Write what's on your mind

Write what's on your mind.

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I don't even feel like reading anything, I feel too stupid. Everything that a retard can't achieve requires some level of intelligence, and everything else is menial and pointless. On one hand, you have the world of climbing proverbial walls, on the other hand you have crushing emptiness and labor. All the while, I'm nothing but a creepy awkward loser. My negativity seems to always drive people away, except for people who are just as toxic as myself. It's like this balancing act, between being an awkward, bitter, socially rejected loser; and on the other hand maintaining some sort of image that seems acceptable in other people's eyes. On every front, there's something that requires you to climb a proverbial wall, because you can't just be a retard if you want to achieve anything in life.

Perhaps if I was mentally retarded, people would have more sympathy, because some people who don't care about the smell see that a retard is utterly inoffensive. But I am worse than a retard. I forget who it was that said the more intelligent someone is, the less successful they are as a species. So what does that make me? I realize that some people who seem to just be empty headed, vacuous hoes seem to coast by in life, without any sort of notion of what it means to be conscious of their own thoughts. Then there's me. All I have to do is think, and I've already committed the cardinal sin of exercising my thoughts; my naturally inferior thoughts which are by nature, lower on the dominance hierarchy. I am set up to fail by nature, if it was easy for me as it is for some people, who are by nature superior, then I would have never had to deal with these struggles.

I feel like I have so much potential to do great things, but I think the reality is I am a delusional, complacent person who is lazy. I expect everything to fall into my lap without any hard work.

like a flagert wallowander perching on a penny post kissing towards the tender sky, all the while the live long day reaches out to contort its hot bod. The sun shines in the shade standing there installing the cherry tree, sweat dripping from his brow; thinking of the moon light on the sweet summer terrace and the scintillation of a brief glance at her negligee, getting in to the mind of a tree chopper, or what is not worth it for some warm cherry pie

This image was just recently used, you fucking faggot. Try switching it up for a change.

My bitch of a therapist is out of town for the second week this summer. I fucking hate her. She never says anything she stares at me with dumb expression on her face like she is about to say something. Its so goddamn annoying. I have even stopped her and asked "what it is you are thinking" a reversal of roles or w/e just to see if that would get her to talk, she never responds. But on some level she is the only one who will talk to me besides my dad, and some lady who helps me out. It fucking sucks being mentally ill. I cannot stand it. The paranoia, the anxiety, the depression. The depression is not so bad its the goddamn boringness of all of this. Nothing fucking excites me. I am bored with everything. I hardly ever read, spare a few poems here and there. I hardly ever watch tv, I hardly ever go outside. Movies nowadays just seem like shit. I keep thinking of a note Hunter S. Thompson wrote before his suicide. "No more fun, no more swimming" I keep thinking that over and over, no more fun, no more swimming. I can't take it. I want to unlock my coinbase account and buy some drugs to OD on. I am tired man.

I just fucking hate this world. And the human worms feasting on its carcass. My whole life is just cold, bitter hatred. And I always wanted to die violently. This is the time of vengeance and no life is worth saving. And I will put in the grave as many as I can. It's time for me to kill. And it's time for me to die. My genocide crusade begins here.

you pathetic senpai

I'm absolutely fine! Everything is going great, my family loves me I have good friends! I'm starting school and my futures pretty bright! I have something I'm good at, something I love to do! It all really bothers the hell out of me! Honest to god, I wish I didn't need any of it! It's agony, but shame on me for not smiling!

I'll use an anime image next thread. Name your favorite anime and I'll pick the answer I like the most.

A-a-are you me?

Can you see another therapst? You seem like you hate her, but in your first sentence are you annoyed that she is out of town? or thankful?

want to edit my novel, for something to do? its crazy

Dragonball master race. No DBZ faggotry

Not judging, but how is this thread Veeky Forums-related? Is it just because Veeky Forums is so unmoderated that you can discuss whatever you want as long as you say it in a vaguely philosophical way?

