Who hurt you user?

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myself, in order to determine whether or not i still feel

humanity, particularly women

Nick Land and his AI bots.

No one yet, but I hope they try. Names and faces.

The global zionist conspiracy to undermine western civilization and destroy the white race under the heel of a single world superstate populated by racial mongols is the reason I can't find a girlfriend. If we lived in a culturally homogenous society where women weren't allowed to have opinions or speak out against me, then I would function better.

>inb4 ex-GF

Found true, genuine love with her. I mean transcendental enlightenment level stuff. The only reason I feared death was because it would take me away from her. We couldn't wait to live and grow old together.

Then she left me. I was clinically depressed for a year. The pain of depression is indescribable. It's like a blackness that attaches itself to your heart and sucks any drop of joy or colour or fulfillment out of every single moment. I hated waking up. A true walking nightmare -- hell on Earth. I still get panic attacks today.

But the entire experience was the transition into the next phase of my life. I'm wiser now, stronger. In that sense I'm grateful for it. But I still can't deny that I hate her for what she did to me; she will never understand. Yet at the same time I am profoundly grateful to her for what she showed me: true love, for maybe the only time in my life. It's funny hating and loving someone at the same time.

>getting this attached to a literal woman


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Same thing happened to me, lad. I have never hated somebody as much as my ex when I found out she cheated on me despite all we had been through. We were together for years and went through many hard times.

It wounded me on a deep level and made me into a misanthropist. It was unreal to me that any person could do what she did to me, because I would never dream of doing that to anybody I care about. I really have not recovered since. I just feel like I am the only genuine person in the world and everybody else is fake and unable to truly care for others. My mum is, of course, excluded.

May I ask how long ago this happened to you?

No 1 can hurt u but u :)