Write what's in your mind

Write what's in your mind.

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how much longer are we going to have these thinly veiled "write about your feelings" threads? when are we going to have a blue board general discussion board?

just because you type out "write" doesn't mean it's literature related 2bdesu

This.

I'm a European who is starting to believe the naive glorification of liberty in the US is the only master discourse I can find any reason to live by anymore

it's a containment thread you fag. hide it if you don't want to read it.

Polnareff was clearly the best character.

I'm starting to believe in /pol/.

This is my IRL situation desu I'm quite bored and want to write something autistic af.

I'm currently sitting in a box near a gate and protecting a location, so let's talk about the internet.

The internet is practically a world of its own, it has its own physical laws, antrophologies and human social activity works well in it, and yet, it seems no one really cares about doing the most basic thing and applying some thinking into it.
The internet provides both sadness and happiness, so let's try to fix that, let's make an ethics for it.

The virtues of the internet:
Creativity, Creating, Being nice

Creativity is being up to date enough to know how to create original content(note: all content is original, even about the same ideas, as long as it isn't a copy of a previous work and or doesnt add anything of value to said work)

Creating is the virtue of making stuff.
The internet does not care if you make bad or good content, making any content makes the internet bigger, the size of the audience does not matter, those who make high quality videos for no one are better than those who make low quality garbage for everyone.

Being nice is the ultimate missing part of internet debate.
People take things too much to heart, they rarely participate in honest and thoughtful conversation online, this is hurtful to them, to waste time on false debate instead of doing the right thing and engage in calm debate, debate is, after all, a conversation of allies in a quest for knowledge, not two opponents in the quest of finding who is right.

>implying childhood isn't the zenith of human experience

Same. Before I knew /pol/ existed, it used to baffle me how someone could still be a white nationalist or anti-Semitic or whatever. But now, there is something exciting about seeing the white race dominate over the rest of the races.

>phallic-shaped spacecraft called Erector

dropped

wtf dude... this is some kindergarden humor. hue hue i drew a cock

there is NO way this story is ever going to get arousing in any way

I have been having multiple doubts about God and His Nature, how His Presence influences my life and multiple things.

Fortunately some good friends and a kind user here helped me. I still have lingering feelings of fear about Death and non-existence, but they're no longer consuming me. I know that I can trust God and find salvation on Jesus and I wish everybody else with problems would find salvation on him.

I sometimes feel /pol/ not on racial grounds but on religious grounds.

Yes, YES I have a problem with Muslims you fucking atheist pigs. Muslims deny the divinity of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. Muslims blaspheme against the Son of God. Do you expect me to tolerate that? I'm pretty polite, but I wonder if I should be. Christ is worth burning it all down for. Everything can go into the fire, if it means I can be true to Christ. Christ specifically said not to accept offenses against God, either.

No one ever makes compromises about their stuck in 8th grade metaphysics to another man of the same status. That's what books are for. Worship the book, deny yourself for the book, absorb pure intellect and status. You don't even have to understand or agree with the thing. The only thing that matters is representation, that you special snowbunny feel an inner sense of accomplishment for "understanding" Nietzsche and no one can prove you wrong and therefore it is not only permitted but necessary you speak with assuredness and authority on the matter.

Punchline: Not to Socrates or your professor but to fellow retards.

I would, but since you asked I feel too distracted by the pressure to do anything. I'm sitting here, looking at the blinking cursor. It's taunting me. It's a reminder that everyone else is free to run with their ideas while I'm distracted, focused on your words. "Write what's in your mind, write what's in your mind." The words of an imagined person play like a voice recorder in my mind. It's on repeat. I try to focus, but the harder I try the louder the voice gets. I've done this countless times. I was 5 years old the first time someone told me to do something. That's when I learned this little dance of try and fail. Then I turned 6 and 7 and so on to today. Everyday of the chain I danced a little and learned how to fail a little more. I fail and failed and failed. I couldn't focus when they asked me to but I kept training. The Little Engine that Could really sunk in deep. So I set my mind to suicide and I did it.

