Write what’s on your mind

Holy shit, are you me? If I fail my studies, or if I finish and decide that I despise being a lawyer, I'm going to move to France and join the French Foreign Legion for five years. I'll put aside the money and vagabond/hike across the world, working odd jobs and reading/writing in my free time.

>it could be worse
I do try to remember how lucky I am compared to some, it just feels like there's always something missing, like I don't feel feelings that should be there, like you said before, "hollow"

I hope I'm on Veeky Forums the day Jordan Peterson's cult collapses in on itself. I hope I'm around to see the implosion.

I HAVE NO FUCKING CLUE WHAT I AM DOING WITH MY LIFE JESUS FUCKING CHRIST I'M ALMOST 30 AND FLOATING IN A BOAT WITH NO RUDDER OR OARS.

I am terrified of wandering with no unifying theme in my life. Just a series of stories and bit parts by poorly acted characters that no one can identify with. A life of excess is no fun. A life of chastity isn't either. I want everything and yet nothing all within a day. Life milestones are increasingly unattractive. I don't have any interest in marriage or children. I want to do something meaningful but there are so many barriers in the way. I want a journey with a purpose. Everyone pulls me in different directions its mind-numbing. I have no clue who I am yet. I have a list of things I want to achieve but my time is so short and to pull it off I need to have a sizeable amount of cash. All this incessant moaning and bitching is obnoxious. I don't to be like this. I want to be sure, confident and interesting.

the roar of central heating
collapses onto my body,
supine, laid out like a rag-doll
on untucked sheets

it's warm, but just a little bit too warm
to be comfortable

my eyelids beg for sleep, but
i ask them for just a little more
straining against a screen,
flashes of blue white, a last
glittering pixel, til finally sleep,
rest, will do me part

I have experienced something similar. What's some of the music you've been listening to? Also, you should see a psychiatrist if you haven't already.

I think you should do it. Going for a long time without doing things you can take pride in can take a real toll on your health. I imagine once you start acting again it will be easier to get the rest of your life on track and progress towards acquiring other skills.

Do people here actually like him or are they just memeing?

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I read somewhere he's the "dumb man's smart man," that seemed to sum it up really well.

>It's nice to find someone else out there, though I doubt meaning is what we really need. The truth is that this is a biological problem, and no amount of abstract thought will make us glad to wake up in the morning.

Wow, I feel like I've already known what you just said but was always afraid to admit it to myself. Well said. I've given up on finding meaning in material and social achievements because none of my successes give me actual meaning. I can only escape with drugs. Sometimes I think abusing substances like weed, alcohol, and benzos isn't such a bad idea even if it cuts my lifespan by several years.