WRITE whats on your mind.

In literature, writing is kind of a big deal. Whats on ones mind is kind of a big deal.

I do not know if Veeky Forums is supposed to only be about famously published books, or if writers are allowed to use this board to talk about and attempt to develop their own writing.

i don't know why i'm always trying to avoid doing work WHAT THE FUCK

I'm going to spend the foreseeable future reading up on Fascist literature and literature pertaining to Wagnerian opera.

I have decided to read what is closest to my heart, despite how politically incorrect it may be.

#sent of my apple mac book, sipping on a starbucks vanilla latté with the girls [will upload pics to tumblr and FB]

i want to like fascism, just like i wanted to believe in communism, but the truth is capitalism is supreme

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if ur going to believe in something made up and larpy so u can feel better how about how fucked up the world is why not just go with christianity, at least then you won't look like a total wacko

i think maybe i should take up watching tv or movies or something, like i try to just work all the time without any shitty entertainment bullshit but then i end up shitposting for as many hours as it would take to watch a movie and a tv show or two so why not do that plus then i can have something to smalltalk with plebs about at work

just tried browsing /g/ to see if any tech nerdy shit there is worth reading, but it's all so plebby, but they don't even realize how plen they are, awful, if u ever think Veeky Forums sucks just try any other board to see some real shit

ok so i tried /r9k/ and i think i'm unironically going to switch to there, just seems like half the threads on Veeky Forums are some some wacko trying to push their pet ideology, why do people think they can come on a literature board and promote their religion or political ideology, get that crap out of here, rather read some werther tier sob stories from nerds and autists than read another crank pushing some mind numbing spooks

Is it weird to have "ohh" in a poem?

My next post I'm going to reply to this very one with "Are you me?"

I'm pretty sure I'm in love with a bad person but it's too late because I'm already in love.

never mind too much viral marketing for snacks

How bad? Usually, those end up in ruin, so I'd be worried or at the very least cautious.

what are some good programming / tech forums like stackoverflow but not with that stifling question/answer format

Ohh, here she comes.

bad to the point where she manipulates and uses people to get what she wants (probably including me) but it's all just part of how smart she is; I know she's done it in her professional life (she's successful as fuck I'm a bum) but these things are part of why I love her. But she's not a psychopath or anything—she definitely feels love and the like.

Well, if you are a bum, then that means she sees something in you. Unless you have billionaire parents or something.

i would get into /3/ but i dont have space on my disk to install zbrush rn, can u install it on a external?

I feel like it belongs more in a song than in a poem. Am I just being stupid?

no billionaire parents. I'm not really a "bum"...just a college kid

Well, don't let it break your heart if it goes south.

I'll try brother, thanks

I am thinking dust resting on a marble cast astray within a void of almost literal black magic.

OK, so, I failed. Please forgive me, anyone? Tell me I'm forgiven! I'm sorry, truly.

I can hear her voice
You can't run forever
She knows I will try

I am a vellum dirigible gliding on God's glimmering generality

Another shot, down the hatch. Another night, in the books.
In the mind - the usual; in the eyes - the usual; in the ears; aural euphoria.
There's more out there, so I'm told. Where is it? I fail to see it.
Another shot, down the hatch.

Are you me?

I'm afraid to express what's on my mind because the girl whom I interacted with earlier and have been developing a crush on is a potential Veeky Forums browser. I know she's familiar with Veeky Forums and has an interest in literature, anyway.

I really have no idea how I'm supposed to live the rest of my life. I'm too ugly to ever have sex or a girlfriend; obviously I'll never have a family ... propagating my genetics would be irresponsible. Soon the few friends I have (two) will be married, have families, be busy, I'll be totally alone and with nothing. I'll never have any happiness in life and be permanently bitter, sorrowful and angry. This will never stop, there is no way it can be any different. How can I live like this? I don't eve want to die ... I'm too much of a coward, the idea of death frightens me deeply. The future stretches out as a terrifying, cold, empty certainty.