Damn, the power of belief is a hell of a force.

That feel when you'll never be a student in wacky Dave's English 102 - Literary Analysis class.

god is love bro. frfr

Thank you for the honest words, user. I will go kill myself now.

>tfw Veeky Forums will never be an internet hub of intelligent people sharing ideas about literature because plebs like to ruin everything

I JUST WANT TO LIVE IN A PERFECT WORLD

Sometimes the utter degeneracy in my life gives me literal nausea.

There are way too many trap threads up on other boards, which disgusts me because they're awful in real life.

About 40% of trans people have AIDs, they're the sluttiest people imaginable. I tried getting a trans girlfriend, and it was a huge mistake. She started topping me, which was really painful because her dick was bigger than mine, and tried to convince me to use HRT so I could "become cute like her". Eventually she started sneaking testosterone blockers into my food, which I didn't learn about for like eight months, and when I couldn't get hard she would always top me. When I started growing breasts I had an argument with her and we broke up, a couple months later I realized she had given me AIDs from fucking me so often.

Believe me, never do it. I'm impotent now and have resigned myself to being a gay bottom.

I gave up on pornography but there's no way I can stop masturbating altogether.

Why does this fucking thread keep existing? It's almost retarded like kpop generals on /mu/

I get your point but there's no way this is real.

death

>tfw no Jewish gf

youtu.be/UKdZU9Db6fk?t=1327

Who is he apologizing to and what for?

I just can't stop thinking about fucking, I have already masturbated 3 times today. I swear to God I don't even look at porn. Being a undesirable virgin is killing me.

“Then it would be fitting, Glaucon, to set this study down in law and to persuade those who are going to participate in the greatest things in the city to go to calculation and to take it up, not after the fashion of private men, but to stay with it until they come to the contemplation of the nature of numbers with intellection itself, not practicing it for the sake of buying and selling like merchants or tradesmen, but for war and for ease of turning the soul itself around from becoming to truth and being.”
“What you say is very fine,” he said.
“And further,” I said, “now that the study of calculation has been mentioned, I recognize how subtle it is and how in many ways it is useful to us for what we want, if a man practices it for the sake of coming to know and not for trade.”

Plato on the Jews.

People will believe anything if they spend all their time reading propaganda for it.

Everything is propaganda.

Agreed. The only difference is between agitprop and mellowprop. Also, malaprop.

I didn't say it wasn't. You just control the sort of propaganda you read. You just have to recognize that if you spend time on Veeky Forums you're going to move in that direction generally, regardless of the quality of the arguments or politics of it all. It's what happens when you get exposed to a mindset over and over again.

May the Love of God be with every one of you.

Thanks user, you too!

Synapses, cerebellum, corpus callosum, grey matter, white matter, hippocampus.

But that's not inside your mind cheeky cunt... unless you're a neurologist

youtube.com/watch?v=D7ha9-1CbQ8

Eh, good point. Mind isn't synonymous with brain.

Blog post incoming, I usually hate these things but it's been a problem I've had for years now and I'm tired of being Pagliacci, so I'm just gonna get this off my chest.

In high school, people always told me I was really funny. This validation felt nice, feels nice, but only makes the reality of the situation more painful. Nobody seems to want to be my friend.

People always loved me at school, and laughed at everything I said. But the minute I left, every day, nobody ever invited me to anything. Nobody ever called me, texted me, nothing. I thought maybe people assumed I had friends because "of course he does, he's so funny!" so after graduating, I started taking the initiative.

I'd text them, ask them to hang out, or send them something funny. And they'd reply, or we'd get lunch, or they'd laugh at what I sent. But it never went anywhere. They'd stop replying, even if I had asked a question. If we met up, we'd leave with a respective "We should do this again sometime!" and I'd never hear from them again. Everything always went one way.

I kept telling myself that they're busy, and I just need to be persistent with them. But at what point does radio silence just mean "Leave me alone"?

