Should i?

>letting your education in charge of a woman
Come on man, this is basic shit. I mean, I would not blame your woman for being an asshole because I get the feeling that your dad cheated on her but come on man. Why would you stay with your mom? Tell me, when was the last time a single mother raised a son that did not end up ass raped in jail?

Seriously, go on. Look up the statistics. Women cannot raise children without turning them into complete failures and that is exactly what you became.

You're better off posting on /adv/ desu.
I can relate to your story of having to give up on trying to become a professional scientist but for different reasons. I don't know how much it will help but you can always learn science as a hobby.
Another thing to consider is that the research job itself isn't as dreamy as you might think it is. Try to speak to scientists IRL in your country before you decide on giving up everything or go for broke for the sake of your aspirations. Your perspective on the job might change now that you're an adult.

>hey Veeky Forums, I'm insecure and shit
Man up.

i knew it, even as a child, i knew that i would be better with my Dad, but my sister was/is trash, she would ve let my mother die, i couldnt do that, only stayed with her because no one else would, i got the worst part of the cake, didnt asked for it, but still eated it all, after all, she was my mother. but what you say is 100% true user, ill give you that

any tips? non-ironic question, i lived more than half of my life only with girls (ugly ones) and no friends.

Well, I can't really blame you too hard for wanting to stay with a charity case. But the moment she wanted to impede you from keeping a good relationship with your dad is the moment you should have realized that your relationship with your mom was toxic.

I guess it is moments like this that make me appreciate that as a kid I never had to make a big decision like this. I have "married parents" privilege as my parents are not divorced, whcih is fun because I know my dad has cheated on my mom like hundreds of times and has done even worse shit like abuse but they got that christcuck morality that if they divorce they are going to hell so they are still together.

I'm an atheist but you know, I guess my advice to kids who may have parents about to get divorced is: Read your parents a bible so they get that christcuck morality and just stay together.

Every one has said to me that i should totally go for it, but im tired of being treated as a genius when im only logic, because i feel im pretty stupid, cant even Calc II

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>any tips?
Yes, be a man. You're not the first person to make mistakes, just get back on your feet and work to get what you want.

not saying it is friend, just wanted opinions from the only board that i like in Veeky Forums maybe someone had a similiar experience, thats what i thought.

You are 21, you have internet. There are endless sources of information in the internet. There are even more unsolved problems. You are here bitching for comforting.

Go study lazy ass prick.

Mistakes? my only mistake was not letting my mom die if that can be a mistake.

i was doing everything the right way, but life fucked up everything around me, i want to start again, but dont know where is the 0 point, what should i learn first, like i know pretty much nothing past HS because i couldnt go to uni.

i dont get why you seem to feel that im a faggot who cant even breathe without crying about it user, im not like that, if things get hard, i need to harden up too, i get that, but i feel like im wasting my life, and contrary to most people not on purpose.

but i do that, i just wanted to see if someone had to go through this and now recovered from his brainlet state, i get that im stupid from posting it here when ALL Veeky Forums is the anti-hugs zone, but i really. really like Veeky Forums

> abandoning thirdworld shithole
> can go anywhere in the world
> moves to the US
> expects to get a good education
> expects to get a good job

You could have chosen almost any country and the fucking US is what you chose. I thought you were leaving the third world, not going deeper into it.

>it is worth a shot to follow a childs dream Veeky Forums?
LITERALLY THE ONLY LINE YOU NEEDED!

And, assuming you can get marginally financially stable, yes, yes it is.

it's not the geniuses that succeed it's the people who try hard m8

if you love it you'll be successful

yawn

did OP stop being a faggot yet?

You're still incredibly young. And remember, it's not about making a contribution, it's just about pursuing what makes you happy. Just study what you like to study, think about what you like to think about, and if you have ideas, write them down and then research them. If they're wrong, you've learned something, if they're not, talk to people about it until you find out you're either wrong or right, and you'll still learn something. Just have fun with it. Jobs suck, we all know, but it's a privilege to have a passion, so if you have time now, throw yourself at it.

I feel like you sort of, deciding whether or not to give up what I've always wanted to do and what I've always assumed I would do since I was young. But I might give up because I'm too much of a brainlet. You though might give up because you've been through a lot of shit. My life has always been comfy as fuck and I'm STILL incapable. Just know that whatever you end up doing it will be better than a lot of people in the first world. We don't have opportunity for hardship as much as the third world does obviously; even if you can't be a scientist you're still a more proper human in a lot of respects for going though adversity