Tfw relapsed again and spent the last few days playing video games instead of reading a single page

>tfw relapsed again and spent the last few days playing video games instead of reading a single page
How do I stop this? I'm so fucking weak.

Find something that you enjoy instead of forcing yourself to read you fucking retard.

I do enjoy what I'm reading but my body enjoys the mindless pleasure of instant gratification vidya more

Heres a plan:

1:Stop playing videogames.
2: Read more

What the fuck are you expecting?

>learn to write code for videogames
>profit???

What's wrong with playing a game once in a while? I think your problem is the fact that you can't balance it out. Try to find the right balance between reading and vidya.

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I've found that lifting and running and exercise in general helps break bad habits.

what game? i spilled soda on my ps4 controller and now it wont turn on/charge. got a bad itch to play bloodborne after reading some lovecraft

Sell your xbox/whatever.

It's for children, dude. Just stop.

Have you tried installing Gentoo? I have to reboot into my Windows partition if I want to play video games, which gives a barrier allowing me to think "do I really want to play this stupid video game right now?"

You could try to combine both.
I was recommended Ready Player One at an Amazon Books. I'm curious, but I'm also worried it'll just be DUDE 80s REFERENCES LMAO: The Novel.

>tfw relapsed and masturbated to tranny porn again

Get rid of your PC

Stop.

All work and no play makes Jack a dull boy

Go away from home and read. Library, cafe, park. Somewhere different where you can't play your games.

It's all about finding a balance. We all have some form of instant gratification that takes way less effort than actual self-improvement. You just have to acknowledge that happiness is a pursuit, not a state of being that can be bought through shit like video games, drugs, and sex. I've noticed it's much harder to avoid mindless pleasure seeking when I don't get enough sleep, nutrition, and/or exercise, so I'd start there if you feel too lazy or unmotivated to read

The worst part is that I'm more attracted to women, but I've had so many poor experiences with romantic relationships in the past that every time I start watching vanilla porn I can only think about how much I hate women. My watching tranny porn is more about refusing to let women have control over me, even through porn

>tfw relapsed into eating junk food again

a-at least i continue to exercise, r-right?

This is why true misogyny is often just latent homosexuality, folks

I believe you are confusing cause and effect here. I am turning into a faggot because I hate women, but my hatred of women stems from the way they have treated me in the past; the cause of my misogyny is unrelated to my sexual preferences.

wait i didnt write this.
ive never found a board that was so like me until lit