I can't fucking figure out what's wrong with me. Like, if we're having interesting conversations and laughing whenever we're together, why do 100% of people never try to initiate anything with me. I just want to turn on my phone and see a message that isn't a reply for once, just a simple fucking "What are you up to?"

I don't know why I'm posting this on Veeky Forums, I feel like such a fucking tool for complaining about this, but the loneliness is really getting to me and I'm honestly getting more and more paranoid every day.

same man, hard to meet nice jewish qts in the South

how old are you?

Hang in there m8. Look for people in the same situation as you - you might be surprised to find that you don't feel like inviting them to anything, not for any particular reason, but because the thought never crossed your mind. Give them a shot and you might be surprised. I think it really comes down to people being far too susceptible to making deep ruts and never leaving them, inviting the same people to do the same sort of things over and over.

This has been my mindset when I'm thinking clearly, but depression can warp your view of things. Normally I combat it with logic, but I can't give it an answer to this one so it uses it against me a lot.

It's been almost a full year since graduation, and when none of my friends attend my college and I can only see them when I go home for a break it gets hard.

I think I'm just fucked up right now because I'm supposed to be seeing them right now, I was going to drive home today but my car keeps overheating so I'm stuck here till the auto shops open again on Monday. If I end up stuck here alone for all of spring break I don't know what the fuck I'm going to do.

19, finishing up Freshman year, why? Is this just a petty teenager problem?

I'm going to be a groomsman for my cousin's wedding.

I also eventually lost contact with most people that I cared about when I was 16-18 years old, I'm 22 right now. What you've got to do is build meaningful relationships. Watch which people worry about you and in which ways.

Instead of trying to keep a relationship with everyone just center around 3-4, max 5 people. If possible build a group of people that like to be friends with each other. Watch with which people you can have meaningful relationships instead of being their laughingstock.

You also need to keep trying multiple times, if someone's not interested you will simply be ignored.

I've been trying, after graduating I thought of the 3-4 people who I actually connected with on some deeper level, people who opened up to me and vice versa. These are the people I've been meeting up with and then getting ghosted by.

I know most of the people I knew in high school aren't going to mean much to me in a few years, just like people I meet in college wont in as many more. My problem is that I keep getting the same treatment from everyone, whether it be new people I'm trying to become friends with or people I'm close with and trying not to lose track of.

I can't tell if I'm making any progress or not, it feels like I'm hitting my head on a wall hoping a door will appear.

Come to Florida

Don't sweat it, nobody will pay attention to you unless you're the best man.

I want to die.

"Holy Motors" is insulting. The metaphors for the message are blatant. Either the filmmakers think the audience is too stupid to understand subtle references, or this is ironic. In that case: Ironic garbage is still garbage.
1/10

What's wrong mane

ED

>Is this just a petty teenager problem?
Maybe a little. I don't know, I remember being in a similar situation to you when I was in highschool and going into my first semesters at university.

Unironically, alcohol managed to solve a lot of my problems, at least as far as my social hangups went.

But I suppose that doesn't help if you live in a country were It's illegal to drink before 21.

>I was going to drive home today
Why don't you try making friends in college instead of relying on your highschool buddies. For what it's worth I managed to make a lot of friends in uni, but most of the better quality ones were after my first year. Sorts out the quality form the chaff.

>I don't know why I'm posting this on Veeky Forums, I feel like such a fucking tool for complaining about this, but the loneliness is really getting to me and I'm honestly getting more and more paranoid every day.
It's a horrible way to feel user.

Sildefanil?

Not really a solution desu.

Have you tried therapy

Never heard about that kind of therapy.

In the country of my residence, military service is mandatory for males above the age of eighteen.

Going through basic military training, the basic dogma pushed was "to push one's limits and gain leadership skills.

High energy routines were carried out on a day to day basis, building peer motivation and mutual support.

This environment based on the cultivation of oneself did not last for long however.

