime character I've ever really wanted to be real. Now reading this I think I might have autism.
Benjamin Ward
>what's known as literally plebbit the anime on /a/ is worshipped by Veeky Forumsentists This place really is plebbit2.0 I guess this explains why plebbitposting is so prominent on this board. Look at all this shit:
/a/ are brainlets that like moe trash, no wonder why they call S;G plebbit-tier
Jayden Allen
>I just finished Stains;Gate 3 days go How new are you?
Ayden Richardson
Been here (/g/ mostly) since 2008, I'm just not a weaboo...
Kek
Owen Ross
Our existence. One of 7 Billion of People on Earth. Around one of 100 billion stars in Milky Way. One of 10 trillion galaxies in the Universe. Why we are here? youtu.be/MBRqu0YOH14
Tyler Green
fuck nihilism, I can't live like that...
life might be meaningless, but I must find a purpose...
I have to find my Kurisu
John Morales
thank you very much, this post was very encouraging.
Angel Evans
The VN changed my life
Carson Sanders
Let me remind everyone that steins gate has a sequel called steins gate 0 (VN), in case you plebs have not heard
Jace King
>this godawful thread is still up I have no reaction image bad enough for this situation.
I know, but I'm afraid to play it. I think I will an serious hero if I do..
Isaac Thompson
Potential causes of your depression: high sugar diet, lack of sleep, stress, loneliness, genetic predispositions.
An interruption of processes in the brain which are meant to create meaning.
Meaning can be modelled as a meme in these 3 parts: 1. Purpose: Any action you do. 2. Significance: The ascribed importance of that action. 3. Coherence: How well that action meshes with your identity and self.
Once all 3 components jive you have the creation of meaning.
How to strengthen these 3 components?
1. Practice gratitude, count your blessings every few days write down 3 things you are grateful for.
2. Give to others.
3. Explore beauty in art, music, or nature.
4. Set goals and complete them to give yourself a sense of personal power.
5. Adhere to a healthy nutrition and exercise regimen.
Go beyond nihilism. Nihilism is the gateway lined with fire which leads to philosophical knowledge, some are burned walking through. Still your emotions. Meditate on emptiness, death, and life. What causes you to fear life, death, pain, and lack of meaning?
Eli Jenkins
>s;g what's it about?
Grayson Long
>What causes you to fear life, death, pain, and lack of meaning? not him but thinking like this is probably instinctual
Ryder Jackson
You are one pretentious faggot.
Gavin Morgan
Overdose on heroin, there is not a more blissful way to die
Hunter Green
Read S;G 0, it's much happier than the original.
Blake Nelson
If you are not a normie with dozens of close friends and family, have had a gf / bf, simply put, you are fucked in life. Alternatively, you need to be a child prodigy in music, sports or academics, if you aren't a normie type, in order to succeed at life.
Depression is caused by genetic and environmental factors.
So no change in diet, exercise, antidepressants and "just be yourself" advice can cure your depression. Will power alone is not enough because your brain will be actively working against you because depression would have reduced activity in certain parts of your brain and the fact its extremely difficult to break long term bad habits as the neural connections are near rock solid.
Perhaps self-inflicted amnesia or hypnosis may be the best cure to depression, but it does come with many drawbacks like for starters forgetting your entire identity to begin with.
Other than that, either preserve through the shit life throws at you, or just kys.
Isaac Morgan
/sarcasm
Alexander Wright
This is for you. I also posted kurisus in another thread in this board.
Adam Russell
Thanks
Joshua Morris
Thanks
Austin Gomez
In any case you should not let this affect you so badly. Would kurisu like seeing you like this? Of course not you baka. Let her be the inspiration for you to achieve greater things.
