>Used to be me
>Wondering mind all day
>Jumping from idea to idea
>Visual to visual
>Sound to sound
>Always lost in thought
>Endless hours of entertainment
>Decide to practice meditation
>To take attention issues
>Be me now
>Mind is blank
>I can only focus
>No more self-gestating ideas
>No more joy and self entertainment
How can I reverse what I have done to my brain? I miss my wondering mind surprising me with new concepts. It's all dead silent now..? I feel I have stifled my own creativity
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Are you depressed? If so fix that shit first. Otherwise its all about inspiration, you need something that sparks your interests, and dive deep into that shit.
>>Wondering mind all day
>>Jumping from idea to idea
>>Visual to visual
>>Sound to sound
>>Always lost in thought
>>Endless hours of entertainment
i feel personally attacked right now
Oh, I miss it so much. It wasn't only that I had a continuous flow of ideas sparkling in my mind, but the mere thought of following the train was enjoyable by itself, almost euphoric. I remember getting goosebumps just coming up with songs and artwork in my head. Now it's all dead and silent, I only hear the sound of my tinnitus in my head. I hate it so much.
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The only thing that makes me feel a third of what it was like being me 5 years ago, is taking Dexamphetamines....it's so freeing.
I have gone through depression, but I am more stable now. Maybe the low mood damaged my brain? Seems like having a bit more dopamine in my brain helps a lot.
I wonder if slightly raising my dopamine levels with something like Selegiline would help... I have read of reports of Parkison patients suddenly discovering an artistic fire inside them after starting a treatment of Selegiline, L-Dopa and Cabergoline.
I'm doing the exact opposite of you right now.
I'm practicing meditation and mindfulness to control to torrent of ideas that often lead to depressive and extremely negative thoughts.
Let's hope I don't end up regretting it.
>Maybe the low mood damaged my brain?
Don't worry about it being damaged, and i dont know a about drugs either. It seems to me to always be a temporary fix as your body gets more and more used to effects.
I don't know what kind of mood you are in now, but I know if you are struggling to find joy in other activity's too then its difficult to find things that will keep your mind interested too.
Depressionish states of minds can make it hard for some I belive.
That aside, I think its just a habit to get your brain into, kinda like how some programmer says you don't get ideas for what to code before you start doing it regularly, and then you suddenly don't have enough time for all your ideas.
I found thinking of something strictly mechanical helped me. It help my visualization and i spent a year obsessing over an idea(a locking sylinder) so after that i found a lot of other stuff to think of too, and i never find myself bored in my own head.
Meditation does reduce mind wandering
>ncbi.nlm.nih.gov
Now, whether this means you'll be less creative because of it I do not know. Even if it were to reduce creativity by limiting mind wandering, one would have to wager the damaged caused by Meditation, with the damage caused by long term depression/stress.
(Because Meditation does help with depression and anxiety).
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I think it is likely that my issues raise from having suffered from depression/insomnia and anxiety for years, without treatment.
>I don't know what kind of mood you are in now, but I know if you are struggling to find joy in other activity's too then its difficult to find things that will keep your mind interested too.
It's sort of always slightly below average, a bit bad but not overwhelmingly so. I do depend on medication (Modafinil) to be productive, and I have found that the more I work, the better I feel, it even gets to the point where I don't need modafinil to keep going sometimes, of course if I do that for too long, I go back to finding it hard to care about things.
I love being productive and getting obsessed over something, day and night. I think you are right on saying in saying that working on projects by itself, is a great way to get obsessed with them.