Completing basic military training, despite the high energy and effort expended during its course, I did not make it to command school, instead, I was posted to a relatively unknown camp. Left to rot.

In consolation, I believed that the camp would not have a strenuous lifestyle planned for me. I was right. Worse things awaited me.

The first few months passed without fuss. Minor oddities were noticed among my peers but written off by my mind as nothing worth considering.

Then, as rough times approached, their regular selves peeled off, to reveal an old enemy. Only this time, it was bigger and stronger. Furthermore, it wasn't something escapable.

Gone were the days where I could avoid social politics by simply disengaging from the crowd. Being in camp meant that hiding or disappearance equated to getting sent to the detention barracks. In other words, military prison.

In camp, I had the naive notion that without the presence of females, we would not have quarrels over trivial, petty things like emotions and gossip. The feminisation of society decided otherwise.

Boredom and annoyances had festered in their hearts, fermenting to become something positively dangerous. I knew that holding young menin their prime in camps for two years had an adverse effect on their mental state. I simply didn't expect it to be that bad, or the psyche of this generation's male to be so weak.

Here, in this military complex located in nowhereville, the unthinkable had happened. Men with zero discipline became the emotional equivalents of women. The camp housed drama which had or that would make the drama of a Shakespearean tragedy look like juvenile.

Hate. Theft. Manipulation. It was a masterpiece of treachery and insanity.

I have slightly over a year left in this camp. Again, I shall try to render myself invisible. I will survive.

I'm about to get busted for drugs and thrown out of school

Dealing?

Nah got tested before and failed. This weekend I got really drunk and smoked some again, huge mistake. Feeling the impending doom, bet they will test me again this week.

undderage b&

what's up with having music constantly in your head?
Is it ocd? Or maybe i'm dumb or something.

Ecksde

This is top-notch propaganda.
youtube.com/watch?v=lDUwXFvTJfA

I'm an awful pseud, a bad, lazy and unattentive reader but I often feel a deep connection to the author and the writing
The same thing is true for the world in general
It feels like I'm a liminal observer, but it does feel that way because I pushed myself into that position for years due to a misled belief that it's "superior" to a normal life

Also about to have a gf who loves me so reality is crashing down on me hard and I'm having to re-evaluate a lot

i also always have music in my head, but by choice. if its involuntary its a neurological disorder, but without any serious implications - it doesnt lead to anything.
if im not thinking about something, or playing music in my head, or rather, if im not focusing on something, my personality disorder or what you would call it kicks in, where i hear voices. it could lead to schizophrenia, but im fine with it for now.

The female gaze changes everything, doesn't it?

Start working out

Yeah, more than I would have ever expected, it pierces through me, I totally fall apart
I feel so fucking weak and everything that I valued about my loneliness and isolation is fading into the background
help me mane, I love her

Do you have your shit together?

No, I'm still depressed and lazy, prone to isolating myself, doing bad at Uni
But I seem to have learned how to make a connection to a human being, I'm honest and I'm also quite attractive physically it seems
She's beautiful, ambitious and pretty robus, so I feel like it's a recipe for disaster anyways
Then again, I've become way to good at doubting

If you don't yourself out, she will 100% leave you. Maybe that means having a job or some other accomplishment, but if you are not providing her with any kind of safety, emotional or otherwise, she won't be happy.

You nigga need Jesus. No, seriously. Christianism can fix most of your problems if you take it at heart.

