I want to train my masculinity

you seem like a big guy

Islam is so hyper masculine that it has all of the negatives of masculinity without many of the positives.

definitely not, probably give yourself a stroke.

wait at least 10-15 minutes after your workout to give yourself enough time for your body to calm down before throwing yourself under icy cold water.

I use this time to casually rehydrate and clean my workout area

I lift. I eat right and I take cold showers. Those aren't what makes me disciplined, those are consequences.

If what you get from reading Meditations is that he sleeps on the ground, then you have already lost. Read it once more but look to the message of providence. I know it's a Hitler word, but remove it from the one man and see what providence is. There is a good in all men.

Meditations is not about the 'punishments' he puts himself through. It is about the mindframe he has. Read Epictetus, Discourses. It is not the man, the soul, or the status. It is his actions. A man worries only about what is his control. Recognize when you're feeling any emotion and say "do I control what causes my problems". If yes, then change it. If no, then stop worrying.

To develop this habit you must make an effort to recognize emotions first. They govern us at almost all times, so you should nearly always have something to observe. When you say that you aren't feeling anything right now, then you know you're wrong and this is something to overcome.

After you recognize them, analyze them. Do not judge your emotions. They aren't yet in your control, so you do not worry about them. You try to change it to see how much control you have. From there, you can develop discipline.

I will reiterate. Stop at least once a day and say "what am I feeling". After a week say "why do I feel it". Then ask "do I control the cause".

A good way to start is to have a habit that you do every day. You sit down and read a chapter. It's short and provocative. You then think, how do I feel now. Grow that thought to govern you throughout your day.

You will likely never gain full control. We are humans. That isn't in your control. Do not worry about it.

The cold shower is simply so you can say "why am I adverse to this shower" "how does it make me feel" "do I control the feelings that lead me to not want to take it". Then you get in, shower, and learn you do control it.

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Cold showers are mostly a meme and broscience. I still do them though every morning since they help me to wake up my mind and help me train my power of will. I feel good and refreshed after cold showers.

I've been told I'm quite manly at times. It's never been a goal I think I just admire manly people and it's come off in my personality.

I don't take cold showers, mainly because I like warm ones and I don't limit myself to the nice things in life because a Cantonese cat trading forum suggested it's good for gains.

I know there's studies in it being good and whatnot but you know what else is good for gains? Nailing down on your diet, routine and rest programs. So I do that.
Anyway.

I'm 6'1 and 227lb at the moment. Balding slowly. I fix machines for a living. I like cars, building shit, renovating houses and I love learning. I love physical work and the office life bores the shit out of me. I'm a big fan of fishing and all the outdoor types of sports.

I don't follow any team sport at all, it's just not my thing.
I read a fair bit and I listen to heaps of people like Alan Watts who teach me to just be open minded. I think it's important to really know who you are as a person.
I'm also somewhat traditional. I think gay marriage is 100% ok, but I also think there's only two genders. You're allowed to change them if you so desire but there will only ever be two genders in my eyes and that's it.

I feel like I've gone off topic here but long story short, I'm a big guy (for you), I work with my hands, I love hands-on work and physical sports. Hate offices and sitting down for a job so Ive never done it. I like learning shit and Understanding the world. I've got really soft hands (no idea why) but they're all calloused from deadies and shit. I renovate my house and I'm not really scared of doing a whole lot in my life and as a result many people call me manly.

B-but I like Larry david

>I'm also somewhat traditional. I think gay marriage is 100% ok

Thanks for that

I am only about 60 pages into it

I think I should basically only read a page a day and then sit and think about that page instead of just reading it through which wouldn't take very long at all.