I am a crystalline peacock handplanting over infinity

I yearn for physical camaraderie.

Me too bro .. it's a very deep, painful longing. Maybe I should try to fill the void with some kind of drug addiction.

I'm here again. Waiting. Passing time. The day is over. I could do something new tomorrow. I need to go to the grocery. I'm the one by himself at McDonald's sitting close to the fountain machine not using a lid or straw. I do this every day for my one meal. I won't be going to the grocery, that is a common pipedream that usually allows me to sweep some other more difficult mental intrusion beneath a rug and think of something else. It's nice to not think at all and eat a Big Mac and watch stuff appear in the window and then be gone for good. Employees come and go. Customers too. Life is peaceful like that.

how did my brain post here before me

Try ASMR.

I'm starting a blog and I'm thinking I might eventuate to writing a book if my philosophy is good enough and has a good enough basis to warrant a book.

I'd like to start writing it some time soon but I keep getting caught up in my own world building. It's as easy as writing it one scene at a time and stitching it all together. If I can just get one chapter done this month I'll be happier than what I'm doing now; nothing. I'm not sure why I keep scrapping my scenes. Are they not quality? Am I not satisfied with how they fit into the plot? Am I afraid my friend wont like them when I send them to him for critique? I don't fucking know anymore, but every time I finish a scene and read it through a few times all I can think of it is "Well this is fucking trash".

Nothing's going to get done any time soon, that's all I know. I'm lost on how to self-motivate anymore. I can't say I'm depressed or anything but my drive just isn't there. I'm out of fuel and I cant find anything that excites my hunger to create.

any core concepts you can share, of your philosophy?

without giving too much away can you describe anything about the style, genre, feel, ideas of your book?

I agree, but most ASMR sucks so I go with erotic Japanese ASMR so I can envision an anime character.

I'm tired

Oh no, I got fat again

I'm trying to pull off stripping the cyberpunk genre from its 'punk' aspect and sewing in some semblance of noir in place. The cyberpunk setting will set the stage for a archetypal call to adventure that I'm hoping I can focus on psychological and political themes, pictured is what I'm thinking will be the focus of the novel; a monolithic physical representation of hierarchy. A pyramid shaped mega city riddled with corruption and usury. Think Cowboy Bebop meets LoTR and Jack London books in terms of the feeling you'd get from the book.

My thoughts on how to achieve this are scattered and I'm beginning to think I'm out of my depth with something like this.

Don't kill yourself my man. Think of all the cool shit that may happen that you'll miss out on. Take a break, see the world enjoy life.

Hi Not Important

well I'm writing about technology mainly, and the first book would be about technology's influence on man.

some of my edgier stuff is relating to job loss: ie
>technology is a tool.
>man uses tools to do *work*
>technology improves, need less manpower, etc.
>if your job is "replaced" then what sort of work were you really doing?

it's honestly meant to be more encouragement than anything.

I'll also try and dispell some of the self-help bullshit that is out there while I'm at it.

I'm not very Veeky Forums

I am not going to read anything in this thread, and yet i am going to post this post

do not respond to me if you want your post to be responded to

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Yellow yellow

>22 year old male
>look 14
>funny but not funny enough for girls to let me take them out to eat. Shit atleast use me for a free meal
>Have to pay for this semester of community college. Idk how because I'm broke
>Got get up in 44 mins for my lousy retail job which mainly consists of being outside in this excruciating heat
>Want to be a musician but that will probably just be another endless daydream

Yeah...

For the longest time I thought I was weird when it turns out I'm sort of just an asshole. How do you get enthusiastic about somebody new when ultimately all the enthusiasm you have about your own life and the things you love comes with a catch (of self-awareness)? I don't feel like I can take anyone seriously, because I don't really take myself seriously. How do you ever create friendships when you feel that way? Are you supposed to get over feeling that way?

very deep wow wow

>all the enthusiasm you have about your own life and the things you love comes with a catch (of self-awareness)?
what does that even mean? sort yourself out man!