FUCK

WHEN YOU ARE LIVING IN A FOREIGN COUNTRY AND YOU CANT FUCKING HELP BUT REACTIVATE YOUR OLD FACEBOOK AND SEE THAT THE OLD LIFE IS ALL FUCKING STILL THERE, THAT EVERYONE IS OBSESSED WITH FUCKING PRIVILEGE, AND I AM NOT A FUCKING PEDE OR ANYTHING BUT I CANNOT HELP BUT QUESTION WHETHER THEY ARE ALL IN A CULT FOR FULLY TALKING ABOUT PRIVILEGE AND LATINX AND LITERALLY NEARLY NOTHING ELSE, HOW IMPORTANT IT IS THAT WE DONT TALK ABOUT TRAVEL AS SOMETHING EVERYONE CAN DO BECAUSE SOME PEOPLE CANT AFFORD IT OR THEIR BODIES DONT LET THEM, WHAT I MEAN IS I WANT TO KNOW WHO IS RIGHT, ME A WHITE MALE FUCKING INTROVERTED AND INTROSPECTIVE AND SEEING THE WHOLE WORLD HINGING ON HOW MUCH PLEASURE I ALLOW MYSELF FOR THAT DAY, HOW IF I USE HEADPHONES ON THE SUBWAY I WILL FEEL GOOD AND MORE ALIVE IN A WAY, I WILL BE OKAY WITH BEING ALIVE AND SUFFERING, AND IF I DONT USE HEADPHONES I WILL SIT THERE SQUIRMING INSIDE BUT WHAT USE IS THE SQUIRMING OH YEAH IT INDUCED ECERY GOOD THING EVER, AND WHATI MEAN IS SHOULS I BE PUSHING ON THE WALLS OF LIFE AT THIS POINT SINCE NOW IT MEANS TAKING SRUFA OFF OF THE SILK ROAD WEBSITE AND SPENDING MOAT OF MY TIME ON ELECTRONICS, WHY COULDNT PUAHING THE LIMITS BE DRINKING ALCOHOL CONSTANTLY LIKE IT USED TO BE, AND SHOULD I QUIT MY WRITERS GROUP SINCE THEY DONT ENCOURAGE MY WRITING BUT JUST THINK ITS FUCKING WEIRD, AND OBVIOUSLY MY BRAIN IS FUCKING AWFUL WHEN EVEN FUCKING SLASH LIT SLASH WONT LIKE MY RAMBLE AND IM BEING SELF AWARE IN THE HOPES OF COMPLIMENTS LUKE DFW WHO MIGHT EVEN BE A FALSE GOD BUT NO HE IS REAL LIKE KANYES MUSIC AND MAYBE THATS NOT REAL LIKE SHE WASNT AND I NEED TO REDACT HER NAME AND MY CITY NAME AND MY COUNTRY NAME BECAUSE I DONT WANT ANYONE I KNOW SEEING THIS AND KNOWING ITS ME, FUCKING FAGGOTS ALL OF THEM INCLUDING ME OF COURSE, I AM SORRY THIS POST HAS NO VALUE I JUST DONT KNOW WHO IS RIGHT OR WRITE OR WHATEVER, ME OR THE PEOPLE WJO BELIEVE THAT PEOPLE WHO ARE UNPRIVILEGED ARE SUFFERING AND WE NEED TO FOCUS ON THEM. I JUST NEED TO GO TO BOARD GAME NIGHTS MORE AND ULTIMATELY JUST SHOOT MYSELF IN THE HEAD AS SOON AS ITS REASONABLE, WHICH IT WILL NEVER BE, IN WHICH CASE I BETTER FUCKING DO SOMETHING WITH THIS LIFE, SHOULDNT I, SAYS THE GUY WHO IS NOT FAMOUS FOR LEADING PROTESTS, AT LEAST NOT ENOUGH TO BE RECOGNIZED FOR IT, FUCKING POSER I AN REFUSING TO APPROACH BEAUTIFUL GIRLS WJO DESERVE TO HAVE THEIR DICKS SUCKED LIKE LEMONADE BY DYING ELEPHANTS. ON ACID.

take measure to get motivated like working out, quitting vidya, going to sleep at a regular time/waking up at the same time, etc. you wouldn't believe what miracles shit like adhering to your circadian rhythm does. form HABITS like meditation and the likes, as long as they're positive habits. after they become habits, no more effort is required to get them done. having the feeling that your life has some structure kicks the lazy out of you.

and dont be afraid to fall in love. you might get burned, but you might not. being in love gives you a good dose of motivation.

you dont need to change yourself, but you should really determine if you ENJOY spending time alone, or if you just persuaded yourself that you do. either way, you'll need to adapt to your gfs needs, somewhat.

