Feels bad man

>2 years before finishing masters
So at your bachelor's graduation then

I was dating this super nice chubby girl, had a couple of boyfriends she wasn't that attractive, worst thing she did during sex was having a guy cum on her face....

I meet another girl while dating her hot great ass, does deadlits, goes to the gym... so I started treating the first girl like shit going nc, not going out that much, then I found out the second girl was a total whore anal, threesomes with another , never had a bf... I was going to keep the first girl, but today she sent me a text saying I wasn't trying and it wasn't working for her( i just replied Fair enough to act like man, she texted me she was waiting for more than 2 words).. I FEEL LIKE SHIT and have cried a little today.

>Not knowing that the hotter a girl is, the bigger a slut she is
O I am laffin

Next time, just hump and dump

My biceps have very big stretch marks on them
makes me sad

>getting into a relationship in 2017

Top Kek

just forget her and move onto the gym slut

We've all been there friend

>year and a half ago
>be me, skelly looking 5'11" kh virgin in ""prestigious""" french uni equivalent, doing really great, best student, comfy scholarship, basically never attended though (just like in muh anime!!)
>super qt autistic-ish Veeky Forums girl out of the blue starts talking to me, giving me drawings and little notes, basically acting like she's obsessed with me
>think she's joking at first
>yada yada yada we get together
>great relationship, she keeps telling me how she loves me, how she wants to stay with me forever etc
>life is perfect
>one day get back from week of vacation, as I enter the building I see her dumb fat ugly tumblrina (who for some reason hates me) friend leave with a shit eating grin on her hamplanet face
>gf is acting so fucking weird, starts giving me all the buzzword relationship stuff about how I don't respect/appreciate her and how I'm not invested enough in my own life (had gotten expelled from school because of the not attending thing)
>literally don't recognise that bitch, wonder how hambeast could've brainwashed my sweet loving gf in such a short time
>I tried changing her mind but she kept spouting her bullshit so eventually we break up
>don't know to this day what fat girl told her, pretty sure she convinced her I was cheating or something
>we break up, still fucked her a few times after though cause she loved my fat dick nbd aha
nevertheless
>get depressed, never attend second rate uni I enrolled in, get first semester though (math)
>start lifting which is literally all I have right now, no friends, no gf, no nothing. just eric vids and the will to add pounds to the bar.
>about to fail second semester, lose scolarship and have to pay some of it back
>don't even know what I'd like to study
>apparently student jobs are impossible to find
>mfw 20yo already
>life was perfect, could've done anything because gifted/high IQ
>youth and life are wasted
>no friends
>depressed & nogf
>all because of that fat cunt

>I have warts too
I was gonna say my situation was similar and give you a little pep talk but Jesus Fucking Christ that is one of my greatest fears.

I think you have an external focus of loci

TL;DR
>I thought I had something going on with a girl.
>Turns out she had a boyfriend

Unsure if I shall be mad at her for leading me on, or just ignore it. I've read up on stoicism in the last months. No expert on it, but if I look on it through a stoic's eyes I should have prepared myself better for it. People suck (pic related), and I put her too much on a pedestal and got disappointed by her actions.

I kinda feel used by her because I guess she enjoyed my attention. Another part of me feels she had some genuine feelings for me.

The stoic in me wants to move on and take this as experience. I can't really be mad, because I did my best to court her, but it didn't happen, and that's out of my power.
The child in me wants to feel like shit and fucking hate that fucking dumb, vapid whore for being a fucking piece of shit cunt

fuck.