I'm depressed what should I read? I like pessimistic literature like Pessoa

I'm depressed what should I read? I like pessimistic literature like Pessoa.

If you read Ligotti's Conspiracy, I assure you you will kill yourself at the end.

I'll take that challenge as a win-win scenario.

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Notes from the Underground (Dostoyevsky).

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"One cringes to hear scientists cooing over the universe or any part thereof like schoolgirls over-heated by their first crush. From the studies of Krafft-Ebbing onward, we know that it is possible to become excited about anything—from shins to shoehorns. But it would be nice if just one of these gushing eggheads would step back and, as a concession to objectivity, speak the truth: THERE IS NOTHING INNATELY IMPRESSIVE ABOUT THE UNIVERSE OR ANYTHING IN IT."

I've been feeling this for awhile. I can't stand when people speak about the majestic beauty of nature. I feel that the only poetry that exists is what we project onto other things but we behave and speak about these things as if they are evident in the things themselves.

Yeah I know about that shit and how I'm actually retarded for being depressed. I hate it.

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>I'm depressed what should I read?

A suicide tutorial.

God that writing is awful

Yeah especially "gushing eggheads" and the caps but I understand and empathize with the sentiment.

How about some Thomas Bernhard for cathartic depression

Or some Laszlo Krasznahorkai for some "last big push" depression

I read The Loser by Bernhard recently, and I loved it. Which one of his books should I read next?

Schopenhauer
Beckett
Cioran

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u are addicted to the drug of despair.

nothing feeds that more than the works of Kafka.

but it is better to be free than to be a slave, and addiction is a master unto itself.

read Mere Christianity

I'm not addicted to anything

no, I think you like the feeling of despair. you figure you're gonna be sad anyway, so you may as well embroider the edges of your melancholy or something. why else would you like pessoa? It's the same ideal of the dreamy but ultimately defeated lost soul...

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Go see a therapist OP

I hear anti depressants don't work and could leave me worse off. I'm scared.

I think I have been mentally unstable for 5 years but I will never go to a therapist because of the whole antidepressant thing. The idea of meddling with my brain is not only scary but also feels like cheating. I'm fine being depressed, if being depressed is my natural state.

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which Laszlo work would you recommend for this "last big push" feeling?

Not that user but 'War & War'. Bad place to start with him if you're new to his work though.

Where would you recommend to start?

'Melancholy of Resistance' or 'Seiobo There Below'.

The former definitely has more of that "last big push" thing if that is still an important consideration for you.

Make sure you read everything by him regardless. He is that good.

Well The Loser is part of his "arts" trilogy so you might as well read Woodcutters or Old Masters next.
Melancholy of Resistance or Seiobo There Below

Didn't see this post before I posted - exactly my thoughts on Laszlo.

user, I've only read the two listed. Would you rec War & War before Satantango?

It's easy to argue that there is no "beauty" of the universe if you previously deny the concept of "beauty".

>but it is better to be free than to be a slave
>advocates christianity

fallada - "the drinker", "nightmare in berlin".. the drinker is darker but nightmare is more polished.
the books mentioned so far by thomas bernhard have some satiric humour, but "concrete" & "extinction" are total depression.

Pessoa isn't depressed. You read him wrong.

That book's amazing from an introvert's point of view. I absolutely loved it.

I didn't get depressed vibes as much as conflicted but yeah, I think it got me through some rough times.

Not that guy, but no. Satantango before War & War

I never said he was, however, it's highly probable.

I got thrown into a psych ward for threatening suicide and fighting police on 8mg xanax, I will never see any mental health professional other than a psychologist to get my adderall. Once you've been committed they can recommitt you like nothing. Plus really not my style to talk to someone like that, I really like dealing with shit on my own.

how in the fuck were you able to fight anyone on 10 mg of xanax let alone some fucking faggots in blue

>he doesn't know about his use of heteronyms

Nah

You should check Pessoa's heteronym Alvaro de Campos

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Thanks for enlightening me! How could I be such a fool!

>implying you weren't

heh...

>no houellebecq mentioned