Al/ck - Alcoholism General

Cheers lad, same to you when the time comes
Nah, used to live with a couple of other guys as none of us could afford our own place at the time.

Get to work Luke. I need you to pay your share of bills.

I wish I could be a social drinker but that would mean having a social life

You obviously already see the pitfalls ahead, now all you need to do is not do it.

Only 24 more days left of sobriety. I'm stocking a minibar on October 1 to ease back into drinking.

I bet they knew.

Remember it will go to shit quite fast user

Enjoy

Probably, but now I don't need to worry about it

I am going to die soon.
And I welcome it.

I have been drinking every day since August of 2015. It started with a few tall boys a night. Now I have to drink hard liquor to feel anything. I drink about a fifth a day.

This binging behavior was interrupted briefly in January of this year by an affection for DXM instead. I would do ~1000 mg of DXM every day for about a month, and that seemed to brim sobriety out of me. I stayed sober after that until around June, when my old habits returned.

Currently drinking a $20.00 bottle of riesling at 1:00 p.m.

I'm at the point now where if I don't drink, I have violent diarrhea, shakes, light headedness, and confusion.

I want this madness to stop, but I desperately do not want to go to rehab because 1) I do not believe in a higher power, therefor the 12-step program is ineffective for me and 2) I do not believe the current mental health system of locking up AA/NA and mentally unwell together is an appropriate setting for recovery.

It is a very terrible feeling to wake up the next day and not remember the previous night's activities. Usually I text my significant other and ask if they are mad at me for anything I have done, and because he is a sweet soul, he tells me he is not. He is really too good for me.