Open Word doc

>open Word doc
>write a concise, interesting, entertaining, intelligent and witty opening sentence
>feel confident in my ability to keep landing intellectual punches against the reader until they are forced to admit my intelligence etc etc
>think of the billions of people swarming the planet
>think of how many people I meet are retarded or operating at a basic ideologically-driven meme-centric level
>think of the psychological reasons why I'm even writing (culturally-inculcated desire for "fame", pressure to prove worth and be validated, desire to find an easier means of earning money)
>think of the generations upon generations of people who have toiled like animals and died in utter obscurity
>think of how intensely repulsed I am by mainstream culture and society itself
>think of how futile gesture is in the bigger picture
>delete the Word doc
>drink Coca Cola and edge for several hours while playing Rome: Total War with cheats for unlimited money

Anybody here relate to my predicament? Is the true nature of genius in fact the reluctance to express and seek external acknowledgement of said genius? It is a perplexing notion, i.e. that the most profound minds among us may in fact be those who say nothing at all.

You're a pussy. You can act like a man and still be "intellectual", despite what hollywood/internet tells you.

lots of really unenlightened smart people and vice versa. but in philosophy, i think it's an interesting idea, particularly in individualist philosophies, the idea that many people may have been led to ideas that in themselves reject communication, or just don't seek it.

The only thing you seem to stroke more than your cock is your ego.

Admit it, you're just afraid of being exposed as a fraud, or at least that you fall short of where you think you are. Being aware that you're doing better than most people is one of the first steps to self-actualization, but those are some extremely low standards that you're talking about. Start doing something, like reading and thinking enough about topics to have an informed opinion about them.

I think of Veeky Forums as the place where I let out my inner autist.
In real life, I'm your regular brotier Chad/Normie. Most people I know don't know this side.

And does writing not make you happy? Do you not get those butterflies in your stomach at the thought of actually reaching someone k your level with your prose? To inspire them, no matter how pointless that may be in the end, if it drives you mam, keep doing it.

>Most people I know don't know this side.

Lol cringe

Hey man, you don't know his side

Sadly, I know that feel
I've always felt like I should "create" something, I really enjoy creative stuff and taking part in it, but I just can't get me to actually do something, what is the point if it isnt going anywhere? Writing is fun, really frustating at time, but fun, but reading seems like a much better use of my time and enjoy it much more, some authors are so amazing, if by some reason I publish something it will just be another brick between people and actual geniuses who are much worth reading than anything my poor excuse of a mind could ever create

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