I wouldn't put all my eggs in one basket ;D

especially not this early in life...

sounds real cool, stick with it

>Shit atleast use me for a free meal

Stop this mindset, bud. You are literally thinking of yourself as a meal ticket. That is no way to be. Make yourself happy and content with yourself and your pursuits however you need to and the rest will sort itself out in time.

That means a lot. Thank you.

>you think of a story that you think is at least somewhat interesting
>think is original
>find out that your idea has already been used in some other book you've literally never heard of

Every single time.

yeah I second his notion. definitely see hhow it turns out

maybe even just a few short stories? put them out there and see how they go.,

if you've never heard of it,it's probable that neither have others

It's Isaac Asimov's foundation series. I basically came up with the same plot, and didn't heard about this one until recently.

Hahaha what the fuck Anonymous? Are you euphoric? Are you literally a fedora-wearing redditor autist? What amazing deep thoughts have you had that really set you apart from humanity? I'm sure, whatever they are, that some philosopher beat you to the punch literally a thousand years ago and the only reason you don't know it yet is because you are so poorly read and so poorly educated. Seriously, what the fuck are you even doing here? You're a worthless peasant, a completely fungible member of the proletariat whose thoughts and existence are totally fungible. Not unique in any way, wholly redundant and replaceable.
Goodbye.

You're an overly wordy artsy faggot bitch. Just get to the fucking point and actually say something. Jesus.

I really wish someone were willing to die violently to advance leftist causes, but I know that either:
1. You're a worthless red pilled frog poster, meaning you are a coward and death is too good for you.
2. You really are a leftist, in which case you really just need proper mental healthcare, which isn't that exciting, but it will bring you back down to earth and help you live out your days in some kind of positive way.

Motherfucker, just try a different therapist ffs. It's not like you're locked in to just one therapist.
(And if you are, for insurance reasons somehow, please at least kill some some health insurance execs when you kill yourself. You'll be an American hero!

Oh I get it! The cherry pie means VAGINA. Wow you're so clever Anonymous!!! Where can I buy 100 copies of your book? You are published right??? Someone with your amazing literary prowess must surely have a publishing deal right?????

Get the fuck out.

Don't lie, Anonymous.

I don't get it either, Anonymous. Life is hell.

I hope you die soon you fucking Nazi.

Ewwwwww. Get fucked, you spineless, soulless bootlicker.

At least he's not licking circumcised kike dick like you.

National Socialism>Fascism

Fascism and communism are sucking the kike dick moreso than capitalism? Are you fucking serious Anonymous? Are you just trolling? Are you drunk? Get the fuck out.

>falling for the goverment jew

t. nicolas maduro

desu i am on nofap so i am mostly thinking about fucc, licc and succ

i can almost see a giant ass descending upon me

>i can almost see a giant ass descending upon me

Truly a beatific vision.

yes, I will fall into a abstinence induced trance in which I plummet into the depths of that juicy ass and arise enlightened like shamans of old, having the knowledge of the very bottom of my soul, with the pun intended

I'm hungover. So it's going to be an unproductive day.

Lost my virginity yesterday.
Why do people make such a big fuss about it?
I mean it was fun and all but I'm still the same person.
I've read books that had a bigger impact on my life.

he stands over the rubble of a ruined pedestal and looks to the rising sun born anew

just don't repair said pedestal like a dumbfuck

Try gay secks next time, and be the bottom.

Well said, user.
I feel pretty stupid for having cared so much.
No, thanks.

>No, thanks.
Are you a faggot?

Lmao I bet that faggot kisses girls.

Funnily enough, the same night some random Arab asked to suck my dick in bar.
The amount of closet fags in that culture must be through the roof.