I've come to this conclusion as well, as far as the emotional part goes, I listen to her a lot and we talk about our deepest feelings in a way that's more honest than I could have ever imagined it being
But she has just come out of long-term relationship (in fact, her bf still doesn't really know that it's over between them) and she quite clearly has a different expectation of it all than me, I barely know what I'm doing. She worships me though and my appreciation for art too
Oh yeah, she plays the Piano icnredibly well
In all honesty, she's almost perfect


I have a lot of respect for Christian teachings but I'm not really religious in the spiritual sense

I'm trying, have been going to the gym for a while too, but I had removed myself so far from everything normal and real that I have to learn it all again, even just communicating my thoughts to someone else honestly

thanks for your help anons

i've been there, my friend, i still am with one foot. i found it helped when i decided i dont give a fuck about anything but my ambitions. once that anchored itself into my being, i became more relaxed with people. i was anxious at first, but each time i conversed it became easier. you should join some sort of workshop about an interest you have, where you would engage in team building games and conversation. that helped me quite a bit.

I do but that only fills like an hour of my freetime.

That's really not much, what kind of routine are you doing?

Come to Pikesville, Maryland. It's an area of Baltimore that's completely packed with Jews.

You're going to laugh at me, but pic related. I'm too anxious and broke to go to the gym and I don't care about looking muscular anyway, I just to like to make my body sweat. Besides, this only makes more horny.

Not going to laugh at you at all, bodyweight training is okay if you put enough effort into it, although if you're looking to develop your body equally all over it's not the best thing

LOL

I know. But honestly, I have worse problems.

>Any part of Maryland not the Eastern shore
>South

It's true there are many Jewesses around Baltimore, but all the wifeable ones are Orthodox and they would send the Shomrim after a goy trying to get with their women

"Conservative" and reform jewesses are mostly spoiled coalburners

I've been practicing Lent this year as a way to get my life together. I got fired last April for being a fuck-up and now the only gainful employment I've been able to find is as an Uber driver.

The stress from all this ruined my relationship. I broke up with her on Valentine's Day before she revealed to me she knew it wouldn't last back in September but didn't want to leave me. Her parents, who live far away, never thought I was good enough for her and hounded her to dump me. She told them she broke up with me back in November. It was fun to piece together all her odd behavior since that time.

The act of giving up all your self-identified "vices" brings about a different feeling than I would have expected. This past week I've mostly felt off as my experiences this week don't feel normal or genuine, like I'm wearing another man's life.

>there are 45 posters in this thread

give it up fags no-one cares how your day is going

Who hurt you, user?

No offense but you sound like a numale who can't handle a woman, I hope you're genuinely sorting yourself out.

None taken. You sound like bitter neckbeard who's never seen a vagina. You're at least half right though

I'm at a pretty big party school, so the alcohol thing wouldn't be a problem except I've got some hangups from childhood about drinking/ being around intoxicated people.

>Why don't you try making friends in college

I guess I forgot to explain this part, I have been trying to make new friends here, but I've been getting the same treatment that I did in high school. I'm usually able to get out of my own head and look at things as they probably are, and when I do I feel like I just need to keep trying with them, but when you keep putting so much in and keep getting nothing back it starts to eat at you.

>It's a horrible way to feel user
Thanks, it feels nice to know my frustrations are valid and I'm not wasting my time thinking about this.

>user

What did he mean by this?

I care

What was her name?

Why aren't you having and raising kids?

There's a lot a pain out there, user. It's normal to feel resentment. To lock your deeper feelings up in a fort and sling rocks at the lonely people looking for genuine connection. It's probably better to open up about your own troubles and grow as a person. Nobody trolls a slow4chan board on a beautiful Sunday afternoon if their life is going right. Tell me your problems, user. I really care.

I'm too anxious to read because I have an important trip tomorrow.