Be me

>be me
>25 years old
>suddenly care much less about writing
>suddenly feel an INTENSE desire to marry and have kids

What the fuck is happening Veeky Forums? Am I being spooked? How do I cleanse myself of these ideological impurities?

Read him

I've read Schopenhauer. I've read a ton of of pessimists, anti-natalists etc and I consider myself one of them. But I recently was encouraged to quit work for a while and focus on my writing but my first reaction was to think "my Oneitis wouldn't marry me if I did that". It's retarded I know, but I feel like I've been tamed and ideologically overwhelmed to the point where I just want to be a weary guy who works long hours for his wife and family and wears jeans and loose shirts and harbours private convictions as to the inevitability of poverty for the majority of the proletariat. What the FUCK is happening? I want a comfy house and a cute gentle wife and children who laugh and encourage the finer aspects of my character.

The mood will pass, sir.

Sounds like biological clock is taking command from here on now. Enjoy the ride kiddo.

Detach thyself from worldly desires.

I'm trying, really. But my mind, my thoughts, my imagination is being flooded with these vignettes and short scenes wherein I am swinging my qt daughter around in circles in a meadow, wherein my wife and I are visiting my hometown and walking slowly at night with big smiles on our faces while passing my first school, wherein we are lying in bed whispering and listening to the thunder etc. It's harrowing. Must I go and live like a monk and literally deny myself material to base these kind of daydreams on?

get married but dont have kids until youre an established writer. If you never become an established writer then whatever, now you can have kids.

Honestly I do not understand why you feel so troubled over it. You can go ahead and have a family if you want to. There is literally nothing wrong with acting upon your desires as long as you are aware of them and have thought it through. If you're incapable of detaching yourself from these feelings without completely letting go of the material world, but are not willing to do so, then why don't you just go ahead? You could accommodate your worldview to your feelings and not the other way around.

The people that didn't pass down genes that caused a compulsion to have kids all had their lines die off.