>tfw you realize morality and god and the concepts of truth or freedom or eternal salvation are just pattern seeking survival mechanisms engraved in your brain's makeup
It was a rigged game from the start. I never had a chance. The universe seems like a cold, incomprehensible vacuum
HOW DO I SEE MEANING
ALL I WANT IS A CALM ABSTRACT LOVE AND ACCEPTING UNDERSTANDING TOWARDS THE UNIVERSE FUCK
how did the Buddha or George Harrison do it
first: are you twelve or just dumb?
take charge of your own life pussy.
dumb
>tfw you went through that phase for years
>tfw you kept having questions like "why do I still care about meaning? why is there something instead of nothing? why would minds and subjective conscious experience emerge and try to comprehend reality and purpose and god if this is all just accidental recombinations of jiggling unconscious matter?"
>tfw everyone told you that those questions were dumb and you should just pound them down into conformity with cold materialism
>tfw started studying german idealism
>tfw realizing most of the smartest people in human history, especially post-enlightenment, have been at least some kind of hopeful deist or pantheist, if not an outright pietist who thought mankind is rationally attaining higher and higher knowledge of itself, morality, nature, and god, and there is a purpose to all this
>tfw all of the curiosities you had, but couldn't develop because no one talks about them anymore, are all eerily well fleshed out and practically universal human spiritual tendencies, like agapē
>tfw reading the transcendentalists and goethe and realizing you were looking at things all upside down, and the cosmos is a babbling brook by a spring bursting of meaning, not a cold harsh dead wasteland
>tfw seeing the threads of meaning waiting to be pulled behind every material process, scientific inquiry, and human cultural or philosophical endeavor
>tfw no longer seeing gray on gray but seeing how much color is trying to birth itself into the world to complete the picture that is life
>are just
Life is just life. Everything is just everything. Something is just what it is.
You've reduced the meaning. You've reduced the purpose to a purpose - nay, just a purpose. Stop cursing yourself and see how free you can actually be, and not just.
>pattern seeking survival mechanisms engraved in your brain's makeup
hahahhahahahahahhahahahahahahahhahaha
First time I've seen Stirner used properly.
isnt that the whole idea of spooks though?
that they are just patterns of survival that aren't capital-T true?
i suspect that a lot of stirner fans dont really understand this and just use him to dismiss ideas they dont like.
i think you might be dumb about this.
You're choosing not to believe in God because you're a degenerate. Enjoy hell faggot